#kathi rants

Everything is just going so great at the moment this has been the best year of my life

I LOVE LIFE

Thank you me for holding on and for getting where you are

I Love you 16 yo suicidal me who didn’t know if they were gonna make it to 25

I Love you 20 yo anxious me who could barely leave the house

You did such a good job of getting better, thank you so much for staying alive and refusing to believe there’s nothing you can do

If anyone is struggling with mental health right now i am here to tell you that it will get better because life can’t always be terrible and you will figure it out because you are smart and beautiful I promise I promise I promise

I can't help myself. I can't imagine Remus Lupin as Badboy casanova and I can't imagine him just like grandad.

i think he is both and nothing of it at the same time.

He is the mastermind behind the marauders pranks.

He is some sort of self destrsuctive, like forgetting to eat or not getting enough sleep.

With his lycantrophy goes some sort of depression and a lot of physical and emotional pain.

Not Remus was the mother hen of the marauders, but James who especially fussed about Remus after full moons.

He had grown over the years, his friendship to the marauders, the girls, some ravenclaws and hufflepuffs and even some of the slytherins, pushed his self esteem.

He knows, because of his loving parents how healthy relationships work and I believe that he has to give Sirius steadiness and safety when they first started dating, because Sirius never really had a rolemodel for a healthy lasting relationship.

Sometimes he is the one that talks some sense in the marauders and sometimes he has the ideas to let their pranks go through the roof.

He likes to read, because books were his portals to the world when he was little, but also likes to spent time with the people he cares about. A win win is when he can spent time with Reegulus and Lily talking about books oder reading toghether.

I alsways sound so dumb.

I'm 20, started 4 studies but never made it past the 1st semester. 

I have a graduation no one is interested in. 

The only good thing I have is my English Certificate, but no one likes that as well.

And yeah the only jobs i ever had were scholarships, one at a great companyish thing, but that was only at the kitchen. And one at the insurance company i already work at. 

I just hope that my talk to my head of personnel helped and she'll offer me a job. Otherwise I'm screwed.