could just be side effect of my pills-but i doubt they just decided to kick in after three days.
my ear is really infected and its horribly painful, red, and swollen.
i've come to the realization that i think last night was the first time i've been genuinely happy in so long. like; i didnt think about how fat i looked, or how bad my hair was. i was in the moment...although that could be just because i was high.
like even before we met up with the guys, i was happy.
maybe its because Jen knows about the pills but she doesnt bring it up, so i feel more comfortable.
it was just a good night full of laughs, and awesome conversations. i was so happy, Â and i still am.