Promise to a Stardust
Life had never been easy to everyone. We have different problems that we face every day. We have a lot of things to think. In my early age, I already experienced a lot of things. I already felt how to be hopeless. Seeing stars in the dark sky shining to give light in the night, memories flooded in my mind. The struggles, silent cries, pain and emptiness. There are things you won't expect to happen. There are times you don't know that will end and there are people who were with you to make memories but suddenly became a memory. Have you ever thought that you can find your true love in teenage? What was your definition of love? Do you believe that it will come to you at your early age? I was a kind of girl who focuses in my studies. I am lost in reality. I don't know who I really am. I don't know how to deal with a guy, well, not until he arrived. He was a kind of guy who jokes a lot, smiles every minute and can be the reason of laughter. We became close. We became comfortable with each other. And we found our own circle of friends. It was literally happiness for me. My friends who were with me the whole time. When we were struggling because of academics, we have each other’s arm. And him, Jake, who were with me all the time to cheer me up. After months of courting, I answered him. I clearly remember the smile on his face when he heard my yes. I feel like I'm living my best life while reaching my dreams. I have my family, friends and him, Jake. But life really have a twisted faith. You can't write your own destiny. You can't have your happy ending easily. Just when I thought that my life is already fine, full of shimmering eyes, genuine smiles and loud laughter, I never knew that it will end in just a blink. A sudden news popped on my phone. Many messages from my friends and a message who made me stopped. Jake is already gone. Yes, I lost my love. That is also the time when I also lost myself again. I don't know what is my feelings. I don't know what is missing. I can't just find myself. I don't understand everything. My mind and heart can't accept the struggles. I already don't know who I really am. I forgot that I have family, that I have friends who were with me all the time, that life has a lot of surprises. I was lost in the middle of nowhere. I was in the middle of darkness finding the light and my stardust who were already gone. I always ask myself that why do I always need to experience this such problems? Why do I need to carry a lot of expectations from other people? Why does life is so cruel? Why does reality hurts? Why do we need to lose some of our live ones? But there is only one thing I had realized despite those questions. It's life must go on. Even you were hurt a lot of times. Even you were lost. Even people around you can't accept the real you. Even you don't have a lot of friends. Even you don't know who you are and where you are. Life must go on. Why? God won't give you those circumstances if he knew you can't handle it. Accept your flaws and imperfections because that's what makes you perfect. Accept the real you. Accept that you need to survive life. You need to face those problems to achieve your dreams. You need to be fine. Maybe there are people who were really not meant to be with us forever. There are people who comes to our life to be a lesson. To make us stronger. Always treasure the memories you have with them. And if you feel lost, always remember that you have friends who were always there for you through ups and downs. Because based on experience, real friends were always there even if you push them away. If you can't find yourself, then find your home. Lean to the people who loves you eternally. In this life, you weren't alone. That's what friends and family are for, to lend a shoulder. I have my guide; I have my number 1 fan and I have my love. He's one in the stars shining in the dark sky. Every time I look up, I know, he's smiling at me, cheering me up, saying I can do it. I can overcome my struggles. I have him. My own stardust. It's my life. My story. My promise to my stardust.
