sigh
this is turning less into a nsfw blog, and more of a diary.
But basically I think I need to kill.
I want to start small, maybe like a squirrel.
I’d like to kill it, not aggressively, I wouldn’t wanna mutilated it, not before I get to do it precisely.
then I’d move on, I’d move on to a rabbit, wrap my surroundings in plastic so I don’t get get the blood everywhere, almost like carving a pumpkin, I’d scoop out the guts and save the like I’d save bones, it’s a souvenir.
then something like a dog. I’d repeat this process multiple times with different weapons. Maybe I would even torture then if I have time.
I’d love to go up to a deer one day, because the biggest thing I’ve ever killed was a big snake, and if felt amazing, and the only thing I’ve tortured was frogs. Soon I’ll be able to move up in one day maybe I can even kill human. I’d love that.
