I would try to convince him to play cozy games with me (stardew, Minecraft)

Tw: fem reader x yan! Incel, fluff, mentions of degradation, obsessive/possessive behavior, paranoia, minecraft, streaming,

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“That’s so Lame, leave up to a woman to like some boring games” he’d scoff, waving you off as he continues to do a setup for his streams.

A few days later…

After running one of his errands you noticed his bedroom door that was opened with a small crack. Which was odd since he usually kept it wide open to keep tabs on your arrival. He does have a tendency to get paranoid whenever you left for long.

Which led you to having to be timed by the loud ass timer, he set in the kitchen. If it goes off and you’re not home, he’d be hauling ass to snatch you up and punish you for making by him wait.

But you fortunately made it on time with minutes to spare and made sure to turn it off. Before stepping near his domicile, and cracking open the door to hear the melodic sound of Minecraft in the background.

“Alright chat, day 3 of makin a mansion for me and my slut how’s it lookin?” You’d see him surrounded by energy drinks, hunched over as if he worked an office box job.

You didn’t make your presence known, and sneakily tiptoed closer to take a look at this so called mansion— My god it was as if a principle architect and top engineer was combined into one godly mixture.

To produce a billion dollar masterpiece of a block by block marble-like mansion. Fit to be incorporated into a painting and showcased in a fine arts exhibit.

I remember ages upon ages ago reading how the biggest audience for Black man/white woman interracial porn are white men. That's why the majority are cuckolding scenarios and the trend really picked speed in the 00s.

Yeah the audience has always been white men and it hasn't changed that's why these porn addicted losers stay bringing up "big black cocks" in normal situations

Stop projecting your own hoe-ass mindset onto me or other people. You’re just telling me, loud and clear, that you’d be willing to fuck any pretty girl who asked. Cool for you. Great. Leave me the hell out of it. I’m waiting for someone who makes me feel loved, so thanks I guess for clarifying that u most certainly are NOT the one.

Some of us actually have standards, boundaries, and make choices with our brains, not our dicks. Some of us give a damn about love and intimacy rather than lust. Wild concept, I know.

I’m not saving myself for some random “Chad” or whatever, but for someone I actually love and who actually loves me. I view sex as something special and intimate. You could be the hottest guy on the planet, but if I don’t love u and u don’t love me? Nope. Not happening.

And besides wanting it to be special, I also have horrible social anxiety. I can’t even make eye contact with strangers, let alone strip down and let someone literally inside me.

Annnddd I have vaginismus, so sex isn’t even going to feel good for me, it’ll just be uncomfortable and painful. I’m not willing to go through that pain just to make some dude I don’t love get his nut off.

Where are we at in society that it’s somehow surprising or even unbelievable that I want sex to feel special and loving??? Like… what. That’s supposed to be the baseline. But no, everyone’s so fried on hookup culture and porn brain 🌽 🧠

Like, oh my god, she doesn’t want to get railed by a stranger in a bathroom stall? Unreal. Insane.

Sorry I don’t want some random dude jackhammering me like a fleshlight. It blows my mind that people genuinely think “oh she’ll cave when a hot guy shows up.” No, babe, that’s just you telling on yourself.

this is turning less into a nsfw blog, and more of a diary.

But basically I think I need to kill.

I want to start small, maybe like a squirrel.

I’d like to kill it, not aggressively, I wouldn’t wanna mutilated it, not before I get to do it precisely.

then I’d move on, I’d move on to a rabbit, wrap my surroundings in plastic so I don’t get get the blood everywhere, almost like carving a pumpkin, I’d scoop out the guts and save the like I’d save bones, it’s a souvenir.

then something like a dog. I’d repeat this process multiple times with different weapons. Maybe I would even torture then if I have time.