#kajuned

Yuuuuuuuuuuup. You and me both

I actually read something about this a while back that I’m never gonna forget. Neil Gaiman wrote a NaNoWriMo pep talk back in 2007, and he described how three-quarters of the way through Anansi Boys, he was overwhelmed by self doubt

he called his agent to suggest maybe it was time to give up and move onto another project, and… well, I may as well just copy/paste the conversation:

“Oh, you’re at that part of the book, are you?”I was shocked. “You mean I’ve done this before?”“You don’t remember?”“Not really.”“Oh yes,” she said. “You do this every time you write a novel. But so do all my other clients.”

Anansi Boys was my best friend’s favorite book. Neil Gaiman is widely respected and basically as legit as they come

Beyond that, if you’ve ever read On Writing, by Stephen King, he expressed the exact same fears. Despite all his success, he feels like a hack sometimes

So when I start to doubt myself, I just try to remember that I’m in pretty good company

We’re all unsure, we’re all doubtful, and we’re all just making things up and making the best of it as we go

jdhfdsjkalh donT do this to mE i CHOOSE MERDRAGONS 

Heya, sorry it took so long to reply to this!

I'm afraid that was another flippant post completely ignoring everything I've ever said about Mary's arc in season 12 for the sake of talking quickly and making another point... (I should stop doing this :P)... 

I think her arc in season 12 was utterly shaped around her guilt and addressed deeply and fairly comprehensively to the point where I don't think they *need* another arc with that much concern about her guilt. Whether she still feels a pang about it whether she can help it or not, for the interpersonal family stuff they brought it to a resolution in 12x22 and used 12x23 to cosmically vindicate her with the AU, basically saying, now we did the interpersonal stuff we can show that cosmically Mary did a good thing/her deal is not a cause for shame or personal regret. So to me it has been addressed enough to move on past that point, and is no longer an ~active~ part of her characterisation, just like I assume Dean's no longer going to yearn for the grenade launcher on screen, and instead will be able to look fondly at it like hell yeah I shot that thing :P

Since Mary's personal part in the deal has been cosmically absolved (whether people feel this arc was enough/went deep enough I'm pretty sure the story considers it done and dusted based on the choices of absolution/immediate reassurance via convoluted AU premise) I was sort of stepping back and looking up and saying, well, anyway, she only made the deal because Azazel made her because Lucifer asked him to find a special child for the whole sake of the cosmic plan and blah blah main plot of 1-5... Since Lucifer is one of the core instigators, Mary getting to meet him and punch him a few times has a nice cathartic feeling for me, even if it's not really an actual revenge or whatever at this point (and narratively I assume if they're going to be trapped together, Dabb will hopefully weave some way for Mary to address the wider cosmic stuff in the AU designed utterly around the meta cosmic stuff to do with the season 1-5 plot, which will ACTUALLY give her a chance for more catharsis/better on-screen revenge or whatever).

So punching Lucifer has nothing to do with her personal arc about guilt, I just kind of love that she did it and I am looking forward to what comes next with that, since she has moved through a lot of important steps when it comes to the guilt arc and I think this is for her now to have moved beyond the insular family stuff which motivated her/blinded her in season 12...

Listen up everyone, this is a PSA! Our boy Lucifer got a real birthday date now!

September 24th, mark your calendars!

Official Samifer Day AND Lucifer’s Birthday ♥

Hmm... I don’t know. There would have to be a specific narrative reason for it, I guess.

Back in s5, they were being completely jerked around by the universe in the culmination of their original “destiny vs free will” arc, leading to them finding a way to overthrow that destiny and essentially cancel Heaven’s plans to end the world.

Not that the universe hasn’t jerked them around plenty since then, but they’ve achieved a certain level of self-awareness about their actual place in the universe, you know? When God himself has sat you down and explained a few things, and then Dean’s had a chance to turn around and explain a few things to God, and now Death has explained that from her pov she can see the Grand Plan and Dean’s got an important place in it... I mean, randomly getting killed sorta doesn’t work anymore, you know? At least not as a plot device in that fashion.

It’s not like they’re not constantly being messed with in other ways (I’m watching 10.12 right now where Dean has been transformed into his 14-year-old self), via spells and the like. And it’s not like they both haven’t been dead, or at least dead-adjacent, in recent seasons either.