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I GOT MY WISH HOLY SHIT THIS EPISODE IS ULTRA SUPER TRAGIC CHIKANE TO THE MAX

also it shows why Himeko is actually...uh... i wanna say, desirable? till now my impression of her was mostly her own: that she’s weak, shy and incompetent and faints all the fucking time 

this is actually also Souma’s impression of her, he loves her BECAUSE he wants to(/THROUGH the impulse of wanting to) make sure that she can be happy, not suffering, not crying, as she is and was prone to, with her abusive parent and her insecurities. The most important part about her to him is her weakness, in a way. He truly is her protector first, which comes from a deeply held desire to keep her from suffering.

but through Chikane’s eyes Himeko is something entirely different. She is not weak or shy. Himeko is literally the light of her life, Himeko is comfort and warmth and human connection, after years and years of Chikane being treated like a distant moon by everybody in her life. Chikane wants that - Himeko - for HERSELF. To Chikane, Himeko’s most important part is her beautiful and warm soul. In a sense it’s a lot more selfish, but also a lot more ...wonderful.

especially when contrasted with Chikane’s concerted and HORRIBLY tragic efforts to stifle her feelings and facilitate Souma’s and Himeko’s romance.