#knottew

Falling for Knott was slow, which is probably why Tew realized he was more or less in love with the senior so late. Because up until now, Tew used to fall for guys like that, boom, and wake up with the biggest crush on the planet. Sure, Knott was handsome, but so were a lot of guys from his faculty, so was Kongpob or Aim.

Tew liked to hang out with Knott. He liked to hang out with him more than he liked to hang out with the rest of the guys, but he wouldn’t tell them. Knott was someone Tew admired, somehow, because you need to have a lot of patience to be in a group with Arthit, Prem, Bright and Toota. He can barely manage his group, which is really mild compared to his P’s. He is smart, he does his best at school and he is nice to people at the hazing activities.

Ever since Knott offered to help him at psychics, they started to become closer. Tew managed to get a good grade in psychics and from then on, they realized how well they work together. Tew kept Knott from checking his phone too much and getting distracted and Knott helped Tew with whatever the younger wouldn’t understand.

He realized that oh, he might have a crush on Knott when the senior had to crash over in his room because it was raining outside. It was really the most inconvenient time to realize you have a crush on your friend, while looking at his sleeping face that was too close to yours because of course it’s enough space for the both of us, P’, you don’t need to sleep on the floor, you can use the blanket as a pillow.

It definitely wasn’t enough space for two men to sleep, not when Knott was almost twice his size, but sleeping so close to the senior and just admiring his sleeping face Tew realized that oh, I might have a crush on him. His face was hot and he was thankful Knott wasn’t awake to see him blushing so hard.

The next morning was even worse, because Tew barely managed to fall asleep at an honorable hour, so he didn’t get enough sleep. Maybe a few more hours -minutes, even- of sleep could have helped him with the sight of Knott shirtless in his room. Was he still dreaming?

“I took a shower, I hope it’s alright.” His senior said softly.

He could only nod, trying to keep his eyes everywhere but on Knott’s abs, because he had them, and they were actually very defined, and Tew was a little too gay not to get flustered if he looked at them for more that one second.

Luckily, the older man put his shirt on a few moments later, before looking at his phone.

“I’ll go buy some food, what do you prefer?”

“Just… whatever with eggs.”

Knott looked at him amused, but said nothing. He only took his wallet and left Tew in bed, a little too hot.

 “So I think I have the most inconvenient crush on Earth.” He said into the phone to his sister, as soon as she took the call.

“Hello to you too, beloved brother. I’m fine, thanks for asking, Elle is fine too.”

Tew had to sigh, his sister was always dramatic.

“I’m having a crisis here, and I know how you’re doing since you sent me the pics of you eating lobster like, half an hour ago.”

“And it was the best lobster tail I have ever eaten.”, his sister had to stress. “Whatever, tell me about this crush. Why is it inconvenient?”

He sighed again, looking at the copy of Ender’s Game Knott gave him yesterday. He already read half of it.

“He’s my senior, one of the ones that used to haze us.”

“Which one of them? The tall one with light skin?”

He forgot he showed his sister photos from the beach trip they did.

“Ew, no, it’s not P’Bright!” He shivered at the thought. Bright was handsome, but just the thought of falling in love with a person that extroverted and energetic made crawl. “It’s P’Knott, the well-built one with tanned skin.” And beautiful eyes, and the most calming voice Tew ever heard, and the most beautiful laugh to exists-

“Well, at least you have good taste, he looks very good. What’s the problem, then?”

Tew felt like hitting his head against the wall. There were so many problems, he didn’t even know where to start.

“We’re friends. I don’t want to say good friends, but we’re pretty close. And he’s also my senior. And I don’t even know if he likes guys.”

“Well, the fact that he’s your senior shouldn’t be a problem. Didn’t you say there’s already a couple like that, with your friend and that senior? And even there might be another one? So that’s not a problem.”

“Yeah, but Kongpob and Arthit are different. And Wad and Prem are just… to be honest, I don’t know what they are, but they just make sense, I guess. Me and P’? We’re not. He’s nice to me, but that’s all.”

He hears his sister sighing, that disappointed sigh she took from their mom.

“Listen here, you silly boy. You don’t know. If this senior of yours is as nice as you say, and I’m sure he is, then he will be ok with you at least confessing to him. You know you’re never going to get over this if you shut up, because you had that crush over our neighbors’ nephew for 3 years in middle school, until he came over with a fiancé and you cried for 2 days.” Tew wanted to cringe at the memory, he preferred not to be reminded of that, but what is his sister living for in not to remind him of all the stupid things he did in the past? “So,” she stressed the word, “tell him what you feel. Who knows, you might be the third couple in that damned group. It’s going to be hilarious.”

“Thank you for laughing at my expense, I really appreciate it.” He remarked sarcastically.

“It’s everything I can do as your big sis, it’s my pleasure.”

His sister can be a pain in the neck sometimes, but at least she’s honest. Tew doesn’t think he’ll be able to confess, though.

 Which makes the fact that Knott confessed first a great thing.

“I’ve been meaning to tell you something, but I don’t want to make things weird.”

Tew looked at his senior, they were studying in Knott’s dorm, Tew actually asked him for help with physics yet again.

“What’s it, P’?” he asked, trying to sound as calm as he could, ignoring the sudden warmth he felt in his whole body.

“I… I think I might have feelings for you. I don’t really know when they started and I thought that it was just because you’re really nice to hang out with, but they don’t seem to get away.”

Oh, this is going where Tew thinks it’s going. The room is suddenly very, very warm.

“I… I think I might like you too, actually.”

In fact, he’s sure about it, but he doesn’t want to scare Knott away.

Wad looked down, back to his own table mates, quickly. He knew he was already flushed because of the alcohol but he felt even warmer; his ears even pricked with warmth.

He risked another glance upward, but there he was, still staring at him. He was smiling. Wad felt himself smiling too.

Prem had a certain charm that always threw Wad for a loop. They had talked about the past and apologized for what had happened but they never discussed the things that they were feeling at the current moment. Wad knew what he was feeling but he couldn’t know for certain what Prem felt.

Until Prem was standing all of a sudden. And he was making his way right to Wad. He stopped right next to him, offering his hand.

“Dance with me.”

“What?”

“The music is good. I can see you tapping your feet. So come and dance with me.”

Wad just stared at the hand in front of him for a moment. He could feel the eyes of his suddenly quiet friends focused on him. But he was feeling good. He was feeling happy.

So he placed his hand in Prem’s and let him lead him to the dance floor.

Prem’s hands found their place on his lower back. Prem initiated the intimate position so Wad let his arms snake around Prem’s neck. Prem led and Wad followed. They were both immune to the whooping and jeers from their drunk friends from the tables.

The song ended but the band somehow knew to let it fade into the next tune, slower than the first. Prem pulled him in closer as he slowed their movements to the pace of the music.

“P'Prem…” he started, not quite knowing where he was going with it.

“We can talk about it now or we can dance. I’m a little drunk so, I think, for now, we should just dance.” Was all he said in response. Wad knew it was probably for the best; he was extremely drunk himself. He let his head fall forward, against Prem’s cheek. And they danced.

They seemed to have started a trend. More and more couples had made their way to the center of the bar, in front of the stage, to slow dance to the music.

“Please Arthit. We’re dating now, and I really would like to dance with you.”

“I don’t dance Kongpob,” Wad heard Arthit argue, but everyone knew it was already a done deal. As much as Arthit likes to put up a fuss, Kongpob was going to get what he wanted. And they found their place on the dance floor right near Prem and him.

“Well everyone else is dancing! Damn Tuta, come on!”

“Bright, are you kidding me?”

“No, now come on!” And then those two were on the floor as well, a bunch of flailing limbs and high kicks.

Wad peeked around, still cozy in Prem’s arms. He caught a glimpse of M making a break for the bathroom and Oak followed his friend close behind. He watched as Tew made eye contact with Knot across the two tables. He smiled to himself as he watched those two stand at the same time and make their way towards each other.

He nestled comfortably into Prem as they continued to move to the rhythm. He felt Prem pressed his lips against his forehead, lingering there for a quite a few beats.

And Wad just smiled and closed his eyes.

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