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Some film photos from the Wanderland 2016 music festival.

The last playlist I did was about 5 years ago, and looking back I realized how it would have been amazing if a lot of people knew the songs I mentioned there, but now not even half of the people I know recognize or even heard those songs. It’s a bit selfish of me to keep them like my little treasures. So far, there’s always more to discover. While these songs are not new to me, I hope they’re new to your ears, and find them beautiful and mesmerizing. 

Convince me to speak the words you want me to say. Convince me to keep doing what you want me to, to keep thinking and replaying all over my head the things we want to change, the things we want to stay and the things we want to overcome. 

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Milagres - IDNYL 

Blonde Tongues - Hey Good Lookin

The Honey Trees - Ammon’s Horn

Anthony Hegarty - Landslide 

Amber Run - I Found (Acoustic)

Broods - Taking You There

Niki Colet  - Say Something (cover)

Bon Iver & St. Vincent - Roslyn

Vancouver Sleep Clinic - Stakes

Cigarettes After Sex - Keep On Loving You

Damien Rice - Cheers Darlin'

Tough love as it is, most relationships battle this in almost every way possible. It’s hard and challenging, but it shows fulfillment in the end. When you have messed up something really big in the relationship, trying to pick up the pieces and putting them together is simply impossible or perhaps it make take months or even years to make it all better but hey, if she’s worth it, then there’s nothing to worry about right?

Even worse than passive apathy is someone who actually makes you feel badly about yourself. It will not stop and there will be issues about it that will always involve you being the cause of it. It will always be evident in arguments, will never cease to be positive but will always focus on the negative aspects which will make you feel responsible for what the hell is going on.

Even if you do your best, sometimes, like they say, your best is not yet or NEVER enough. But trying is never a problem. Yes, you can always try.

Some efforts are being appreciated on a tremendous level where you will feel that you are doing a good job on making her happy and making sure that everything about you is honest and open in the relationship to show transparency. There are some efforts that are just actions that are obligatory for quite some time and tend be no longer appreciated mainly because the other person is looking for something more than what you are doing. It just shows that you are not doing your best and makes you question your self-worth. It’s everyday life and what they do when they don’t need to that counts.

Grief is not unlike whiskey

in that it makes me aware I am not behaving like everyone else, and equally powerless to stop it.

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I pretty much think that it's just a good time call when you realize a lot of things that you are actually desperate to hang on when you can just let go and take the reigns yourself. What a dumb choice but it doesn't define what you are. It doesn't matter what it was like before as it glides a little, it soars beyond your wake-up call to ask for a glass of wine and live your life the way the sun rises from the east. 

Once you taste the freedom you've always wanted, you'll try your best to whisper a sweet nothing to the wind and leave it to that and kiss your hands together and silently, look up and see a million possibilities. 

It feels like you're breathing for the first time you've been kept in a heartless cage, filled with nonsense chokers and unusual behaviors, but all that changes, and you'll see the light leaks from your eyes like a tainted photograph that you just kept within. 

All these memories will come like meteorites and will feel like you've taken a long stride back and forth from an endless vacation. 

You will feel alright, happy and light. It's not like drinking whiskey, it is feeling the moment of the way you feel the whiskey. Not by chance, not by the tremor of it, nor the addiction. 

It is feeling selfless to yourself.

How lonesome it is for a sick little girl to be over-thinking a lot of things as early as now. But you cannot stop it, I really don't think you can and when that troubled soul that always keep pulling you down whenever you try to get back up is the most distressing and frustrating thing you'll ever experience. 

It's like drowning in your own thoughts.

Right or wrong, there's always something that will make you feel unconscious from the inside. Something you can't explain but it feels like you must share it to someone else but it makes you feel obnoxious. 

Such a fool.