đŁhere is a general atmosphere of adoration, filling every corner of the court, surrounding the young and timid Isolde in an airy embrace. It ought to, by nature, make the girl feel a little relieved â as it is, no bad man is adored in such a sincere way; logic works overtime to prevail, but with little success. A worrisome mind twists and distorts the situation, an echo making rounds in her mind:   A GOOD MAN IS A GOOD MAN BY WHAT STANDARD?  Her father is a good man, and yet she stands here like a pawn for use by a kingdom. Her future husband is said to be a good man, and yet what horror would await should she ask him, however kindly, to let her marry the man she loves? A good man is a good man by an unknown authority, one which certainly does not align with her aim.
      And even if he should be good, in an honest sense, a real sense, the notion of good men and saints alike have always made Isoldeâs stomach turn to moths. A grandiose man to meet, much larger than herself, well-adored and loved . . .  sheâd be a fish out of water, dropped on the edge of a great big pond, wiggling against the pebbles and scraping itself helplessly. She could only imagine, at this moment, making a fool of herself at best, and letting heartache get the best of her at worst. Would it be a scandal, she wondered, to allow herself a few cautious tears? Would it be taken as an affront, some egregious insult of a man, a king, she knew so little, personally, of? Only that he is a good man, Isolde. Stand with your shoulders straight and chin high, a leanbh.
      Rationalize as she might, only cold envelops her, and she feels the strangest, most foreign discomfort, and a dryness in her throat ââ a longing to be back home, if not with the man she loved. Her thoughts consume her so completely that she finds herself a beat late in standing for the arrival of King Arthur; a face obscured by a scattering of taller members of the crowd who had stood on the other side of the table, all of which slowly and haphazardly begin to disperse, allowing Isolde a chance to see. The avoidance of her gaze, of course, is still immediate. Even unobscured, she finds herself terrified to finally meet the eyes of  đśđđđ đŹđđđđđ.  Instantly, nervously, she dips into a delicate, honorable bow, nearly in unison with the rest of the court. Itâs then that she finally allows herself to glance towards him, a doe-eyed expression worn as a silly, haunting thing ââ with it, in time, a smile.