#just. augh

i love it/its living weapons (#unbiased opinion)

i am so fucking overstimulated and i’m literally just at home with my parents and the dogs

the fact that there are ten entire years between the breaking of the siege and beren turning up in nargothrond. ten whole years with celegorm and curufin in nargothrond. like, i don't even mean this (only) in a curufinrod way (although i do also mean that. can we talk about that. ten years !!) it really is just insane to me that they just hung out there for an entire decade before it all went to shit. i'm not a 'the oath straight-up forces you to do things' truther, and ten years are perhaps not the same to an elf as they are to us but still. ten years. that's a long time to coexist, to have your people mingle, to live in the court of a king who is one of those annoying arafinweans, to have two feanorians under your roof. just, the minutae of the every-day-life of that is beyond fascinating to me on so many levels, and we know so little about it - celegorm and curufin helping with/running patrols, acting in some capacity as advisors, gaining power among both people - while there must have been so much. man

Finished reading How to Suppress Women's Writing by Joanna Russ and I might be breaking my book-buying prohibition purely to own a physical copy immediately.