I feel so exceptionally shitty emotionally I feel kinda mental nausea with how shitty I feel? But why? Things are reasonably ok. In fact I made decisions and goals and got a step further and shit.
Ofc life is one uncertain cluster fuck of potential loss and failure. Is that it? Is this about my mum? Is it the apathy I feel towards the world or even increasingly escapist media. Is it all bc of that right now? I feel fucking exhausted.
Is it because I don't like the decision I've made? I











