me: *watches one new (to me) episode of trollhunters*
me: *needs all the draal/jim fic*
me: *writes all the draal/jim fic*
draal knows this was his only option, getting a robotic arm to take the place of his natural one. but sometimes he wishes he could go back in time and move himself over just a bit, stop his arm from turning to stone.
without it, he just feels lost. the mechanical arm helps, to a degree, but he’ll never be the same again.
he'll never fully be whole again.
and it's thoughts like these that have him lying awake at night, when he should be asleep. it has him tossing and turning, wincing at the moments where he places his metal hand beneath his head and feels the coolness hitting his face instead of a warm hand.
“you're thinking too loud,” he hears a voice say softly next to him, and he glances down at the small frame of his trollhunter, a sigh escaping him as he realizes he's been caught.
“i’ll never be the same again,” draal says, turning onto his back, staring up at the rocks that sit yards above them. “this thing, it's-- it's not a part of me, it's just… there.”
“draal, a fake arm doesn't change who you are as a person,” jim says, sliding over and reaching for said arm, placing the hand against his cheek. draal watches as he does so, frowning.
“i-i can't even feel that,” he says, anger building inside him. “how can i ever be myself again?”
“just let it go,” jim says. “pretend it's really your arm. imagine everything you’d be feeling. it won't make you feel so empty.” draal sighs, turning onto his side, reaching forward and placing his natural hand on jim’s other cheek. the boy's eyes fall shut, and he nuzzles into the touch.
“at least i can still touch you with this hand,” draal says, lifting his thumb to brush a lock of jim's hair away before it can fall into his eyes. the boy's eyes fall back open, and he smiles up at draal.
“see? you're still here,” he says. “you're still you. you can still enjoy everything life has to offer.” draal gasps softly at the comment. how did he--? before he can finish that thought, jim is moving in closer, letting his head rest against draal’s broad chest. he presses a kiss there, before turning his head and brushing a kiss to the area just above where draal's mechanical arm starts. draal can't help but smile fondly at the action, bringing his natural hand up to gently pet jim's head.
“goodnight, trollhunter,” he says softly.
the two are silent for a few moments, before jim adds, “i love you.”
draal smiles, feeling himself blush. “love you too.”
he may be missing an arm, but with jim, draal can finally feel whole again.