#jhthoughts

Sometimes, my demons: they seem overwhelming. Unbearable. Their weight can seem like too much to carry on my own - to bear witness to continually. And it was this weight.. this darkness.. that used to consume me wholly. 

.. but now. My demons are merely background noise. Yes, they’re still there. But they no longer have control over my mind, my body, my actions. I only occasionally hear their whispers, beckoning me to succumb to them again. But now, I know what is true and what is false.. I know what is good and what is bad. And now, I know a light which is far greater than those demons, that darkness could ever be. I now know just how beautiful and radiant life can truly be. One which isn’t perfect but one which is filled with happiness, joy, and most importantly - peace. Things that I had spent my whole life on the pursuit of. 

So, while I may have lapses of time like this past month - where life isn’t necessarily bad but when I can hear the whispers, feel the darkness creeping in.. I can now pull myself away from those things. I can detach myself from my own negative thoughts and emotions and focus on the things that really matter like my family, my relationships, my well-being.. and that never fails to center me. To bring into perspective what I hold most dear and what is most important.