#justdonewithall

You don’t see me

The real me

And that’s okay

Because I don’t even wanna see myself

I hate looking at myself in the mirror

I hate my own presence

My own guts

Cause thats how they've made me feel

I see a failure

I see unsuccessful woman

I see uncaring mom

And I see uneducated daughter

I see a girl with no father beside her

& I see a girl with a mom that has no aim

And I am so disappointed at myself

Disgusted too, to be honest.

For being this way

Which I always wish to change,

But the circumstances didn’t let me

Be better than this,

Or choose good choices in life

And it’s all thanks to me I guess

I give up easy

I get tired so quick

I don't wanna deal with any bullshit

cause it's too overwhelming for me

&

For being stuck in this moment in time

With nothing

With just myself and my mistakes

That hunts me everyday

I don’t wanna love myself

Nor anybody

Cause I know I’ll just

Drag them into

My fucked up life

So I better be alone

And die alone.

I’m just a piss of shit anyways…