#jaywon drabble

jungwon never quite understood as to why there's a fountain at their own campus, but it must be of some use to grumpy people, and by that he means park sunghoon.

as jungwon made his way to the campus’ fountain, he couldn't help but overthink the words he planned to say.

don't be stupid. just invite him over to a sleepover, easy peasy.

truth is, jungwon had only realized his special feelings for park jongseong when his best friend, kim sunoo, pointed it out– and gosh he hated how obvious he tends to be.

“hey, what are you doing?” sunoo asks in horror. was the yang jungwon holding a cat..? He's allergic!

“well.. jay hyung asked me to pet-sit his cat. you think you can drive us home?”

“jungwon.. you're gonna get sick. What are you doing?” from what sunoo knew, his best friend was not a people pleaser, so why exactly was he doing this?

but despite sunoo's scolding, jungwon's gaze melted in what you can only describe as lovesickness. “he smiled at me. his teeth showed hyung! I almost died..” he trails off, already in his own world by now.

“you're almost dying now if you keep holding that kitten! give her to me.” sunoo scolds jungwon once again, only this time it seems to bring him to his senses as he carefully allows sunoo to carry the cat. “we're going home.”

oh, it hurts to remember.

the reminder that jungwon was ridiculously in love with park jongseong always hits him straight in the gut, because he never really knew when it started, he just knew that one day, he woke up and jay was his first thought, jay made him smile, jay's sadness became his own, and what was worse, he was more possessive than he ever thought he would be.

February 22nd, junior year.

jungwon didn't like it. He didn't like the new sophomore transfer student, he was a trouble maker, he was loud and rebellious. he especially didn't like how much he clung to jay, his jay.

May 1st, junior year.

jungwon could only glare weakly at the girl gluing herself to jay's side, feeling an unexplainable rise of anger.

“hm?” sunoo noticed something immediately, nudging his best friend, “what's wrong?”

nothing, he wanted to say, but the words evaporated at the edge of his tongue, instead, he could only walk away and sulk in his corner of the room.

October 12th, senior year.

Everyone was getting ready for the school's welcoming ceremony, as they had only just started the new year, but all jungwon could think about was jay.

he was going to be up there, performing. all because he couldn't say no to the school's music teacher, who had a known soft spot for the school's ace, park jongseong. Jungwon was worried for him, he knew his friend wasn't big on receiving so much attention, and he knew that jay gets not only nervous but shy. How could he perform up there? What if he messes up his cords? What if he gets stage fright? What if-

“yang jungwon.” sunoo firmly says. “stop worrying. he'll be fine.”

“but-”

“no buts!”

“we all know what you're truly worried about-” “hey! What's that supposed to mean?”

“you're only scared more people are gonna find out about your precious park jong-” sunoo starts, eager to tease jungwon.

jungwon's rosy-pink cheeks are almost evident as he panics and covers sunoo's mouth with his very own hand. “stop!”

yeah.. he gets pretty jealous.

and jungwon wasn't stupid— he knew jay liked him back, but how could he confess? he's too shy..

“wonie?”

jay's voice snaps him out of his trance, and only then does jungwon realize he's reached the fountain. “hyung!”

“why are you here? don't you have class won?” jay asked concerningly, and gosh it almost melts jungwon completely. he was so gentle.

“ah- I have a free period.. I wanted to see if you'd like to have a sleepover?”

jay's smile widens almost immediately, “sure, I'll ask the rest!” jay beams, already on his phone to text their shared friend group, and the words ‘it was supposed to be just us two’ die on his tongue.

jungwon's house was overly chaotic with jakehoon's arguments, riki's whining, and sunoo's scolding.

sunoo who knew exactly what jungwon was trying to do and promised he'd give them a chance to talk. not that he succeeded..

“I'm gonna go to the kitchen.” Jake announced, and although he looked obviously pissed, jungwon was too consumed by his own thoughts to care.

soon after, sunghoon follows, and then riki and sunoo trail behind them to investigate— and suddenly jay and himself were left alone.

“sorry, too much?” jay smiles apologetically.

“they're.. a lot.” jungwon sighs, “but I like ‘a lot’.”

jay's smile widens further, and he inches closer to jungwon.

“y'know.. it was supposed to be just us” jungwon starts, “I wanted alone time with you.”

jay's confusion is evident, as he tilts his head slightly, “hm? what did you want it for?” he asks innocently.

jay was painfully oblivious, but he learned to not make assumptions as long as it wasn't clearly stated, to avoid bringing his hopes up. because believe it or not? jay has confessed to jungwon before and was rejected, so it was increasingly hard for him to believe that jungwon could like him back.

suddenly, when met with jay's clueless gaze, jungwon couldn't get his words out, and could only think of one thing. his lips. his soft plump lips that were far too inviting than he had expected.

and suddenly, as if hypnotized, he moves closer to jay. “to do this;” he whispers upon jay's own lips, before he captures them in a searing kiss.

It wasn't rushed or heated, it was deliberate. jungwon poured everything he felt into the kiss, hoping jay could understand his own thoughts and reciprocate.

it took a few seconds, but once jay understood what was happening, he kissed back with equal force, too far involved in the feel of his soft lips to notice riki standing there in horror.

“riki, where'd you go..” sunoo calls out stopping in his tracks as soon as he catches a glimpse of the scene.

only then did jay and jungwon pull away, bracing for their reactions.

“my eyes..” riki weakly starts, who then gets urgently pulled away by sunoo.

It only took a second for both of them to break into a fit of laughter, forgetting how awkward it felt five seconds ago when they were caught.

“It's not funny!!” riki calls from the kitchen, but they are too far gone to feel bad.

“so you like me, yang?” jay starts, looking overly smug for someone that was so oblivious a few moments earlier.

“shut up.”