you are (STILL) why Iām here
reposting YOU ARE WHY IāM HERE, MARCH 8TH EDITION
Iām still here because of you.
Yup, Iām with a lot of you. I want it to be clever. I want the puzzle to add up to something, for there to be a greater game afoot. I showed up here because I fell head over heels in love with a version of this story that so many of you also see. I wanted the show makers to be making Our Story. But if they are, their game is cruel. And if they arenāt, I donāt need to keep looking for it.
Because it doesnāt stop that Iām still ridiculously in love with this story. And wow, many of you are, too. They donāt get to touch that. We exist in our own right, a bunch of little bright spots scattered all over the world connected by copper cable and invisible airwaves, and we get to share that, for as long as we want. We donāt need to be validated by one particularly loud narrator. We are the best narrators. We can find it in their episodes, we can cobble it together with our own hands. Iām here for your stories, your art, your umpteen intelligent, compassionate variations of this idea we love.
I could exist here as a very happy audience to your work, but then something totally magical happened. In the last few months, I found a brave part of myself I hadnāt dared think existed. The safety of this community helped me love myself enough to make time for my writing in the midst of family-work-a-day chaos and crushing self-doubt. To try harder, to take chances. I gave my stories to you and found kindness and excitement and acceptance. I mean, wow, thatās some healing shit.
Now. Multiply my little bright spot of an experience exponentially.
So. Thatās why Iām here. Because of you, because love conquers all, because youāre telling the story I want to read again and again, and I hope I am, too. May my small glow of appreciation lift you up, as you have often lifted me.
Please reblog if youād like to spread the love, add your voice.
shamelessly wallowing in gratitude and tagging willy nilly hither thither... there are hundreds and hundreds of you. xo
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