#kh dilan

it is confirmed that many children were subjects in the apprentices experiments of the heart. it wouldnt strike me as odd for the early experiments to have included ones close to the original 6. so imagine a man sworn to his duty to his king, hands shaking as he walks his child into the lab, and the hardening sorrow of knowing his child isnt coming back out.

losing a spouse or lover hurts, rips your heart out and mangles it, yet for the most part it is a thing that heals. however, with his intense disdain for having a heart to the point he doesn't even want it, paired with the lack of guidance or interest in the younger organization members, points me to believe he lost a child, a harder grief to recover from

rereading his file in the character series that came out a few years back, the first part talking about the roses in radiant garden could be seen as him referring to a lover. but theres one line that sticks out to me

"There was someone who asked me about love once, when was it? It was in front of that rose."

i dont think with how its phrased that hes referring to a lover. the question has an almost childlike curiosity. he talks on beast being cursed by his own rose, while in a literal sense in beasts case, i could see xaldin viewing a lingering love for a lost family as a curse.

"Supporting fragrant flowers in my own rugged hands. These were hands that were originally only fit for grasping a spear. The flowers only bloom there. They bloom without being placed within a glass case."