the W's
                  Why
      can’t you just leave me alone
            it’s been so long
    with barely ten words passing between us
               and yet
         whenever I see your face
            hear your voice
            think about you
          my heart gets all fluttery
     I feel my stomach release the butterflies
   and all I want to do is hide my blushing face
                so that
            you’ll never know
           never even suspect
         how I have felt all this time
               Who
         do you think you are
         making me fall for you
         with your stupid face
        and perfectly awful smile
   the way you act like you think that you’re
           just so amazing
     because I can tell you right now
             that you are.
                How
     I’ve always been on the outside
        watching and observing
             how everyone
                 acts
                looks
      when they think no one can see
                and yet
     not even all these years of watching
          waiting for you to mess up
            do something wrong
            so I have an excuse
                to hate you
           has made any difference
                   jerk.
                  When
               will I be able to
                  move on
            leave this all behind me
          forget that you ever existed
                to torment me
            with my lack of anything
              resembling beauty
                  grace
                  or style
                I have so little
               and yet somehow
                I always hoped
          that it wouldn’t matter in the end
             but it will always be there
                  until I learn
                   to let go
       of the dreams I have built around you
                  Where
              did this even start
                where was I
            when you came and stole
                 the first love
               I ever had to give
            you never give me anything
                   in return
            aside from passing glances
                and just existing
                  we’ve never
                had a conversation
           lasting more than three minutes
               introduced ourselves
                  to each other
                 you’ve always just
                    been there
                    like the sun
                or the wind in the trees
                   and for some
                 inexplicable reason
                I love you just as much
                  What
              have I ever done
               to deserve this
                  stagnation
                   injustice
                    when
               all I've ever wanted
                     was
               to have somebody
                    anybody
                    love me
                   for being me
                 for the way I laugh
                   the way I talk
                   using my hands
               like paintbrushes in the air
              the way my face squishes up
                     when I smile
                         why
                      can’t anyone
                        do that
                         where
                         do I find
                        the person
                         who will
