#junwoong

reuqest (by anon): can you make a imagine about reader x choi joon Wong x park Joong gil . It's like the three of them are connected with the red string like soulmates

pairing: reader x junwoong x joonggil

warnings: blood, mentions of suicide

a/n: im not sure how many parts this story will be, but it will have two endings !

it's been a calm few months in jumadeung, specifically for the risk management team as the dark cloud, also known as park joonggil, has been off their back for a while now. he would love to block your way whilst a mission to mock your team and its purpose. you sigh as you remember the incident three months ago - you had signed a reaper's responsibility contract with him, as you had to keep one of the souls he had to escort for the sake of saving a living person. "are you sure you won't regret this?" you heard him say as he passed on the paper to sign. "im pretty sure i will, but that's the only thing that will stop you right now."

as if you needed more on your plate, there was the recruitment of a naive soul - junwoong. he had his heart on his sleeve but his death is a mystery to everyone, as the director sealed his previous life. she insisted that your team take him in. as you're getting lost in your thoughts, you felt your chest tighten itself around your heart. it felt like someone was taking out what was left of your soul. you struggled to breathe, and fell to the ground. it was for a few minutes, but you felt yourself almost turn into nothing. you lay down on the cold, dusty floor as you breathe vigorously. what the hell...? you felt yourself fall into unconscious, and against your will, your body relaxed and your eyes started closing.

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blood.

countless lifeless bodies.

sandy ground turned red.

you reluctantly look at your hands. a bloody sword in one, and the other dripping cold blood. you look up with your cold eyes and there he is. again. standing with a knife pointed at you, his eyes were crying out for you.

they were...yearning for you.

someone who isn't you, someone...you used to be.

"you killed him" a familiar voice cried out. "who are you!! what have you done with (y/n)??" he knows your name?

"but i am, i am (y/n)"

he shook his head as he trembled. "no....no! you're not (y/n), she would never do this!" why is the rest of his face...blurry? you hear a voice coming from him, but no features other than his eyes are visible to you.

"who...are you?" you choked out. but all you heard was his cries as he points the sword at himself and..."no!!" you reach out to him, only to grasp thin air. you were back to reality. "(y/n)? why are you crying? was it a nightmare?" you look to your side to see junwoong kneeling next to you, looking at you worriedly. you touch your face, and feel the tears you've shed for a man with no face.

it's been a while since you've seen this nightmare, why is it back? you weakly get up, pushing junwoong's extended hand away. "can you mind your own business? stop butting in" you don't look at him. "but..." he trails off. "if u have the time to chitchat then the reports i have asked are on my desk?" "a-ah not yet..." you sigh as you leave the shabby, cramped office. as the least favorite team in jumadeung, you sure have it rough.

as you were heading out of the main entrance, you make a sharp turn and walk back in the direction of the director's office. jong-gil, coincidentally witnessing your weird act, was curious.

you breathe in as you knock on the door. you hear her replying and you enter. "what brings you here at this time?" she's signing papers, the usual. "im sorry to disturb your work, i just...." you look at her "i've started getting those nightmares again." she stops writing and looks up. "now i can see his eyes...but nothing else." you hear her sigh "is that so..." you nodded "his eyes were in despair yet they had love for someone that was me...but isn't at the same time"

you feel yourself getting emotional. "they've all gathered in one place...." you hear her whisper. "when you first came here, you begged me to lock your past life's memories. your scars were so deep that one reborn wasn't enough for you to heal" she looks at you, her eyes searching yours. "it might be inevitable, your memories coming back. however, the people in your dream might have the same faces as some of the reapers here, but they aren't the same people." you were even more confused. their faces would be familiar...? "what do you mean-" she waves her hand signaling for you to leave. "im busy now, another time."

you leave, more befuddled and worried than at ease. which is why you fail to see the tall figure standing infront of you. "what the-" you look up to see a confused jong-gil. confused?? you mumble a sorry and continue walking until you heard him speak. "you haven't forgotten the contract you've signed, right?" you stop and turn slightly enough to acknowledge him, still not looking at him. "how would you want me to fulfill that?" "you know when the time will come." what is with everyone riddling today?? you finally look up to meet his eyes, that were already searching yours. you felt your heart tighten. you nod your head and turn back to leave as quickly as you can.

you threw yourself on the soft bed, sighing in relief. you're finally done with the day. throwing the covers over your body, you thought about today's incidents. so many questions yet no answers. why did i want her to lock my memories...what type of person was i in the past..? dwelling over the director's words, you decide to close your eyes for the second time today. unaware of what's ahead, you focus on your curiosity.

NOTE: this part is separate from the ending of part 2 !! reader ends up with joong-gil in part 2, but this part is how reader ends up w junwoong and their connection together. (same storyline)

warning: mentions of suicide

standing between the two older reapers, he noticed the red strings around their wrists. but what shocked him is when he saw the bright red on himself — for the first time since becoming a reaper. being naturally observant, he started thinking of a sensible explanation for this incident. but this isn't the first time - it happened once before. the time he witnessed your distressed state...was when he saw yours for the first time.

he heard somewhere, after he came to jumadeung that only the people connected together could see the fragile thread on the wrist of one another.

what did this mean? he cant deny the crush he’s developed for you ever since he laid his eyes on you, and to know that you’re related to his past? - he couldn’t help but feel giddy thinking about it.

but he was naive.

too naive.

it didn't occur to him that they could have a ill-fated relationship. the people in jumadeung questioned his strange death; but what they didn't know is that junwoong is just as clueless. years ago, a quiet junwoong walked behind the jade empress into jumadeung. all the leaders questioned her when she decided to assign him to the risk management team.

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flipping through the stack of reports on your desk, you were unable to understand the words written. you were in a daze ever since you came into work - all your team members were aware except yourself. "i can see your dedication, but i think you should go home and rest." you looked in the direction of the voice. "mistakes will make the other teams hate us more than they already do, and its a pain in the ass" ryung-gu had a point. ever since you've seen that nightmare, you couldn't stop about the man that ended his life before your eyes. you get the chills everytime you think about it.

junwoong was observing you this whole time. it tore him apart, seeing you silently dealing with your pain. he wanted to be there for you, but what can he do when you keep pushing him away? getting desperate, he went to see the only person that would have answers.

he silently leaves the worn out office. as he's walking absent-mindedly, he ends up colliding with a body that happened to be in his way. "ack that hurts!" he gently rubs his chest as he looks up, looking for the cause of his pain. "leader park joong-gil..." he feels the gaze of the older male. "is the jade empress your friend now? you've been showing up here quite often.." he trailed off.

"and what does that have to do with you?" junwoong retorted. he felt the joong-gil's eyes soften. what is this...? "don't ask too much...some questions are better left unanswered kid" wait- kid??? "where is the kid here?? i am no kid !!" joong-gil breathed out a quiet laugh. he's laughing...? "your answer is still the same" joong-gil mumbled, but the younger one heard him. "what do you-" joong-gil starts walking away before he stops a bit and turns to look at him "just remember...it's not your fault." junwoong was baffled to say the least. but he proceeded to enter nonetheless.

gently knocking the wooden door, he then enters. he felt his chest tighten ever so slightly, warning him of what's about to be said. "director...." she looks up at the young boy. she really had a soft spot for him. she couldn't bare tell him of his past. "(y/n) is in so much pain...and i don't know how to help her.."

but it was inevitable. his would need to go back into his past again.

she sighs. "are you sure you're ready?" he looked at her, slightly puzzled. "ready for what?" she stands up, and puts her hand over his eyes. "to go back in time."

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he opened his eyes, to find himself running. he was in a field of lifeless bodies, laying in a scattered manner.

adrenaline pushes him to run faster.

and from a distance, he sees a kneeling figure. as he reaches there, he stops in his tracks. he was too late. she had done it. she had killed their best friend.

feeling his tears threatening to fall, he looks for a sword. he picks it up, and points it at the now standing figure.

"you killed him" he chocked out. "what have you done??" he's crying now. "this isn't you...what happened to you?"

the person standing infront of him, covered in blood, was you. your eyes had lost its sparkle, and became dark, like your soul had died. he couldn't believe what he's seeing. he wanted to blind himself and forget the person thats standing infront him. the love of his life.

he couldn't take it anymore, it felt like his guilt was eating at him. his regret for not showing up in the right time...for not being there to stop you. things will never be the same, and he couldn't bare to live another moment with this memory engraved in his soul.

pointing the sword at himself, he looked at the sharp edge pointing at him. he can hear your pleads with his heart beating at his ears. taking one last breathe, he pushed the sharp weapon at himself.

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and just like that, junwoong opened his eyes again.

he feels his face, tear-stained. he sat down, bringing his hands to his face. he sighed "that's the nightmare she's been seeing every day..." he felt his tears threatening to fall again. "and here i thought we were meant to be together when i saw that stupid string." the empress gently put her hand on his slumped shoulder. "even though your ties had been severed, the story you write here can end differently."

he leaves the office, with his destination clear. he will stop watching you from afar, seeing your pained expression deepen as days go by. he didn't want you to blame yourself anymore, he didn't want to see the guilt eat you away. even if he couldn't be someone special to you, he wanted to be there for you.

he enters the office, only to see you resting your head on your desk, with your eyes closed. assuming you were asleep, he sat in the chair next to you. "(y/n)...you can rest easy now. please...stop blaming yourself." he gently pushes a stray hair strand away from your face. "i was the one to take that decision, not you.." and that's when you snapped your eyes open, causing him to almost fall down from his seat. "what do you mean...by that?" you looked at him, visibly nervous.

"uhm- so what i meant is-" he was intimidated by your stare, again. you sat straight, and turned to look at him. "i didn't mean to scare you..." just then, you felt yourself being wrapped into a warm embrace. you felt tense at first, but seconds after, you felt yourself relax into this needed embrace. "the person that kills himself...is me." you felt time stop, for the very first time. you then tried to escape his hold on you, just for him to tighten his grip around you.

"listen to me...im not saying this to make you feel more guilty. i want you to stop blaming yourself. focus on the present junwoong." you pull away to look at him. "focus on the junwoong who won't ever let you go again. i won't stand back and watch you in pain, i can't bare to do that any longer."

you let your tears fall infront of someone — for the very first time. unable to cry silently, you start to sob. he gently holds your face in his large hands, wiping away your tears. he was comforting you with his gaze, and his soft touches. "i don't know if i deserve this..." you finally said. "i think you've spent long enough in pain...im here for you, and only you."

you look at him, feeling things for the very first time. "can i kiss you?" you asked as his eyes dilated with surprise. "y'know, I've had a crush on you for several decades now." you laugh quietly as you pulled him in for a short peck. "and i might have just shamelessly fell for you." he gives you a wide smile before he pulls you in for another kiss.

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part 1 I part 2 I part 3 I bonus

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