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Rewind, Remix, & Replay Jay & Kim 6x6

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You guys have no idea how excited I was to write this chapter!!! The whole thing came together in just over an hour. Things are going to start getting some momentum and some more stuff is going to get aired out. 

Jay had been over at Haliey's checking up on her. After hearing her in the interrogation room he knew his partner shouldn’t be alone. He had been there trying unsuccessfully to get her to talk to him about it for over an hour. He was finishing up his second beer sitting at her island in the kitchen when she got up to answer the knock on her door.

He recognizes the voice and when he rounds the corner, he sees Ruzek standing practically on top of Haliey. The way he is in her space is intimate. Jay feels anger clench in his chest. After the way, he talked to Kim about their inter-team relationship, and he was messing around with Haliey. Where did he get off?

Jay knew the moment Ruzek saw him. The man immediately took a few steps back and his gaze shot away from Haliey guiltily. “It’s not what it looks like.” Jay scoffs- this is the guy Kim was so mad about him punching? This self-righteous hypocrite, who couldn’t even own up to his relationship? It was pathetic.

“Smart, nothing good comes from workplace relationships.” The comment was sarcastic and bitter. He goes back into the kitchen to grab his jacket. He is yanking it on and heading back out the door before he says or does something he will regret- or makes Kim mad at him again. He hears Haliey call his name as he leaves the door swing closed behind him. Upton was his partner if nothing else then she should have told him. He knew the familiarity they were showing- they had been together for a while.

Jay closes Kim’s apartment door a little too harshly. She takes that to mean that Haliey hadn’t been receptive to his pep talk. “Is Hailey, okay?” Kim mutes the TV as Jay walks into the living room.

“Oh, I’d say so.” Kim’s eyebrows furrow together at his angry tone as he takes off his jacket and throws it over the back of the recliner. Jay puts his hands on his hips as he levels her with a straight stare. “Ruzek and her are together.” Jay’s blue gaze watched her intently for any reactions. Kim had been with Ruzek and she was devastated after she had felt forced to end things. He knew she had held on much longer than she had appeared to. If his confrontation with Adam had caused so much emotion in her, he could only imagine how she would feel when she found out he was screwing around with her friend. Maybe she would react like Ruzek had.

Jay didn’t see any emotions filter across her face. Just the furrow of her eyebrows scrunched together. “Yeah, I know.” Her simple statement makes his frustration rise and he isn’t sure why.

“You know?” He repeats searching her warm brown eyes, “For how long?” Kim hums in thought pressing her lips together.

“Um, the last few weeks, maybe a month.” Her smile turns rye and there is a slight shake of her head as she plays with the ends of the blanket on her lap. “Adam isn’t as discreet as he thinks he is. You think he would have learned better by now.”

“And it doesn’t bother you?” His tone is low and thick with an emotion she can’t quite name. Kim tries to figure out why he is so upset. Was it the fact that Hailey hadn’t told him or maybe the comments Adam had made after finding out they were together and then subsequently doing the same thing he had shamed them for?

“No, why would it?” Jay crosses his arms across his chest. The change in demeanor catches Kim’s notice. It wasn’t like Jay to beat around the bush and it was slightly off-putting trying to guess what he was thinking.

“Well, you were mad at me for a few days after I punched Adam.” Kim’s mouth parts in the realization of what Jay had been getting at. And the emotion that she hadn’t been able to place- jealousy. The miscommunication of what had happened the night Jay had decked Adam for his out-of-pocket comment. Kim throws the blanket off her lap and closes the distance between them.

“Jay I wasn’t mad at you,” He scoffed giving her a disbelieving look, “I wasn’t. Hey, Jay listen to me. Adam deserved what he got. Honestly, I was impressed you lasted as long as you did, to be honest. The comments were getting to me too.”

“Then why were you-?” Kim sighs stalling her hands that were absently rubbing up and down his arms. Her gaze fell to their feet guiltily. Voight had been pissed about what she had done but he had kept it quiet. Nobody had found out that she had lied and then hidden the fact that Kendra had been a witness to try to save herself at the expense of the case. Kim hadn’t told Jay because she had been so ashamed and hadn’t wanted Jay to think less of her or her ability to do her job.

“The ride along,” She huffed out a sigh, “I lied about Kendra being in the car. I knew she might have witnessed the shooting. Voight threatened to bury me if I ever did anything like that again. I know I deserved it-but it was hard to hear.” Kim swallowed hard. She still hadn’t come to terms with her stupid decision yet. “I wasn’t mad at you. I was mad at myself- and embarrassed, ashamed, and I felt guilty.” Tears burned at the back of her eyes as she blinked forcing them away. “I didn’t tell you because I didn’t want you to think of me differently. That I wasn’t a good cop.”

“Baby,” His voice was soft, and he cupped her jaw forcing her head up. Her watery brown eyes meet his. “I don’t think that. Mistakes are part of the job. It happens and it will again. That is why you have to rely on your team. Rely on me.” He wipes away the tear that drips down her cheek with his calloused thumb.

“You don’t have anything to worry about, ya know.” She turns her head to kiss his palm, her brown eyes locked with his blue ones. “I love you, Jay.” His posture instantly relaxes the tension melting from his body. The words that had been stuck in his throat for months slipped so easily from her lips. It lights his chest with a pleasant warmth a smile taking over his face.

Rewind, Remix, & Replay Jay & Kim (Bonus) Med 4x6

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This didn’t come out exactly the way I wanted but it will do. NSFW content below! Sorry about the wait. I think writer block is slowly setting in.

Jay had been working on Will’s Bachelor party for weeks. Kim thought it was a good thing considering the friction between the brothers. Jay had been putting a lot of effort into it even though he felt the fact that it was combined with Natalie's bachelorette party and the costume theme was ridiculous. Kim had to agree with the first one- if she ever did end up getting married, she was going out with a bang with all of her girlfriends. The second part however she vehemently disagreed.

She loved Halloween and to dress up. Her attempt to get Jay to do matching costumes had been a complete flop. He was going in a black suit no matter what Kim said. She had decided to pick something dressy to kind of match him. Jessica Rabbit has seemed like the obvious choice and easy to come up with. A red dress with a cut clean up to the hip, red heels and lipstick, and purple arm-length gloves. Jay had stopped and stared when she had entered the venue a low whistle escaping his lips as he eyed her figure appreciatively.

He had come early to finish getting everything ready before all the guests arrived. The party had been in full swing for about an hour now. The place was packed with doctors, nurses, police officers, firefighters, and other friends and family. Everyone was indulging in food, alcohol, and conversation.

Kim was trying to mingle with Natalie after congratulating her on her upcoming wedding. The woman was all smiles but the encounter was awkward. Kim had been trying her best to gain a semblance of friendship with her to no avail. She planned on being with Jay indefinitely. If she and Nat were going to continue spending hockey game nights and holidays together being on friendly terms seemed the best option. That being said the two of them just didn’t seem to click.

Kim downed the last few gulps of her drink to aid the awkwardness she was feeling. “Hey baby,” Kim turned with a start to see Jay. A huge smile took over her face, and she leaned forward for a kiss. Jay pushed back a few tendrils of her hair and pressed another peck to her lips. He slides behind her, his hands wrapped around her waist as they start rocking together to the beat. “Have I told you how incredibly sexy you look in that dress?” The words are whispered against her neck his stubble scraping her skin.

Kim tilted her to give him better access a soft hum of delight leaving her lips. She leans back into him her hands caressing his arms. He kisses her shoulder pulling her tighter back against him. His touch sends a pleasant heat to her lower stomach. Kim feels sexy and the buzz from the alcohol makes her feel bold. She turns in his arms breathing the words against his lips, “You should see what is underneath.”

She slips out of his arms leaving him stunned. Kim only gives him one heated backward glance as she slips around the corner and into the bathroom. Less than a minute passes before Jay joins her. She watches him flip the lock. She sashays slowly over to him stopping only inches from him.

He is on her in an instant. His hand grabs her face and tilts it the way he wants it. His lips are hungry, dominating their kiss. He backs her into the wall and she gasps into his mouth as the chill of the brick hits her skin. His arms cage her in pressing himself tightly against her body. Kim can feel the hardness of his cock rubbing against her with every rock of his hips. Her hands grab at him in a frenzy feeling the muscles of his shoulders bunch as he grabs her thighs and lifts her. She moans wantonly into his mouth as her legs wrap around his waist.

His fingers find her hair tugging on the strands, knowing it drives her wild. Kim throws her head back and he assaults her neck with kisses. They make a path down to her breast flush with where the top of her dress lays. Kim presses down on his shoulders using it as momentum to rock herself more aggressively into him. Curses fall from his lips as his hands palm her ass squeezing it tightly.

Kim pushes the thin straps off of her shoulders allowing her dress to fall bunching at her stomach. Jay wastes no time in finding a nipple, his tongue swirling around the bud. Kim leans back pushing more of her weight against the wall as she arches her back. He leathers attention onto her aching breasts. Kim's eyes are half-lidded watching their forms in the mirror. It’s erotic and she feels a rush of arousal flood her. “Jay,” Her voice is sultry and husky and catches his attention instantly. “I want you to bend me over and fuck me in front of that mirror.”

He groaned, sliding her slowly down his body and back onto her feet. His left hand trailing purposely up her thigh where the slit of her dress reveals creamy pink skin. Kim pulls away from him to go to the counter in front of the mirror. Jay meets her eyes in the mirror as he undoes his belt and jeans as he strides toward her. He doesn’t waste his time removing clothes, he just pushes her dress up and his pants down enough for him to slide inside her. He groans when bare pale skin is revealed to him. No panties. “Are you trying to fucking kill me- but damn you are right- I love what’s underneath-fuck,”

Kim's senses go into overdrive as she arches back into him. Jay was always a tight fit but she is so wet it is an easy slide. She braces her hands on the counter as he starts thrusting roughly inside her. Her gaze drops and she cries out loudly when he shifts just enough the angle changes and hits an unexpectedly sensitive spot inside her. A flood of arousal soaks his cock and her thighs. His hand wraps around her neck squeezing just hard enough to get her attention. “You look at me when I’m fucking you this good.”

The words make her flush from her head to her toes. Her gaze finds his in the mirror again. When his hand starts to release pressure and edge away, she grabs his wrist forcing him to hold her neck tighter. He takes the cue wordless choking her just tight enough to restrict her air. His pace is brutal and they are both rapidly approaching their climaxes. Jay can feel Kim’s core fluttering around his cock. His other hand finds her clit and starts rubbing firm precise circles. Her moans get louder and his grip on her throat tightens. “Quiet or everyone will hear you. Or is that what you want? You want everyone to know how well I fuck you? How good I make you feel? How loud I can make you scream?”

“Jay,” Her cheeks were flushed a beautiful shade of pink, her knuckles white from the grip she had on the counter. Jay could feel her thighs trembling and she was leaning more of her weight against the counter her nipples rubbing against the marble of the countertops.

“That’s it, baby, say my name. Say my name as I make you come all over my cock.” Kim practically screamed his name as she finally came. Her core clenched hard around Jay’s dick as wave after wave of pleasure rolled over her. He continued fucking her through her orgasm and into his own.

He held her tighter as he caught his breath, leaning forward to place a gentle peck on the curve of her neck. Kim turns languishly in his arms leaning back against the counter with her hip. Her hands slide up his chest still fully clothed chest feeling his heartbeat pounding against her palm. Then she steals another slow lazy kiss. Jay fixes her dress, gently pulling the straps back over her shoulders before smoothly the fabric down her sides. He stops at her hips grabbing them and lifting her to sit on the counter.

Rewind, Remix, & Replay Jay & Kim 5x17  

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This is a shorter, lighter one. The next few are probably going to be that way too. In the next few chapters, this story is going to get more AU while continuing to follow the storyline. Some chapters won’t have to do with episodes if there is nothing to build upon with Jay and Kim.

Minor Edit: 10/20/25

Kim’s eyes fluttered as she fought the sleep pulling her back under. She was exhausted, and her body pulsed with a delicious soreness from being fucked well and thoroughly. Jay and Kim had fallen into bed, or in their case the couch, for the first time on Tuesday and now it was Saturday morning. The week passed by in a blur of working long hours during the day and having hot sex all night. It was like they were making up for lost time after months of foreplay. Kim had gladly given up sleep, eating on a normal schedule, and various other trivial but necessary adult activities to make time for her and Jay’s rising libidos.

Kim had never understood when people said they craved sex. Kim liked sex. She liked how it made her feel, the stress it released, the calmness in her head, and the fatigue in her body after. Kim Burgess had wanted sex, but she had never craved it. Not until she had rolled in the sheets with Jay Halstead. She now understood the ache in her lower belly that demanded sex. She craved sex.

She craved Jay.

Kim wiggled farther into Jay's body. She was wrapped in his arms with their legs intertwined, her face buried in his strong chest. She groans lowly as Jay’s body moves as he turns to reach for the bedside table. Kim’s mind processes what woke her, the ringing of a phone. “’s yours.” Jay’s voice is thick with sleep as he taps the cold plastic against her naked shoulder. Kim’s hand blindly reaches for it. Her eyes crack just a sliver to answer it and put it to her ear.

“Burgess,” She mumbled. Jay, realizing she wasn’t getting up, wrapped his arm around her again, rubbing down the length of her back. His brain was fuzzy around the edges, and his body was pleasantly sore. He listened to Kim hum and give short answers to the person on the phone. “Late night…Mhmm, a crazy case…Yeah.” Kim bolted upright, the covers falling to her naked waist, startling him. “Yeah, I can pick you up.” Jay watched her turn to get out of the bed as he lifted onto his elbow. Then she paused, tension leaving her body, her eyes sliding back closed. “Oh, yeah, yeah, I can do that for sure. Wait, what time is it now?” Her voice rose in discombobulated confusion. “Right, okay, no problem at all, Zoey, see you then.”

Jay watched in amusement as Kim dropped the phone onto the mattress at her side before rolling and tucking herself back against him. She moaned happily as her chilled skin pressed against his warm body. Her nipples were hard from the cool air and dragged against his bare skin. Jay tries to ignore how it makes his already half-hard cock harden more. It was seemingly the only part of his body that hadn’t tapped out in exhaustion from the prolonged activities of the night before. “Everything okay?”

“Mmmhmm, Zoey just wants me to pick her up from her dad’s at five.” Jay carded his fingers through her thick tresses, kissing her forehead.

“You want to get some brunch before you leave? I don’t think we ended up eating last night.” Jay felt her lips curve into a smile against his chest as she teased him.

“I vaguely remember you eating for hours last night.” The wetness still clinging to the inside of her thighs and the wet spot on the bed being solid evidence in that case. A cocky smile comes to Jay's mouth. “I will take you up on food though, after a nap. We got four hours. That should be long enough time for a shower too- if you can behave yourself.”

“Me?” Jay breathed out a laugh, looking down at the vixen masquerading as an angel in his arms. “You know I was good after round two last night. You were the one who woke me up with your mouth around my-” Kim bit down on his peck, making him hiss. She soothed the bite with her tongue.

“Are you arguing with me, Halstead?” Jay opened his mouth with a smartass remark on his tongue, “While I’m naked in your bed, wrapped around you?” Jay huffed out a sigh, shifting so she was further in his embrace, head tucked under his chin.

“You make a good point, Burgess.” Kim pressed a kiss on his peck in reward for seeing it her way.

— 

Kim was being drawn out of sleep by a strong hand caressing her back and a low voice calling her name. She rolls onto her back, looking up at Jay. He was sitting on the edge of the bed with a cup of coffee in his hand. “Hey,” He smoothed her hair out of her face, “We slept later than planned. There is no time for lunch now, but we can probably sneak in a quick shower- Don't worry, I will behave myself; scouts honor.”

Kim pushes up onto her hands, “Can I have one of those?” Kim notices that he has pulled on boxers and seems much more awake than she was. That was hard. Jay was a morning person. Kim swore he could wake up and be on his feet in ten seconds flat. An army trait, no doubt. It was as annoying as it was endearing.

He wraps her hand around the cup. “This is for you.” Kim squeezed his hand before taking a huge gulp. She tried to shake the cobwebs out of her head. “You have an hour until you have to leave. Assuming that you are picking up Zoey from her dad’s house.”

“Yeah,” Kim's eyes dropped to her cup. Jay squeezed her arm comfortingly, knowing there had been problems in that house. Kim was pretty tight-lipped about it, but she had spilled a little information when she had been drunk. Jay had half a mind to tell Jordan Sliver just what he thought of how he was treating his little girl. “Thank you,” She swiftly changed the subject, looking at him doubtfully, “You were a Boy Scout?” His dimpled smile was the only response he gave. Kim squinted, looking for signs of his deception.

Jay raised his hands in surrender, “Fine, I wasn’t, but I promise you will leave on time. ” The way his eyes travel over her naked frame, she wonders how truthful that statement was. The room still smells of sex. It lingers on the sheet and their skin. She needs a shower before she picks Zoey up. “Maybe I’ll even bring over another pizza and dessert for you and Zoey tonight. I’ll even let you guys pick the movie- no complaints.” His smile is easygoing, and Kim about kicks herself when the next words come out of her mouth without her permission.

“Jay, what are we doing?” She had been wondering about it all week, and it finally bubbled over. Kim was an overthinker and had been struggling with not knowing how Jay felt about this whole situation. They had been friends who were filling a physical touch void, which she understood. She understood them sleeping together, too- the chemistry between them was something she had never felt before. But there was this real friendship and care for her and Zoey. And it wasn’t just him going through the motions. Kim knew what that looked like.

He genuinely wanted to be around.

Kim expected flowery words with no real weight behind them. False sincerity and maybe promises. That is what she was used to. It was what Adam had given her. What other boyfriends had done before him.

She wasn’t expecting his blunt honesty.

“I don’t know.” His expression is serious, but he still has a lighthearted grin on his lips. “But I do know I don’t want to stop, whatever this is. I know that I haven’t been this happy in-Fuck a really long time. And I promise that as long as we are sleeping together, I won’t sleep with anyone else. And that if anything changes, I will tell you.” Kim is silent as she absorbs what he is saying. She is strangely soothed by his words, even with their lack of direction. Maybe it was because she knew they came from an honest place, and he wouldn’t leave her wondering if something had changed and feeling stupid after. “I know that doesn’t really answer your question, but is it good enough for now?”

Rewind, Remix, & Replay Jay & Kim 6x3

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I know I made Adam a bit of an asshole, but he is kind of known for his overreactions. I promise he will get over it. Emotions are running high in the PD.  

They don’t need to make the announcement when they return to work the week following Jay’s dad’s death. It was pretty obvious to the team why Kim would take the time off. Trudy, Voight, and Kevin had already known and Antonio had his suspicions. The only two taken off guard by it was Haliey and Adam.

The two had been so preoccupied with keeping their own relationship a secret they hadn’t had time to look at anyone else’s. Hailey only felt mild frustration it had slipped past her keen eye. While Adam had been visibly upset when initially finding out. When the team had come in the day following Jay getting shot the bullpen had been missing two of the team members. Voight had made a short but officiant announcement that they would be pulling double duty as two of their members would be out for the week. "Two Sarg?” Adam had asked looking over at Kim’s empty desk.

“That’s what I said.” Voight tone bore no further questions as he headed to his office. Everyone had watched as a range of different emotions flashed across Ruzek’s face. Adam felt betrayed when he realized that he seemed to be the only one blindsided by this revelation.

One that he tried to rationalize with other plausible reasons Kim could be off at the same time as Halstead without them being together. He hadn’t come up with many and the ones he had were unlikely at best. The pair showing back up to work on the same day, at the same time, carrying paper coffee cups with the same logo would squash any alternative but the truth.

They were together.

They both looked worse for wear. A little tired and distracted. Neither seemed to be on top of their game but were in decent headspaces. There was one other notable difference. They were walking in and around each other like magnets. While they hadn’t talked about actively stopping their attempts to be discreet, they both just had.

It wasn’t a crazy big difference. It was Jay lingering around Kim’s desk. Kim bringing Jay coffee when she went to the breakroom for her cup. The way the two of them seemed to suddenly have the ability to communicate through just a look. It was Kim leaning just a little too close into Jay’s space when he was showing her information in a file their bodies brushing against each other. The natural way Jay’s hand found Kim’s lower back when he needed to slide behind her.

It all pissed Adam off.

It came to a head just before their shift was over. It was just Kim and Adam left in the bullpen. Kim was gathering her things when Adam finally broke, “Halstead huh?” The words were bitter. Kim straightened; she had been dreading this moment. She could feel Adam’s eyes on her all day. It was whenever Jay was within arm's reach of her. His animosity thick in the room.

“Just say what you need to say, Adam.” Adam scoffed heading towards her.

“Out of everybody you could pick- Everyone in Chicago- hell the precinct- Halstead, c’mon Kim, really?” Kim bristled. She had promised herself that she would just let Adam get whatever he needed to silently. He would feel better and they could all move on. The thought went out the window with Adam’s comment about Jay.

“What is that supposed to mean?” It came out much sharper than she intended and it made Adam get even louder.

“Oh, I don’t know Kim. What do you think it means? I’ve worked with the guy for the last six years. We are friends- don't you think you should have told me- that might have been the decent thing to do. I didn’t even think Halstead was the type of guy you would be interested in. Right after Al’s death too. Is that how you grieve Kim, fucking cops?”

“The decent thing to do-” Kim's jaw clenched and she felt anger a breath forcing out of her lungs. Her voice raises louder and louder anger simmering in her.“Like you have any idea what the decent thing to do is? First off, my personal life is none of your business anymore- Jay and me- I don’t owe you anything. And how dare you-” Her voice drops dangerously low with hurt and she has to stifle a sob, tears of frustration and hurt burning her eyes. “Bringing Al into this. He was my partner, Adam.”

Adam's eyes soften darting away from hers. He knew he crossed a line. The pounding of feet on the steps covers his calling of her name. Jay comes into view and Adam can tell by the look on his face he heard a good chunk of their argument. His brows are furrowed, jaw clenched, eyes dark and sharp glaring at Adam. His gaze shifts to Kim who is hastily throwing on her jacket. “I could hear you guys down stairs. What the fuck is your problem Ruzek-”

Rewind, Remix, & Replay Jay & Kim 6x5

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This one is pretty short but it should hold you over. I’m so excited to write the next four chapters. I have big ideas! That being said it might just be one chapter next week.

The team had all gotten together for brunch. Trudy was celebrating her twenty-five years as a cop. Playing two truths and a lie was always fun and competitive when it was a table full of cops. “And go,” Trudy sat back in her seat waiting to see what the tables consensus was.

“Okay, Dickin’s don’t do Karaoke so that’s the lie.” Kevin is confident and Hailey points at him agreeing with his words. But Kim shakes her head dismissively thinking she knows her mentor better than that.

“No definitely not. It’s soccer. The woman hates moving.” Trudy scoffs at the comment crossing her arms over her chest. Her sharp eyes watched the way that Kim leaned into Jay. Their chairs were pulled close together and his hand was resting on her thigh with her hand on his forearm absently caressing it with her thumb. The familiarity spoke of a long relationship in its natural movements and shared looks.

Jay laughed, “Yeah, there is no way you play varsity soccer in high school.” The table continued their roasting. The team was in high spirits and the last week had been running smoothly. The tension between Jay and Adam had faded along with his impressive shiner. They all lingered even after they finished eating, enjoying the company and teasing of one another.

Jay got up to order another mimosa for Kim at the bar. It was a Saturday and they may have another round if they were going to be there for a while. A shadow fell over him. “You want another drink Sarg?” When Trudy didn’t respond he turned to look at her. Her gaze is still on the table the team is sitting at.

“I haven’t seen her that happy in a while.” Jay’s blue eyes followed her gaze to Kim. She had a huge smile, and Antonio said something that made her throw her head back and laugh. The sound brings warmth to his chest. It’s infectious and makes him smile too. “Don’t screw this up, Halstead. That is my girl, you better take care of her. I promise you, you won’t find better.”

Jay turned to fully face her. Her eyes held a seriousness that he matched. “I know. I have every intention of keeping that smile on her face.” Life was finally settling down. Work was back to normal. Everyone was getting along and had fallen back into a seamless understanding and camaraderie.

Kim’s sister had spent two weeks in rehab. Zoey had been staying with Kim and in turn with him. The pair didn’t sleep apart well anymore. Nicole had gotten out and was more like herself. Zoey had gone home. A peace in Kim that had been missing for too long had returned. She seemed lighter. Less worry furrowing in between her eyebrows. “She is my girl too.” Trudy gave him a short curt nod of acceptance. If Jay didn’t know any better, he might have thought she had teared up a little.

“Good because I like you, Halstead. I would hate to have to kick your ass.” Jay couldn’t contain his bark of laughter. “I mean it Chuckles. You hurt her and you’ll pay the price.” It wasn’t the first hurt her and I’ll kill you spiel he had gotten but he did not doubt that it was the most dangerous. And that was saying something considering he had gotten it in various degrees from Kevin, Antonio, and Voight. Kim was well loved in the team and the men within were protective of the females. Apparently, that protection was limited to outside the group. Jay didn’t mind it though. Honestly, he was happy there were so many people who cared about Kim. If that meant he had to deal with a little more third-degree he would take the tradeoff.

“I do not doubt it. And if I do- I'll let you.” A silent understanding passed between the two. It was broken by the bartender setting a bright orange drink on the bar. Jay pulls out his wallet fishing out a few bills before handing them to the server. “Thanks, man. Her next drink is on me too.”

“A Bloody Mary,” Trudy told the man who nodded and pulled a short thick glass. Jay laughed as he shoved his wallet back into his pocket.

“I should have guessed.” He tapped the bar top before grabbing the drink and heading back over to the table. Trudy kept facing the bar but watched in the mirror. She watched as Kim turned in her seat as Jay approached her, their fingers grazing as she took the glass from him. She watched Kim’s chair slide closer after Jay sat down closing the distance between the two of them. Her hand went to his thigh as he threw his arm over the back of her chair.

Rewind, Remix, & Replay Jay & Kim 6x2

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Alright guys, let’s buckle up for the next few chapters. We are in the midst of one of Jay’s spirals. He has gone through a lot and now he has to figure out how to live on without his dad or the closure he needed from him.

I'm not quite sure if I hit the mark with this one- I had some trouble getting what I wanted down on paper. The episode was so emotion driven it was kind of hard to add anything more to it. 

Kim's surprise shows on her face when Jay joins her. “Are you working this case?”

“It’s good to see you too.” Kim’s dark brown eyes were worried. Jay dismisses it off hand. “I’m fine. There is a murder out there and it’s my job to catch him- end of story.” Kim gives him a skeptical look. Jay starts walking and Kim falls into step with him.

“No, not end of story. You just lost your dad, Jay. You should take some time-”

“Kim, I don’t need time. I’m all good.” Kim didn’t know who Jay thought he was lying to she had seen how wrecked he was in the hospital. She grabbed his arm forcing him to stop and stand across from her. “C’mon, you know my relationship with my dad wasn’t like that. We weren’t close. We were distant at best, I got used to it.” Jay’s tone bodes no argument but Kim pushes anyway.

“I think you want to believe that. But Jay I was there- You need more-” Jay feels his frustration hit a boil suddenly- the tight control he normally had on his emotions busted and in need of repair. He doesn’t even have time to process the awful words that he slews her way, he just wants her to stop talking.

“Look I know you have daddy issues but don’t project them onto me.” They burn his throat like acid. She doesn’t respond but her face says it all. She had gotten so good at keeping her face unreadable for the job the last few years. But she doesn’t even try to hide them this time. Jay feels it like a punch to the gut. His anger fades and he feels immediate chest heavy guilt. He goes to apologize for his very out-of-pocket comment but doesn’t have a chance because of the sound of gunfire.

Kim takes off without looking back to see if Jay is following. He is right at her back pulling his gun. When they see the girl bleeding from a gunshot wound to her chest. Jay stops and puts pressure on her wound, telling her she is going to be okay. Kim takes off after the shooter.

“You listen to me because it is my job to keep you safe and I will always do my job and you will do yours.” Kim stays back as Voight’s voice carries across the street. She wanted to run to Jay. Touch him and feel his heartbeat. She can see that he is very much alive but still her brain is having trouble believing what her eyes see.

He is shirtless and pale as a ghost sitting on the bumper of the ambulance. She can see the ugly black bruise already taking up most of his peck and growing. The spot where she rested her head to sleep. The spot where he had been shot, only saved by his bulletproof vest. His side was bandaged from where the bullet had gone through luckily missing anything major. Still, Kim feels sick to her stomach.

Voight finishes his conversation with Jay and starts stalking back her way. Kim wants to go to Jay but it is clear that he has something he wants to say to her. “Kim,” She straightens and leans closer. “Take a couple of days off. I want you to watch Halstead.”

“Of course, Sarg.” Kim can see the worry in Hank’s eyes. He nods at her and she starts to walk over to Jay. Voight grabs her wrist and she pauses to look back up at him.

“I don’t want him back until he’s got his head on straight.” Kim hears the seriousness in his tone and nods at him. “You call if you need anything.” He squeezes her arm in support and gestures with a tilt of his head to Halstead.

Kim doesn’t waste any time heading over to him, eating the distances with her hurried strides. Her fingertips ghost over the bruise on his chest without thought. It would be a long time before she would be able to sleep on him. Jay’s hand catches her wrist bringing her hand up to kiss her palm. “Baby, I’m so sorry about what I said. It-” He huffs out a breath his ribs burning as he starts to come down from the adrenaline. “It was completely out of line.”

“You just got shot and that’s what you want to talk about?” Kim had been upset about the comment. It had cut her deeper than she cared to acknowledge. She knew Jay was only lashing out because he was in emotional turmoil. That didn’t excuse his hurtful words, not completely. However, she felt like there were bigger things to talk about considering his injuries.

“It’s important. I want to make sure we are okay. I need to know we are.” His blue eyes were overflowing with emotions, begging for assurance. His grip on her hand was tight. She brought her other hand up to cup his cheek. He leaned into her hand and she pressed a kiss to his jaw.

“Jay, we are okay.” Kim watched some of the tension leak out of his body. He was still holding himself stiffly, favoring his one side. His hand wraps around the nape of her neck pulling her closer. For a second, she thought he might be trying to steal a kiss, but he just pressed his forehead against hers. His fingers tighten in her hair. She rubs her hand down his forearm and eases down next to him on the back of the ambulance.

“I just couldn’t help myself. Not after being a bystander to my dad’s… I couldn’t help get him out of the fire. Couldn’t help him in the hospital like Will. I just- I had to do something. I had to get this guy. I had to help.” Kim squeezed his hand thinking of how to respond. She was saved by his abrupt change in topic to something safer. “Did you see how pissed Voight was?”

“You scared him Jay- scared the hell out of me too. He just wants to make sure you are okay.” Kim closed her eyes tightly. Another spike of fear rushed through her system like a shot of adrenaline. The thought of losing Jay had tears stinging her eyes.

“I’m sorry,” She nods wiping away a tear that had escaped. She licks her dry lips and slowly stands.

“We will figure it all out later. Let’s get you to the hospital to get checked out.” Kim has barely lifted her hand to get Foster’s attention to load him up to get him to Med. Jay grabs her arm to stop her.

“I can’t go back there, I just can’t.” His blue eyes were pleading with her to understand. His grip was tight on her forearm, his jaw clenched, tension returning to his body.

“Jay,”

“I just want to go home. Lay in my own bed- with you- and sleep. Please, baby, don’t ask me to go back there.” Kim knew that she would spend all night worrying about Jay if she didn’t take him to the hospital. She knew she would toss and turn and be constantly checking to make sure he was okay, that he was breathing, and that his heart was beating. But the look in his blue eyes broke her heart. She knew why he didn’t want to go back to the hospital and it wasn’t his hatred of needles. Not this time.

Rewind, Remix, & Replay 6x4

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This chapter took on a life of its own. But I like the way it led me. I hope you all do too. <3 On that note- nobody come for me.

Kim was slumped over the table peeling the label off the beer in front of her. Trudy watched her with concern. They had been going for a latte, but after sitting in a car and feeling the emotions roll off her, Trudy quickly decided they needed something stronger. They had ended up at a table at the back of Molly’s bar. “Did I just end my career in Intelligence?” Kim ran a hand down her face. “Voight was so furious. He threatened to bury me. And I don’t blame him. I can’t believe I did something stupid.”

Trudy caught Herrmann's gaze and gestured for another round. He nodded in acknowledgment as he eyed the younger cop who seemed to be in the midst of a downward spiral. “He will get over it- he knows you are a good cop. But even good cops make mistakes. Voight understands that he just needs time to cool off.”

“I knew the detective exam was coming up and Brennan was giving me all this praise. And I just… I just wanted my work life to be good. Something to be proud of. My personal life is…” Kim pressed her lips together trying to gather herself as she blinked back the tears that sprung to her eyes. “Well to be completely honest it’s been a complete shit show.”

Trudy watched as Kim ran a frustrated hand through her hair tugging at her locks and she felt her worry grow. “Nicole has been on a spiral since her rape. She was really struggling at the beginning but at least she was trying. She’s flatlined now- totally given up. Won’t leave her house. I helped as much as I can-I'm still trying to help… You know she won’t even answer my phone calls anymore? But Zoey? She calls me almost every day. She’s been staying with her dad more. She says that it’s been okay. I wish I believed her."

Herrmann sets down a Sour Cherry Gin in front of Trudy and a Long Island in front of Kim. Kim looked up at him, she hadn’t ordered another drink. Herrmann put a comforting hand on her shoulder. “Looked like the two of you could use something a little bit stronger. Rough day on the job?” Kim twirled her straw around her cup and then took a long pull. Herrmann took notice and immediately changed the subject to something safer. Something he was hoping would bring a smile to her face. “So, I heard you and Halstead are shacking up.”

It had the desired effect; Kim couldn’t help the smile pulling at her lips. It made Herrmann breathe easier knowing she had a strong man to help support her through whatever she was going through. “Yeah, been together for a while now.”

“I’m happy for you guys. Jay is a good man. He will treat you right- and if he doesn’t just let me know and I’ll take care of it for you, alright sweetheart.”

“Thanks, Herrman,” Kim gave him an appreciative smile. Herrmann might not have known about Kim’s lack of a father figure but when Molly’s opened and became the go-to place for the blue bloods he unconsciously started to fill that void. Not by overcompensating something she had lost but just through the consistency of being there, listening, and caring. Kim thought about the missed calls on her phone. Calling her dad was a mistake- she wasn’t ready to talk to him or deal with their issues yet. Especially not when life was like this.

The older man sighed wistfully, “It’s a shame about his old man. Losing a father that young.” He shakes his head, “Is he holding up, okay?” Kim pressed her lips together before she took another long pull of her drink to give her time to figure out how to answer. Jay was pushing through but he has not been as unaffected by his father’s death as he wanted people to believe. He went through phases of being distant and withdrawn to irritable and angry. Will issues with the FBI and his CI status had also contributed to Jay being on edge lately.

“He is working through it.” Kim offered vaguely not wanting to say something Jay wasn’t comfortable with.

“I’d say,” Trudy pulled a cherry of the stick that had come with her drink. “He laid Ruzek out today.” Kim sighed downing more of her drink as Herrmann whistled sharp and low. “Left him with quite a shiner.”

“I’ve seen Halstead fighting with a perp at a scene. He is not someone I would want to go toe to toe with. He has a mean swing.” Chris looked between Kim and Trudy, “Alright if you’re going to make me ask- I will. Halstead has good control over his temper-What did Ruzek do to deserve his wrath.” Kim shook her head rolling her eyes and taking another strong pull of her drink.

“Adam needs to learn not everyone wants to hear his commentary.” Kim had been trying to warn Adam to back off with his “jokes” for days. Jay's patience was already running thin because of his nearly consistent fighting with his brother. She was honestly surprised Jay had put up with them for as long as he did. Kim didn’t catch the comment he made but she could still hear the distinct thwack of Jay’s fist hitting Adam’s face.

“Ah,” Herrmann felt the pieces click into place. Kim had been engaged to Ruzek so there was history there. Add the fact that Adam tended to put his foot in his mouth and push on things he should let go of and Jay’s need to protect those he cared about- It painted a pretty clear picture of what had probably gone down there. Herrmann’s name was called and he nodded his head to them, “Well you ladies let me know if you need anything else.” He patted Kim on the arm before heading back to the bar.

They finished their drinks but didn’t linger at the bar for much longer. Kim had calmed from the alcohol but exhaustion was written on her face. Trudy knew the girl needed a good night's sleep, some time to process what had happened, and support. Kim didn’t notice that she had been driving her to Jay's apartment instead of hers until she was parking in front of the building. “Try to get some sleep. I’ll see you tomorrow, Burgess.”

Kim only hesitates for a moment before letting herself in the apartment. Her eyes find Jay on the couch. He has showered recently and has his sweatpants and a black T-shirt on. Kim thinks for a moment about talking to Jay about the ride along, Kendra being there and her lying about it to the board, her hiding that she knew Kendra had seen the shooter, and Voight's threats to bury her. The thought exhausted her even while his passionate words from months before about always having her back echoed in her head. How would Jay view her if he knew the truth?

He looks up his blue gaze catching hers. Jay shifts on the couch. Kim’s dark eyes were half-lidded with alcohol consumption. Kim had been upset since he took a swing at Ruzek. Jay had taken his stupid little comments in stride for the last two weeks but he had hit his limit and then some. Ruzek needed to learn when to shut up. Now Kim was pissed at him. He flexed his fingers. The knuckles of his right hand were bruised and slightly swollen. It caught Kim’s gaze as she headed for the kitchen. “I’m not going to apologize to Ruzek, he had coming it today. He has for a while. He needs to learn when to keep his opinions to himself and his mouth shut.”

“Okay,” Kim’s agreement was monotone as she stopped in front of him putting the ice pack she had grabbed from the fridge on his battered knuckles. All Kim wanted was the reprieve of his soft mattress and sleep. “I’m going to go to bed.”

“I shouldn’t have brought it into work.” It was as close to an apology as he was willing to give at the moment. Kim paused in the hallway turning to look back at her boyfriend. “Things should be settled now though.” Jay wanted to talk things out with her. But he felt a glimmer of insecurity in her being so upset about him. Did she still harbor some feelings for Ruzek?