Ā [ He distinctly remembered the very first time you changed his whole world, along with the words that made him almost instantly infatuated on you. "That sounds illegal. I'm in." your sultry voice rippled through his whole skin, filling his chest with a sensation he had never felt before in his short life- complete.Ā ]
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@lycanhaejin requested:Ā 4, 7, 27. ((Few of my fave numbers but shhh)) Could you do vhope? Iāve been deprived of my otp. And I am sorta in need of angst and fluff. Love you.
a/n: fam, hope youāre ready~ I may have accidentally taken the fluff and only did angst, but ya know meā¦. thanks for requesting~
prompts: āYou forgot meā | āThis is all your faultā | āItās OK, you donāt have to love me"
Ā Drenched and forlorn Taehyung stood under the heavy rain. Water run down the long strands of his hair, pouring constantly as a flowing river and gluing to either side of his face. His clothes, all soaked, felt heavy on his body, but Taehyung was no alien to the sensation of heaviness. It was hard to tell by looking at him under the rain, but he was crying- yet again. He felt alone, and he was.
Around him the people walking by eluded him on their individual ways, which it was no more than ordinary actions taking he didnāt really know all those strangers on the street. But today, they all had an effect on him, today they made him realize he was truly alone.
On his right hand, he held his phone. The water of his clothes sliding over it and dripping down until the drops touched the floor. On the screen, a single text showed up.
Hoseok
- Iāll be out with friends. ttyl
The pain always came in form of tears, it came in waves of sobs stifled at first in an attempt to hide his grief then apart by short pauses for recovering breaths. The muscles of his chin trembled, his face looking down at his feet as if he could somehow make them start to walk just by looking at them.
But even if they started walking, where would he go? Home? No⦠there was no actual place he could call home anymore- not since a long time.
Taehyung tried hard to turn a blind eye to the situation, but the fake facade could not hold up any longer. He knew that the moment he stepped again inside the apartment- inside the apartment he shared with his boyfriend- would be the last.
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Hoseok opened the door and walked inside. It has taken him, easily, five failed attempts to insert the key inside his door before he could successfully turn it to get inside, his hand unsteady after taking too many shots while going out with his work colleagues. Stumbling down the hall after closing the door behind him he began removing items of his clothes and dropping them carelessly on the floor. His head was pounding and his stomach felt like 300 buff guys had just taken their sweet time punching it, so he concluded on heading to the bathroom to grab some pills and then flop in bed until the next day- but the night was far from done.
In the living-room just before he reached for the bathroom Hoseok was met with a bloodshot-eyed Taehyung sitting on the couch.
āWhy are you still up?ā Hoseok asked his boyfriend, finding strange he was awake this late at night. āYour eyes look swollen. If youāre tired you should go to bedā¦It wasnāt necessary you waited for me.ā
Something about his word triggered a hidden emotion inside of Taehyung which provoked a long and cracked wail to come out from his mouth-and so the tears began to flood his eyes again.
Hoseok stood there in the hallway, looking at his crying partner, not sure on the reason why.
āWhy are you crying?ā He unknowingly asked.
Taehyung sniffed and bite on his upper lip, looking away from Hoseok, not baring the thought of his obliviousness. ā You forgot about me.ā He whispered, a knot forming in his throat.
āCome again?ā Hoseok, who was still intoxicated, leaned to support his weight on the frame of the living room door to hear Taehyung better.
āYou forgot about me!ā he spat at his boyfriend. āHoseok you forgot about us.ā
He closed his eyes āI what? Iā I donāt get what you meanā¦ā Hoseok scratched the back of his head.
āFuck, you donāt even remember it, do you?ā Taehyung growled, getting up and walking to the window to look outside. āThis is so like you latelyā¦ā he huffed.
The harshness of his words began to wake up the mind-numbing state Hoseok was in due to the alcohol. āThe fuck youāre talking about, Tae?ā
Taehyung hands closed to a fist, all the impotence he felt concentrated on it. āIām talking aboutā¦you forgot today was our two years anniversary, you ass.ā
Hoseok fixed his gaze on his visibly disturbed boyfriend, his head hastily looking for the memory of the date he and Tae started dating, the date of their first kiss. But he couldnāt remember at the moment. āI need a minuteā¦ā he requested, knowing a cold splash of water would bring him back to full consciousness.
Hoseok was leaving for the bathroom and Taehyung followed thinking he was avoiding the subject again, the desperate need to confront his boyfriend about his hidden suffering and put an end to it pushing him forward. āYou donāt need a minute, You need to explain yourself to me. Tell me the truth for fuckās sakeā
Hoseok grabbed his head and turned on the faucet while listening to Taehyung demands. āWhat truth are you talking about? Be clear!ā he raised his voice to him.
āHavenāt you noticed, Hoseok?ā Taehyung queried, entering the bathroom.
āNoticed what? Jesus fucking Christ you are always so dramaticā¦ā Cupping water between his hands to throw it to his face he didnāt notice how Taehyung was falling apart right behind him.
āThese, asshole!ā he grunted, grabbing his boyfriend by the shoulder and turning him so they both were facing each other. āDo you see them now, huh? The tears in my eyes?ā he shouted, pointing to his eyes.
Hoseok was shocked to see Taehyungās face so up-close. His eyes were dripping tears, he never saw him like this before, his beautiful brown eyes filled with so much grief the redness of the small veins looked about to burst. He was a complete douche, and he was sorry.
āThis is all your fault!ā Taehyung cried, shaking his boyfriendās shoulder while small sobs escaped his lips. āI canāt take it anymore Hoseokā¦I can'tā Iāve tried so hard to love you despite all the times you hurt me, but I canāt, not anymore.ā
Hoseok wanted to reach out to those tears, he wanted to wash them off, to apologize for all he had hurt him and hug him, he wanted to let Taehyung knew how much he loved him, how happy he was to see his beautiful smile every day. But Hoseok also thought how those smiles probably hid something behind them, like unhappiness, pain and only God knows what other miseries his voice left unspoke. Because Hoseok was unhappy with himself he was selfish and left the love of his life aside making him feel unwanted.
āItās OKā¦ā Hoseok said out loud, hanging onto the fabric of his pants with his hands to refrain from reaching for Tae. He made out his mind. Tae deserved to be happy- and he couldnāt make that happen.
āWhatās OK?ā He asked naively, licking the tears which had run down to stain his lips.
āItās OK, you donāt have to love meā Hoseok added, holding back his own tears. āI donāt need your love. I need you to leaveā¦ā
Taehyung face twisted, looking at him as if what he just said was a lie like he hadnāt really said those words to him. He felt hollow, his life was crumbling but there was nothing he could do because Taehyung believed him, he believed his words. So he ran.
Hoseok didnāt follow him, he didnāt try to take his words back because he needed to be strong. Strong for him. Because he truly loved him, but he didnāt deserve to be loved by someone like him.
And so he saw the back of Taehyung until he disappears away from his sight, Hoseok closed the door of the bathroom- and broke down.
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