This will just be a rant
I think the worse happening and the worse for me is change. I hate change, i don't like it, it's weird and why can't things stay the same forever? this is gonna sound really really stupid but like i fear the change is within the walls of shows i like. Because why do i no longer feel the same spark of happiness when i see something related to Moriarty the patriot anymore? Like i used to be so, so, SO happy when i saw an edit but now it's just like "Oh, cool." Like and then scroll. Like what happened to that feeling? Even with BSD. Why am i no longer happy when i see edits or anything related to oda sakunosuke? Like i used to be VERY FIXATED ON HIM. to the point i would scream, giggle and kick my feet. What happened to that feeling? Why did it just... die like that? Change is weird and stupid. I don't like change at all. Wdym I'm gonna some day be an adult? Wdym one day everything i love now will be a burning memory in the back of my mind? Wdym i'll get a job? Wdym the friends i have now will leave my life? Wdym **I** might leave their lives? Wdym the things i like to eat now will change? Wdym the way i perceive life will change? Like what? Why can't things just stay the same forever? Why does change have to exist?
