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- just gilho running to you when he needs you most

it was early in the morning when you heard a loud knock on your door, a little bit confused you rubbed your eyes, trying to snap out of it when you heard another.

“who the hell…” you check the time on your phone and obviously it was too early for all this, before you could even put your phone down, you would hear another, irritated at the sound you got up.

“yeah its pretty fucking early! who is it?” you stood infront of the door, trying your best to see if you could tell who it was from the side window but to no avail. the light didnt help at all either, you saw nothing but darkness.

the loud knocking would only continue and it only pissed you off. since it was in the middle of the night you didnt forget to grab something to defend yourself. unaware of who it could be, you didnt wanna spare any chances just like anyone else should.

prepared for anything, you swung the door open, hand tightening around the blade as your met with a sight you’d never wanted to see again, a sight for sore eyes.

and he was just about to knock again, wincing as you opened it up, looking up at him with wide eyes, he didn’t know what to say, but he wasn’t surprised when you took him in again, nearly cursing him as you try your best to take off his coat but he would only grunt in pain.

“why do you always show up like this!?”

you argued, although he was quiet, he knew what would happen when he found himself in your arms again. you were basically giving him hell, and he wouldn’t hear the end of it.

oh how he missed it.

“you’re gonna get yourself killed one of these days minseok, look at all this.” gil-ho didn’t have to see it. he felt it everywhere, a feeling he became familiar with, a devastating one.

he couldnt say anything about it though, you had no idea what he had to go through to come back to you, he wanted to be back for good.

“don’t call me that..” was all he could say, you could hear the pain in his voice, if only you felt sorry for him. “that’s not my fucking name..”

“well im not calling you anything else, you always do this, only show up when you need me to help.” you said, lip almost trembling as you look at him.

“if you have a problem with it then why do you keep letting me in?..” even if it was a question, he already knew why, and he could only feel the same, he just wished you’d feel the same way about everything.

you would help him over to the couch, trying the best you could, it was almost a routine, one you wish you didnt have to get used to.

you sat him down slowly, letting him ease onto the cushions, he would only groan as you help him take off the heavy coat, thats when you saw it all, and it was worse than you could ever imagine.

“god minseok what are you getting yourself into!” you shieked, despair filling you as you take in all the gashes on his skin, whoever did this wouldnt see the light of day if you ever met them.

“you need a hospital, look at you, what the hell are you getting yourself into these days!!”

you wouldve lost your mind if you didnt remind yourself that the love of your life is bleeding out infront of you, you didnt waste anytime, collecting everything that he so desperately needed.

“whatever this was for i hope it was fucking worth it!”

and if only he could tell you it was, he went through hell and back just for peace, but he couldnt find any words to say to you, only listening to you babble, watching with half lidded eyes as you instantly work to patch him back together again. from the looks of everything, only lord knows how long that is gonna take.

after everything, this hurt him worse. confrontation from you was endless and he already knew he was playing with fire, he felt like sometimes, things just dont go the way he intended.

he never wanted all this, but going through hell and losing everything to end the shit he had to deal with, seemed worth it to him.

he was barely awake now, breathing slowly as he finally rests against your comforter, he was finally at peace, even if it meant almost sacrificing himself for…

“minseok!” was the last thing he heard before going under, feeling nothing as everything turned black around him, the last thing he saw was your pretty face as his eyes fluttered shut

gil-ho was surprised when he saw the cigarette between your lips, his eyebrows raising in confusion as he watches you blow out the smoke.

“now whats this?” he muttered to himself, his eyes on you as he makes his way over. you didn’t notice him until he was right in front of you, which had startled you a bit.

“get that shit out of your mouth.” gil-ho said while snatching the cigarette out of your mouth, looking down at you as if you were crazy. if only he could see himself. “jesus you scared me, you didn’t call out to me or anything!”

as surprised as you were, all you could do was scoff, watching as he placed the cigarette between his lips. you watched as he puffed on it, taking in the expression on his face as he blows it out, a small smirk tugging the corner of his lips.

“whats the point of this hm? i can’t smoke, but you can? come on..” you said with a tone of annoyance, unable to do nothing about it and watching as he playfully rolls his eyes.

“it’s not that you can’t.” he sighs out, letting the smoke flow out of his lungs as he does so. you would cross your arms as you watched him discard it, making sure to stomp out the flame before turning back to you. “then what? it’s just a cigarette, i don’t get what the big deal is?” you said while looking up at him, clearly upset.

he couldn’t stand you looking at him like that, especially when he loves you the most. he would do anything to protect you, even if it meant smoking your cigarettes, saving you in the future

he pulls you closer before you could say another word, wrapping his arms around your waist as he gives you an unexpected kiss.

after a few seconds you would both pull away with a soft pop of each others lips, a faint blush fallen on both of your faces as you both stare at each other.

“that’s so unfair, you can’t just do that everytime i’m upset.” you tried to argue but this would only make him laugh, which only made you feel more flustered.

“why not? you seemed to enjoy it.” you would only roll your eyes at his response, hitting his arm playfully. “okay fine.. the truth is that you really don’t need them.” you looked at him sideways as if he was crazy for making that statement, especially since he smoked almost the entire thing in front of you.

“don’t give me that face, i know what’s on your mind.” he said while leaning down in front of you. a small distance away from your lips as he stares down into your eyes, nearly getting a glimpse into your soul. it was beautiful and pure to him, he would do anything to preserve it.

“you don’t need this toxicity inside your lungs, if you need that,.. just look at the world around you and come back to me.” and with that, something about the way he said it, stuck to you like glue.

although it was a bit corny, you thought about it for a bit. a loud silence fallen between the two of you, he really just cared about you, and it made your heart swell for him even more.

you didn’t waste any more time before pulling him into a kiss, this one more heated than earlier.

the amount of things you would do for this man was highly concerning… And he would absolutely do the same for you.

“so you’re not mad anymore?” he would ask once you pulled away from him, giving him a soft smile.

“no, and i don’t think i need these, i was just curious to try it but i don’t think i’ll really need them… since i have you.” you would say while looking up at him, the look in your eyes is something he always adored, he never wanted it to end.