#kiley.txt

cyrus is still gay and in love with jonah beck

cyrus is an awkward lil bean

this bowie finn guy sounds like a loser

bex deserves better 2k17

Did I accidentally buy four Important Blue Internet Checkmarks because TumblrMart kinda glitches out on iOS?

Maybe.

1. There's a flower bush of some kind outside the window by my desk, and it smells gorgeous when it blooms. I love that.

2. Even in the hell that was 2020, I've made amazing friends - almost entirely neurodiverse and queer, and wow that has been magical. I love them all.

3. This really should be #1, but my wife is the best wife ever. It takes a special soul to put up with me, and an even more amazing one to marry me, find out I'm trans, stay married to me, and then come out as bisexual. I'm, like, stupid lucky and just thinking about it makes me tear up. Love you, Birdy.

4. I honestly have a pretty dang good job. My coworkers are good, my boss works with my neurodiversity, and they provide benefits like health insurance and therapy that are incredibly rare AND saved my life several times over. Capitalism is shit, but it'd be far less shit if more companies treated their people like the one I work for.

You got THREE 5s and TWO 4s!?! That's absolutely amazing! Like, holy crap anon that's legitimately an amazing amount of academic achievement right there. The fact you tested for that many subjects and did that well is awesome, and will reflect well on you in any admissions department.

As for the 2, it's normal to feel sad that you didn't do as well as you thought - we all want to do our best. But it's also normal to be not-great in several subjects! The idea the a student needs to be mind-blowingly perfect in every study area is somewhat unique to the American system of education, and is absurd.

As an example, I was awesome at things like reading and grammar, or history, but utter trash at Math. I failed basic Algebra three times in college. I passed on the 5th attempt with a C ('average'), and that was a huge accomplishment. I later flunked out of computer science over how programming was taught, and the advanced math.

Despite this, I'm still an IT Systems Engineer making six figures for a tech company. High School and College (or trade school) are important, sure, but both institutions tend to over-sell how important they are and put WAY too much stress on students to perform as a result. The real world, though often harsh, is also generally a lot more forgiving than school.