#kebnrh

him recognizing he likes ceres/mc but knowing he isn't capable of loving her BUT WANTING to be capable of loving her & telling her he'll remake himself with a heart / re-establish relivers emotional capacity after DECADES of neglecting it for the CHANCE to be able to properly fall in love with her only for her to get KILLED IN FRONT OF HIM AS HE'S REVIVING / CLONING W SAID HEART 😭

THAT'S SO FUCKED UP I'M FUCKED UP

i will NEVER recover from knowing he's just stuck like that in an endless loop of grief mourning her bc he only ever got to fall in love with her memory instead of interacting with her 😭 he literally changed his entire worldview and regained his passion to be human again RIGHT AS SHE WAS TAKEN FROM HIM