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show: voltron legendary defender

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It's been four years.... Four years since Allura sacrifice herself to let them live.

Four years since lance's last smile... Four years since his last grin... Last laugh... Last joke... Last..... Happiness.

It's been four fucking years... That lance hasn't laugh... Hasn't smile... A real smile.

These things are always in pidges mind... Four years since she last saw him smile... And God how she miss that freaking beautiful smile...

Pidge sigh and close her laptop... Only Matt and Hunk know that she loves lance that much she made a background photo of him on her laptop.

Both of them wanted Pidge to move on knowing lance loves Allura and after her scarification they knew he would be depressid so they want her to move on...

But how could she...

How could she forgot her first love?.... How could she forgot those ocean eyes?... Even if she wanted to those eyes wouldn't leave her alone...

Every night... Everytime she closes her eyes one pair of ocean blue eyes will be there in front of her...

His eyes.

Looking at her with all the love ocean can give you... Looking at her like how he used to look at Allura.

She's killing herself with these.... She knows that... But she can't stop... Neither her heart nor her mind would allow her to stop...

She can't stop loving him.

Now after four years of everyone trying to cheer lance up and failing... After four years of Pidge trying to invite lance to play with her...

He finally accept.

She was so happy to see him again...even if he would look so tired or depressed she wanted to see those eyes and hug him thigh.... Even if that'll be a hug from a sister or a friend for him...

The door bell rings... She got out of her bed existed and rang to the door... Matt saw her ran and sad smiled shaking his head...

When the door opened lance lands his eyes on a 'small little gremlin' as he used to call her... He can't stop himself but stare at her beautiful hazel eyes... Where her eyes always this shiny and beautiful?

"Lance!... It's good to see you again"

Lance couldn't help but brought his brows up.

"You speak different."

She smiles "yeah well..... It is good to see you... I missed you..." and with that pidge couldn't help herself but throw herself at lance wanting a hug...

Lance sad smiled and throw his hands around her... He missed them too... All of them... He miss the way they were before Allure had to.... It still pains him... Not that much but still....

"So are we gonna play that new video game you got or what?" he tried to sound like his past self...

Pidge looked at him with sparkle in her eyes... Well it seems he still can be that old razzele dazzle lance...

Pidge smiles and grab his hand dragging him to his room not paying attention at her family saying hi to lance...

"Lance"

"Hey Matt! It's been so long"

"Yeah well... Good to see you again"

Lance smiled and nod his head as a thank you... Before he could say anything pidge pulls him to her room.

"Wow!! Your room is actullay clean...such a surprise "

She glared at him... Then grab his shirt and pulls him to the ground... Then start to put the video game on her TV... Lance grabs the gamepad to start and play...

After a while of them playing awkwardly for trying to make puns and stuff like old times lance sad smiles..

"I miss the old times"

"You did?"

"It's that surprising?"

"Well you always...Well You always think about Allura... It's been your tissue these past four years and..." She start to tear up... "I just... I really miss the old lance... The old goofball dumb lance... I just... It's just..."

"Pidge"

She start to wipe away her tears with her arms but they would still come... They start to run on her cheeks...

"Pidge"

He stretched out his hand to grab her and at the same time she looked up at him... His hand stopped in the middle... Her glassy eyes was staring at him...

Lance just wanted to have her in his arms... Trying to comfort her... His hand grabs her cheek and Wipe her tears...

"Come here" he whispered.

She slowly sat down at his lap... He put his hands around her and hugged her tight... She hugged him thigter and by everyword she said her tears would run out of her eyes to her cheeks and then his shirt... His old white blue shirt...

"I missed you so much... Everytime I try not to think about you... Your eyes just come to me... They never left me... I just missed the way you were at the castle... The old lance... The loving kind lance... I... I just..." She put her forhead on his... He had tears in his eyes as well... He wanted to be that old lance but he just couldn't stop thinking about Allura "I missed loving you"

His eyes widen... He looked at her closed eyes... She was still crying.

"You.... You loved me?"

"I still do"

"Pidge" he sound small... She cried more... She tried to wipe eyes her tears with her arms while speaking... But they just wouldn't stop...

"I knew you loved Allura but I couldn't stop myself... To stop my crush on you... To stop loving you... But always... Always in the neck of time you did something that would put me in a deep love... Your love..." She gave up at wiping away her tears and grab lance's shirt and cried into it. "I'm sorry I wasn't there to help you... Maybe if I had said i love you sooner you wouldn't love Allura... So you wouldn't be like this..."

Lance felt his heart stink... She was right maybe if she would've told him he would try to love her instead of Allura... And now he is hurting both himself and his friends... Most of all pidge... His markings start to glow...

"Your marks are glowing... Did I make you think of her?"

"You made me fell something... I never wanted to hurt you... None of you"

"Lance" she cupped his cheeks.

"I would never be happy to hurt my friends... But you just showed me love..."

"I don't...." he cut her.

"You told me you love me... I appreciate this love pidge..."

"I don't want you to love me" tears start to come down again "I know you can't love me..." she looked at his eyes having tears run out of her eyes. He the same. " I just want you back... I want the old lance back... I want the soul of our team back... That's eunogh for me.."

'The soul' He start to tear up... All these years he though the team would be better off without him... But with red lion choosing him and not letting anyone around it, he had no choice but to stay.

And now by pidge saying she loved him and he being the soul of the team... He understand that the team wouldn't survive without him... Pidge wouldn't survive without him...

"You were always the one who keeped us in place... You comfort anyone... Without you we would obviously fail..." she put her head in his neck still crying " I just... Want you back... Give me my old lance back"

His eyes widened at the word 'my lance'... He wanted to hear that from Allura so badly.. But he knew Allura was actullay in love with lotor... Whatever he do... She would love lotor more... And now Allura is in a place with lotor... Even though she said she loves him... He just knew she loved lotor more.

He pulled pidge in the hug more... She wrapped her arms around him...