#kindadriftingintotheabstract

Maybe I just regret not being as sociable as I could be—not that I ever have been extensively.  That’s probably my only really big drawback. 

I’m pretty modest and humble on grounds of more than just being an artist, I don’t like to gloat, I take the time to encourage and nurture my friends and can be a busy body when it comes to keeping up with things that need to be done but I’m just not a socialite.  

I’d rather spend a night alone roleplaying in skype with friends and a cup of coffee over going out and partying or something akin to that.  I dislike chaos and being mentally overstimulated too.  People are taxing to me, most of the time.  As introverted as I am I get mentally drained really very quickly and so its a constant struggle of feeling like I’m being sociable enough.  Its probably one of the things that stresses me out the most.

I also don’t like to bother people so I don’t always go to people because I feel like I might be disturbing them but I always try to tell them this and that they’re more than welcome to start a conversation with me.  I’m always up for a good chat.  

Maybe I regret any times that I’ve ever been cold and callous to others.  Usually its because they need the kick in the ass though.  Other times its because I’ve mentally put up a wall to keep them safe from me.  When I get in really bad states I get very volatile and try to avoid people or I become short with them so that I can excuse myself as quickly as possible.