#keto fail

So, it was a valiant attempt, but I kinda failed at keto on my bday. I did have the most wonderful keto lunch provided by my thought sweetie of a boyfriend, who brought me salad and a whole rotisserie chicken, which you can see we ate 75% of in 30 min. That step in the right direction was followed by my coworker bringing me this chocolate demon...of which I clearly had a few bites 😬 she’s like “it’s gluten free? So kinda keto right?” Mmmmno. But I appreciate the thought. We then went to a steak house for my bday dinner...where I had a magnificent steak...accompanied by potatoes 😔 and then they gave me free mousse at the end. And then we went to the ice cream shop across the street where they give you a free sundae on your birthday. I intended to have only a bite and give the rest to The Boy...but it ended up more like 50/50 😐 and I also didn’t work out at all yesterday which was my fitness challenge for the month (not even birthday sex!!! 😩)

So my lazy butt didn’t get any extra miles in yesterday aside from the usual 5 I get at work oh well maybe today (I have to go grocery shopping that should count for at least some extra right. I had another bad eating day (meaning I didn’t end up eating until dinner). (It’s really easy to do when you have 13 other people who you have to make sure are fed and cared for).On top of not getting any extra miles in my dad wanted to order pizza for dinner but I told him to just order me an order of grilled wings. After eating all my wings he talked me into eating a small piece of pizza. Then a small dessert of halo top ice cream turned into 3/4 of a container!🤦‍♀️

I was fully expecting to gain weight but I ended up losing point to pounds.

So I’m day 22 on keto. I thought I had this diet down. I could fight any craving that came my way.

Then came the perfect storm.

Before keto I was addicted to soda. Anytime I was stressed out or having a rough day (or hour) I would drink one.

Yesterday, I started my period (sorry if that’s tmi) and work was literal hell. I told my coworker “I never wanted a soda so bad in my life than I do right now.” I then told another coworker “I’m about to go to the vending machine and get a soda and a candy bar” luckily since everyone at work knows about my diet and is super supportive one of them offered me one peanut butter trail mix. I checked the label of course and saw it was 12g of carbs and 6g of sugar and said “I can live with that”.

I was looking for a Keto friendly Starbucks drink online, and came across this one...

Yeah....I guess I should have maybe said shake it up or something, because literally the espresso was gone in about 2 sips, and the rest....well....

Taking Care of WHOLE People

I’ve got my coffee, ACV detox drink, vitamins, and bacon and eggs in as well as a little journaling. Your mental health is just as important as your physical health! My nursing instructors always stress to me that we need to take care of WHOLE people, not just their one medical problem.

So today, in honor of passing my nursing school finals yesterday, I’m going to take care of ALL of me.

Cleaning ✔️

Journaling ✔️

Reading ✔️

Grocery shopping and meal prepping ✔️

1 hour walk around the mall (it’s raining) ✔️

Get clothes ready for the week 💃🏼✔️

Face mask, bath, manicure 💆🏼‍♀️✔️

Yup. That’s right.

Today, I couldn’t take it any longer. I was sooo hungry and the place I’m staying at does not have anything low carb (not even eggs!) so instead of starving myself, I ate.

And ate

And ate

And holy shit I ate.

I’m on my period, was hangry.... I think my fiancé just made me a pizza because I was driving him nuts.

I forgot how much worse carbs makes my hunger. In total, I invested roughly 3000 calories today. I think it was a combination of the carbs, hormones, stress from finals, and pizza being pizza.

Tomorrow I’ll be leaving and taking my last final of the semester. I’m looking forward to hopping back on the wagon and continuing to lose weight this summer.