#k110

That was an extra recording from last week. There is still a podcast tomorrow. We will be back with an episode of the Avatar Online Podcast, this time discussion K110 Turning The Tides as part of our Korra Rewatch.

im so sorry guys for not being on this lovely weekend but i was on kairos and for you who dont know its a retreat that you go on..and in all honesty i have never felt more secure more loved more happy in my entire life, as a young girl i was abused by my dad and my mom was never really around because of the fact my dad was so abusive, my mom when i was in the fourth grade was in the intensive care in  the hospital i was not only with out a mom but i my dad left tooi was completely alone with my 4 year old sister no where to to turn and so afraid, on the bright side my mom did survive she one in a million but my dad never came back the way i thought he should i had to grow up so fast because i not only had to take care of myself but also my little sister and my disabled mother through out the years my dad came back and to my findings he had a completely better newer family, it made me feel not worthy enough to be his daugheri started a long road of depression from that point on with self hate, and self harm not only mental but phyically too. i had bad eating disorders till about a year in a half ago when my dad finally left me and my family alone no more fighting no more abuse i just felt numb ...until now today is my first night home with out all my kai sisters who i love so much because they are so strong !! on kairos it showed me that in order to more past your past you have to forgive yourself and the people that hurt you the most because forgive ness isnt about the other person its for you, and that its okay not to be okay, and that tears dont mean your losing , and that im stronger than i believe ! last night i forgave my dad it was one of the hardest things to but when i did it i honestly felt free like nothing could hold me and i so want all of you too feel that way i want you to know that their is freedom in forgiveness but it has to be at your time i love you all ! i know i dont know all of you i just want you to feel comfortablewith your selves as i do right now K110 forever dont hesitate to ask me anything xoxox- Nia