#kinda!!!!!

man oh man sometimes i wish i had enough bravery and panache and all to be one of those kinds of people who can just make a move...make out with someone......find a Romancé.....

OH scorpi and i watched the evangelion movie today too and i think i actually like......died inside............ its so heartbreaking and existential and it made me think abt like death and depression and who i am and how there r like.......different versions of me......in relation to how my friends and family and whoever else think of me...and in the moment i was like "holy shit what the fuck my brain hurts" but now im like?? "aight cool" like !!!!!!!!! somebody made that!!!! somebody was in such a horrible and sad place in their lives and came up with that and its just....forever a thing..i can watch it a billion times and the outcome will never change and these characters are destined to just repeat this sad and cold life and...............ofughfh now..i thinkin about it again.......