I hate it when I obsessively stalk him and arrive at other people's profiles. Just finding out how close this person is to him or how many times they've hang out together. It makes me look back on how complicated our situation was before. And how f*cked up our feelings were. I know I shouldn't linger on these thoughts and I know I shouldn't have to torture myself with this kind of thinking. We are stable now. Not perfect but happy. And it's enough. Always.