Has been a little bit. Was supposed to go out with bio family today, something came up, they had to go back home, gonna try again some time next week. Feel awful. Change, overwhelm. Very bad not good day. Exausted but sleep bad. Try stay awake. Play Silksong. Hate anxiety and change hard. Didn't immediately have a meltdown when change came up at least. Maybe not fully processed yet and meltdown come later. Probably around when plans supposed to have happened. *waves white flag* now all brain wants is skuff and Kiku hate hate hate that. 😖😵‍💫 Also shark week (period, blegh) suppose be soon.

*flops* wish wheelchairs not so complicated. Need wheelchair. Walker and crutches help, but only do so much. But not know exactly what need from a wheelchair. Frustrating 😭😭😭 Don't have insurance, don't have a doctor, and honestly going through insurance sounds like a complete nightmare. Haven't been able to find a second hand chair that isn't basically full price or isn't the right size. Just want to know what need so could order it self and pay with payment plan. *flops* but not know enough. Don't know exactly what need. Just know some of what need.

Kiku having hard time right now. Got an ouchie because sit cross legged all the time, caught it before got too bad Kiku think but it still uncomfy and make have to sit different. And think phone battery swelling so can't use it until get battery replaced, if can be replaced. Won't know until can take to apple store and see.

Kiku hasn't been very active but a lot happening right now and it really hard.