#katlyssa

Everyone has that one “ride-or-die” kind of best friend, someone they can always go to and count on. I have a few people in my life whom I consider as best friends, but there’s no deeper connection between us than as it is. I don’t really know how to explain further, but you get what I’m trying to say right? Well, I never had one till I met you... That’s the truth. You were both my best friend and the love of my life. I thought I was the luckiest girl, because not everyone's blessed with what I had with you. Who else could I stay up the whole night with and talk for literally 12 hours to? Who else could I show the inner demons that I’d always kept a secret to? Who else could I share my bad puns (which I thought were brilliant and hilarious) with? Who else could I be completely vulnerable with? Nobody but you. I valued our connection and relationship so much. I never wanted to lose what we had.... till the day we lost it. To be frank, I was partly at fault for what happened. I made a choice. A selfish one. Then as time passed, I realized that perhaps, you were only meant to be someone temporary in my life. I learned that the person I loved the most could also leave me with a cut so deep. The person I believed to be the best thing that ever happened to me could also create a void in my heart. The person I trusted the most could also lie to me and betray my trust. It was a huge loss for me... and it broke my heart. But that was the past. I've put it all behind me. I still stick to the few people whom I call my best friends. They might not be my “ride-or-die” but I treasure them a lot, I really do. Now I’m just trying to figure things out.

I don't believe in love at first sight I mean, how can you immediately fall in love with someone just like that? Well, you don't. At first you might think that you start to fall for someone when you two first meet It's frequently mistaken for love but it's actually just an attraction As time passed, as you got to know more about the person The feelings grow and that's what we called falling in love... I guess. You learned about the person's flaws, pasts, fears, habits, likes and dislikes Despite all the imperfections, you still love him anyway In fact, you began to fall deeper and deeper without even realizing You love him even though he's not really your type You love him even though he gets on your nerves sometimes You love him even though his taste in music is totally different from yours You love him even though he can't always be there for your sake You love him even though he always says or does the wrong things If asked, why do you love him? Even you can't seem to figure out the exact reason But you just do anyway It's not something that can be explained You love him because you love him.