#jasperxreader

Alone.

You were once one of home world’s greatest fighters, in your dainty form you had made a great sword fighter.  Your gem always glimmered proudly over your heart, and even in your current state it still had.  Maybe it was your symbol to keep going - to keep trying to find someone to get back to home world.  In the same sense, maybe home world had abandoned you after the war.  

You wondered if maybe you were just abandoned and left for dead - left on the same Earth that held the Rose Quarts that shattered your Diamond.  There was a point that you simply thought of just giving up - multiple points, actually, but something in you drove you.  As you walked upon what these humans referred to as a beach, you noticed a large hand crashing down to the Earth, and panic began to fill you.  

Panic and dread filled your body, coursing through you as you attempted to run.  The ship itself would crash nearly on top of you, and though you were a gem - what if you had cracked - shattered even from the impact of a homeworld ship.  You had barely made it out of the ship’s path, some debris covering your lower half, making you scream out in pain.  Shockingly for you, you could hear voices ring out behind you, seemingly alive, though the ship had crashed so harshly.  

You tried to squirm and move out from under the debris, while someone lifted the debris so quickly that you could almost miss the warmth of the object upon your legs.  Your y/e/c eyes shot back to see who your savior - or not so savior had been.  It was the fusion who had saved you, as you had learned during the war time.  She had a kind smile upon her face, though, while the remainder of her group came over to your aid.  

“You’re not hurt, are you?” what looked like a human boy had said in concern, looking you over as you began to rise to your feet.  This odd bunch was definitely not your rescue team to bring you back to homeworld, though the shockingly kind faces threw you off.  

“I-I’m fine,” you said quickly, before lifting yourself to your feet.  You had been thankful, though you knew you were with the rebellion.  The rebellion who had shattered your Pink Diamond.  Somehow, they all looked so kind, and yet, you were so unsure.  After a moment of debate, you murmured out a soft, barely audible, “Thanks.”

Green fire still burned all around you and the group, and you could hear an all-too familiar voice speak up, bringing everyone’s attention.  “Don’t think you’ve won,” you could hear a Jasper speak out in a pained, yet determined tone.  There was no doubt that this was the Jasper that you fought along side in the war - the woman that you looked up to.  For that matter, she was the one that you had expected to press for a rescue team, though you may have expected too much.  

You simply gaped at the woman, while the remainder of the group around you had gotten into fighting stances.  There was a battle about to go down around you, and yet you could not stop staring.  “You only beat me because you’re a fusion,” she continued to say to the group, likely the fabled Garnet that was made up of a rouge Ruby and Sapphire.  This gem, of course, was no longer fabled as she stood before you in all her glory.  “If I had someone to fuse with, I’d-.”

Her eyes had caught the fact, as she was finally noticing everything around, that you were standing there dumbfounded.  Jasper’s eyes widened as she stared you down, before her idea had come to place.  “Y/N!” she said excitedly, causing your cheeks to heat up with blush.  The other gems around you gasped and gaped at you.  The Jasper that you had fought beside came to you at a quickened pace, and the gems beside you had been too shocked to even stop the woman from taking your small arm firmly in her grasp, pulling you up to eye level with her.  

You were dangling by your arm, staring directly into her amber eyes, complete with a toothy grin.  “Jasper,” you whispered out with a gentle smile upon your face, despite the rough treatment.  “I never thought I’d see you - or any gem, honestly - again.”  It was true that you had been left after the war, but your heart swelled with something different than loneliness for the first time in over a thousand years.  

“Listen, Y/N, fuse with me,” she said quickly, confident with a side of desperation.  

You could not help but feel your face fill with blush as you heard her words.  It was so forbidden to fuse with another gem - a gem that was not of your own kind.  In the same sense, it had been forbidden for you to love the Jasper that you fought for, and yet you had, silently in shame.  Maybe that was why no one came for you - and yet, here you were, being asked to fuse with the strong woman before you as she had you dangling.  “What?” you asked in disbelief,  despite the fact that you were actually considering her offer internally.  When reality had seeped into your mind, a pit of anger began bubbling inside of you.  “Fuse with you?  You left me on this rock to die.  I’ve been alone here since the war itself.”

“You should know as well as anyone that a Jasper can’t push for a rescue mission,” she argued.  “These gems are the reason the war started in the first place.  That weird bodied gem is Rose Quartz in disguise!  Fuse with me and get your revenge on the rebels.”

By this point, the large woman had set you down, allowing you to decide for yourself.  You glanced to the crystal gems, hearing the one that supposedly was Rose say, “Don’t do it! I’m not my mother.”  Then you glanced back to Jasper, an expectant look in her amber stare.  She gave you a half smile to reassure you, and you glanced back to the crystal gems once more.  They had been the reason you were trapped - that war coming to be - and yet, you were conflicted.  If you were to fuse with Jasper, would you not be a traitor as well?

How much did you desire the idea of being one with the woman that you fell in love with on the battlefield, though.  You would have died for her - been shattered for her - and you had the opportunity to do the one unheard of thing with her.  Taking in a shaky breath, you held a shaking hand out to her, palm up in acceptance.  The rebel gems gasped once more, and you felt your face turn to fire with the blush upon your face as you could not meet Jasper’s gaze.  Jasper’s mouth curved into a sharp toothy grin as she reached her hand out to grab your own.  

Jasper’s large hand took yours in a strong grip, bringing you close to her.  As the two of you danced, it was mostly you moving around her almost fluidly.  What she had not expected as the two of you were doing your fusion dance was when she dipped you, instead of turning to the rebels and glaring like she had planned, she was pulled down into your lips.  The taste upon her lips was indescribable, only lasting for a few moments as the two of you melded into a fusion.  

     You sighed as you looked up from your work, seeing Jasper and Octavia standing together once again. They’d been hanging out more and more frequently in the past couple of weeks, and it was starting to get on your nerves. You’d liked Jasper since you’d landed on Earth about three months ago, maybe even before that. You had lived next to one another on the ark, but you’d never been close. Now you stood on the ground staring at the same boy, but he looked incredibly different. You were astonished at all the things you’d never noticed about him, his adorable smile, his dorky jokes, even his unending horrendous puns. As you watched Octavia shamelessly flirting with him you felt only sadness. You had expected anger, jealousy, hatred, anything in that range, but this was, somehow, worse. You felt inadequate, unwanted, and you didn’t know how to make it stop. 

     For now you decided to just go to your tent, maybe a nap would fix your problems. It would probably subside, I mean how long could unreciprocated romantic feelings even continue. You’d known Jasper your whole life and you’d never felt this way, soon everything would be back to normal.

      You fell asleep quickly, exhausted from working all day. You were plagued by horrific nightmares, watching horrible things happen to all your friends and loved ones and being unable to stop it. You were unaware of it, but you were crying out in your sleep in the midst of your panic, and your cries piqued Jasper’s interest. He tentatively entered your tent, careful to keep the volume down so as not to wake you. Upon seeing your distress, however, he decided that exact thing was what was necessary. 

     “Y/N,” he said softly, before repeating it louder when you made no response. You finally opened your eyes after a few minutes of this, Jasper practically screaming at that point. 

     “What?” You exclaimed, shocked from your nightmare. 

     “I just wanted to make sure you were okay, you were having bad dreams.”

     You smiled, blushing, “thanks, but I think I’m gonna be okay.”

     Jasper started to make his way out of your room, but he hesitated at the entrance to your tent, turning back to face you. “You know, when I have nightmares I like to talk to someone about it, I’m hear if you do as well.”

     “Ummm, some company right now would actually be great, if its not too much trouble for you.”

     “Of course not, anything for you, Y/N,” he said, beaming as he came back and sat next to you on the bed. “So what was it about?”

     “Oh, you know, just the usual shit. Everyone you love dies, etc, etc. The super generic kind, but it still gets to you every time, you know?”