Dear Past Me,

Don’t invest yourself too much in one person. Joseph’s gonna get married, and that’s going to hurt like hell for a long time. He’s gonna have another kid, and that’s going to hurt too. He’s not going to make it to your graduation, but his parents are, so give that rose to his mama. It’s okay to stay friends with someone who loves you, and whom you love, even if you stop loving what they do. And you’re going to come to terms with that and it’s not going to hurt anymore. 

You’re going to learn some really tough lessons your first year of college. Really, really tough. They’ll almost break you, and you’re going to have to make some decisions no one your age should have to make. You’re still not going to be one hundred percent okay for a long time, but you will be better. Again this has to do with who you know. Hold on to the people who only say good things about you, and let go of the people who insult you and hurt you, even if they do it ‘jokingly’. They’re assholes. 

You’re going to be okay. You have a best friend now who’s dark and weird and funny and is totally cool with dressing up in cosplay with you and lets you pet her dog and plays with your cats even though she’s allergic. You’ll watch old movies and super hero movies and she’ll be way better to you than the last two were. 

You’ll come to terms to who you’ve known you were since you were sixteen, and while you have to keep that part of you a secret to your parents, you’ll know it and accept it and that’s all that matters. You will be loved and appreciated and you won’t be fat and people will call you cute and you’ll be almost done with a freaking NOVEL and you’ll paint when you’re stressed. And it’ll help. 

Hold on, kiddo. You’ll be okay. 

davidtennantbatch replied to your post “Hey guys! Thank you all so much for the birthday wishes! I’m really...”

I'm so sorry about your grandpa...that's really rough. If you ever need somebody to talk to, I'm always here <3

bowtietruckle replied to your post

I'm so sorry about your grandad Kenzie, I hope you're okay xxxx but try to have a good rest of your birthday xx :)

jodi-rutherford replied to your post

IF YOU NEED TO TALK, I WILL ALWAYS LISTEN, I CAN EVEN GIVE YOU MY PHONE NUMBER. MY AUNT HAD CANCER AND MY MOM HAS IT RIGHT NOW. I WILL ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU IF YOU NEED IT!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3

saleturn replied to your post

I'm really sorry... my aunt has cancer as well, she has been better lately. It is very important that he remains positive, studies say that mood has a big effect on the progess of the disease.

Thank you all so much for all the support!! Really, I can't tell you enough how much it means to me. I took a little break from tumblr to clear my head, but I feel a lot better with it. My Grandpa's really at peace with it all, so I'm really glad he's doing okay! He even keeps making jokes about "finally" being able to get out of housework now. :) I feel a lot better knowing he's okay.