#jane updates

((This was my first time attending a homestuck event in…. Oh god, years. And my first time “representing” any kind of fan project out in public !!

I’m a terribly shy person in real life but everyone was super kind. I felt right at home. It makes me happy to see the Homestuck fandom is still as fun and as warm as I remember it being when I was a kid. I hope I can find everyone I met since I totally forgot to exchange socials with so many people.

I've come to the point where tumblr felt like a business to me and I felt pressured by it all; I felt guity whenever I wouldn't be able to write or post anything and it would make me stressed out; you know it's bad when something you usually enjoy almost feels like an obligation. I would feel down whenever a fic wouldn't "do well" and I would get obsessed with numbers but I know my writer friends can relate; it gets real unmotivating when no one interacts with your fic when you put so much work into it. I still care about numbers and especially the feedback ratio but I know it's something I gotta work on (and sometimes accept my fate) if I don't wanna go crazy. that being said for the love of god please interact when you enjoy a fic because we can't know if you only leave a like

I also noticed I would get more creative when off of tumblr and it's probably linked to that pressure problem so... if I disappear again it's for my own good (and my creativity's)

I probably won't update you on what I'm currently writing and whenever I have a fic idea because I don't wanna give false hopes and promise you fics that might never come out. I tend to do that when I'm excited about it but then life happens and I'm currently still working on a fic I teased five months ago and I feel really bad about it so now I'll shut up until it's ready to be posted lol

at first I got tumblr only to have somewhere to "stock" my fics and I would just post them and disappear. good times tbh. obviously it won't be like that because I'm now a full tumblr citizen but I wanna go back to feeling that way and not feeling nervous asf when I post a fic

so uh yeah that's it<3 tbh it doesn't change much for you but yeah

new theme new me blablabla!!!!!!!