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Winter sun, 2.2.2021.

I visited a graveyard at 8pm one evening before my trip to Helsinki. I really like these photos what I managed to take in dim light.

I went for a 1 hour long walk, deciding to head on forest roads where I never haven’t been / go before. And I’m so glad I went there! Landscapes were beautiful, found some yummy wild berries, the smell of autumn forest, peace and quiet (far away from people) and best thing; Small swimming shore! I had no idea it was there! It was so pretty and calming! <3 I wanted to stay there, but maybe next time. And next summer I will go swim there for sure! :D There also was small fireplace and those woods still smelled warm and burned so I assume someone had been there recently.

During my midnight walk I walked past flower & funeral store and these lovely things were at the window! I love that nest building and those cats! I want them but I have no place or space for them, booo!

I had nothing to do so I dressed up and went for a walk at midnight. After the walk I headed to sit for a near by canal’s deck. It was lovely! Calm, quiet, peaceful, small fishes jumping every now and then, almost full moon and stars. Before leaving I needed to take two last photos from the bridge and the water (in last photo) looks like empty hole which has a surface, but the bottom is endless. It looked MUCH freakier in live, ahah!

Some photos from my visit on big cemetery near by. I went there on Friday. That first photo is the entrance area and, God, I gasped happily when I saw it. The feeling in that area was so strong and the same whenever I step in old huge church during my travels! It was wonderful feeling! Literally made me feel like “stepped inside Lord’s house”, but then behind the gate, on the actual cemetery area. Nothing. There was a feeling of nothing. It was heck confusing. But nonetheless there were pretty graves / tombstones. I think my favorites are that wooden cross (pic 6) and tombstone next to it (pic 7). 6 because it was for 4 sisters. Two siblings had died only a year apart from each other and the last other two, also, had died (later) with year apart.  I wonder could it had been because they missed their dead sister so or illness... And then pic 7 tombstone fascinates me because of the mark on it. There was no names, no dates, nothing. Just that mark.

Photos looked SO MUCH more better in my phone. I don’t understand how their quality becomes more bad when I move them in my laptop :/

Tho I must admit that while I walked towards them, they made me feel very uneasy. For a some reason I couldn’t stop thinking concentration camps where Nazis used (to me) similar looking buildings to gas people to death. So I have this Love-and-Hate kind of relationship towards old buildings. Mostly they make me happy and excited and I want to know more about them, but then there’s also this side which makes me think all horrible things what has happen in history etc. making me feel super uneasy.