#kaitae

Anyway, I hope you and whoever else reads this enjoys this!

I didn’t proofread or think much about time and whatnot (how long everyone knows each other along with how long they’d been dating and all that shit) so I hope it’s not much of a bother.

Couple: Taemin x Kai / Taemin x Jimin

Genre: Angst, fluff (if you squint)

Word Count: 1.9k (i think??)

Taemin stood in front of the now deserted park. He’d been going there for years eventually picking up the fact that most people are gone by 10 PM. His hands shakily wiped the small beads of sweat forming on his palms against the harsh material of his black denim jeans; he unlocked his phone screen glancing at the time

1:21 AM

Less than ten minutes before a decision had to be made. Truthfully, if he could split himself into two people and love both Kai and Jimin, he would. No hesitation at all. But since that obviously wasn’t a possible option he had to make the harsh decision of breaking someone’s heart.

           Kai was someone he was familiar with, someone who showed him how to accept himself, how to love with a heart so pure and so open. He showed him how to not be so hard on himself and not to take life so seriously. Whereas Jimin showed him diligence, how to look at other talents and abilities through a different lens, he showed him innocence in its best form and made him realize how much he enjoyed protecting someone far more vulnerable than him.

It had been 3 years since he and Kai painfully called things off. Taemin often winces at the memory of them spitting out words laced with hatred and venom.

How did we allow things to get that bad?

 “Stop lying to my face! You’re ashamed of me, Kai!” Taemin screamed with tears uncontrollably escaping his eyes.

“Where are you getting this bullshit from?! Never once have I given you a reason to believe I'm not completely in love with you!”

“I never said you don’t love me damn it! You’re just ashamed! Kai how is it fair that I, your boyfriend, can’t hold your hand or kiss you in public but you aren’t afraid to do it with your friends?! Even if it’s just a simple kiss on the damn cheek! How do I know you haven’t even-”

Kai angrily closed in on Taemin, his legs hastily walking past their shared bed stopping once his chest bumped forcefully into Taemin’s as he grabbed his hand with force, “Don’t you dare finish that sentence, Taemin. Don’t you dare accuse me of sleeping or loving someone else when you know damn well that I would never do that to you.”

“That’s not what happened with Krystal was it?” Deep down he knew that Krystal was a sensitive and unfair subject to bring up. After all, if it hadn’t been for her inviting Taemin to their photo-shoot he might’ve never gotten the courage to make a move on his best friend. He knew that he was mostly to blame for Kai cheating on Krystal with him before officially ending things with her. He was fully aware that if he hadn’t kissed him on that day he would still be with Krystal and maybe, at this point, married to her. But he wasn’t thinking clearly now, anger was fogging up his mind. Perhaps more than anger it was hurt. Hurt that his boyfriend of 5 years and best friend of over 10 was more affectionate with his own friends (not even best friends, just friends) rather than with him.

“I can’t… you’re seriously bringing that up?” Kai dryly laughed as he shoved Taemin away from him making him stumble on his feet. “You… I can’t believe you. You know, there isn’t an ounce of my best friend left in you. I don’t know what monster you are, I don’t know who the hell you are. You’re empty a shell of who my best friend-my boyfriend­-used to be.”

“Don’t act so innocent, K-”

“FUCK TAEMIN! WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY TO MAKE YOU BELIEVE THAT I ACTUALLY LOVE YOU AND THAT I’M NOT FUCKING AROUND WITH YOU! YOUR OWN DAMN INSECURITIES ARE FUCKING ANNOYING AND I HATE THEM! I HATE THAT ABOUT YOU! YOU KNOW WHAT! I WANT YOU TO PACK UP YOUR SHIT AND LEAVE! MOVE OUT! GO MOVE IN WITH KIBUM! I’M SURE YOU TWO WOULD LOVE TO FUCK AROUND WITH EACH OTHER!”

He shook his head at the pitiful memory choking back the tears threatening to appear at any given moment. His memory moved over to the moment he and Jimin first began dating; the butterflies in his stomach, the way he would shyly hold his hand or occasionally steal a kiss from him, the shy giggles when he would compliment him. He loved all of it. However, the happy memories didn’t last for long as they were soon replaced by the reason he was standing in the park waiting to make a decision. He sighed, as the memories spilled into his mind as if someone were pouring them straight from a water bottle.

“What the hell are you doing here?” Taemin asked, already getting ready to shut the door.

“I know you told me not to come and see you in person, that you need your time and to keep this from Jimin but I cant. I had to see you.” Kai stood broken-heartedly in front of Taemin’s half-opened door taking in the beautiful sight of his now ex-boyfriend. He was far more muscular than when he last saw him, maybe he’d finally picked up dancing again or maybe he just worked out more. Kai couldn’t keep himself from finding Taemin once he reached out to him on social media and actually receiving a positive response from him. In reality, Taemin had only replied hoping that it would ease Kai and make him leave his life but he unexpectedly began reeling him in and making him fall in love all over again with every mobile or online exchange. It wasn’t until Kai asked to see him again that Taemin had realized that this wouldn’t be fair to Jimin, the man that helped him glue his heart back together. How would Jimin react if he found out the man that once had his boyfriend’s heart was looking to get back together with him and not only was he allowing the advances to continue but he also was a part of them. This was the reason he began rejecting him and declining his pleas to see each other again.

“Ta-Taemin I still love you and… and fuck I know I shouldn’t, I know you have someone in your life but I… I still love you-” Kai stepped into the apartment taking advantage of his ex’s absentminded state, “I still love you.” He repeated, “and I feel like you do too-” his hands gently cupped his face, his thumbs gently wiping away the tears occasionally slipping out, “I want you back, I need you. Taemin… I-”

“Taemin?” He didn’t have to wonder how Jimin would feel anymore. “What’s going on here?” Jimin asked, with his voice visibly cracking as his arm went up to cover his lips as he had already begun crying at the sight of his boyfriend with his ex. “What is this?!”

“Jiminnie, I swear-”

“Don’t go,” Kai whispered towards Taemin, pressing his forehead against his. Jimin angrily pulled Kai off of his boyfriend yelling at him to stop and asking him why he was here if Taemin hadn’t contacted him in ages. Kai, despite having gone there with the intention of not leaving until Taemin was his again decided that Taemin would have to officially leave Jimin before he could be in the picture again; he chose to tell Jimin to talk to his boyfriend as it appeared he wasn’t as honest as he initially thought and left without saying anything else.

“Taemin… what was he talking about? Why did he say you weren’t being honest with me?” He asked through hiccupped cries. Taemin couldn’t even meet his still boyfriend’s eyes; all he could do was hand over his phone and let Jimin see the betrayal with his own eyes. “Please, please tell me this isn’t real. Taemin I’m begging you, tell me you didn’t cheat on me.”

“No! I would never! Jimin, I love you!”

“That’s a little hard to believe right now with all of this… bullshit on your phone! I can’t do this.” He paused for what seemed like an eternity only opening his mouth to speak in a whisper. “I can’t fucking do this right now. Taemin, you need to make up your mind. Me or Kai”

That happened around a month ago.

Jimin had texted Taemin telling him they were broken up until he had the balls to make a decision, even going as far as sending his close friend Taehyung to his apartment with a box of his things that ended up in his own apartment through the years.

Taemin had decided to schedule both males at 1:30 AM in the aforementioned park a week prior. This was the only time he had contacted Kai after he made a sudden appearance in his life.

The first person to arrive was Jimin. He was noticeably upset, his face not having the usual glow it had before he hurt him. He let out a strained smile as he nodded at Taemin letting out a weak “hi”. Before anything else, Taemin made sure to let Jimin know that Kai would also be arriving soon as he wanted both of them to hear what he had to say. At 1:37 AM Kai thankfully arrived surely adding more tension to the air but at least now the conversation could finally happen. Kai didn’t ask why Jimin was also there, it wasn’t all that important to him. He knew things had ended for them, having peaked at Jimin’s relationship status on social media. Taemin’s initial shaky hands worsened as he knew that he would officially cut ties with one of the two men in his life.

“Jimin, Kai, thank you for agreeing to meet with me. I wanted you both here because I needed you to both hear what I have to say. Firstly, I want to apologize to both of you. I think I played with both of you and that’s, obviously, not ok. I’m so sorry for not having been able to make a decision.” He turned to face Jimin, gently taking his hand. “Jimin, you pieced me back together when I felt like I was irrevocably broken. You showed me how to love again and showed me what it was like to love someone openly, proudly and unforgivingly. I’m so sorry for hurting you like this.” He placed a soft kiss on his knuckles before turning to Kai and also taking his hand, “Kai, you were my best friend for many years, you accepted me when I came out and chose me over someone you thought was the love of your life. You risked it all for me and allowed me the opportunity to feel what love was like. You also didn’t deserve me hurting you the way I did. And I’m also sorry.” Like he did to Jimin, he also placed a kiss on his knuckles evading his hand when he attempted to hold his face like he did in the apartment.

The moment was here.

He slowly moved to stand in between both men only moving, his eyes glancing back and forth between them. Finally, he turned to face the man he would hurt one last time.

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