#just head empty

Hi im not dead sorry for being absent so much :(

You had known this would happen sooner or later, but that didn't mean it stung any less as you watched Aone pass the second cup of coffee to a beautiful girl you had never seen before. As she looked up at him with soft eyes and a grateful smile, you turned on your heels, willing yourself to hold in your tears, and rushed home.

You weren't sure what to do or what to say to him. You stayed home for a few days, ignoring anyone and everyone's messages and calls.

You were no closer to sorting things out when he arrived on your doorstep. Silently, you let Aone into your disheveled studio apartment. He looked around with pained eyes, then pulled you close to his chest.

"I was so worried about you," he murmured. "Why didn't you answer my calls?"

You hung your head.

"Nobu I...I don't know how to talk to you right now. I'm afraid that everything is going to come tumbling out."

He let go of you, hands falling to his side.

"Y/n, whatever I did...I'm sorry. I know I don't always say or do the things you need, but I can be better. I don't want to lose you! You're the best part of my day, every single day. I never want to stop having my morning coffee by your side."

"But...that person..."

"Hm?"

"I'm not the person you have coffee with anymore. I saw you with her, Aone. You look good together, really. And I'd never want to stand in the way of your happiness. But please, don't ask me to stand back and watch that. I can't. I love you too much."

His eyes widened, and he looked at you with an indecipherable expression.

"Y/n, wait! I'm not--she's not--I'm not seeing anyone. There's no one--"

"Aone. I saw the girl."

He shook his head furiously.

"She's just a classmate. I only bought her a coffee to thank her for buying me a cup when we were working on a group project and I was practically falling asleep. Y/n. The other coffee was still for you."

You blinked, feeling your cheeks warm at the realization. You had overreacted.

"Y/n, did you mean it? Do you really love me?"

You sniffled, suddenly not able to keep the tears in.

"Nobu, I--" you wiped at your nose haphazardly, looking down. "Yeah. I'm in love with you. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make things all complicated."

If you had looked up, you would have seen his lips turn just slightly upward at the corners. But you didn't look. He had to reach for you.

He didn't mind reaching a little bit.

"Y/n, I don't think I can remember a time before I loved you. I don't think I've ever wanted anything as much as I wanted you to love me back."

You finally met his eyes, shining with sincerity. Before you knew it, you were reaching out for him, and your lips were crashing into his.

He was warm and soft in your hands, kissing you back until you felt so light, you could have sworn you were floating.

"Y/n,"

He whispered it against your lips, worshipful.

Favorite Color:

If it wasn't obvious by my text color choice, it's purple. I've always loved that color. But! I am partial to forest green and sunflower yellow.

Last Movie: I have a thing for zombie movies! I don't get a lot of chances to watch a movie, but when I do it's almost always about zombies. The last one I watched is Apocalypse Z: Beginning of the End (which I can't recommend enough!).

Savory, Sweet, or Spicy:

I'm caught between savory and sweet, but given a choice of either or, I'll choose sweet. When I was taking my finals I would walk three blocks off campus to eat orange chicken. Both a comfort food and a thank-god-its-done food.

Last thing I Googled:

A chocolate glaze recipe! It was my Abuela's birthday this weekend and I made her a chocolate cake, but it needed some extra sparkle to it!

Current Obsession:

Lethal Company videos on Youtube. I've been burning my way through Mithzan's Lethal Company playlist. Watching those fools running around and sabotaging each other makes me laugh after a long and frustrating day.

Looking Forward To:

Getting a job. I recently graduated, and getting replies to my resume has been rough going. I'm hoping to have one soon so I can be a bit more independent and help my family financially.

I've just been reblogged like crazy.