#just jay

i guess i should start by saying sorry for disappearing, i said i Wouldn't Do That, and then I Did, and that was,,, uncool. Not Pog. i didn't mean to alarm anyone, but i know that having someone go from posting constantly to posting once every month or so can be alarming af - the multiple messages asking if i'm alright are a testament to that - so yeah. sorry for ghosting :(

having said that, i promise i'm alright!!! (and also Very Touched by how many of y'all reached out, btw). this last half a year or so has been a wild ride, but a lot of it's been more positive than negative, so. i promise there's No Cause For Concern.

as to why i was gone so long:

i originally took a break to drive back to Texas for a family matter. not gonna get into any detail, but Some Shit Happened and it, uhhh, threw a whole wrench in the whole Being Productive Thing. no worries, though, it's all good now! the family member involved is doing well, and i am back in the swing of things, but yeah. it kinda sapped my energy to do much of anything creatively for a good month or so.

after that, i went back to DC, and i was Ready to Create. started a bunch of WIPs and everything. however, i was also returning to work after a month off, and as one of the only vaccinated employees at the time - which. highly recommend that. if you aren't already vaccinated, Do It - i was also one of the employees that my company repeatedly asked to travel. and i,,, couldn't really say no, because i need money. so i said yes, and then i spent about three months trekking around from med conference to med conference all throughout New England, promising myself that i would Do Creative Stuff while at the hotels only to spend all of my free time getting into Minecraft Youtube instead. (yes, i watch the Dream SMP. yes, i have strong opinions about the lore. i would apologize for being cringe, but i killed cringe culture with my own two hands, so all i can offer you is a hearty ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ )

then. (then). Family Drama 2: Electric Boogaloo.

AGAIN - family member involved is doing well now. well enough to BULLY ME, even (/lh), so. yeah. it was intense, but i fucking crushed it like the strong, sexy genius that i am - (adapt. improvise. overcome) - and i came out of it even more sexy and even more powerful. BUT after having two of my family members Go Through It back-to-back, i made the executive decision to move back to Texas to be closer to my family as a whole, and i have consequently spent the last few months reaching out to old Texas friends to see if they had a place for lil ole me to move into and applying to jobs so i could pay my dumb bills. (ew).

at the beginning of July, i made a cross country trip with all of my garbage to move into the new apartment, and last Monday, i officially started my new job. now that i don't have to move around as much and the new Sanders Asides has dropped, it should all be Coming Up Jay for the forseeable future.

tldr; A Bitch (Me) Has Been Busy. but i am okay! thriving, even! and i am READY to scream about Orange Logan until i am thrust from this mortal coil.