#kinmail

118o8,

mom, i miss you so much. i doubt you’ll ever see this, but honest-to-spawn, your son is out here and he misses you. i’m sorry for any pain i caused you. thank you for giving up your life and what you knew for me. why you did it? I don’t know. I doubt i’ll ever know. but thank you. thank you so much.

thank you for making me pancakes in the morning. thank you for looking out for me. thank you for fr3shgui, (though it’d probably been better if i’d never received it :P) thank you for comforting me, thank you for the cuddles (in a familial way duh), thank you for the LED’s, and everything else. I will never be able to understand what you’ve done, but I will always appreciate it. appreciate you.

-bluudud anon

Absolutetly NOTHING has changed since the atelier I fear, Professor Qifrey, which will be incredibly funny once Ive sorted everything out im sure. I've got a super big project I have to work on but everytime i try to START IT i feel HORRIBLE and TIRED like ive finished it and I havent even TRIED YET. And it's not new or anything !! It's half finished !! I just cant get myself to finish it !! and this is my final major project of the YEAR

i keep distracting myself by helping or doing stuff for other people, which I dont tire of like ever, but I swear im gonna be in deep shit if I dont lock in soon 💔💔💔💔 Anyone who said art is made with love is a LIAR i hate every second of this god forsaken project OHHHMYYLORDD

Ill pass for sure, but I dont wanna take any chances or submit latee hhhhhhhh

- Coco, Witch Hat Atelier (🌨⚔️)

So.

To my son,

You were one of the best things that ever happened to me. If you felt the same way, I can't say for certain. But please never think you weren't special to me. That you aren't still special to me, because if you weren't, I wouldn't still be thinking about you for the many years that I've regained memory of you.

I guess I never made it unclear, with how fiercely I protected you. It was a dangerous world we lived in, but you came back home safe day after day. Even so I forever rued the day you might not return. That doesn't mean I should've pushed my insecurities (nor my obsession with punctuality... /a bit silly) on you. So for that, I'm sorry.

Even more, I'm sorry for lying to you. For hiding everything from you. It would've hurt you for you to know, but you deserved to. You deserved to know the truth. About me, about you, about everything that happened.

I'm sorry for letting everything that happened happen to you. There was more I could've done, I'll never be satisfied with how I raised you.

But you, you're a different story. I loved you for you and I still do. Even despite my mistakes, my failures, you stayed. You tried. You worked hard. And amongst all that, you also smiled. That's a sight I can say with my whole heart that I miss. I'd give anything just to see that silly vibrant grin of yours again.

If you ever see this, thank you for being here. Please keep prevailing, even if the universe seems like it's against you forever. This world is dark, it needs a hero like you.