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âYOU DIDNâT WAITâ âI DID WAITâ

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Cherry Waves
Pairing: Bob/Robert Reynolds/Sentry x Avengers!Fem!Reader
Summary: Youâve been sick for a few days, so while the rest of the team goes out to do a recon mission, youâre on your own watching over Bob. One morning he comes to your room with a weird request.
Warnings: 18+ Minors DNI! Minor Spoilers for Thunderbolts! Fluff, Mentions of low self-esteem/ self-deprecation, Smut
Smut Warnings: Unprotected P in V Sex (YâallâŚYou know the drillâŚProtect yourselves lol), Some hair pulling (very light hair pulling), Reader is being a little bit dominant (if you squint), Bob is being a softie (and itâs hot as shit), Fingering, Squirting, Teasing, Biting, and Some marks are left.
Author's Note: Had this boy lined up and really wanted to post it. Loved the little hint that Bob was not liking the blonde that Sentry had lol so this is definitely something that would probably have happened if he didnât return back to normal in the movie đ Also, yâall are awesome and I appreciate you guys for enjoying my little blurbs!â¤ď¸ Thank you.
Word Count: 14,094
You were buried under layers of sweat and crumpled tissues when the knock came against your bedroom door.
Three soft taps.
So quiet, they couldâve been the compound settling. It was hesitantâpolite almost. It was the kind of knock someone does when theyâre not sure if theyâre allowed to be asking for anything at all.
You barely stirred in your bed. The flu had you pinned to the mattress like a paper doll, aching and clammy and convinced the walls were breathing in sync with you. Hallucinations had become your new roommatesâso when you heard the knock, you assumed it was just one of them, wandering through your mind again.
But then came a fourth tap. Just one. Sharp enough to make your headache throb like it was answering.
âY/NâŚItâs BobâŚCan I come in?â You winced at the sound of his voice, even though it was always super gentle and timid.
Bob.
Of course it was Bob.
Youâd almost forgotten in the haze of your sickness that you were technically on Bob duty. Because apparently being half-dead with the flu made you the least threatening option to keep an eye on the worldâs most powerful man while the rest of the team went on recon. Bucky had said it so casually, like the fate of the planet couldnât possibly unravel while you were tucked under three blankets with a thermometer hanging out of your mouth.
âAll you gotta do is check in on him every hour or so,â Heâd told you. âMake sure he eats. Make sure heâs not spiraling, and doing something to keep himself occupied. Yâknow. Normal people stuff.â
It had been simple, at first. When the worst symptoms you were experiencing was a runny nose and a dull headache, youâd shuffle past Bob every so often with a thumbs up and a mumbled âYou good?â While he nodded earnestly over his book, asking you the same thing back.
But once you started coughing so hard you felt like your ribs were breaking, and the chills that you were experiencing gave way to night sweats and dry heaving, keeping tabs on Bob Reynolds fell hard to the bottom of your to-do listâsomewhere below âdonât dieâ and âget a new tissueâ.
ââŚItâs open,â You rasped, your voice raw and thin from all the coughing you had been doing.
The doorknob turned slowly, like he was still asking permission even after you gave it. Then Bob stepped inside with that careful kind of energy that people only reserved for hospital rooms or museumsâlike one wrong step might unplug or break something important.
He hovered in between the doorway, not coming too closeâbeing mindful that you had told him a few times to keep his distance because you didnât want him getting sick, even though it was nearly impossible for him to catch anything. His baggy navy sweater hung off him like a weighted blanket, and the sleeves were stretched over his knuckles, worn from the way he would always pick at the fabric. He looked small in itâeven though he was quiet muscular underneath all the layers. His posture was slouched, and his shoulders were drawn up like he was nervous about something. On top of all that though, he was wearing his new wardrobe stapleâa dark brown beanie that he shoved his bleach-blonde hair under, he never came out of his room without it.
You stared at his figure through half-lidded eyes, watching as he avoided looking directly at you.
âYou okay?â You croaked, reaching up to your face to rub the sleep off your face, attempting to sit up to get a better look at him. He glanced over at you, nodding quickly.
âYeah. Of courseâŚI meanâŚIâm good, I justâŚâ He trailed off, the sentence losing momentum halfway through as his gaze drifted around the room.
He wasnât just avoiding your eyes anymore, it was like his attention had been dragged elsewhereâbehind you, beside you, and all around you. His brows twitched slightly as he took in your space for the first time, and slowly you connected the dots that Bob had never actually been inside your room beforeâ the first time was always an experience for people who didnât know you were a secret collector of everything.
His eyes swept over the cluttered desk in the corner that sported wires, pliers, circuit boards and half built gadgets, before going to the large overstuffed bookshelf beside it, which was packed tight with thrifted novels and comic books that were still in their original plastic sleeves. There was a milk crate of vinyls on the floor near your speaker, with the old record player you insisted on fixing instead of replacing, even though you would complain every few days about it.
There was a flicker in his expressionâsurprise, maybe. Or something quieter, like heâd just stumbled into a part of you that he didnât expect to find. You saw it in the way his jaw went still and the way his shoulders shifted slightly, like he was dying to ask you questions about everything you had, but he was holding himself back.
ââŚBob,â You said hoarsely, trying to draw his attention back to you. He didnât blink, his eyes were fixated on something in the far corner where your posters were. You reached your hand up over your head, waving slightly, and snapping your fingers, âEarth to Bob. Are you sure everythingâs okay?â He shook himself out of his trance, and glanced over at you.
âSorryâŚSorry,â He said quickly, his voice a little higher than usual, as he cleared his throat, âDidnât mean to, uhâŚYâknow, snoop or anything. Iâve just never seen your room before, youâve got a lot of cool stuff.â You raised your eyebrows at him with a small smile on your face.
âYouâre lucky I feel like death. Otherwise Iâd be giving you the grand tour right nowâŚI also include a quiz at the end.â Bob let out a nervous laugh and looked down, picking at the loose thread on his sleeve.
âIâd definitely failâŚSo Iâm kind of gladâŚWell Iâm not glad youâre sick, Iâm just glad I donât have to do a quiz.â Your lips twitched, amused despite the ache that was still clawing at your skull.
âVery smooth recovery Bob, very smooth.â Bob made a quiet noiseâsomewhere between a breathy laugh and a groanâkeeping his eyes pinned to the floor as his cheeks turned a soft pink. You pushed yourself up a little more than before, elbows trembling from the effort of holding yourself up.
âSoâŚWhatâs going on? Whyâd you knock on my door atâŚâ You paused, glancing over at your alarm clock, âSeven fifty three in the morning?â Bob sighed.
âWellâŚI need to go to the drug store,â He admitted, his voice sheepish, âAnd I know Buckyâs not really a fan of me going out alone soâŚThought Iâd ask my babysitter.â You squinted at him through your blurred vision, feeling the room tilt slightly, as you brought your hand up to your face, pressing gently at your temples.
âAre you getting sick or something?â He immediately shook his head.
âNo, no itâs nothing like that. I havenât really gotten sick since I took the Sentry serumâŚâ You quirked your brow at him.
âSoâŚWhatâs the reason for the drug store trip then?â Bob shifted his weight from one foot to the other, the floor creaking under him loudly as he did so.
âI umâŚI need to buy something. For myself.â He responded, dancing around the truth. You stared at him.
âIs it serious?â
âNo,â He said quickly, âItâs not likeâŚHealth-serious or anything, Iâm fine physically, I justâŚâ He paused, clamming up again, not knowing how to explain himself. You narrowed your eyes at him, coughing into your arm, clutching your ribs when a dull ache pulsed through the area.
âYou do realize Iâm gonna find out anyway if I go with you , right?â Bob sighed and dragged his hand down the side of his face, like he was physically wiping the resistance off of himself, letting his hand drop down to the hem of his sweater.
âFineâŚFineâŚI need to buyâŚHair dye.â He mumbled under his breath. You tilted your head slightly, blinking through the fevered haze that clouded your vision.
âHair dye?â Bob winced at the way the words left your mouth, even though you didnât mean for it to sound like you were judging him.
âMhmâŚâ You stared at him for a second longer than he could handle, as his eyes began to wander again, his hands wringing the fabric of his shirt, wrinkling it.
âYou woke me up at seven-fifty-three in the morningâŚFor hair dye?â You asked again, trying to confirm what you were hearing once more, hoping that you werenât experiencing an odd version of delirium at this point.
âItâs not justââ He started, then shut his mouth again, biting the inside of his cheek, shaking his head, âI meanâŚIt isâŚBut I justâŚâ The sentence fell apart in his throat, as his cheeks began to heat up. He looked genuinely embarrassed, and you could see himself curling even more into his sweater, âI just donât like what it looks like anymore.â There was something raw about the way he said it, and you couldnât help but feel empathy for him, your heart clenching at the way his words cracked in the air.
âThe bleach⌠The whole look,â he muttered, eyes fixed on the floor, âIt was for him. For the Sentry. Thatâs what they said, anywayâ they said that it would help. That it would make people see someone new. Something brighterâŚLike it would somehow separate usâŚBut I still have to live in this body when heâs not around.â Bob continued, his throat swelling with a lump, âI still have to see myselfâŚAnd the longer I look like him, the harder it is to remember who I am when Iâm justâŚBob.â You didnât say anything at firstânot because you didnât want to, but because there was something about the way he was talking about himself that made your chest cave in a little. The words hung in the air like mist, as he bowed his head even lower, keeping his eyes on the floor, not daring to look at you or anything else in the room.
âItâs not stupid.â You could see his hands stop moving at your words, watching his eyes glance up at you hesitantly. You gave him a tired but sincere look, hoping that it was enough for him to understand that what you were saying was coming from a place of care, âWanting to see yourself again isnât stupid BobâŚItâs just you trying to cling to the one thing you have control ofâŚI get it.â His mouth parted, like he was going to thank you, but no sound came out. He was relieved that someone was finally understanding what he meant, it was like he had been running around talking to walls when he would speak about how he was feeling, but with you in this momentâŚIt was like he felt seen.
âSo Iâll helpâŚBut I need to see what weâre working with first.â You added, motioning to his head. Bob looked like a deer in the headlights when you said it, caught off guard by your suggestion, but also scared to even follow through with it.
âW-What?â You sighed.
âThat hat BobâŚJust take it offâŚI havenât seen your hair since we moved you in here and youâve been hiding it like itâs some sort of radioactive test subject.â He felt his heart gallop in his chest a little bit, as the nerves began to build up in him.
âI-I really donât think thatâs necessary,â He stammered, already figuring out a way to retreat out of the conversation, eyeing the hallway that was in the far corner of his vision.
âBob, you dragged me out of a flu coma to ask me for helpâŚSo let me help youâŚLet me see it.â The gentleness in your voice was always something that got to him. Even on your toughest days you would use that tone with him, and for some reason it was the only thing that truly had him melting like putty in your hands.
You could see the conflict playing out within him, like he was weighing out the risks, until a look of resolve appeared on his face, a small sigh escaping his lips as he gave in to your request.
Bobâs fingers trembled as he slipped them beneath the edge of his beanie, hesitating for a second before slowly tugging it off his head. The static cling made the knit fabric resist him just a little, like even the hat itself didnât want to let go of the safety it provided him.
The moment it came off, a curtain of hair fell across his face. You blinked through your fevered haze, eyes widening slightlyânot in shock, but in recognition. His hair was longer than you rememberedâshaggy, uneven, the ends fried from months of bleach. The top was still harshly pale, the yellow-white of it stark under the low morning light, but underneath, near the roots, his real hair was coming back inâsoft, and light brown, just like you recalled from the brief glimpses you got of him before it all got changed. But the line where bleach met natural color was harsh and jarring, cutting across his scalp like a bad decision frozen in time.
He looked like someone in between versions of himself, not quite Bob, not quite SentryâjustâŚStuck. You studied him for a moment, your body heavy with exhaustion but your chest buzzing with quiet sympathy. There was something so tender about the way he stood there, hair falling into his eyes, his beanie clutched in his hands like a comfort object. He looked younger somehow. Not in age, but in vulnerabilityâlike this was the version of himself that never got the chance to just be soft and carefree.
âItâs not that bad,â You started, the rasp still thick in your throat, âReally. It just needs some love, patienceâŚMaybe a deep conditionâŚAnd the right shade of brown.â Bobâs head immediately shot up to look at you, like he couldnât believe what you were saying.
âS-So youâre actually going to help? Y-You didnât just try to trick me into showing you my hair right?â You shifted yourself down to the edge of your mattress, groaning at the way your bones protested and pulsed with each movement.
âNo I didnât try to trick you⌠Iâm going to help, but first, Iâm gonna need you to come here and make sure I donât fall, because I think my legs are going to wiggle like theyâre made of jelly.â For a split second Bob wasnât sure if you were serious or not about needing actual help, but he moved anyway, shuffling towards you with his socked feet sliding across the floor. He opened his arms hesitantly, elbows bending like he wasnât sure where they were supposed to go, offering himself up into your space.
âAlrightâŚWhenever youâre ready I g-guess.â He said softly, his voice cracking a bit on the âguessâ like he was more nervous about touching or dropping you than you were about falling on your own.
Your hands found his forearms instantly, fingers curling into the soft, worn cotton of his sleeves, watching him brace himself. He looped one arm under yours, while steadying the other against your back as you pushed off the mattress, feeling your knees buckling beneath you like a baby deer on ice.
âWoahâwoah, okay.â Bob muttered quickly, tightening his arms around you without a second thought. He adjusted himself accordingly, trying his best to be gentle while still being secure enough to hold you upright. You ended up closer than either of you really expected, with his chest pressed against yours, and your cheek inches away from his shoulder.
Despite everythingâthe fever baking your skin, the chills clinging to your limbs, and the flu that had knocked you down hard enough to rattle the wallsâyou still smelledâŚGood.
Bob noticed it the moment you got within his arms reach.
It wasnât some kind of artificial, pampered scent. It wasnât perfume or lotion or anything curated. No, it was just youâfresh soap, soft worn cotton, and that barely-there trace of eucalyptus from the body wash and shampoo combo you swore by. He heard you muttering something about it being the only thing strong enough to trick your sinuses into opening, and Bob had thought it was actually going to work because the sniff you gave him from the bottle made him have a sneezing fit, but he heard your frustrated grunt in the shower when it had not been the case.
âYou alright Bob?â You asked, feeling the tension in his body against yours. He let out a short breath, which fanned across the crown of your head. He didnât say anything right away, he just gave you a quick nod.
âYeah, yeah Iâm okay.â You could feel how careful he was being, feeling his arms flexing around you, not too tight, and not too loose. He was warm, and steady, while trying so hard not to be in the way, even though you requested his help. You couldnât help but think about how strangely nice it was to be close to him, despite the situation.
You stood like that for another moment longer, your body leaning against his, the rhythm of your fevered breathing matching the rise and fall of his chest. Even through the blocked sinuses you had you could smell his laundry detergent on his sweaterâfresh from the dryer, another thing you seemed to like about the moment.
Though you snapped yourself out of your self-induced daze once the floor felt less like a rocking ship beneath your feet. You pulled back just enough to glance up at him.
âYou can let go now,â You whispered, startling Bob with the cue. Quickly he stepped back, like he just realized he was touching a hot stove or something, trying not to seem like he had been enjoying the odd moment of closeness. Despite the warmth of his body leaving yours, his hands still hovered around you just in case.
âIâm good,â You reassured, wobbling slightly but managing to keep yourself upright, âJust give me a few minutes to brush my teeth and get my bearings so I donât scare the public by looking like a corpse.â Bob nodded immediately.
âYeah, of course, Iâll justâŚIâll wait in the hallway. Thereâs no rush or anything, uhâŚJust take your time. Seriously, I mean it.â He said, backing away while he clutched his beanie in his hand, âJust call me if you need anything.â He added, slipping out of your room and pulling the door shut behind him.
The moment he was gone, you sat back down on the edge of the bed with a slow, rattling breath. God. Your whole body felt like it had been microwavedâsweaty, sore, and buzzing with leftover adrenaline. You pressed the heels of your palms into your eyes for a second, trying to reboot your nervous system. Not just from the fever, but from how close Bob had been. How soft heâd been. How good it had felt to be held with such warmth and gentleness even if it was for a fleeting moment.
You let out a sigh, before getting up again, dragging yourself into the ensuite bathroom you shared with Yelena, flicking on the bright fluorescent light. You let out a hiss, catching your reflection in the mirror. Surprisingly, the damage was minimal, sure your hair was an absolute mess from spending the night tossing and turning, but you looked half-awake at least.
Quickly, you got yourself ready, brushing your teeth, splashing some water on your face, fixing up your hair, and changing into a fresh set of clothes. By the time you were done, only fifteen minutes had passedâyour new personal best. You cracked the door to your bedroom open, finding Bob sitting on the floor waiting with his back against the wall and knees drawn up. He looked up quickly when he heard the creak, and gave you a soft smile.
âLetâs get outta here.â
ââââââ
Twenty minutes later, you found yourselves shoulder to shoulder in front of the painfully fluorescent wall of boxed hair dye in your local CVS.
It was still early, so thankfully not a lot of people were in the store. You actually thought that it was just you and Bob who were customers and the rest of the people there were employees and managers. On the overhead speakers there was a faint crackle of old 2000s music groaning throughout the store. The air smelled like plastic and dryer sheets, which was an odd mix for a drugstore of all places.
Bob stood stiffly beside you, his hands jammed into the front pocket of his jacket, eyes wide as he took in the absurd variety of brands and colours in front of him. His mouth was parted slightly, like he wanted to say something but couldnât decide on what panic stricken sentence he was going to go with. So you spoke first.
âWellâŚWe know what row we need to look at.â You said, motioning toward the more natural leaning coloursârows of caramel, ash, chestnut, and espressoâpushing the cart gently in that direction as Bob trailed behind you like a nervous shadow. Your eyes scanned over the various boxes and brands, trying to find ones that would do minimum damage to his hair while actually doing the job.
âI didnât think it was going to be so complicatedâŚâ He murmured from behind you, âI just thought there would be straight forward choicesâŚâ You looked up from the boxes, seeing the way his jaw was clenched.
âItâs just overwhelming because all the companies who make this stuff create different versions of the same thing. SeeâŚâ You pointed at one box âThis one is ammonia free, and is semi-permanent,â Then pointed to the other one right beside it,âWhile this one is permanent and has argan oil infused in it so it doesnât do a lot of damage, but theyâre the same colour.â Bob squinted at the wall of labels, then back to the boxes you had motioned to, visibly confused, shaking his head.
âAlrightâŚBut what if I just wantâŚNormal dye?â You looked up at him, one brow arching in mild amusement.
âBobâŚThis is normal dye.â He turned a sharp shade of red, as the heat rose to his cheeks, taking over the paleness.
âW-Well yeah butâbut you know what I mean donât you? It doesnât have to be so complicated, just have one of every colour.â You let out a small laugh.
âWelcome to the wonderful world of capitalism, Bob. You want brown? Well, first you gotta pick from thirty-seven kinds of brown. Do you want cocoa chestnut or honey almond toast? Because those are apparently different.â Bob took his hand out of his pocket, rubbing the back of his neck.
âOkayâŚI guess youâre right.â He replied nervously.
âWeâll find your colour, I promise.â You said calmly, continuing to look over the boxes in front of you.
âShould I, uhâŚTake my hat off? Would that help?â You tilted your head at him, and nodded.
âIt would definitely make this a much quicker processâŚBut if it really bothers you, Iâm pretty sure I could go off of memory.â Bob shrugged a little, his eyes flicking around the store for a moment.
âI donât mind, itâs basically just us in here anyway.â You nodded, watching him remove the beanie again, tucking it into the crook of his elbow. He tried to not make a big deal out of it, but you could tell he felt exposed, so you were going to attempt to make things quick.
âAlright,â You said, stepping a little closer to him, grabbing a few boxes from the shelf, âBend down a bit, I need to get a good look at the roots so I can compare.â He obeyed, ducking his head so you could see the top of his hair properly. In doing so, he stepped closer than you expectedâcloser than he expected, probably. Your foreheads were nearly aligned, noses maybe a breath apart. He was tall enough that you had to tilt your chin slightly to get the right angle, and Bob found himself frozen there, inches from you, not sure where to look. So, he looked at you.
You smelled like cherry cough dropsâsickly sweet and medicinalâand it hit him instantly, like a quiet little exhale in the space between you. He remembered the moment you popped one into your mouth earlier, halfway to CVS, saying it was the only thing keeping your throat from giving out. And now the scent lingered on your breath, mingling with the warmth of your skin and the faint trace of eucalyptus from before. Bob swore his brain short-circuited for a second.
You were focused, eyes narrowing slightly, as you held one box up beside his roots, then another. Your fingers brushed through the longer strands near his crown, gently separating pieces to get a clearer view of where the bleach ended and his real colour began. You were so precise about it, so tender, and Bob didnât know where to put his hands or how to keep breathing without accidentally inhaling you.
Then you paused, lips turning up as you caught the way his chest rose a little faster, how his fingers curled and uncurled in his sleeves
A soft rattling sound reached your ears thenâthe kind of nervous, involuntary vibration that sometimes came from him when he was overwhelmed. You smirked slightly, brushing your thumb against his temple on purpose as you pushed a few more strands aside.
âIs the Sentry getting a bit flustered?â You teased, your voice still raspy from the flu but still playful. âOr is that just you rattling like a soda can?â
Bob made a noiseâhalf sigh, half laughâducking his head a little more like it would hide the warmth that continued to spread over his skin, all the way down his neck. âItâs definitely just me. Heâs, uhâŚHeâs fine.â
âGood,â You hummed, still close, eyes flicking between the swatch and his roots. âBecause I donât think heâd let me manhandle his hair like this.â
âYouâre notâŚManhandling anything,â He mumbled, trying to cover up the wavering tone. âFeelsâŚKinda nice, actually.â You paused at that comment, your eyes glancing down to his, seeing little glints of sparkling orange through the sea blue that his irises normally sported. For a second, neither of you said anything. The store had faded by that point and all that was left was the faint scent of cherry and the feel of your fingers still resting lightly in his hair.
ââŚThis is your shade,â You said finally, voice soft, motioning to the box in your hand. He didnât move at first, it was as if his brain hadnât caught up to the moment yet, or his ears were ringing so much he didnât hear what you had said. Then you shifted your weight, easing back slightly, giving him some space as you cleared your throat, dropping the box into the cart with a clunk. He quickly slipped the beanie back on, shoving his hair up into it, sealing away the moment beneath it.
âNow we need to get you one of those conditioning treatments, and after that Iâm grabbing some snacks, cause Iâm getting hungry.â He looked away from you, nodding.
âYeah, okayâŚConditioner and snack. Got it.â You glanced up at him, seeing the way he was avoiding you eyes again, before turning back to the cart, pushing it down the aisle with him following close behind. You turned into the next section without fanfareâthe shampoo and conditioner areaâand skimmed over a wide array of labels until your eyes landed on the exact jar you were looking for: the rich brown packaging, the heavy text that scrawled out all the promises of repairing and restoring.
âThis one,â You muttered, reaching up for it and dropping it into the cart with a soft thunk, âWill do miracles for the damage, youâre gonna love it, smells like sweet coconuts.â Bob glanced at the package.
âDoes itâŚSting?â Your eyebrows drew together.
âBobâŚIt's conditioner, not acid.â He bit his inner lip.
âNo, I-I know, Iâm just asking cause when they bleached my hair it really really burnedâŚThen my head was super sensitive for like a whole week after, j-just donât want to go through that again.â You could hear the way his voice tapered off, like he didnât really want to talk about it, but he just wanted to let you know.
âI promise this will be way less abrasive.â You said, with a small smile tugging at your lips, nudging the cart forward again, âNow letâs get to that snack aisle before my stomach eats itself.â Bob chuckled softly at your words, following you again as you turned into the next section, noticing the sharp fluorescent lights had dimmed just slightly. The sterile smell of the store had completely faded by that point, being replaced with sweet confectionery items; gummy snacks, granola bars, marshmallows, anything you could think of really. You stopped your cart, feeling Bobâs chest bump into your back, as your eyes began to skim over the shelves, squinting at the shimmering bags, the look of contemplation drawing up into your eyebrows.
âSoâŚWhatâre you craving?â He asked softly, watching your eyes dart around the wide variety, âSweet? Salty?â You hummed.
âMight buy the whole aisle to be honestâŚâ He laughed under his breath, the sound quieter than the storeâs staticky music, but warmer than anything youâd heard in days.
âSeems like your appetite has come back.â You turned to look at him, letting your body sway slightly toward the cart to brace yourself.
âYeah, I think the fresh air has put me on the road to recoveryâŚJust donât touch my lower backâŚItâs a little sweaty.â There was a beat of silence, before you continued âMy stomach might also be trying to fool me into a false sense of security and Iâll end up throwing it all up after I eat it.â
âWell that took a turnâŚâ You shrugged, plucking a bag of sweet chili chips, throwing it mindlessly into the cart.
âI like to keep you on your toes Bob.â You replied with a smirk.
âââââ-
Back at the compound, you retreated into your room to change, making quick work even though you were feeling a faint headache coming back, but it was more manageable than your prior ones.
You swapped out your clothes for a pair of beat-up black compression shorts and an old t-shirt from your days at training campâfrayed at the collar and speckled with faded bleach stains from when you touched up Yelenaâs hair. The crooked letters on the shirt were faded but you could make out the words âI SURVIVED CAMP HAMMONDâ on the front of it, a great memory of how long itâs been since you were actually training.
You grabbed your dye bowl and one of the brushes from under your bathroom sink, tucking them against you as you headed down the hall. Your bare feet padded softly against the cool flooring of the compound, reaching the bathroom that Bob shared with Bucky, seeing the door was already cracked open. You gave it a slow push with your knuckles, poking your head in.
Bob stood in the middle of the tiled space like he wasnât sure where he was going to sit, clutching the CVS bag with both hands, wringing it in his grip, the sound crinkling plastic echoing off the walls. He already had taken off the beanie, fully prepared for what was coming.
âAlright,â You announced as you stepped inside, âYour hair hero has arrived.â Bob looked over at you quickly, his shoulders dropping slightly when he laid eyes on you and your outfit. The tension in him bleeding out of him in small waves.
âYou brought your own bowl?â He asked, trying to cover up the fact he was staring at your bare legs for longer than he intended.
âOf course I brought my own bowl,â You replied, holding it up slightly before setting it down on the porcelain counter, âWhat kind of amateur do you think I am?â You asked jokingly, earning a small smile from Bob, motioning for him to hand you the bag.
You unpacked the contents onto the sinks edgeâthe dye, the conditioner, the gloves, and a couple of CVS coupons that the cashier had stapled to the receipt.
âOkay,â You said, flipping the box of dye around to double-check the instructions even though you were seasoned enough to know what you were doing without them, âLetâs get you situated hm?â Bob hovered behind you awkwardly, watching your hands move with precise, and practiced ease. You pointed at the closed toilet lid.
âGo sit on the makeshift barber chair, hope you like stiff seats.â You joked, watching him go over to where you pointed, sitting down without protest, seeing the way his long frame compressed itself into the small space. He looked over at you with a soft smile, his hands clasping together, as you slid on a pair of gloves.
âUhâŚJust wanted to say thank you for doing this, especially with being sick and everythingâŚI didnât mean to be a bother.â You cracked open the box of dye, flipping the flaps back and pulling out the developer bottle and aluminum tube of colour, the gloves squeaking slightly as you did so. You opened the cap with a satisfying pop and reached for the dye bowl beside you.
âYouâre not a bother Bob.,â You said, glancing over at him as you squeezed the thick brown sludge into the bowl, âI donât mind.â He blushed a bit at the softness in your voice, letting out a sheepish laugh, nodding before taking his eyes off you, his fingers finding the hem of his sweater.
You turned and flipped the small ceiling fan on, letting it whirl to life with a soft click and hum, it was your little attempt to keep the room from smelling like a chemical spill before you started stirring in the developer with the dye.
It was quiet for a momentâpeaceful almost. Just the faint humming of the fan and the soft scrape of the plastic bristles rubbing against the inside of the bowl. Bobâs eyes drifted down toward your shirt absentmindedly, reading the faded words that were scrawled over the fabric that was clinging to your frame.
âWhatâsâŚCamp Hammond?â He asked quietly, with genuine curiosity in his voice, as he looked down to his hands. You didnât look over at him immediatelyâstill focused on making sure the mixture reached that perfect pudding-like textureâbut your mouth twitched slightly.
âDid you think I was born with the skills of a mercenary?â You asked, glancing over at him with a teasing glint in your eye, âHate to burst your bubble, but I wasnât that cool.â Bob felt his cheeks heat up as it spread to his ears and down his neck.
âSo what is it? LikeâŚA boot camp or something?â You shrugged, looking down at the bowl again.
âKind of. It was a training facility for recruits who showed promise in their assigned roles. I was a teenager when I got scouted, actually. They stuck us in bunk beds and we ran drills at five in the morning. Sometimes we were able to go home to see our families but I spent about three years there just learning the ropes and honing my skills.â He leaned forward a bit.
âWas itâŚBad?â You paused the stirring for a moment, biting the inside of your cheek when you heard the way he asked.
âNo. Not always. It was intense, but not all of it was horrible. I met my first team there actually, so that should tell you something about the experience.â At the mention of your first team, the conversation had faded, because true to Bobâs nature he was observant enough to catch on that you werenât going to answer any questions about them. He just nodded, and sat still, with worry tucked beneath his lashes. You cleared your throat, breaking the silence.
âBefore I forgetâyou should probably take that sweater off. This stuff is probably going to stain it and thereâs a really low chance youâre going to be able to get it out.â You said, motioning with the brush, âUnless you actually want brown splatters all over it.â You added, seeing him look down at himself.
âOhâŚUhâŚâ He said, curling his fingers into the hem of it, hesitating, âIâm notâŚWearing anything under it.â You paused.
âYou could go find something you donât mind ruining, I can wait.â Bob shook his head, not looking at you, avoiding your eyes.
âI donât really have anythingâŚI wear pretty much all of my clothes, and donate the ones I donât.â You put your hands on your hips, biting the inner side of your cheek.
âGuess we have a dilemma then.â You said jokingly, looking around the bathroom for a towelâa solution of sorts.
âI meanâŚI could take it off, I justâŚJust promise me you wonât laugh.â You stopped your movements immediately, looking back at him, raising your eyebrows.
âOkay. I wonât laugh.â You said, feeling your chest tighten. Bob nodded once, his fingers finally tugging up the hem of the sweater. It caught slightly on the undersides of his armsâhe had to peel it upward with a bit of a twistâand then suddenly, it was gone, crumpled in his hands and resting in his lap.
You froze.
The breath you hadnât realized you were holding caught somewhere in your throat, stalling completely as you took him in.
The heat that burned inside your body hit you like a second fever.
He wasâŚLean. But solid. Not showy or overly built, but undeniably strong. His chest and shoulders were broad in a way that looked natural. There were fine lines of definition that carved down his sternum and stomach, soft traces of light and shadow where his muscles rested. His skin was fair, with scattered freckles that dotted across his collarbones and shoulders like sunspots. A small scar cut just under his left ribâthin and silvery and healed long agoâand there was a faint stretch of color along his ribs, a faded birthmark maybe, or it was the aftermath from the serum he was given. Tying it all together though were the very very small stretch marks that were scattered around the expanse of skin, which made your brows raise a bit in admirationâŚ
And his armsâJesus Christ, his armsâwere gently corded with strength, biceps not flexed but still clearly shaped beneath smooth skin, dusted with barely-there hair in the hollows of his elbows. The veins on his forearms sat just under the surface, pale blue and almost glowing under the harsh light of the bathroom.
He wasnât perfect. But you didnât want perfect. Thisâthis was so much better.
The heat rushed up your neck and onto your cheeks so fast it was like your body had short-circuited, and you were suddenly very aware that your own shirt was threadbare and clinging to your frame. You tried to clear your throat quietly, to ground yourself, but the sound came out shakier than you liked. Bob caught it immediately, and his cheeks went a dark hue of pink. Now you were able to see the pale skin of his chest matching the same colour.
You felt nauseous looking at him, but for all the right reasons. How the hell were you supposed to get close to this man now without passing out? And how the hell was he able to hide this so well from youâ Or anybody else for that matter?
âWowâŚâ Was all you could say, and you didnât even mean for it to come out of your mouth. Bobâs head tilted up at you, noticing the way your eyes were glued to him like he was some sort of museum exhibit. He clutched the sweater in his lap a little tighter, curling in on himself a bit as if he was trying to hide, looking down at himself.
âYeah I knowâŚâ He muttered, tone awkward and clipped, like he was attempting to defuse the silence before it got worse, âI know itâs badâŚThe serum kindaâŚI donât know made me grow a little too quickly, and-.â You raised your hand to stop him.
âWoah woahâŚDonât even go there Bob. I wasnât saying wow in a bad way.â He looked up at you instantly, his eyes glistening in the lighting, the soft blue still shimmering with those little flecks of orange.
ââŚYou werenât?â He questioned, his lips parting a bit.
âBobâŚYouâre built like a fucking house.â You said bluntly, the edge in your voice softening from the next wave of nausea that sloshed in your stomach. Bob made a noise like he was suppressing a laugh, his throat closed a bit.
âThatâsâŚA very generous interpretation, but you donât have to lie to meâŚâ Your expression twisted slightly, not in offense, but in something rawer than that. It was as if his words scratched at a place in you that was already tender.
âBob, Iâve never lied to youâŚAnd Iâm certainly not starting now.â Bobâs lashes fluttered like he was processing your words, like no one had ever said something so plainly true to him in a long time. You could see the way he swallowed hard, almost like he was choking back his words, âYou look amazing, and I mean it.â That was when you heard it againâthe faint rattling sound, you assumed he was shaking something in one of the cabinets, it didnât really matter at this point though. He drew in a shaky breath to quiet it, his fingers tightening around the bunched-up sweater.
Then you stepped towards him, taking up the space between his knees. You were close enough to feel the warmth coming off his bare chest, to see the smallest cluster of freckles that laid just beneath his collarbone, and to feel his breath against you. Bob tilted his head up, slow and steady, his eyes finding yours immediately, seeing more orange taking over his irises.
ââŚYouâre really not going to laugh at me?â He asked, almost like he truly couldnât believe it. You sighed, tucking a piece of bleached hair behind his ear.
âBob, the only thing Iâm going to be doing right now is wondering how Iâm supposed to function with you sitting in front of me like thisâŚDoes that make you feel any better?â Bob let out a soft, startled breathâalmost like a laugh or like he didnât know what to do with the surge of warmth that spread through his chest.
His hands, still knotted around the sweater in his lap, flexedâthen unclenched. The tension there began to melt, bit by bit.
âIâŚâ He started, then stopped. His voice caught, his tongue wetting his bottom lip like he was trying to steady himself. His eyes searching your face, shining under the light âI think that makes it so much worse, actually.â
âWorse?â Bob nodded faintly.
âYeahâŚBecause now Iâm trying really hard not to kiss you...â His voice was barely above a whisper when he said it, and all consideration for the flu you had been battling was thrown to the curb.
The rattling came back. Louder this time. Almost a tremor that ran through his chestânot violent, not dangerous, but charged. Like there was a wire humming under his skin that was just barely holding.
And still, somehow, he smiled.
The kind of smile that only showed up when he was trying to hide how badly he wanted something.
You swallowed. Your hand was still in his hair, fingers brushing at the soft edge of his temple. You could feel his warmth, his nerves, the small, careful gravity that existed between his body and yours. You let your gaze drop to his mouth, just for a second, and then back to his eyes.
âWell,â You said, keeping your voice low and playful, in an attempt to mask your heart beating out of your chest âYouâre gonna have to wait until after your hairâs done. Iâm not making out with someone mid-dye jobâthis stuff stains.â You added innocently, a smirk drawing up on your lips. You could hear Bobâs breath catching in his throat at the sheer mention of making out.
âRight, right, of course.â He said, trying to cover up the excitement that bloomed in him.
âNow, be a give boy and stay still, so I can work my magic.â You whispered tilting his chin up even more with your gloved hand.
âY-Yes, maâam.â He responded breathlessly, without even thinkingâso soft, and so automatic that it made your pulse spike. You cleared your throat a bit before dipping the brush into the bowl, letting the creamy dye coat the bristles, then gently you began to cover the stark blonde lengths of his hair in the dark brown colouring. The scent of itâchemical but faintly sweetâmingled with the warm air drifting down from the little ceiling fan, and you tried to keep your breathing steady as you worked. Bobâs hair was softer than you expected, silken even after all the damage. And the way he tilted his head just slightly to give you better access made your chest ache.
He closed his eyes at the first touch, his jaw going slack as you parted the strands with careful fingers, keeping your brush strokes slow and methodical. You could see his throat move as he swallowed, the faintest tremble still present in his frameâbut now it was quiet, more soothed than shaken.
You worked in silence for a little while. It wasnât awkwardâjust thick with the kind of tension that lingers when two people are trying not to break a moment thatâs humming with too much energy. You kept your movements fluid, coating each section with care, your free hand occasionally grazing the side of his neck or the curve of his temple to steady him.
Bob let out a slow, shaky breath.
ââŚCan I touch you?â
The question barely made it past his lips. His eyes were still shut, but his lashes fluttered like he wasnât sure if he should open them yet. You paused, brush hovering midair.
âTouch me?â You asked, like you were confirming what he just said. He nodded, just once.
âNot in a weird way I justâI need toâŚTo do something with my hands.âYour lips parted, the heat returning in full force, knowing that he was probably making an excuse to put his hands on you, to feel you, to take you in, but deep down inside, you didnât mind one bit.
âYeah,â You said quietly. âYou can touch me.â
The second you said it, you felt his hands move. Slow, careful. The sweater slipped from his lap and landed with a soft thump on the tile floor. Then his palms came to rest on the sides of your thighs, just above the hem of your compression shorts.
They were warm. Gentle. And a bit shaky.
Bob exhaled like the contact untied something in him, his fingers curling lightly around your skin as if he couldnât quite believe he was allowed to hold you like that. His thumbs swept slow arcs along the fabric, and then you saw itâhis bottom lip caught between his teeth, eyes still closed like he was savoring every inch of sensation, like he was trying to memorize the feel of you beneath his palms.
You could barely focus on the hair in front of you. Your hands just kept moving, but your entire body was tuned to himâhow he sighed when your knee brushed his, how he flexed his hands slightly when your knuckles grazed his cheek. How he chased what little touch he was getting from you.
âYou okay down there?â You asked, voice low, and tinged with amusement. His eyes finally openedâheavy-lidded, and flushed with emotion, as his fingers stayed firm on your legs.
âYeah,â He breathed. âJustâŚI think this is the most relaxed Iâve felt in weeks.â You couldnât help but smile at the softness of his voice.
âWell, Iâm glad I could contribute to thatâŚEven though now youâre going to have to wait thirty minutes for this to set in.â He wet his bottom lip with his tongue, nibbling on the inside of it, as you placed the empty bowl and stained brush onto the counter, taking off your gloves and letting them drop in the garbage all while staying in the space between his knees. You set a timer for yourself on the speaker radio that was near the conditioner.
ââŚWhat could we possibly do to make the time go by faster?â He asked shyly, almost like he already knew the answer, but he just wanted you to initiate it, because he was too nervous to do it himself.
You werenât going to give in that easily though.
âOh Iâm sure we could think of something.â Allowing your voice to be a bit more breathier than before. He blinked up at you, hopeful and unsure all at once, but he still didnât say anything, he Just kept holding you like he was afraid that any sudden shift he did would scare you off.
You didnât move much at firstâjust enough to lean a fraction closer. Just enough to let your shirt brush his bare chest as you planted your palms on the edge of the shelf behind him, caging him in without pressure, while also being mindful of his dye coated hair. Bob inhaled, and you felt the tremble of it, the way his breath shuddered as your faces moved closer.
You dipped inâslow, and teasingâuntil your lips were just above his. A hairâs breadth away from connecting.
But then you stopped.
Bob was dazed. His lips parted, breath warm in anticipation, waiting for you to do itâŚBut you just stayed there, close enough for him to swallow the air you breathed out into him, and to smell the faint hint of cherry that was still clinging to your lips from the cough drop.
ââŚY/N.â He whispered, his voice almost breaking off into a whimper. You tilted your head with a knowing smirk.
âWhat?â You asked quietly.
âY-You know whatâŚYouâre driving me crazyâŚâ He tried to lean up but you moved back just enough for him to lose the air you were giving him.
âThatâs the point.â You replied, brushing the tip of his nose with yours. His fingers tightened a little on your thighs, but he didnât move you closer, even though he couldâve. He stayed obedient. Soft. The way he was in his everyday life and you smiled down at him, leaning in again to brush your lips across his bottom one, feeling him shiver against you.
Bob let out a shaky breath, his eyes fluttering half-shut from the close proximity of your mouth. His palms on your thighs shifted upward, sliding under your baggy top so they could rest against the waistband of your compression shorts, his fingers brushing the skin of your hips.
ââŚYou donât know what youâre doing to meâŚGodâŚYou have no idea.â He said, his voice aching and on the verge of spilling over into begging.
âI think I have a pretty good idea,â You murmured back, trailing your lips across his again, feeling the wetness of his saliva this time before going to the shell of his ear âYouâre the one shaking, Bob.â You whispered, your breath hitting against his skin.
âIâm t-trying my best to be good for youâŚBut youâre making this so hard.â The heat between you curled together, tightening in your belly. You drew back just enough so you could look him in the eyes again. ââŚYou can do whatever you want to meâŚâ He whispered, âJust pleaseâŚPlease donât stop touching me.â Your breath caught at his word, not just because of the desperation that laced them, but because of the truth that hung below them.
It was the kind of truth people usually only say in the dark, or when they were half-asleep or drunk, but Bob was fully sober, wide-eyed, and trembling beneath your hands as if he couldnât hold himself back any longer. It was like you were pulling a loose thread from a shirt and it was completely unraveling the whole thing. You stared at him for a long moment.
ââŚThe timer is going to go off in about twenty minutes,â You said softly, âAnd I think weâre both a little overheated, arenât we?â Bobâs eyebrows knitted together, almost like he was preparing himself for you to stop this from going any further.
âWâWhat do youââ
âI think we should take a shower together when the timer goes off,â You interrupted, tilting your head to the side, âThat okay with you?â There was a beat of stunned silence. Then a choked little nod, as Bobâs fingers gently pressed into your hips on reflex.
âIâll rinse out your hair, get the dye outâŚThen maybeââ Your voice dropped into a whisper, ââIâll let you kiss meâŚThink you can manage to wait?â Bob let out a small broken soundâbetween a laugh and a groan.
âI-I can try,â He whispered, not even sounding convinced by his own voice.
The next fifteen minutes passed in a kind of suspended quiet. You didnât step away from him entirelyâjust retreated enough to clean the brush, rinse out the bowl, organize the conditioner and the towel youâd need for later. But the whole time you felt his eyes on you. And every time you glanced over at him out of the corner of your eye, he was still perched on the makeshift barber chair, elbows on his knees, trying not to look like he was counting the seconds.
With five minutes left on the clock, you went over to the shower and reached in, twisting the handle on the built-in panel. The pipes groaned quietly as the water surged out, spraying onto the shower floor. Within seconds steam was curling out from behind the frosted glass enclosure. The room warmed fast, the mirror fogging slightly at the edges, the air heavy with moisture and the faint scent of developer and dye.
The heat from the shower stuck to your skin as you turned your head back to look at himâstill seated, trying to play it cool like he wasnât about to explode from the anticipation. Bob leaned back against the tank, making room for you without hesitation, his knees parting instinctively like muscle memory, like his body already knew what was coming. You crossed the tiled floor with quiet, deliberate steps, the steam from the shower weaving between you both, making the bathroom feel smaller, more intimateâlike the air itself was folding in to watch.
You stepped between his knees again, standing tall in front of him, the light of the ceiling fan casting a warm haze on your skin.
Your hands found his shoulders again, fingertips skating lightly along the curve of them.
âWant to undress me?â You asked, your voice like a secret you were offering just to him. No teasing this timeâjust heat, thick and warm and sweet in your chest. He exhaled like you punched the breath out of him.
âY-Yeah, o-of course I do.â He said, barely above a whisper. You took his wrists into your hands, and guided him to the hem of your shirt, giving him the signal to do it.
He took his time with itânot from hesitation but from wanting to tease you back just a little. His knuckles brushed against your stomach as he gathered the worn fabric up, pausing briefly just beneath your ribs, looking up at you just to make sure you were still okay with this. You gave him a nod.
He peeled it up off you, slow and careful, taking in the way the shirt slowly revealed everything he wanted to see in short increments. Your ribs, the soft swell of your breasts, your collarbones, your shoulders, all the way up until he was able to take the shirt off entirely. He let it drop to the floor behind you.
Bobâs gaze dropped before he could stop it, letting his eyes roam over you like he was witnessing something holyâlike he wouldnât blink in case you suddenly vanished. His mouth parted for a moment as he audibly gulped. He was silent, his expression flickering between awe and hunger, tangling up in the open and stunned way he drank you in.
He was memorizing every inch of your skin. The gentle rise and fall of your chest, the soft curves and defined edges. Every freckle, birthmark, scar, or stretch of the skin, it was all there in his head, committed like it was a sacred text. You were completely unhidden, and you trustingly offered yourself to him with nothing but openness, and it was breathtaking to him.
âJesusâŚâ He said quietly, like your body was rewriting something inside him. He reached up and touched the soft skin of your stomach, the tips of his fingers tracing along your navel, before his eyes met yours again, revealing the beautiful haze of blue blurring together with the specks of orange that lived there. You brought your hand up to his face, caressing his cheek carefully, running your thumb just below his eye.
âYouâre so beautifulâŚâ You whispered, feeling Bobâs fingers curling beneath the waistband of your shorts.
âAnd youâre immaculateâŚâ He responded, slowly tugging your shorts down, his eyes never leaving yours as he did it. He just wanted to look at you, to take you in, to hold you close until you didnât want to be held by him anymore. He wanted you so bad he felt like he was going to explode, and the heat in the washroom wasnât helping him control that. The shorts dropped around your ankles with a soft flutter, and you stepped out of them slowly, brushing your hand down to his jaw.
âIâll meet you in the shower,â Your voice was low and soft like a promise. Then you turned, and walked behind the frosted glass, sliding the door shut in one swift movement. Steam swirled around you like a second skin as you stepped fully beneath the stream of water. It hit your scalp first, then your shoulders, pouring down your body in comforting waves. The warmth soaked into your tense muscles and melted along your spine, rinsing away the leftover ache of your fever and the lingering hum of restraint youâd been nursing for the last hour.
From beyond the frosted glass, you saw movement. Bob had gotten up and walked over to the alarm, clicking it off with a single beepâbecause what was a minute going to do for him. Then you heard the shuffle of bare feet on tile, followed by the soft rustling of clothes dropping. You could see his shadow moving, leaning down then straightening up again, seeing him step out of his sweatpants and his underwear before reaching for the handle.
He slid the door open and stepped into the steam. You could see him squinting at the change in scenery, until his eyes caught yours. Under the dimmed lighting that the shower had you looked ethereal, like a siren calling to him to come closer. You tilted your head at him.
âRemember, we gotta wash your hair out first.â Bob nodded silently, too stunned to speak or protest, and stepped closer to you until he was right against you, letting the water cascade down his body. You reached up without hesitation, brushing your fingers along the slope of his neck as you cupped his jaw gently, feeling the very faint stubble against your fingertips.
âClose your eyes,â You murmured, and he obeyed immediately, trusting you with all of him. You reached for the bottle of shampoo, flipping the cap open with a soft click. The scent was clean, crispâsomething like cedar and citrusâand you poured a generous amount into your palm before lathering it between your fingers. He hunched forward slightly to help you because of the height difference, the muscles in his back bunching as he bent, his hands braced loosely on his thighs.
Your fingers found his scalp and began to move, slow and deliberate, massaging through the dye-stiffened strands with practiced ease. His breath hitched at the first touchâsoft and barely audible over the rush of waterâbut he relaxed into you, the tension easing from his shoulders as you worked through his hair, your nails dragging along his scalp gently, sending shivers down his spine despite the warmth of the shower that was smothering him.
He tried to peek down at you through his lashes, but flinched the moment some suds landed on his brow. You caught the twitch of frustration in his mouth and grinned faintly to yourself.
âNo peeking,â You teased, your voice low and sultry, âYouâll get soap in your eyes, and thatâll just prolong the process.â You added, with a smirk.
âI-Iâm not peeking,â He muttered back, clearly lying.
But while he couldnât see you, you saw everything.
Your eyes dropped as your fingers moved through his hair, and your gaze caught on the rest of himâcompletely, gloriously bare under the waterâs fall. And it hit you like a weight to the chest.
He was hard. Completely, achingly hard.
It curved upward from between his thighs, thick and flushed and dripping from the spray. Your breath caught in your throat involuntarily. He wasâŚBig. The kind of big that made your pulse thrum deep in your core, the kind that made something flutter behind your ribcage. The kind of big that made you a bit nervous. His thighs were braced, strong and trembling slightly as the water poured down over both of you, and yet he stayed stillâeyes closed, waiting, unaware of just how deeply you were watching him.
You swallowed, trying not to stare too longâbut your fingers slowed in his hair for just a beat before you lathered more shampoo and brought it back to the roots, working it all through. You focused on your task, rinsing gently, letting the water carry away the suds and the last traces of harsh dye. As the dark rivulets streamed down and swirled at your feet, the natural color beneath began to reveal itself.
The soft brown, the colour that belonged to him, and only him. Not the Sentry.
You smoothed your hands through the damp strands with a smile on your face, and you could feel him relax further at the calmness of your touch.
âThere you are,â You whispered, more to yourself than to him, âBack to youâŚâ You could see his brows lift slightly at your words, still not opening his eyes.
ââŚW-What does it look like?â He asked softly.
âLike itâs all youâŚItâs perfect BobâŚâ You responded, seeing his eyes slowly flutter open, the soft blue still burning with those beautiful flecks of orange from the Sentry. When they locked on yours, something in him snapped completely, and he blinked a few times, steadying himself against you.
ââŚCan I kiss you now?â He whispered, breath catching in his throat.
You nodded.
And the second you did, he surged forward, his hands finding your face like heâd been aching to hold you there for days. His palms were warm and a little shaky, fingers threading gently into the damp strands of your hair as he tilted your head just right. He kissed you like it was the only thing that would quiet the trembling in his chestâdeep, and full of the kind of hunger that had nowhere else to go.
His lips parted against yours with a soft sigh, molding to your mouth like he already knew every shape of it. You responded in kind, letting your hands press flat to his chest before sliding up, feeling the slick heat of his skin, the steady thump of his heart beneath your palms. One hand drifted upward to cradle the back of his neck, the other anchoring at his side.
Bob shifted, pulling you flush against him, his hands sliding down to your waist, gripping gently as he tilted his head and deepened the kiss. There was nothing hesitant about it anymoreâonly quiet desperation, the need to be close, the need to feel you pressed against every inch of him. His thumbs rubbed slow, anchoring circles against your ribs as he kissed you over and over, his breath catching between each one like he couldnât quite get enough.
You felt your knees wobble when he sucked your bottom lip into his mouth, and he steadied you instantly, one hand sliding down to the back of your thigh, coaxing your leg to lift so he could hold you open against him.
You gasped softly into his mouth when he did itâbecause now you could feel all of him. His length, hot and heavy, brushing between your thighs. But he didnât push it. He just held you there, breathing hard through his nose as his mouth broke from yours for a second, bumping his forehead with yours.
âI-I have to touch youâŚCan I p-please touch you?â His words vibrated against your chest, shaky from the kiss he had just pulled away from. Immediately you nodded, drunk off of the way he held you, the way he kissed you so desperately. You were his, and you wanted him just as badly as he wanted you.
He dropped his hand from your thigh, keeping his eyes locked on yours as he guided you back, each step careful, like he was afraid to rush a single second of this. The warm tile met your spine gently, as the steam curled around your shouldersâlike it was dying to be part of the moment too. Your chest rose and fell with shallow breaths, the anticipation tugging at you like a puppet.
Bobâs hand, still curled gently around your hip, gave it one reassuring squeeze before sliding away. The loss of his hand made you let out a desperate sigh, wanting to feel him again. He looked down at you as he brought his fingers up to his lips, his tongue darting out of his mouth to coat the tips of them slowly, not for show, but for purpose. For you. His gaze never dropped from yours as he did it, and when his hand fell again between the both of you, he didnât hesitate.
His knee eased your thighs apart gently, and then his fingers found your clit. The first contact made your knees buckle slightly, and he caught it, pressing in with his knee to steady you, his free hand braced against the wall beside your head. His touch was gentle at firstâsoft circles, slow and attentive. You gasped, head tipping back, exposing your throat without thinking.
That was all the invitation Bob needed.
He leaned forward and pressed his mouth to the base of your neck, just where your collarbone met your shoulder. The kiss was wet and open-mouthed, like he needed to taste you and the saltiness of your skin. He breathed in like he could anchor himself in your scent. Another kiss, and another, working up the side of your neck as his fingers circled your clit with more confidence now, slick from the water and his spit, moving with practiced pressure.
âSoâŚSo soft,â He whispered into your skin, voice shaking, âSo goddamn softâŚâ Your breath caught as his pace shifted. You could feel your body respondingâarching into him, a wet heat building between your legs. You whimpered, and that sound nearly undid him. His teeth grazed your neck but didnât bite, his lips returning to kiss it better as if he could soothe the tremble in your body.
Then his fingers dipped lower, and he felt it immediately.
You were soakedâslick, warm, and pulsing beneath his touch. His breath hitched at the sensation, at the way your body welcomed him without hesitation. And when he eased two fingers inside of you ever so slowly you gasped, arching into his hand like your body had been waiting for that very moment.
âF-fuck,â You breathed, the word slipping out as your nails found purchase in his shoulders. You clawed at him instinctively, dragging across the muscle there, needing something to anchor you while he pushed them in deeper. He didnât flinch at the scratchâhe moaned. A soft, broken sound that came from the back of his throat like he liked the way it felt, like it made him feel wanted in the most primal sense.
His forehead dropped against your shoulder, his mouth kissing along your collarbone with a tenderness that contrasted the stretch of his fingers inside you. He mouthed at the skin thereâkissed it, licked it, sucked until it was sensitive and bruised. He pulled back looking at the little love bites, each one tinged with hunger. Bob wasnât the possessive type but there was this ache in his chest to mark you as his, and even if the water washed it away, he wanted to be sure he left something on your skin.
âY-You feel so warmâŚâ He said, his voice fraying at the edges. His fingers curled gently inside you, causing your knees to buckle again. Your body shuddered as the pads of his fingers dragged against that spot inside of you that made your entire frame light up. Bobâs hand moved to your hip, keeping you steady as his other hand worked in smooth, slow thrusts, each one more confident than the last. He found a rhythm, watching you, studying every moan and gasp like it was gospel.
And when you whimpered his name, when your body clenched around him so tight he had to grit his teeth, he gave a quiet, shaky laughâutterly wrecked by how responsive you were.
âYouâre gonna come for me, arenât you?â he asked, lips brushing your ear, breath heavy and hot. âI can feel itâŚGod, I can feel you squeezing meâŚâ
You nodded, unable to form a word, your nails biting into his shoulders again as your hips rocked against his hand.
Bob adjusted his angle, changing the pressure, and thatâs when you saw stars.
Your head dropped forward, forehead against his collarbone, the air thick with steam and the sharp scent of himâclean, masculine, tinged with desperation. His fingers moved faster, wetter, the slick sounds between your legs obscene and perfect, echoing between the tiles. He was muttering praise nowâsoft, reverent things that fell from his lips like prayers.
âJust like that, babyâso good for me⌠Youâre doing so goodâfeels like heavenâfuck, I want to see you fall apartâŚâ
You felt it hit like a wave rolling up your spine.
A tight, burning coil of pleasure twisted inside you and then snapped. You gaspedâloud, broken, as the climax ripped through you. You trembled, back arching hard into him as your thighs clenched and a rush of wetness gushed out around his fingers.
Bob stilled for a second in awe.
ââŚOh my God,â He breathed, stunned, his eyes wide as he held you through it. You collapsed into him, breath heaving, skin flushed and shining under the steam. He kept his fingers buried inside you, not moving, just holding you close, letting you ride it out as you trembled against his chest.
He looked down between you both, seeing the slick mess on his hand, the way your body had responded so violently to himâand his mouth dropped open slightly. Not because of shock, but because of wonder and awe.
âYouâŚYou did so good.â He praised, his voice barely holding together under the weight of what he just experienced with you. His lips brushed your temple first, then your cheek, before finally reaching your mouth.
The kiss wasnât hungry nor urgent, it was adoration in its purest form. His lips moved like they were tasting something heâd only ever imaginedâcareful and soft, like he was trying not to overwhelm you. He trembled against you, being crushed from everything unspoken between you. His hand was still between your thighs, cradling you like something precious, and you could feel how hard he was, pressed just barely against you, restrained only by the shivering line of self-control that hadnât yet broken.
When he finally, carefully, slipped his fingers out of you, you let out the tiniest gasp from the absenceâbut before he could fully draw away, you grabbed his wrist.
He was still in his movements.
Your eyes met his, holding steady as you lifted his handâand then you took his soaked fingers into your mouth.
Bob made a sound that almost didnât make it out of himâa soft, wrecked sigh that died at the back of his throat. His lips parted slightly, eyes darkening as he watched you suck him clean, your mouth warm and wet, tongue dragging along the pads of his fingers slowly, like you were claiming every last drop of yourself from his skin.
He could barely breathe.
You kept eye contact the whole time. It wasnât a power playâit was intimacy. Connection. And it unraveled him.
Once you were done, you let his fingers slip from your mouth with a soft pop, and he dragged themâslow and reverentâdown your chin. Then your throat. The hollow of your chest. His fingertips were wet with saliva, and he trailed it down like he was painting youâsmearing it across your sternum, over your ribs, and finally down to your hips.
âY/NâŚYouâre soâŚSo perfect,â He whispered, in disbelief, shaking his head as his hands ran down your waist, going straight to your thighs, before lifting you effortlessly. You let out a soft breath as your legs bracketed around his hips instinctively, your arms wrapping around his shoulders for balance.
He pressed a gentle kiss to the middle of your chest, and his voice came out barely above the noise of the shower
âDo you want toâŚStill have sex with me?â You looked down at him, caressing the side of his neck.
âOf course I do,â You responded instantly.
Your lips found his right afterâsoft and sure. You kissed him with everything you had, as if answering his question with your entire body. His breath caught, his hands clutching at your thighs with a startled need, grounding himself in the reality that you werenât going to vanish, that you really did want thisâwant him.
As the kiss deepened, you felt one of his hands slowly slide down your thigh, tickling the skin, but this time there was a purpose in his touch. He shifted beneath you slightly, and then you felt itâthe soft brush of his tip against you. Hot. Heavy. And trembling in his grasp.
You broke the kiss for just a breath, resting your forehead against his, your eyes fluttering shut as he lined himself up. His hand shook slightly, like he couldnât believe this was happening. Like he was terrified of getting it wrong. But he didnât rush. And neither did you.
âI want you,â You said, your breath warm against his mouth. âAll of you.â Bob let out a wrecked whimper from his mouth, before kissing you once more.
Then slowly he began to push in, moving his hips gently.
Your mouth parted in a silent gasp, your eyes flying open as your body stretched to take him. It was so muchâthick and deep and slow. He paused when he was just a couple inches in, his forehead still pressed to yours, panting.
âIs that okay?â He asked, voice cracking. âIâI can stop if itâs too muchâŚâ
You shook your head immediately, curling your fingers into his shoulders, drawing him closer.
âNo. Please donât stop.â
Bob exhaled a breath that shook all the way down to his spine, then kissed you againâslow, sweetâbefore sinking deeper inside.
You both moaned at the same time, and your tongues met in between the space your mouths made.
It was like he was imprinting himself into every inch of you. His hands gripped your hips with the kind of gentleness that made your chest ache, guiding your body until he was fully seated inside you, hips pressed flush against yours.
âOhâŚGod.â He whispered, eyes squeezed shut, trembling as he held still. âYouâre soâŚSo perfect⌠I canâtâGodââ
You kissed his jaw, whispering against the sensitive skin just beneath his ear. âYouâre okay, Bob. Youâre doing so goodâŚâ
He began to moveâshallow at first, rocking his hips into you in slow, reverent strokes. Each one pulled a quiet gasp from your lips. The water cascaded around you both, steam curling at your shoulders as you clung to him, your body humming in time with his.
He found a slow and steady rhythm, thrusting as deep as possible with each movement of his hips.
He kissed you everywhere he could reachâyour cheek, your mouth, your jaw, the slope of your shoulder and his praise was neverending. Whispered fragments between kisses and gasps.
âYouâre so beautifulâŚâ
âYou feel so good around meâŚâ
âI want to make you feel everythingâŚâ
Your hands were tangled in his hair, your body arching to meet every thrust, until your forehead was pressed to his again and your breaths mingled in the tight space between you. Each slow movement of his hips sent sparks crawling up your spine and you rocked against him, chasing every moment, trying to keep it from ending too soon.
Bob looked completely undone in front of you though. His mouth open, cheeks flushed, hands gripping your waist like you were his lifeline.
Then his thrusts started to falter.
You felt it in the way he gaspedâsharp and helplessâthe way his hold on you tightened and his voice pitched higher.
âIâY/N, Iâoh God, Iâmââ
You kissed him, hard, your voice hot against his mouth. âItâs okay. Let go. Iâve got you.â
He came with a broken gasp.
The lights flickered.
Just onceâflicker, flicker, blackâand then back on again. The overhead bulb buzzed faintly, a hum that matched the pulse of his release as his hips jerked forward, holding deep inside you while his whole body tensed. You could feel the warmth filling you in thick ropes, his body instinctively pushing up into you as if he was trying to keep it from spilling out.
And then he went still.
Completely, and utterly still.
He stayed buried in you, face tucked into the crook of your neck, breath hot and ragged as the water pounded softly over your bodies. You felt the way he trembled, felt the heat of his skin and the wild thud of his heart against yours.
He didnât move for a long time, he just stayed there, clutching you like you were the one thing that was bringing him down slowly.
And then you felt itâthe slow exhale against your neck, the soft tremor that followed. His voice came out low, cracked with embarrassment.
âI-Iâm sorry,â he whispered, still breathless. âThat was so fast. I didnât mean to-God, I just couldnât hold itâŚâ
You pulled back, just enough to see his face, his brows drawn together with worry, his mouth still parted from the weight of what just passed between you. And yet, even flushed and wrecked, he looked beautiful. Lit up from the inside out, like he still couldnât believe any of this was real.
You shook your head gently and brought your hand up to brush a damp lock of hair off his forehead, tucking it behind his ear with the same tenderness he gave you. âYou didnât finish too fast, Bob.â
He blinked, lips parting like he didnât believe you.
You leaned forward and pressed a kiss to the corner of his mouth, then whispered against his skin, âYou were perfect. I loved every second of itâŚBecause it was with you.â His features softened at your word, that shy smile blooming across his lips, one you felt in your ribs. You saw the glow of it before you felt his body move. He kissed you again, this time gentler, slowerâlike he wanted to say thank you with his whole mouth.
Then, carefully, he pulled out of you. You both shivered a bit at the sensitivity, and you caught the way his brows knit together, like he didnât want to stop touching you. But your body welcomed the shift, and your legs dropped from his hips as the moment passed, leaving behind only warmth and steam.
He reached for you instinctively, his hands skimming your waist like he was still trying to keep you close, like he couldnât quite accept that you were separate again. You smiled at him, brushing your fingers along his jaw, watching the way he leaned into the contact, like it was his oxygen.
âYou really like touching me, huh?â You teased lightly, watching his cheeks turn a deeper red, the corners of his mouth curling up shyly.
ââŚYeahâŚI really do.â He admitted. You let out a soft laugh, then looked toward the water still streaming from the showerhead behind him.
âAs much as Iâd love to stay in here and get all wrinkly,â You said, thumb brushing the hollow of his cheek, âIf we donât rinse off soon, the compoundâs water bill is gonna bankrupt Valentina.â Bob let out a breathy laugh, head dropping against your shoulder for a second.
âI guess youâre right, but once we get cleaned upâŚI want to just lay on the couch with you and hold you for a little whileâŚIf thatâs okay?â You nodded.
âOf course itâs okay.â You replied, guiding him under the steady stream of water. You each took turns, helping the other wash up. He was gentle when he touched your body as if you hadnât just taken him completely inside you minutes ago, and he ran his hands over the marks he had made on you, smiling proudly at his work. You matched his care, running soapy fingers down his spine, over his shoulders, through the strands of his newly darkened hair, rinsing the last of the evidence down the drain.
And when the water finally cooled, you stepped out first, digging around the towel closet for a spare. Bob followed right after, grabbing the one that he usually used, with steam rolling off his shoulders, making the air thick and warm as he wrapped the towel around his waist, pausing by the foggy mirror, wiping it off with his hand.
You watched from the side, pulling your towel around you gently, as he lifted his gaze slowlyâlike he wasnât sure what would be staring back at him. When he caught his own reflection, something shifted in his expression.
A smile. One of relief. Like a weight had been lifted off his chest.
You stepped behind him, and gently kissed his shoulder, looking at the small little scratch marks you had left on him.
He turned toward you slightly, reached out, and pressed a soft, grateful kiss to your lipsâbarely more than a breath, but brimming with emotion.
âThank you,â he murmured.
You smiled into him, nose brushing his. âDonât thank me yet,â You whispered. âI hope you donât get the flu from all of this.â
He laughed, his eyes shining as he bumped his forehead against yours.
âIf I do,â He said, âItâll be worth every damn minute.â
And then he kissed you again.
"until my lips fall off." bob reynolds.
summary: bob always gets in these moods where he always needs to be touching something. the team have started calling it his âtouchy-timeâ, but they donât know the extent of bobâs neediness when it comes to you. todayâs touchy-time happens right before valentina's mandatory team dinner.
prompt: you donât make it to dinner đśď¸
pairing: bob reynolds x thunderbolts!reader
word count: 3.1k
content contains: +18 contentâ smut. secret relationship lets go, wall sex lets go, neck kissing lets go, bob is super needy and touchy lets fucking go, manhandling(?)letsgo
authors note: day six of galentines collab!! the concept of male ovulation đ§ heâs like a little funky boy dog that goes around humping anything and everything he sees. thatâs the vibe iâm going for. can you tell. also this has been in my drafts forever and ive wanted to write for it but never got around to it. hurrah for clearing out my wips!!
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no one could remember exactly when bob stopped being mopey and started getting more touchy-feeling with you.
it hadn't been sudden, nor had there been a single moment where the team could think back to a certain time and say 'that's when it started'. it was subtle enough that he'd managed to slip under the radar until it became something that nobody could ignore.
it started with bob inching closer to you on the couch when the two of you were watching movies. then it escalated to holding your hands at random points in time even if you needed them, and in that case, his hand would fall to your thigh instead. at one point, he'd managed to convince you to let him into your bed by blaming it on the void, and stupidly enough, you'd let him.
at first, it had been a joke between the team because it was honestly a little funny to see bob clinging onto you like a puppy, but sooner down the line, the touch turned into something needier, and that's the part that the two of you hid from them.
the touch turned sexual, and even though you both knew it was wrong doing this with someone who is essentially a coworker, you could never stopâ or more like bob could never stop.
maybe it was because he had taken a liking to you. you'd been nothing but kind and accomodating to him since you first met him in that bunker (apart from when you'd shoved your gun in his face). whenever he sensed he was falling apart, he gravitated towards you, and you'd always let him. you had assumed he had just wanted to stick around that kimd of energy when everybody else on the team had turned a blind eye to him.
of course there were days when bob could keep his hands to himself, but he had found that if he stayed away for long enough, his handsâ restless and searchingâ always seemed to settle easier when they found you.
and unfortunately for you and the team, today seemed to be one of those days where he'd restrained himself from touching you.
valentina had organised a mandatory team-building dinner in order to... well, team-build. she practically demanded that everyone get dressed up to the nines and that the jet would pick them up and drop them off at some fancy restaurant halfway across the country.
you linger in your room longer then you mean to, smoothing down the wrinkles and creases in your black dress like it might change its mind about how it's sitting on your body if you dont reassure it enough.
you almost never wear this dress and only wear it for special occasions, and you counted this as one. it fit nicely almost like it was made specifically for you, it skimmed down your body just enough to make you stand a little taller as you look at your reflection. you look really good.
you slip on your heels, tuck your phone into your purse, and give yourself one final look in the mirrorâ more for courage than vanityâ before heading out of your room and shutting the door.
the living room is quiet apart from the boring show on the television and the click of your heels as you walk across the marble floor. the entire team is there scattered across the sofas in their fancy attire like a bunch of overdressed mannequins.
jackets are unbuttoned, ties are loosened, makeup is already a little smudged, some are scrolling on their phones, others are staring at the television screen. they all just look like they're reconsidering every life choice that'd led them here.
the first thing you notice is that bob isn't there.
yelena is the first to turn her head. her eyes fall up and down you a few times before she throws an arm across the back of the sofa. "you look nice." she compliments, and it sounds genuine.
"thanks. it's a bit itchy, but it's comfortable enough for one night." you tug at the fabric that'd bunched at your hips after your short venture down the hall. "you guys look nice too. maybe we should start dressing up more often."
bucky shakes his head, eyes set on the tv. "i'd rather not."
john looks around the room at the team, brows raised as he takes in the mixed of bored expressions and sluggish bodies. "is that all of us? can we finally get off of our asses and get going?"
"eh, bob is not here yet." alexei points out.
"speaking of bobâ" bucky turns his head to you, "did you manage to talk to him about limiting touchy-time like we talked about?"
"i cant believe we call it touchy-time." ava mumbles as she stares at the television screen, more to herself than anyone else.
"i tried during training yesterday," you scratch the back of your neck. "but he kept changing the subject. didn't seem like he wanted anything to do with it, so i stopped asking."
"have you ever considered telling him to stop completely? i mean seriously, imagine when he gets sentry under control and valentina clears him for missions." john gestures to nothing in general, hand waving around like it's helping the team visualise it. "kid's gonna be humping your leg like a horny chihuaha while we're getting shot atâ"
yelena cuts in with a groan of disgust, "gross, walker. nobody wants to imagine that."
bucky sighs, "i hate to say it, but i agree with john."
ava turns away from the screen, suddenly tuned into the conversation. "me too. do you ever think he just comes up with excuses because he wants to get all touchy-feely with you? i know he's a little... unstable, but how many times can he use the excuse of the void to fondle you all day?"
"he doesntâ" you blink, a little shocked at ava's use of words. "he doesnt fondle me. he just needs a little attention sometimes. that's all." you try to defend yourself as well as bob, but it seems to fall upon deaf ears.
"attention turns into obsession." john adds as if he's a wise old wizard. "i read that online once."
alexei decides its his turn to add his input. "i think its very sweet! is like little puppy and mama dog. if no lines are crossed, then i think those two should be allowed to have touchy-feely time."
you cringe at alexei comparing you and bob to dogs before you huff out a sigh. "can we not talk about bob behind his back? it feels rude. where is he anyways?"
"no idea." yelena shrugs. "we're all out here because we were waiting on you and him."
john checks his watch, one certainly gifted to him by valentina. "yeah, and we're gonna be late if he doesn't haul ass within the next ten minutes."
you glance down the hall, your eyes fixed on bob's door. it remains shut just like it has been all day, and a small knot of concern ties itself in your stomach. something about him being late doesn't settle well with you. you know his routine and his moods, and you know that when he's unusually quiet like this, then it means he's fighting something.
"i'll go check on him." you say, already turning towards the corridor, "make sure he's not dead."
"and tell him to hurry his ass up!" john calls behind you.
you don't bother responding. you turn and head down the hallway, the echo of your heels on the tile bouncing off of the walls while the noise of the living room fades as you move. you come face to face with bob's door, your hand hesitating before you knock, but your knuckles hit the wood three times anyways.
"bob? are you in theâ"
the door opens and you're yanked inside by a sharp tug on your wrist before you can finish your sentence, the corridor disappearing as the door shuts behind you.
the first thing you notice is that bob is in front of you and he's sandwiched you between the wall, his mouth already working against yours. the next thing you notice is that his hands are already pulling up your dress, the fabric bunching in his hands as he drags it up.
you break away for air, but bob doesn't take a second for granted. he latches onto your throat and he inhaled a sharp breath that sounds like a mix of relief and indulgence, as if kissing you in the only thing keeping his alive.
"i'm sorry." he whispers into your skin, but you both know the apology won't stick. "sorryâ"
his room is quiet apart from his heavy breathing and the small pants that he pulls from you, the light dim through closed curtains and the red glow of his alarm clock. you can still hear the soft chatter of the team down the hall, and it pulls the urgency from deep within you.
you place your hands flat on his chest. he doesnt pull away, but he doesn't push any further either, caught in the miserable in-between where restraint is costing him. you can feel his heartbeat through his chest where your palms rest, pounding and restless with you in his arms.
you frown, "the team is waiting for us, bobâ"
but the words barely leave your mouth before he's shaking his head, brown curls brushing against your neck and the underside of your jaw.
"i know they are. i'm sorry, baby. i tried to stay away. i really did," he murmurs against your throat, apologies spilling out of his mouth although his teeth nipping at your skin says otherwise. "but pleaseâ i need you."
bob's hands are already tugging down your panties, thumbs hooked in the bands as he drags them down your legs, and although everything in you is screaming to pull him off of you and rush him out of the door, your body moves on its own, stepping out of the fabric as soon as it drops to your feet.
"val's going to eat us alive if we don't make it to dinner." you whimper when he sucks at the base of your neck, hands crawling at the back of his dress shirt.
"then let her. i'll be quick. been holding it in all day, but i cant do it anymore." he groans as his lips travel back up until he's pressing messy kisses onto your jaw and your cheek. "jus' need to feel you on my cock. need to feel you cum on me."
that sends a pant of heat through you.
your brows knit. he really has been good all dayâ no hovering by your side, no excuses to linger, and no absent minded touchesâ but now you can feel the cost of it in the way he's undoing his belt and in the way he's so hungry for you that you think he might actually bite you, and you know that you cannot let him go to dinner like this.
"okay." you sigh with a small nod, your hands crawling up to his neck and slotting into the soft brown tuft of hair at the base of his head, "then fuck me."
the groan that rips form his throat and low, and he unbuckles his belt faster than he ever has before. he rips it from his dress pants and it clatters to the floor in a stringy mess. then come his pants, the zipper already undone as he shrugs them and his boxers to the ground.
bob's hands hook under your thighs and he hoists you up against the wall, his weeping cock pressing against you with a pathetic whimper.
he's learnt that even without the sentry, he has enough strength to lift you like you weigh nothing. he's even learnt that he can lift you with one hand. dont ask him how.
his lips are back on yours, his tongue lapping messily against your mouth before you let him in. the kiss is a little rough around the edges like he's forgotten how to be careful with you, all heat and urgency as he breaths you in. you're sure your makeup is all smudged, but you don't really care now that the blunt tip of bob's dick is pressing into you.
and when he finally pushes in,
"fuuuuuccckkkk..." he moans, a little too loud for your liking.
"bob, you have to beâ" you cut yourself off with a staggered breath as bob drops you down onto him deep enough that you can feel him in your stomach. "you have to be quiet."
"i'm sorry, it's justâ i missed you." his brows furrow in pleasure, his head dropping back down to your neck. "god, you're so tight."
you sigh, "it's been two days."
"too long." he murmurs into your neck. "never wanna be apart from you ever again."
bob starts moving slow, holding onto you by your thighs and rutting his hips into you like he's trying to make sure that your body remember him. his chest is pressed so tight against yours that you almost feel like you can't breathe, and your arms are wrapped around his torso clinging for more.
just as you think he might be savouring the moment, he lifts you without warning and drops you back onto his dick. the sheer force of it rips a moan from your mouth, catching you so off guard that you bite down into his shoulder, your saliva soaking the fabric.
bob pants into your ear, eyes heavy with pleasure. "needed this so bad. needed you. needed to fuck you."
bob doesnt rut into you anymore. instead, he begins lifting you up and down his cock, shuddering in your arms as he drags against your warm walls. the pace he sets is fast enough for the echo of skin-on-skin to bounce around the room, the angle and the pressure of which he has you against the wall hits all of the soft spots in you. your eyes almost roll back, body practically going limp in his arms.
one of his hands come up to cup your face, thumb running along your bottom lip and his eyes watching every quiver in your expression. his other hand continues lifting you and dropping you onto his dick, his fingers digging into your skin with every harsh bounce.
"i heard you talking to the team about our arrangementâ about whatever this isâ" he admits quietly, eyes set on your saliva coated mouth. "i know it's bad and i know we shouldn't do this."
"bob." you try to cut him off, arms tightening around his neck in an attempt to ground him, but he continues, panicked and a little earnest.
"so justâ just tell me to stop and i'll stopâ" he rushes, his brows furrowing as he speeds up, his hips bucking up into you, "say the word and i will, i swear. i'll back off and i'll behave, iâ"
"faster."
the word leaves your mouth as a whisper, soft and broken and honest, and that seems to be what undoes bob.
his hand falls back to the underside of your thigh and lifts your legs a little higher until your hamstrings burn and your knees are pressing into your chest. he's not bouncing you anymore, but now he's fucking up into you, his cock tearing through you like this is all he needs.
you grab at him, hoping to hold onto something that'll ground you, but he's so strong and so steady that you don't even need to. he's holding you so tight in his arms that you're sure he'd catch you if you were to fall, and that in itself has the ball of heat in your stomach ready to snap.
but then there's a knock at his door only a feet feet from you, and even though it pulls you from your daze, bob continues dragging you his cock in and out of you as if one of your friends isn't right outside.
"hey, you guys in there?" yelena's voice spills through the quiet, "john's getting all pissy with us, so we're leaving."
you have to force a hand over bob's mouth, his moans and panting spilling into your palm, and you feel a little bad when you see the tears that brim in his waterline. your brows knit as you force your eyes to stay open, willing yourself to keep focus when bob can't.
"bob isn't feeling good, so i thinkâ" you swallow down a moan when bob thrusts into you hard enough that your clit grinds into his lower stomach. "i think we're just gonna stay back so i can takeâ" you gasp, "take care of him."
and maybe bob understands your words as an excuse to fuck him all night long, because his eyes shut and he gets a little closer, hips grinding into your ass instead of fucking you. you've noticed this as a tell that he's close, and the friction is enough to send you over the edge too.
"okaayyyy..." she drawls through the door. "your funeral. we'll be back in a few hours. dont burn the tower down. or do. i dont care."
you can hear yelena's footsteps recording down the hall, and as soon as you move your hand from his mouth, bob starts pistoning into you with inhumane speed, his head dropping onto your shin as he presses into you and finally fills you up.
the sound of his hopeless rutting turns filthy with the combination of your slick and his cum, and he leans in to press another messy kiss to your mouth. your chests move together, and the room falls silent except for the soft sounds of your breathingâ his uneven and yours still catchingâ paired with the quiet thud of his heart.
and the first thing that comes out of his mouth isn't a reassurance or a apology, but a question.
"does that mean you don't want to stop?" he asks, his voice low with uncertainty and what sounds like hope, almost like he's bracing for the answer even though he knows what it is.
your smile as best you can, already tired. your fingers run through his hair, tugging at the soft knots you'd accidentally formed before you speak.
"of course not." you say quietly, "i know the team complains about it sometimes, but that's not something they get to complain about. i dont think its a problem that needs fixing."
the hope in his expression warms your heart. he exhaled like he's been holding his breath all day before he leans into your touch like he's finally allowed to. but then, slowly but surely, you feel his dick harden inside you again.
"are you hard again?" you ask with false annoyance lacing your words, but you could never actually be annoyed with him.
he plays it off by giving you a small peck on the lips, the top of his nose brushing yours as he leans his forehead against yours. "maybe."
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the plan ; robert 'bob' floyd
fandom:Â top gun
pairing:Â bob x reader
summary:Â the squad are all pretty sure that bob has a thing for you, but you're not convinced, so you hatch a plan to tease him within an inch of his life until he snaps
notes:Â i fear i may never again experience as much joy as i did while writing this... guys, it was so much fun! i know it's long, but it's full of tension and pining and heat, please give it a read! i actually love this so much, and i hope you do too, so please let me know what you think!!! i literally fell in love with bob while writing this, the lewis pullman spiral is spiralling
warnings:Â swearing, big dick energy, movie references (the princess bride, the ugly truth, star wars), bob's big dick, tension, lots of horniness (18+ ONLY MDNI), italics, huge dick energy, jealousy, bob is secretly cut, emotional warfare but it's fun, and did i mention bob's massive dick? (let me know if i missed anything)
word count: 21143
your callsign is sunny
It wasnât long after the uranium mission that Dagger Squad was asked to stay on North Island and train as an elite, mission-focused unit under Maverickâs command. Not that anyone had to be askedâmost of the squad was more than happy to be reassigned and stick together.Â
Once everything was finalised and the official special operations squadron was born, the first thing most of you did was move out of the barracks. You needed more spaceâboth physically, and from each otherâand, frankly, something that didnât reek of stale socks and floor polish.Â
You and Natasha thought youâd hit the jackpot when you found a two-bedroom apartment right by the beach, with a spacious open-plan living area and not one, but two balconies. It was perfect. You could hardly believe it. Full of natural light, and just far enough from the boys you already spent too much time withâtraining, flying, doing push-ups every time someone pissed off Maverick.Â
It was meant to be.Â
Until the apartment across the hall went up for lease.Â
And thatâs how you failed to escape the boys entirely. Reuben and Mickey spotted the sign while helping you move in, and before you knew it, they were neighboursâcloser than ever and almost impossible to get off your couch.Â
A knock at the door draws your attention from the TV, and Natasha pauses mid-step on her way from the kitchenâbowl of popcorn in hand.Â
âTen bucks says itâs Fanboy,â she says, a smirk tugging at the corner of her mouth.Â
You know that Mickey is stuck on overtime tonightâpunishment from Maverick for mouthing off during a fly drill this morning. Natasha, however, hadnât been in the air with you and clearly wasnât listening on comms.Â
Your eyes flick to the door and back to her. âDeal.âÂ
She drops the bowl on the coffee table and doubles back, swinging the door open.Â
âUgh,â she sighs. âItâs you.âÂ
Reuben blinks, his smile faltering as his brow creases. âNice to see you too, Phoenix.âÂ
She heads back to the couch, Reuben trailing behind.Â
âWhyâd you knock?â she asks. âItâs always open.âÂ
âWasnât the other day.âÂ
You sit up straighter, rolling your eyes. âThatâs because it was two a.m. and I was home aloneâsleeping.âÂ
Natasha drops onto the couch, a little closer to you than before to make room for Reuben. âDo we seriously not have boundaries anymore?â she asks him. âWhat could you possibly need at two in the morning?âÂ
He plucks the popcorn bowl off the table and settles it in his lap. âFanboy really wanted to watch The Princess Bride, but Netflix logged us out and we couldnât remember the password.âÂ
You lean across Natasha for a handful of popcorn. âThen get your own Netflix account, you fucking freeloaders.âÂ
Reuben gives you a wounded look. âOkay, rude.âÂ
You roll your eyes again and flop back against the couch, shoving a handful of popcorn into your mouth.Â
âWhatâs got your panties in a twist?â he asks, peering at you from Natashaâs other side.Â
Natasha snorts but keeps her eyes on the TV.Â
âNothing,â you mutter. âMy panties are perfectly untwisted.âÂ
Reuben chuckles and shifts his gaze to the screen. âThen maybe someone should twist them upâget some of that tension out.âÂ
You flip him off without even glancing his way, your scowl still locked on the TV. He just laughs again, and Natasha shoots you a sidelong, knowing smirk.Â
Twenty minutes laterâand after Reuben has all but annihilated the popcornâthe front door swings open and Mickey breezes in, making a beeline for the fridge.Â
âHave you guys eaten?â he calls out. âBecause Iâm starving. I skipped lunch and Mav still kept me back.â He grabs a beer and spins to face the living room. âIsnât that, like, illegal? Something about duty of care? Iâm about to pass out, and it wasnât even my fault I got held back. Hangman was the one mouthing offâI just told him where to stick it. But no, now Mavâs all professional, like heâs a real CO with a stick up his ass. Honestly? I liked him better before.âÂ
He yanks open a drawer, fishes out the bottle opener, and cracks the beer. âAnyway,â he says, glancing up at the three of you, âpizza?âÂ
A long beat of silence stretches through the apartment as you all stare at him.Â
âJesus Christ, Mick,â Reuben mutters. âTake a fucking breath.âÂ
Mickey just shrugs, heading into the living room. âWhat?âÂ
He drops onto the floorâfiguring the couch is already squishy enoughâand sets his beer on the coffee table before reaching for the remote.Â
âNo oneâs watching this, right?â he asksânot that it matters.Â
He doesnât wait for a responseâjust clicks a few buttons and starts scrolling through Netflix. Frustration simmers under your skin, because yes, you were watching that, but you bite your tongue. You know youâre in a bad mood, and itâs not worth taking it out on your friends. No matter how irritating they can be.Â
He finally lands on The Princess Bride and makes a satisfied little hum as he hits play. Then he tosses the remote back onto the table, picks up his beer, and leans back against the couchâhis elbow jabbing your knee in the process. Your glass, balanced loosely on your leg, sloshes and spills cold liquid onto your lap.Â
âWhoops,â Mickey says, glancing back at you. âMy bad.âÂ
âUh oh,â Natasha mutters, scooting slightly away from you.Â
âSeriously, Mickey?â you snap, eyes narrowing. âCould you not act like a clumsy lapdog for five fucking seconds?âÂ
His eyes go wide at your tone.Â
âHow the hell did you even get into the navy?â you bite, rising from the couch. âYouâve got the spatial awareness of a drunk oaf and the grace of a newborn deer on ice.âÂ
You storm into the kitchen, slam your half-empty glass on the counter, and tear off a wad of paper towels.Â
âVery descriptive insults,â Reuben mutters.Â
Natasha lets out a dry laugh. âYeah, thatâs how you know sheâs in a mood.âÂ
âWhy?â Mickey asks, cautiously glancing toward you.Â
You shoot him a glare over the kitchen island, dabbing paper towel at the top of your thigh.Â
âBob didnât talk to her today,â Natasha says. âLike, at all.âÂ
âOhhh,â Reuben and Mickey sigh in unison, the sound laced with realisation.Â
You toss the damp towel into the sink before turning toward the fridge and yanking it open, bottles rattling.Â
âTo be fair,â Reuben offers, âyou two were on different drills today. He probably just didnât get the chance.âÂ
You whirl around, beer in hand, glare sharp. âHe asked Phoenix if she wanted to go for a run tomorrow morningâwhile I was standing right there.âÂ
You shut the fridge with more force than necessary, then yank open the cutlery drawer and grab the bottle opener.Â
âOh yeah,â Mickey adds. âHe asked me too. Wants to do the Coronado Island Loop.âÂ
You pop the cap off your beer and let it clatter to the floor. âGreat. Thatâs great. Thanks, Mick. Love knowing I was the only one not invited.âÂ
Natasha sighs, her eyes following you as you trudge back toward the lounge. âI told youâhe probably just didnât think you were interested. When have you ever wanted to go running?âÂ
Reuben nods. âYeah, you hate when Mav makes us run laps. Youâre always the first to complain.âÂ
You flop down into your spot and take a long pull from your beer, eyes on the screen. âYeah, well,â you mutter, âhe couldâve asked.âÂ
âYou couldâve spoken up,â Natasha points out.Â
You roll your eyes. âYeah, and invite myself to something I deliberately wasnât invited to? No thanks.âÂ
Mickey shakes his head. âBob wouldnât leave you out on purpose. Heâs too nice.âÂ
âExactly,â Reuben says. âItâs Bob. He probably just got awkward about it.âÂ
You scowl and gesture to Natasha. âHe asked Phoenix.âÂ
âYeah, but thatâs Phoenix,â Mickey says. âTheyâre crammed together in the cockpit almost all day, every day. She doesnât make him nervous.âÂ
You scoff and sink further into the couch. âI do not make him nervous.âÂ
Natasha sighs again. âYes. You do. Iâve told you before.âÂ
âAnd I donât believe you,â you say, despite the warmth creeping into your cheeks. âYouâre always saying Bob has a thing for me, but I donât see it. Wouldnât he actually talk to me if he liked me?âÂ
âItâs Bob,â Reuben repeats. âHeâs not like the rest of us.âÂ
âExactly,â Natasha says. âHeâs polite and respectful. Way better than the rest.âÂ
Mickey turns from the TV, shooting her a wounded look. âOuch.âÂ
Reuben shrugs. âSheâs right. Thatâs why we canât tease him about it. We canât even ask him if he likes youâthough weâre pretty sure.âÂ
You roll your eyes. âHow can you be sure when heâs never admitted it?âÂ
âOh, itâs so obvious,â Mickey says with a giggle. âHe gets all googly-eyed whenever youâre around.âÂ
You shoot him a sceptical look, brows furrowed. âI donât see it.âÂ
âWell, of course heâs not going to let you catch him staring,â Reuben says, a smirk tugging at his lips. âHeâs a gentleman.âÂ
âYeah, and heâs not stupid,â Natasha adds.Â
âBut whenever youâre not paying attention,â Mickey continues, âhis eyes are glued to you, like a magnet.âÂ
You roll your eyes, determined to seem unconvinced, even though you can feel the warmth rising in your cheeks.Â
âOh, and every time youâre brought up in conversation,â Reuben says, âheâs locked in.âÂ
âUnless weâre talking about you and another guy,â Natasha adds with a knowing look âThen he gets all huffy and weird.âÂ
You snort a laugh before taking another sip of your beer.Â
âWhy donât you just ask him out?â Mickey suggests. âPut us all out of our misery. Bob will stop being so awkward, and youâll stop being soââ He stops when you shoot him a glare.Â
âSo what, Mick?âÂ
He turns his gaze back to the TV, muttering, âMoody.âÂ
You scoff. âYeah, okay. So, Iâm just supposed to believe you guys when I havenât actually seen any of these so-called signs myself?âÂ
Reuben and Mickey nod, but Natasha just watches.Â
âIâm not doing that,â you say flatly. âIâm not asking him out just to be humiliated.âÂ
The conversation dies as you turn your attention back to the movie, taking another generous sip of beer. Mickey pulls out his phone to order pizza, and Reuben heads to the fridge for another round of beers.Â
You keep your eyes locked on the TV, even though youâre barely watching. Instead, your mind is replaying the day, wondering if you missed the part where it was âso obviousâ that Bob has a crush on you.Â
Itâs hard not to agree with Reuben when he says, âItâs Bob,â because it just is. Heâs nice, considerate, raised to respect women and the navy. Heâs the perfect officer and the perfect gentleman, and thatâs half the reason youâre so damn attracted to him. A gorgeous guy with manners and respect to spare? Yes, please.Â
But, God, sometimes you wish he was just a little more basic. A little more in touch with his primal side, instead of always using the higher-functioning part of his brain that most guys donât even know exists. Youâve never even heard Bob say a woman is attractive, let alone spew some of the caveman shit that comes out of Jakeâs mouth.Â
And yeah, sure, you could ask him out. He might even say yes, just to be polite. But you donât want to put that kind of pressure on him or the squad. Him dating you out of pity would be worse than flat-out rejection.Â
An hour later, full of pizza and halfway through your fourth beer, youâre curled up with your head on Natasha's shoulder while The Ugly Truth plays on the TVâMickeyâs latest pick.Â
âMan, whatâs with you and romantic comedies?â Reuben asks, nose wrinkling as he watches Katherine Heigl flail on-screen.Â
Mickey shrugs. âDonât judge. Maybe Iâm feeling a little lonely lately.âÂ
âAww, Mick,â you coo, voice dripping mock-sympathy. âBetter get used to it. Youâre going to be alone forever.âÂ
His head snaps toward you, a scowl forming. âOkay, Miss-I-Refuse-To-Ask-Out-A-Guy-Whoâs-Clearly-Into-Me-Because-Iâm-Terrified-of-Rejection.âÂ
A smirk tugs at your mouth. âThat was way too long to sting.âÂ
âWhatever.â He rolls his eyes. âYouâre mean when youâre not getting laid.âÂ
âHey!â you gasp. âHow do you know Iâm not?âÂ
Thereâs a beatâa static moment where you realise youâve just fucked upâbefore they all burst out laughing. And even you canât help joining in, despite the embarrassed flush crawling across your chest.Â
Then suddenly, Natasha jerks upright, knocking your head off her shoulder. Her laughter halts as she stares wide-eyed at the screen, lips parted in a gasp. âHoly shit. I have an idea.âÂ
âAn idea?â Reuben echoes, brows lifting.Â
âYes!â She turns to you, eyes sparkling with mischief. âI know how weâre going to get Bob to admit it.âÂ
Mickey swivels on the floor to face her. âAdmit what?âÂ
Reuben rolls his eyes. âThat he likes Sunny. Duh.âÂ
âOh.â Mickey glances your way, then back at Natasha. âHow?âÂ
âHeâs only human, right?â she says, and both boys nod. âItâs obvious he likes herâheâs just too damn respectful. He probably thinks sheâs out of her league. Or heâs worried about dating someone in the squad. But deep down? Heâs still a guy. He has the same thoughts, the same... tendencies. Heâs just better at hiding them.âÂ
Mickey snorts. âOh yeah. If the way he looks at Sunny in a bikini is anything to go by, heâs definitely got those thoughts.âÂ
You shoot him a glare. âDonât be gross.âÂ
âNo, heâs right,â Natasha says quickly. âI hate it, but heâs right. Every time weâre at the beach and youâre half-naked, he looks like heâs barely holding it together.âÂ
You try to keep your face neutral, but your heart is thudding too fast against your ribs.Â
âWait,â Reuben says, leaning forward. âI think youâre onto something. Like when she squeezes into the booth at the bar and hovers over his lap for a secondâhe looks like heâs about to combust.âÂ
âExactly!â Natasha exclaims. âThatâs it. Thatâs what we need to doâwe need to make him snap.âÂ
You narrow your eyes, ignoring the spark of adrenaline beginning to curl in your gut. âOkay... but how?âÂ
Natasha turns toward you, her eyes wide and full of focus. The same look she wears just before take-off. âYou need to... tease him. Really make him suffer.âÂ
Mickeyâs grin turns wicked. âOh, this could work.âÂ
Your brow lifts. âTease him how?âÂ
âTempt him,â Reuben says, matching Mickeyâs grin. âPush every button. Get close. Make him want you so badly he canât hide it anymore.âÂ
You snort. âSo, seduce him?âÂ
âWorse,â Natasha says. âYouâre going to give this man the worst case of blue balls in naval history.âÂ
Both Mickey and Reuben flinch.Â
âHeâs going to end up in the hospital with a permanent boner,â Natasha adds, mischief blazing in her eyes. âCrying. On. His. Knees.âÂ
âBobâs a good man,â Reuben says solemnly. âHeâs respectful. Polite. Sensible. And weâre gonna have to break him.âÂ
âWe?â you repeat, pulse racing.Â
âExactly,â Natasha nods. âIf this were any other guy, you could get it done in a day. But Bob? Bobâs built different. If we want to unleash his inner caveman? Itâs going to take a team.âÂ
Your stomach flips, anticipation stirring beneath your skin.Â
âIt wonât be easy,â Mickey says, his smirk returning. âBut it will be fun.âÂ
âSunny,â Reuben says, locking eyes with you. âAre you in or are you out?âÂ
That spark of adrenaline snaps through you like a live wire.Â
You nod. âOkay. Iâm in.âÂ
-Â
The plan is simple. Straightforward. One objective. Everyone's clear on it. Itâs been mapped out and set into motionânow all you have to do is play your part. Which is probably why your heart is hammering against your sternum like a damn war drum.Â
âI donât know, Nat,â you mutter as the two of you walk across the crunchy morning grass. âThis feels wrong.âÂ
âWhat does?â she asks. âThe thong or the plan?âÂ
You roll your eyes. âBoth.âÂ
âWell, suck it up. Thereâs no backing down now.âÂ
You squeeze your eyes shut and take a deep breath. Then you release it and reel yourself in. Sheâs right. You canât be a chicken foreverâand itâs not like youâre doing anything overtly humiliating. Besides, youâve got a team at your back, and theyâre not going to let you crash and burn.Â
Last night, Natasha had texted Bob to let him know she was inviting you on the morning run. Heâd replied with a simple thumbs upâsomething you found a little rude, but the boys insisted he only sends that when he doesnât know what else to say. Which, apparently, is a good sign.Â
This morning, youâd dug deep into your underwear drawer for a lacy black thong you bought a few years agoâback when you were more optimistic about your sex life. You pulled it on, despite the discomfort, and borrowed a pair of light blue workout tights from Natasha. Yep, thatâs a black thong under pale blue, skin-tight leggings.Â
âWithout being creepy,â Mickey says from a few paces behind, âthe plan is looking really good from back here.âÂ
You shoot him a scowl over your shoulder as Reuben smacks his arm, even though heâs wearing the same mischievous grin.Â
The four of you wait at a picnic table in the park where youâd agreed to meet, and it doesnât take long before you spot Bob walking across the grassâdark grey sweats and an oversized U.S. Navy hoodie, his hands tucked firmly into the front pocket. Quite possibly the most innocent, basic outfit he couldâve wornâa ridiculous contrast to yoursâand yet you still find yourself thinking wildly inappropriate thoughts.Â
About whatâs under those sweats. About how good theyâd look on your bedroom floor.Â
Even the soft smile on his lips as he approaches makes you want to scream. How is one man such pure, soft boyfriend material... yet still manages to awaken your most primal instincts? It doesnât make any sense.Â
âHey,â he says, eyes skimming over each of you before settling on Natasha. âWe ready?âÂ
Natasha nods, and the five of you start walking off the grass toward the footpath before breaking into a jog. She and Bob take the lead while you hang back, with Reuben and Mickey flanking you like a private escort. Exactly as planned. You might be trying to fluster Bob, but you donât need half of Coronado getting a look at your underwearâhence the two-man protection detail.Â
Two kilometres later, you all stop for a quick stretch. Bob wanders off toward a water fountain, and you seize the opportunity to move up beside Natasha, placing yourself at the front of the group. Againâexactly according to plan.Â
When Bob returns and joins in on Reuben and Mickeyâs conversation, you and Natasha shuffle a little closer. She props one foot up on the bench, leaning into the stretch as she gives a subtle nodâthe signal to begin.Â
You let out a shaky breath, then slip on your best cool-and-confident facade.Â
âIâm never doing this again,â you say to Natâloud enough for the boys to hear.Â
âIâm just gonna get a quick drink,â Reuben announces, conveniently cutting off their conversation. Right on cue.Â
Mickey busies himself with stretching, leaving Bob to âaccidentallyâ overhear what comes next.Â
âWhat?â Natasha asks. âRunning? I told you youâd hate it.âÂ
âNo,â you reply, pretending to lower your voiceâeven though you donât. âWearing a fucking thong.âÂ
She snorts, the laugh surprisingly genuine. Either sheâs a fantastic actress, or sheâs thoroughly enjoying herself.Â
âWhy are you wearing a thong?âÂ
You roll your eyes, falling deeper into the role. âBecause I forgot to do my laundry and it was all I had left.âÂ
She snickers. âWell, have fun on the next eight kilometres.âÂ
âOh yeah,â you sigh, âcanât wait.âÂ
You glance casually over your shoulderâand bingo. Bobâs face is bright red. His lips are slightly parted. And heâs blatantly staring at your ass like itâs the final clue to finding the national treasureâand Nicholas Cage is depending on him.Â
Beside him, Mickey looks like heâs about to lose it.Â
âReady to keep going?â Reuben asks, walking back upâperfect timing.Â
Everyone nods, and Bob clears his throat, licking his lips quickly. âYep. Letâs go.âÂ
You and Natasha take off first, keeping yourselves in the lead.Â
Every few minutes, you glance backâand without fail, Bob is staring. Each time, it sends your heart skittering, your cheeks heating, and your thoughts wandering into very unholy territory.Â
Maybe your friends have been right all along. Maybe he does like you. Maybe this will actually work.Â
By the seventh kilometreâwith only three more to goâBob looks like heâs hanging by a thread. He ditched his hoodie about two kâs ago, tying it around his waist. His hair his clinging to his forehead, damp with sweat, and his glasses are fogging up slightly near the bridge of his nose.Â
You glance over your shoulder and give him a small smile. His lips pop open and he immediately averts his eyes, focusing instead on the pavement beneath his feet. You turn back, grinning to yourself, and thatâs when he picks up his pace and jogs past both you and Natasha.Â
Natasha nearly bursts out laughing, but she smacks a hand to her face, pretending to wipe the sweat from her upper lip. She shoots you a sideways look and a smirkâand the two of you push forward to flank Bob, jogging on either side of him.Â
âHey,â Natasha says, more than a little breathless. âYou trying to make this a competition?âÂ
Bob shakes his head, eyes locked on the path ahead. âNope. Just staying focused.âÂ
âWhatâs so distracting back there?â she asks, fighting a smirk.Â
âIs Fanboy being a pest?â you add, giving yourself a layer of plausible deniabilityâjust in case he starts to suspect anything.Â
Bobâs gaze flicks to you, then drops briefly to your chest before snapping forward again. âYeah,â he says, voice uneven. âHeâs breathing like Darth Vader.âÂ
âHey!â Mickey calls from behind. âIâm not deaf!âÂ
The five of you share a short, breathless laugh before settling into a comfortable silence. Youâre thoroughly exhausted now and decide to give Bob a break for the last few kilometresâmerciful, maybe, but also strategic.Â
Soon enough, the group slows to a walk as the cafĂŠ marking the end of your run comes into view.Â
âThank God,â Mickey gasps. âIâm starving.âÂ
âYouâre always hungry,â you mutter, shooting him a flat look.Â
The cafĂŠ is busier than expected, and youâre about to start crafting a subtle excuse to avoid going in when Reuben steps up behind you and unzips his jacket.Â
âCover your ass up, Sunny,â he says, smirking. âFor fuckâs sake.âÂ
You tryâand failâto suppress your grin as he hands you the jacket. You roll your eyes and tie it around your waist, grateful for the cover.Â
Once youâre feeling a little more decent, the group heads inside to order breakfast and find a table out back on the patio. The food and coffee arrive quickly, and soon everyone is digging in, quiet with post-run hunger. Though judging by how often Bobâs eyes keep darting toward you, his appetite might not be entirely food-related.Â
âSo,â Mickey says through a mouthful of bacon, âare we finishing the Star Wars marathon this weekend, or what?âÂ
Bob perks up instantly, eyes going bright, the usual stormy blue softening into something more sky-coloured. âYes. Tomorrow night?âÂ
Reuben frowns. âBut thatâs Sunday.âÂ
âMav gave us Monday off,â Natasha chimes in. âWeekend rotation, remember?âÂ
âOh, right.â Reuben nods. âYeah, Iâm in.âÂ
âHow many are left?â Natasha asks.Â
âSix,â Mickey replies. âNot including spin-offs.âÂ
âWeâre not getting through six in one night,â you point out. âWeâll be lucky to finish the prequels.âÂ
âUnlessâŚâ he says, his eyes gleaming with mischief as they flick between everyone at the table, âwe had a sleepover.âÂ
You snort into your coffee before taking a sip, expecting someoneâprobably Natasha or Reubenâto shut the idea down. But instead, their faces light up with the same devious smirk that Mickey is wearing.Â
âWe could,â Natasha says casually. âI think itâd be fun.âÂ
Bob blinks at her. âYou do?âÂ
She nods. âYeah. Why not? We could play some drinking games and not worry about getting home.âÂ
âDrinking games!â Reuben echoes with excitement. âYouâre a genius, Phoenix.âÂ
With the way their eyes keep bouncing between you and Bob, itâs clear now: theyâre scheming again. Plotting the next phase of Operation Bob's Blue Ballsâand your pulse is already quickening with anticipation.Â
âWe could do it at my place,â Bob offers, earnest as ever. âIâve got a spare room. Plenty of space.âÂ
Reuben grins. âWhat a great idea, Bob.âÂ
Bob glances around at his grinning friends, the smile on his face tinged with uncertainty. He has no clue what heâs just agreed to.Â
-Â
âDid you pack sexy PJs?â Natasha asks, her fingers drumming against the steering wheel.Â
You roll your eyes. âI donât own any sexy PJs.âÂ
She shoots you a sly smirk before her gaze flicks back to the road, her silence thick with something unspokenâas if she already has a plan to remedy your lack of Victoriaâs Secret-worthy sleepwear.Â
Bobâs apartment isnât far from yours. In fact, none of you live all that far from each other, but tonight, the distance doesnât seem to matter. Noâthe real reason for tonightâs sleepover is something far more sinister.Â
You know youâre the last to arrive, not just from the cars parked along the street, but from the group chat where Mickey has been demanding you hurry up so he can order dinner. Your heart beats in your throat as you ride the elevator up, and the ding when it reaches Bobâs level startles you more than it should.Â
Natashaâs smirk stays plastered on her face until she knocks on the door, and the second it swings open, with Bob standing there, sheâs all business.Â
âHey,â she says casually, walking past him like sheâs been here a thousand times.Â
A stab of jealousy twists in your stomachâcompletely unwarranted but sharp nonetheless. Has Natasha been here a lot?Â
âHi,â you mutter, offering Bob a small smile as you follow Nat inside.Â
Thereâs a chorus of hellos from the squad scattered around the living room. Bradley lounges across the two-seater couch furthest from the door, and Mickey is sprawled in a bean bag beside him, grinning like a kid in a candy store. Jake and Javy are tangled together on one end of the three-seater couch, probably having just finished fighting over the remote. And then thereâs Reuben, sitting in the middle, with Natasha plopping down beside him.Â
âGuess Iâll take the floor,â you mutter, dropping your bag beside the pile of everyone elseâs stuff.Â
âThatâs alright,â Jake says with his usual cocky grin, âYou can sit on Bobbyâs lap for a bit of comfort.âÂ
Heat floods your cheeks, but you refuse to let him see the effect of his words. Instead, you roll your eyes and flip him off, then plop down onto the makeshift nest of cushions and blankets on the floor.Â
Bob reappears from the kitchen with another round of beers, while Mickey takes orders for dinner. Then Bob settles down beside you, his arm brushing yours just enough to send a sparks crackling across your skin. A moment later, Jake hits play on The Phantom Menace, and the room settles into a comfortable, albeit charged, quiet.Â
It doesnât take long before Jake groans that heâs bored, and Reubenâs eyes immediately flick toward Natashaâlike theyâd both seen this coming from a mile away.Â
âWe could play a game,â Mickey offers, all too innocently.Â
âYes,â Jake grins, already invested. âLetâs play a game.âÂ
âWhat game?â Javy asks.Â
Reuben opens his mouth, but Jake beats him to it. âTruth or Dare, obviously.âÂ
Natasha snorts and slaps a hand over her mouth, but not before you catch it. That was exactly what Reuben had been about to suggestâand Jake is walking right into whatever scheme theyâve cooked up.Â
âHow old are you?â Bradley asks Jake, brows furrowing.Â
âNot as old as you, Grandpa,â Jake fires back. âBut you could at least pretend to enjoy fun.âÂ
Bradley rolls his eyes but shrugs. âFine.âÂ
Everyone else falls in line, shifting around until youâve all formed a lopsided circle on the floor, your back half-angled toward the movie. Jake claps his hands together like the ringmaster of a circusâwhich might not be far off from what this night is about to become.Â
âAlright. If youâre a chicken and wonât answer the truth or do the dare, you drink. Simple. Iâll go first.â He zeroes in on Bobâpoor, unsuspecting Bob, who clearly just wanted to enjoy some Star Wars in peace. âBob. Truth or Dare?âÂ
âTruth,â Bob says, almost too quickly.Â
Jake leans forward with a shit-eating grin. âWho would you rather go on a date withâPhoenix or Sunny?âÂ
You choke on nothing, smothering the sound behind your hand and pretending itâs just a casual cough.Â
Heat blooms across Bobâs cheeks and starts creeping up to the tips of his ears. He glances your wayâjust for a beatâthen over at Natasha, and your stomach knots. Is he seriously having to think about this? Have your friends been totally misreading Bob this whole time?Â
Then, after a moment of hesitation, Bob simply lifts his beer and takes a long sip.Â
Jake groans. âUgh, lame.âÂ
âDonât worry, Bob,â Javy says with a laugh. âThat was a trap. There was no right answer.âÂ
Bob chucklesâa low, rough sound right next to you that sends goosebumps up your arms. âI know,â he says, voice deceptively casual. Then he shifts his gaze toward Mickey. âFanboy. Truth or Dare?âÂ
Mickeyâs face lights up. âDare.âÂ
Bob smilesâand for the first time tonight, itâs almost a smirk. Thereâs something sharp beneath the usual softness, and it makes your stomach flip.Â
âText the last person you hooked up with âthinking about youââno context. And you can't reply until tomorrow.âÂ
Mickeyâs grin drops. âWhat the fuck, man?âÂ
Bob just shrugs, raising his beer like itâs a toast. âYou picked dare.â Then he brings the bottle to his lips and takes a generous swig.Â
And holy shitâyou might actually combust from the sight alone. Bob being just a little cocky. Bob utterly destroying Mickey with zero remorse. You know thereâs a darker edge beneath that quiet, boy-next-door act. You know heâs got a mean streak. And God, you want to find it. Pull it out of him and askâbegâfor him to do things you canât even say out loud.Â
The group erupts into cackles as Mickey reluctantly pulls out his phone, Reuben peering over his shoulder to make sure he follows through.Â
âThere,â Mickey mutters, tossing the phone face-down on the floor. âYou better watch your back.âÂ
But Bob doesnât flinch. He just sits there, calm and collected, with that damn smirk still tugging at the corner of his mouth.Â
When you finally tear your gaze away from him, you find Mickeyâs eyes locked on youâan evil grin stretched across his face. âSunny,â he says, voice smooth as silk. âTruth or Dare?âÂ
You steel your nerves, unsure of whatâs coming but already sensing the trap. âDare,â you reply, trying to keep your voice steady.Â
Mickeyâs grin widens, tipping his head forward like some sinister villainâand you just walked straight into his web. âGoogle a dirty line from Fifty Shades of Grey... and whisper it slowly in Bobâs ear.âÂ
Jake snorts, his face twisted with amusement, and the rest of the group followsâdissolving into fits of laughter. All but Bob, whoâs already choking on his beer, turning an even deeper shade of red before youâve even touched your phone.Â
You blink, eyes going wide. âAre you serious?âÂ
âOh, Iâm very serious,â Mickey replies, practically vibrating with excitement. âAnd no laughing. You have to sell it.âÂ
You lock eyes with Mickey, your death-glare sharp as your hands shake slightly while you pick up your phone. Then, you reluctantly tap the search bar and type in âdirty line from Fifty Shades of Grey.â Before you realize whatâs happening, Natasha leans over your shoulder.Â
âOoh,â she giggles, pointing at the screen. âThat one.âÂ
You glance up at Bob, your expression a mix of apology and warning. He looks much less confident than before, his lips parted, cheeks flushed, blue eyes wide behind his glasses. His throat bobs as he swallows, and a small part of youâone that feels dangerousâstirs with excitement.Â
The room falls into eerie silence, and you realize that Jake has paused the movie. All eyes are on you as you shuffle closer to Bob, getting onto your knees beside him. You plant one hand on his thigh to steady yourself, and you feel the muscles in his leg twitch at your touch.Â
His breath hitches, his whole body going rigid.Â
You lean in close, your lips barely brushing the shell of his ear as you murmur, âI want your hands on me. Your mouth. I want to feel you everywhere until I forget my own name.âÂ
A beat of silence stretches, and then Bob exhales sharply, his hand tightening around his beer bottle as if itâs the only thing keeping him tethered to Earth.Â
âJesus Christ,â Jake mutters under his breath.Â
âHoly shit,â Reuben says, breaking into laughter.Â
Mickey is howling, pounding his fist against the beanbag. âWorth it! So worth it!âÂ
You slowly pull back, biting back a grin as you settle back into your spot like nothing happened. Bob, however, is still stuck in the mental tailspin you just launched him into, blinking hard and adjusting his glasses like he needs a whole system reset.Â
You meet his eyes, and for the briefest second, you see itâburied beneath the shock and heatâthat glint of hunger.Â
God help you, you're not making it out of tonight alive.Â
The game moves on, but you canât quiet your mind. Youâre stuck on the way Bobâs thigh had felt beneath your palm, the way the muscles shifted under your touch. You canât stop replaying the brush of your lips near his ear, the hitch in his breath, or the way heâd smelledâclean, warm, intoxicating. You donât just want to fuck this manâyou want to ruin him. You want him panting and wrecked, bruised and breathless, oversensitive and spent. There are things you want to ask of him that would guarantee you a one-way ticket to hell. But if he said yesâif he gave you those thingsâitâd be worth it.Â
Youâve never wanted a man the way you want him, and itâs starting to feel like a genuine threat to your well-being.Â
âBob,â Natasha says, her voice snapping you back to reality, âTruth or Dare?âÂ
Youâre not sure how many turns youâve missed, but Bradley and Reuben seem to have swapped shirts, and thereâs a bottle of tequila on the table that definitely wasnât there earlier.Â
âDare,â Bob replies, seemingly recovered from your whispered indecency.Â
Natasha grins. âI dare you to pick someone in this room to do a body shot off ofâexcluding me.âÂ
Your heart stutters at the last part. Did she say that because she thought heâd pick her? Would he have? Out of comfort, knowing it wouldnât mean anythingâor for some other reason?Â
You shake the thought off quickly and join the groupâs laughter, mentally scolding yourself for the jealous spiral.Â
âSeriously, Phoenix?â Bob sighs, his brows knit.Â
She just shrugs, laughing. âYou picked dare.âÂ
He tips his head back and groans, giving you a perfect view of the long line of his throat, the sharp bob of his Adamâs apple as he swallows.Â
âCome on, man,â Jake chuckles, âThereâs only one clear choice.âÂ
Your cheeks flush as Jake nods toward you, green eyes sparkling like heâs the one about to do the dare.Â
âAs if youâre not going to pick Sunny,â Javy adds, watching as Bobâs eyes slowly scan the room.Â
Then his gaze lands on youâsoft, but laced with something heavier. Something simmering.Â
He licks his lips, and you canât stop yourself from imagining them on your skin. Imagining his tongue dragging over your body, slow and deliberate. The salt from your collarbone, your abdomen⌠or maybe lowerâright above the waistband of your pants. Would he use the glass? Or would he press his mouth to your stomach, lips sealing around your navel, tongue lapping up the tequila while you tremble beneath him?Â
Then the limeâbetween your lips, waiting for him. His mouth brushing yours as he leans in, breath mingling, tasting more than just the fruit. You imagine the sharp burst of citrus, the tease of contact, tequila heat still slick on his tongue. Heâd bite down, lips grazing yours, and it would wreck you more than any kiss ever could.Â
âHangman,â Bob says suddenly, his gaze locked on the man across the circleâwho now looks a lot less smug and a lot more stunned.Â
Jakeâs brows shoot up. âMe?âÂ
The room erupts into laughter. Bradley throws his head back, already fumbling for his phone to record whatever chaos is about to unfold. Mickey nearly falls over, gripping the bean bag for dear life, and Javy is doubled over, laughing so hard he canât catch a breath.Â
âWhy would you do this to me?â Jake gasps, eyes wide.Â
âYou said there was only one clear option,â Bob replies evenly, the ghost of a smirk tugging at his mouth. âI agree.âÂ
âYou bitch,â Jake mutters.Â
âOh, this is so much better than what I thought was going to happen,â Natasha says. âShirt off, Bagman. Letâs go.âÂ
âThis could be considered assault,â Jake mutters as he sits forward on the couch.Â
âThen press charges,â Bradley says, half-choking on a laugh. âBut let him finish first.âÂ
Natasha bolts to the kitchen for lime and salt, and the rest of the group scrambles to clear space on the lounge like theyâre prepping for surgery. Jake peels off his shirt with the theatrics of a martyr, glaring at each of his cackling friends.Â
Bob, meanwhile, looks cool as everâfar more composed than Jake. And maybe thatâs the point. Picking you wouldâve set the room on fire. Picking someone else wouldâve gotten laughs. But picking Hangman? Thatâs just cruel and perfectâand from the slow curl of a smirk on Bobâs lips, he knows it.Â
âLetâs go, Seresin,â Natasha says, reappearing with lime in one hand, salt in the other.Â
Jake lies back with exaggerated misery, like a man about to be sacrificed at the altar. âI swear to God, Floyd, if you do anything weird with your mouth-âÂ
âI wonât,â Bob says, calm and unbothered. âUnless you want me to.âÂ
Your stomach somersaults. He didnât even look at youâbut somehow, it still feels like the line was meant for you. Like he knows exactly what he does to you, without even trying.Â
Bob Floyd is fucking smooth when he wants to be.Â
The room falls eerily quiet as Bob kneels beside the couch, one hand braced on the cushion beneath Jakeâs body, the other holding the tequila bottle. He looks sereneâlike heâs preparing for a sacred ritual rather than licking salt off another manâs chest.Â
âThis is happening,â Mickey whispers, wide-eyed. âThis is actually happening.âÂ
âFocus, Bob,â Natasha says solemnly, holding the shot glass as he pours the tequila. âWe believe in you.âÂ
Bob sets the bottle down and leans toward Jake slowly, both hands now braced on the couch as he lowers his head to the other manâs chest. The room is absolutely silent, save for the soft rustle of fabric and the charged hush of everyone holding their breath.Â
Jake stares straight up, completely stiff. âDonât look at me while you do it.âÂ
âIâm not,â Bob says, deadpan.Â
He dips his head and licks the salt clean off Jakeâs skin. Jake jerks like heâs been hit with a defibrillator.Â
âOh my God,â Javy whispers, clutching his chest. âThis is the best thing Iâve ever witnessed.âÂ
Natasha hands Bob the shot, and he tosses it back like heâs sampling a fine whiskey. Then he turns to the lime Natasha has jammed between Jakeâs clenched teeth.Â
âDonât you dare,â Jake warns.Â
âIâm just following instructions,â Bob replies calmly, and leans in.Â
Thereâs a ridiculous half-second where it looks like theyâre about to kissâand everyone knows it. You bite your fist to keep from bursting out laughing⌠or something else entirely. Because Bob? Cool as ice. Smooth as ever. He doesnât even flinch as his mouth brushes Jakeâs, teeth clamping down on the lime and tugging it free.Â
Jake makes a choked sound halfway between outrage and existential crisis.Â
Then the room explodes.Â
Bradley nearly falls off the lounge, still recording, laughter shaking his whole body. Natasha collapses into Javyâs lap, practically wheezing. Mickey is making noises like heâs being exorcised, and youâre on the brink of tears, shoulders shaking with laughter as Bob calmly returns to his seat, lime in hand, mouth twisted slightly at the tartness.Â
Jake bolts upright, wiping his mouth. âI need therapy.âÂ
Bob frowns. âYou needed therapy before that.âÂ
âYeah,â Jake spits, yanking his shirt back on. âWell, now I need more.âÂ
Youâre not sure youâve ever felt it beforeâand you definitely donât plan on voicing itâbut right now, you are incredibly fucking jealous of Jake Seresin.Â
It takes a while, but eventually the group settles down and the game fizzles outâmostly thanks to Jakeâs relentless sulking. Not long after, Mickey gets a notification that the food is nearly delivered, and everyone jumps into action to clear the table and grab whatâs needed for dinner.Â
Less than ten minutes later, youâre all crowded around the coffee table, shovelling Chinese food into your mouths and stealing bites off each otherâs plates. Jakeâs sour mood has mostly vanished, and everyone is focused on the final battle of the movie playing out on-screen.Â
By the time the credits start rolling, most of the food is gone. You and Natasha start carting plates, bowls, and empty containers into the kitchen while the guys finish polishing off their meals, scraping the last of the food off their plates and into their mouths. Â
âDid I mention I brought dessert?â Reuben pipes up, eyeing you as you stack a few plates in one hand.Â
You raise a brow. âAre you about to make a gross joke?âÂ
âNo,â he laughs, shaking his head. âYou know Barb, down the hall?âÂ
âNeighbour Barb with the yappy chihuahua?âÂ
He nods. âYeah. She bakes, like⌠the most amazing stuff.âÂ
You narrow your eyes, plates now balanced in both hands. âDo I even want to know how you know this?âÂ
Mickey answers for him, talking around a mouthful of Mongolian beef. âBecause weâre nice to our neighbours.âÂ
You give him a disgusted look before turning back to Reuben. âOkay. Get to the point.âÂ
He grins, a smug twist playing at the corner of his mouth. âShe made a huge batch of cream piesâI mean, puffs. So she brought some over, and I brought them here. Theyâre to die for.âÂ
Your eyes widen almost imperceptiblyâbut Reuben catches it, and you can see the spark of amusement flash across his face.Â
âHave you ever had a cream pie, Sunny?â Mickey asks, beaming up at you with sauce smeared on his face.Â
Jake and Javy snort, and behind youâyou swear you hear Bob snicker.Â
âYes, Mick,â you bite out. âIâve had a cream puff.âÂ
You turn sharply back toward the kitchen, but not before catching the small smirk on Bobâs lips, his cheeks pink as he spoons another mouthful of kung pao chicken into his mouth.Â
âThatâs not what I asked!â Mickey calls after you, giggling like a grade-schooler.Â
You roll your eyes and drop the plates by the sink, where Natasha and Bradley are already washing up.Â
âLookinâ a little red there, Floyd,â Reuben teases, his voice carrying from the living room to the kitchen.Â
Itâs the chicken,â Bob replies quicklyâbut thereâs something in his voice that makes a stupid, lovesick grin spread across your face.Â
Once everything is washed up and everyone has returned to the living room, Jake hits play on the next film. Youâre back on the floor, this time with your back pressed to the couch beneath Natasha, whoâs curled up with her legs tucked beneath her, leaving you space to lean. Bob is further away now, sprawled on his back across a fluffy blanket, a cluster of pillows beneath his head, hands folded neatly over his stomach.Â
You try to keep your eyes on the screenâit really shouldnât be that hard with both Hayden Christensen and Ewan McGregor to enjoyâbut your gaze keeps drifting to Bob. He looks so content, so cute, his lips tipped into a soft half-smile and his blue eyes sparkling behind his glasses. Thereâs something about him that turns your brain to absolute mush, and you still canât figure out what.Â
Maybe itâs the dichotomy of him. How sweet and quiet he isâsome might even say shy, but you know better. Heâs just overwhelmingly nice, with a pretty face to match. And yet, you have to remind yourself that this man is in the navy. Heâs not spinelessâin fact, heâs the total opposite. Heâs sharp and quick-witted, strong both mentally and physically. Thereâs not a single thing about him thatâs weak, yet he lets people assume otherwise.Â
Maybe itâs confidence. The kind that doesnât need to be loud. He doesnât care what people think or say. Not that he isnât awkward sometimesâhe definitely can beâbut thatâs more about being introverted. He doesnât need to show off or run his mouth like Jake. He doesnât need to fly like an idiot to prove himself. Heâs just Bob. He knows who he is, and heâs not apologetic about it.Â
What is it they call that?Â
Oh yeah⌠big dick energy.Â
Your eyes drift down his torso, lingering briefly on his handsâthe way his long fingers are laced togetherâbefore continuing down to the waistband of his dark blue joggers. Thereâs a bulge in his lap. A notable one. And a slight outline continuing down the left leg of his pantsâŚÂ
Wait. Thatâs like⌠kind of huge.Â
A hard nudge to your shoulder startles you, and you whip around to see Natasha staring at you. Her eyes are wide, her lips pulled into a smirkâhalf disbelieving, half smug.Â
Stop staring, she mouths.Â
You press your lips together to hold back a laugh, a little giddy from your fourthâor maybe fifthâbeer. Your face feels warm, and you know if you keep looking at Nat, youâll start laughing, so you quickly turn back to the movie.Â
âOkay,â Mickey pipes up, scrambling out of the beanbag and to his feet, âwho wants cream puffs?âÂ
âOnly if you serve them warm and full,â Jake shoots back.Â
The room eruptsâhalf groans, half childish laughter. Mickey just snorts and disappears into the kitchen, Reuben trailing behind him. A few minutes later, they return, each holding a heaping plate stacked with warm, golden cream puffs.Â
âFair warning,â Reuben says, setting one down on the table, âthese things are insane. Like... dangerously good.âÂ
You grab one without hesitationâsoft, golden, still warm to the touch. Itâs dusted in powdered sugar and practically bursting with cream. You bite into it andâholy hellâthe taste explodes in your mouth. Sweet. Rich. Ridiculously creamy. You moan without meaning to, eyes fluttering shut.Â
âOh, wow,â you say around a mouthful. âThatâs... actually insane.âÂ
The group hums and laughs in agreement, but you barely notice. You take another biteâbigger this timeâand it squishes a little too easily in your hand. Cream oozes out the side, trailing down your chin and, with an audible plop, lands squarely between your breasts.Â
âOh, shit,â you mutter, trying to swipe the cream awayâbut all you manage to do is smear it further.Â
Thereâs a beat of silence, and even the movie playing in the background seems to go quiet.Â
âJesus Christ,â Reuben says, somewhere between impressed and scandalised. âYou sure you donât need a minute alone with that thing?âÂ
Laughter rumbles around you, and only when you look up do you realise how provocative that just wasâthe heat in your cheeks deepening. But then your eyes catch on Bob.Â
Heâs not laughing. Heâs not even blinking.Â
The lazy smile he wore earlier? Gone. Heâs sitting upright now, shoulders tense, jaw clenched. His gaze is locked on you like he forgot what movie is playing, what day it isâhell, maybe even his own name.Â
âFloyd?â Mickey nudges his leg with a foot. âYou good?âÂ
Bob jolts slightly, as if waking from a trance. He coughs, shifts, and yanks the blanket from the floor to cover his lapâtoo quickly to be casual.Â
âThey, uh...â he clears his throat, voice rough. âThey look really good.âÂ
Your stomach swoops as he leans forward, still holding the blanket tight in place, and reaches for a cream puff from the plate right in front of youâstill avoiding your eyes entirely.Â
Natasha leans in from behind, her voice low. âYou are killing him.âÂ
You press your lips together to hide your grin, eyes flicking back to Bobâwhoâs now doing everything in his power not to look in your direction.Â
The cream puffs disappear in what has to be a record amount of time. Youâre pretty sure you watched Javy inhale at least four, and there was an unnecessarily loud argument between Mickey and Bradley over the last one, which ended in a begrudging decision to split it.Â
The rest of the movie plays out without incident, and afterward, everyone decides to change into their PJs for the final film of the night. Youâre honestly surprised everyone has made it to movie number three, but youâre not complaining.Â
The boys start rummaging through their bags, swapping out jeans for boxers or stretchy pajama pants while Natasha grabs her bag and disappears into the bathroom. You keep your eyes glued to your phone screen to avoid catching a glimpse of something you definitely donât want to seeâbecause these boys? They have no shame.Â
âYou can change in my room if you want,â Bob offers.Â
You glance up, making sure to keep your eyes fixed on him, because just a little to the left is where Jake is still mid-change.Â
âYeah?âÂ
Bob nods, a small smile tugging at his lips as he gestures down the short hallway past the kitchen. âItâs the door just after the bathroom.âÂ
âThanks,â you mutter, pushing to your feet and grabbing your bag as you slip past the othersânow teasing Mickey about his choice of boxers.Â
The door is open just a crack, and your heart thuds a little harder than it should as you ease it the rest of the way. The smell hits firstâclean and warm, with a twist of vanilla that makes you want to wrap yourself in it and never leave.Â
You flick on the light and shut the door behind you, dropping your bag to the floor. You know you should just get changed, but⌠you canât help it. Youâve only been to Bobâs apartment a couple times beforeâonce to help him move in (because of course the whole squad helped), and once with Natasha to pick him up before a night out. But never in here. Never in his room.Â
Itâs almost unusually tidy, but thatâs navy life for you. His bed is made neatly, topped with a soft baby blue duvet, coordinated beige and cream pillows, and a throw blanket folded at the foot. Itâs a little faded and looks handmade, like something passed down through generations.Â
On one side of the room, a bookshelf houses a quiet little collection of well-loved paperbacks, a few aviation manuals, and a line of model planesâsome pristine and precise, others clearly glued together by a much younger version of him. A framed photo of a beaming, pint-sized Bob in oversized glasses sits on the dresser, nestled between a small baseball trophy and a display of navy challenge coins.Â
A pair of worn sneakers sits neatly by the door, and his uniform jacket hangs off the closet handle, the door slightly ajar. The name tag catches just enough light to pull your eyes toward it. Everything about the room feels like himâmodest, thoughtful, quietly proud. Itâs the kind of unintentional intimacy that makes you feel like youâve slipped behind the curtain and gotten a glimpse of the real Bob.Â
And somehow⌠that makes your chest ache. Itâs just a room. But it feels so much like himâlike you could curl up in here with him for hours, doing nothing but talking and dreaming. Getting lost in each other. Letting the rest of the world wait. And then, later, getting tangled together. Soft kisses, whispered pleas, gentle moansâslow and unhurried, learning one anotherâs bodies until you know each other better than you know yourselves.Â
You shake your head hard and take a breath. Youâve already been in here too long. Pull it together.Â
You crouch beside your bag and pull out your pajamasâsoft lounge shorts and a matching long-sleeved shirt. Itâs nothing special, but a step up from your usual: an old, food-stained navy tee and nothing but underwear.Â
You change quickly and shove your clothes into your bag before leaving the room. The lounge room has quieted down, everyone now back in their seatsâexcept for Mickey and Bob, who are in the kitchen grabbing another round of drinks.Â
Jake hits play as soon as they return, and everyone settles in again. Thereâs less chatter now, probably because of how late itâs gotten. Bradley is almost definitely asleep, eyes half-shut on the two-seater, while Mickey is having the time of his life seeing how many of Bradleyâs fingers he can get stuck in the top of his beer bottle.Â
Natasha is curled up behind you, her head resting on Reubenâs shoulder, and his blinks are getting longer and slower by the second. Jake is surprisingly alert and invested in the film, but Javy looks like his head might lull back at any moment. And BobâBob is still wide awake, his eyes sparkling with interest as he watches the screen.Â
Halfway through the film, Mickey pushes to his feet and offers another round of drinks, prompting a few sleepy murmurs of âyesâ from the others.Â
âIâll help,â you offer, stretching as you rise from the floor and follow him into the kitchen.Â
You open the fridge and start pulling out beers while Mickey pops the tops off. But when you close the fridge and turn back around, you spot Reubenânow suddenly very awakeâwatching Mickey with intent. Heâs wearing that little smirk that always means trouble, clearly trying to telepathically communicate something to his WSO.Â
Your brow furrows as you glance between them, trying to decode the silent exchange. Mickey looks equally confused for a second... but then realisation dawns and a wicked grin curls onto his face.Â
He turns to you and mutters, âSorry about this.â But he doesnât sound even remotely apologetic.Â
Your frown deepens. âWhat are you-âÂ
But you donât get to finish the question before he starts shaking the beer bottle in his hand.Â
âMickâ!â you cry, just as he pops the top off and sprays you with beer.Â
You shriek, throwing your hands in front of your face like thatâll somehow stop the onslaught. But it doesnât. Youâre soaked.Â
âWhat the hell, Fanboy?â Reuben calls from the living room, as if this wasnât entirely his doing.Â
âMickey!â you shout, dropping your arms and glaring at him.Â
âWhoops,â he says with a grin. âMy bad.âÂ
Natasha snorts and smacks a hand over her mouth. âSorry. Itâs not funny.âÂ
âWow, Fanboy,â Jake pipes up, the smirk in his voice unmistakable. âIs that the first time youâve made a girl wet?âÂ
Mickey glaresâor tries to. Heâs way too pleased with himself for it to land properly.Â
âHey, Floyd,â Reuben calls, âyou got any spare clothes for Sunny?âÂ
Bob is already looking at you, lips parted and cheeks flushed. He swallows hard before turning to Reuben and nodding. âYeah, of course.â Then he stands, eyes flicking back to you. âDo you want to shower?âÂ
Mickey gasps, scandalised. âRobert Floyd, are you propositioning her?âÂ
Bobâs blush deepens, colouring his neck and the tips of his ears, but he doesnât look particularly ashamed. He looks⌠flushed. Hot. Close to unravelling. His glare cuts back to Mickey, sharper than usual, a little too dark to be playful. And then his gaze shifts back to youâspecifically, your chest.Â
You follow his line of sight and immediately wrap an arm around yourself. Your nipples are pebbled beneath your shirt, the damp fabric clinging in all the worst ways. Or the bestâif you ask Bob Floyd.Â
âYes,â you say tightly. âA shower would be good.âÂ
The room dissolves into quiet laughter as you follow Bob down the hall. He slips into his room for a moment, then returns with a folded towel and some clothes stacked neatly on top.Â
âHere,â he says, offering them to you. âTake as long as you want. You can use whateverâs in there. Not that thereâs much.âÂ
He dips his headâblush still firmly in placeâand heads back to the living room.Â
You stare after him for a second, dumbfounded. He got embarrassed about his lack of shower products? Thatâs what embarrassed him? Not the full-body, post-beer-shower eye-fucking he just gave you?Â
You close the bathroom door behind you and lean against it, exhaling hard. Youâre buzzing. Overstimulated. Untouched and on fire. You feel like youâre being edged and then abandoned, left to squirm. Youâre so sensitive it hurts. Bob is teasing you just as much as youâre teasing himâthose glances, the heat behind his eyes, the way his mouth hangs open like he wants to say something but never does.Â
You mightâve thought you were playing a game, but Bob Floyd is about to kill you without even realising it.Â
You strip quickly, trying not to dwell on the fact that youâre naked in Bobâs apartment. You keep the water on the cooler sideâa half-hearted attempt to wash away the heat still simmering under your skin. But it doesnât help. You shower fast and step out even faster, wrapping yourself in the towel Bob gave you. Itâs fluffy, soft, and smells just like himâwhich makes that spot deep behind your hipbones ache.Â
You dry off in record time, then turn to the small pile of clothes on the vanityâBobâs clothes. Your hands tremble slightly as you lift the satin boxers, dark blue with little white stars, and slide them up your legs. Then the shirt: a worn white tee with a faded Star Wars logo across the chest.Â
His scent wraps around you the second you slide it over your headâoversized and impossibly soft against your warm skin. You try not to focus on the rasp of cotton against your nipples. God, if he ever actually touches you, you might just combust.Â
You take a deep breath, trying to calm the fire burning low in your belly, then scoop up your beer-soaked clothes and open the bathroom doorâsteam spilling into the hallway as you step out.Â
"Finally," Mickey says, popping up in front of you like heâs been waiting, holding out a plastic bag.Â
You blink. âWhat?âÂ
âFor your clothes,â he says simply.Â
âOh.â You take it and shove the damp material inside.Â
His gaze dipsâjust for a beatâbefore sliding back up. Then he grins, gives you a cheeky wink, and turns back toward the lounge room. You follow, every eye lifting to you the second you reappear. Warmth floods your cheeks. Youâre in Bobâs clothes. Bob's boxers. Bob's shirt.Â
âCan we play the movie now?â Jake whines, oblivious to the tension humming through the room. âIt was just getting good.âÂ
You nod, unable to speak, your gaze already locked with Bobâs.Â
His eyes rake down your body, slow and deliberate. He takes in the curve of your neck, the slope of your shoulder, the hang of his shirt against your chest. His gaze catches there, as if he can see straight through the fabric, then continues its journey down to the hem. The shorts are barely visible beneath the shirt, and judging by the heat in his eyes, he might be wondering why you're wearing pants at all.Â
You shift under the weight of his stare, hyper-aware of every inch of fabric against your skinâof how suddenly hot the room feels. Jake presses play, but no one is watching the screen. Every pair of eyes bounces between you and Bob, waitingâexpectingâsomething to happen.Â
Bob looks wrecked. His hands are clenched at his sides, knuckles white, jaw tight. Like he has to physically hold himself back.Â
Natasha clears her throat, startling you more than it should. You tear your gaze away and flash her a sheepish smile before finally forcing yourself to move, padding back to your spot on the floor.Â
Even then, you can feel Bobâs eyes tracking every step.Â
The rest of the movie plays out in near silence, broken only by the soft snoring that eventually starts up from Bradley and Javy. It takes a while for you to settle, but you finally curl up on the floor with a pillow hugged to your chest, watching Anakin fall apart on-screen and become Darth Vader.Â
Jake is the only one still fully invested in the film. Even Bob seems distracted now, his eyes flicking toward you more often than the TV. He shifts in place, uncomfortable, dragging the blanket higher across his lap and holding it like a lifeline. You try not to smirk.Â
You think you know what might be going on under there⌠but youâre not about to assume. It couldn't possibly be just because youâre wearing his clothes.Â
âŚRight?Â
Eventually, the credits start rolling and everyone begins to stir.Â
âWhere am I sleeping?â Mickey asks, already eyeing Bob like heâs got plans.Â
Bob shrugs. âWherever. Thereâs the couches and a couple beds in the spare room, but someoneâll have to sleep with me.âÂ
âI think Roosterâs good here,â Jake says, glancing at the man awkwardly passed out on the two-seater couch. âIâll take this one.âÂ
âIâll sleep with you, Bobby,â Javy says through a yawn, stretching so wide his joints pop.Â
âDamn it,â Mickey mutters as he walks past, bumping your shoulder with his. âMissed opportunity.âÂ
You roll your eyes but canât help feeling a twinge of disappointment. You know damn well you wouldnât get any sleep next to Bobânot when he smells like that, looks like that, and keeps looking at you the way he does. So itâs probably for the best, but still, the thought lingers.Â
Everyone takes turns brushing their teeth and shuffling off to bed. You end up in the fold-out bed with Natasha in the spare room, while Reuben and Mickey claim the air mattress on the floor. Apparently, thereâs no escaping these boysânot even for one night.Â
Mumbled goodnights fade into rustling fabric and shifting limbs, then finally, silence.Â
Too much silence.Â
You lie on your back, eyes on the ceiling, thoughts screaming through your head like theyâre in a race. You should be tiredâyour body achesâbut your brain refuses to shut up. You toss the blanket off, overheated, but even with the cooler air, your skin feels flushed. You roll to your side, careful not to jostle Natasha on the creaky mattress, but nothing helps.Â
You glance down at the boys, both snoring with their mouths open, and finally sigh. Swinging your legs off the bed, you wriggle out of Bobâs shorts, thinking maybe itâll help. You donât usually sleep in pants anyway.Â
It doesnât.Â
Ten minutes later, you quietly slip off the bed and tiptoe toward the door, easing it open with practiced care to avoid the squeaky hinges. Then you turn down the hallway, barefoot and warm-skinned, and pad into the kitchen.Â
The hem of Bobâs shirt brushes against your bare thighs, stoking the fire already simmering between them as you stop in front of the fridge and pull the door open. A cool flood of light spills across the kitchen tiles. You grab a bottle of water and twist off the cap, stepping back and tipping it to your lips. But the cold rush does nothing to cool the heat thrumming beneath your skin.Â
âYou always walk around other peopleâs places half naked?âÂ
You choke, almost spilling water down your chin as you turn toward the voiceâthat low, raspy sound that makes your skin prickle and your spine snap straight.Â
Bob stands at the edge of the kitchen, leaning casually against the far counterâbut thereâs nothing relaxed about the way he holds himself. In the dim glow of the fridge light, he looks almost ethereal. His eyes are sharp, lit with something that borders on painâhunger, maybe, or full-blown starvationâand his arms are crossed over his bare chest.Â
Yeah. Bob Floyd is shirtless.Â
You register a flicker of jealousy for Javyâthe man who gets to sleep next to thisâbut you donât let yourself linger on it. Not when Bob is standing right there in nothing but a pair of loose boxers, the fabric doing nothing to hide the impressive shape beneath.Â
You donât know if itâs because heâs a little turned on or just blessed, but damn.Â
âYou okay?â he asks, though it doesnât sound like a real questionâbecause he already knows the answer.Â
No. No, youâre not.Â
You clear your throat, dragging your eyes back up to his. âYeah, Iâuh-âÂ
Your words falter when his gaze drops to your legs. Thereâs something almost reverent in the way he looks at youâlike heâs trying to memorise every inch. His eyes drag slowly up your bare thighs, pausing at the hem of his shirt before gliding over your waist and stopping at your chest, where your nipples are clearly outlined beneath the thin cotton.Â
The heat of his stare burns hotter than any touch.Â
âCouldnât sleep?â he asks, voice quiet, like heâs just making conversation. Like he has no idea what heâs doing to you.Â
He pushes off the counter and walks straight toward youâslow, but sure. He stops right in front of the fridge, close enough that if you moved even a breath closer, youâd feel your nipples graze his skin.Â
You take a step backâbarely. Just enough to let him slip past you.Â
He nods slightlyâa silent thanksâand ducks into the fridge for his own water. When he shuts the door, the kitchen is plunged into darkness, save for dim moonlight filtering in from the far windowsâbut you can still see him. His outline, the dips and curves of his lean torso, the tilt of his head as he tips the bottle back and drinks.Â
You watch his throat move with every swallow, your lips parting slightly, craving his skin on your tongue. You donât move. You donât breathe. You just stand there, watching.Â
When he finishes, he turns to the sink and drops the empty bottle in before bracing both hands against the bench. His chin dips toward his chest, and you see the rise and fall of his shoulders as he exhalesâhard.Â
Before you can stop yourself, your feet carry you forward until youâre beside him, your bare arm brushing against his. You place your own bottle in the sink, then turn toward him and lean your hip against the counter.Â
âBob,â you whisper.Â
Every sound in the apartment feels louder nowâthe faint snores, the creak of the floorboards, your own heartbeat thrumming in your ears.Â
He looks at you, only turning his head, not his body. âDonâtââ he says softly. âDonât say my name like that.âÂ
You frown, sliding your hand over his. His grip tightens on the bench like heâs anchoring himself.Â
âLike what?â you ask softly.Â
âLike you want me,â he murmurs. His voice is thickârough around the edges like itâs been scraped raw. Like he's holding something back with every laboured breath.Â
You press closer, your chest against his arm. The contact is electric. Your skin separated only by a whisper of cottonâhis cotton.Â
âBob,â you breathe, a little desperate now.Â
He exhales sharply and drops his gaze to the sink again, like something there might help him. âThis isnâtâŚâ His jaw flexes. âWe canât do this.âÂ
âDo what?â you ask, playing innocent, even as your fingers trail lightly up his arm.Â
You can feel your chest rising and falling faster than it should, your breasts pressing against his arm like some wanton, starry-eyed girl. But you canât bring yourself to step away. Every inch of you is on fire, every nerve ending singed and tingling. You want him to turn around and take youâbend you over the counter and make you scream his name. Who gives a fuck whoâs listening... or watching. You just want Bob. You want him to know how much you want him, how deeply you need him. How desperate he makes you without even trying.Â
âDo you have any idea,â he whispers, finally turning to face you fully, âwhat you do to me?âÂ
You feel itâhard and thickâpressing against your lower belly. Thereâs no mistaking it now.Â
âBobâŚâ Your voice is a sigh, wrecked and begging.Â
He catches your wrist, his grip firm, nearly bruising. His eyes are wild as they search your faceâfrom your eyes to your lips, down to your chest, and back againâlike heâs torn between reason and ruin.Â
You hold still. Waiting. Daring. Wanting him to snap.Â
But then... heâs goneâhis warmth, his scent, the burning look in his eyes. All of it, gone in a breath.Â
âGoodnight,â he mutters, so low you barely hear it before the soft click of his bedroom door⌠and then the snap of the lock.Â
Youâre left standing there, chest heaving, skin burning. Your eyes sting with unshed tears, and your mind is a mess. What the fuck just happened? Your panties are damp, and your chest aches like you've been torn in two. You want to cry, but you also want to break down his door. How dare he build you up like that? Look at you like that, talk to you like thatâand then just walk away.Â
It takes several minutes before you can move, your legs shaky, your mind racing. You stumble back to the spare room, collapse into bed, and stare at the ceiling, flat on your backâBobâs shirt clinging to your skin.Â
You donât sleep. Not at all.Â
-Â
âHe what?â Natashaâs eyes go impossibly wide. âAnd then he justâhe left?âÂ
You nod slowly, keeping your eyes fixed on your lunch. The mess hall is loud enough to muffle your conversationâone you shouldâve had yesterday but couldnât summon the strength for. So here you are, in the middle of the hall, with the boys a couple tables over, surrounded by lieutenants you donât knowâblissfully unaware of your current crisis.Â
âYeah,â you sigh, stabbing at another piece of pasta you donât plan to eat.Â
You havenât eaten much in the last twenty-four hoursânot since the run-in with Bob. Everything feels bland now, drained of colour and taste, too dull to bother with. Anything that isnât Bob just feels lacking, and you're starting to worry that one momentâone heated, breathless momentâhas completely ruined you.Â
âThatâs insane,â Natasha mutters. âThatâs so... not Bob. How could he be soâI donât know... rude? I justâI have no words.âÂ
You shrug one shoulder. âIt wasnât rude. He just seemed... confused, I guess. And I donât blame him. If Iâm not what he wants, then-âÂ
âStop right there,â Mickey interrupts, sliding into the chair beside you.Â
Reuben drops into the seat next to Natasha, eyeing your tray of food.Â
âSorry,â he says, reaching across the table to steal your apple. âWe couldnât get away any faster.âÂ
You glance past Mickey, down the row of tables, and catch Bobâs eyes on youâjust for a secondâbefore he quickly looks away. Bradley, Jake, and Javy are still deep in conversation with the other guys, oblivious. Bob seems to be the only one noticing Reuben and Mickeyâs absence.Â
âStart again,â Mickey says. âFrom the beginning. We knew something happened.âÂ
Natasha snorts around a mouthful of pasta, and you sigh, knowing thereâs no point arguing. Theyâd get it out of you one way or another.Â
Twenty minutes later, when you finally finish recapping the story for the second time, Natasha taps her watch and nods toward the exit. âWe better get back before Mav, or heâll keep us late tonight.âÂ
Mickeyâs brows are nearly touching as he processes everything youâve said. âWhat does he mean, âyou canât do thisâ? He clearly wanted toâso why didnât he?âÂ
You pick up your tray and follow Natasha toward the return station. âYour guess is as good as mine.âÂ
âI mean,â Reuben says, brows furrowed, âyou said he was... at attention, right?âÂ
You blow a half-hearted laugh through your nose. âYeah.âÂ
âSo he definitely wanted to,â he says as the four of you exit the mess hall. âI just canât think of why he wouldnât go for it.âÂ
âI think itâs because youâre in the same squad,â Natasha offers. âHeâs probably worried itâll get weirdâor worse, if it doesnât work out.âÂ
You roll your eyes as you cross the hot concrete, heading back to the hangar. âBut weâre both adults. Why canât he just sack up and fuck me, and weâll worry about the consequences later?âÂ
Your voice comes out louder than you meant, and you donât miss the odd looks a few passing officers send your way.Â
Reuben chuckles. âMaybe you should just say that to him.âÂ
âNo,â Natasha says, turning toward you with a mischievous glint in her eye. âIâve got a better idea. Call it Plan B or whatever, but now... weâre bringing out the big guns.âÂ
âSo Sunny pressing her tits against him wasnât the big guns?â Mickey quips with a grin.Â
You smack him lightly across the chest before looking back to Natasha. âI doubt anything will work at this point, but... Iâm curious. Whatâs the idea?âÂ
âHowâs your gag reflex?â she asks, tilting her head thoughtfully.Â
You rear back, eyebrows raisedâand both Reuben and Mickey choke on laughter.Â
Natasha sighs, rolling her eyes. âNot like that. I mean youâre going to need a strong stomach and a Juilliard degree to pull this off.âÂ
You frown, slowing just slightly as the hangar looms into view. âOkay...âÂ
She straightens up and faces forward, a proud smirk tugging at her mouth and her chin tilted high. âWeâre going to make Bob jealous.âÂ
-Â
Out of Mickey and Reuben, you all collectively decided that Reuben was the more convincing option. Not that you donât think Mickeyâs gorgeousâyou do, and so does heâbut his acting skills are questionable at best. You at least have a little more faith in Reubenâs ability to fake flirt without making it weird.Â
The plan is simple. Convince Bob that heâs lost his shotâor that heâs just about to. Make it clear youâre happy to move on. If he wants you... well, now heâs going to have to fight for it. Because tempting him wasnât enoughâapparentlyâyou need to dig deeper. Tap into something primal and pull it to the surface. Exploit what lingers under the skin of every man: jealousy and competition.Â
Youâre going to make this a game he canât afford to lose.Â
âYou ready for Phase Two?â Natasha asks as you cross the base, the sun still barely above the horizon.Â
You take a deep breath of fresh morning air. âLetâs do it.âÂ
She and Mickey take off ahead of you and Reuben to arrive in the training room first. Itâs a known fact that Bob is always ridiculously earlyâso you know heâll already be there. You hang back with Reuben, rehashing the plan and trying to get used to flirting with him without cracking up.Â
At exactly ten past six, Natasha texts you to give the green lightâno doubt having casually pointed out to Bob that youâre not with her, which you always are.Â
âWhat if he doesnât care?â you ask Reuben softly as you climb the stairs.Â
He rolls his eyes like youâve said something utterly insane. âHeâll care, trust me. He might be Bob, but heâs still a guy. And heâs obviously down bad for youâjust needs a little push.âÂ
You snort. âLittle?âÂ
Reuben chuckles. âOkay, more than a little. Itâs Bob.âÂ
You laugh too, quietly, and then steel yourself as you reach the doorâslipping on your game face. You glance at Reuben, catching the smirk tugging at his mouth.Â
Then you both nod. Itâs show time.Â
âSo, youâre saying eye contact makes it better?â he asks as you step through the door, voice pitched perfectly.Â
You nod, casual but with a hint of something else. âYep. A thousand times better. And bonus points if you know where to put your hands.âÂ
He raises a brow, lips twitching. âWhere do I put my hands?âÂ
You giggle, soft and flirty, pausing a few steps into the room. âHow about I show you later?âÂ
His grin breaks loose. âPromise?âÂ
âPromise.âÂ
You head toward the rows of seats, sliding into your usual behind Natashaânot missing the way Bobâs gaze locks onto you like heâs been caught mid-thought. His head swivels as Reuben sits beside you instead of next to Mickey.Â
âSee,â Reuben says, leaning in a little, âall these years I thought speed was the key. But youâre saying itâs finesse?âÂ
âOh, definitely finesse,â you say, holding his eyes. âGo too hard and too fast, and itâs just... messy. Sloppy. Unimpressive.âÂ
Reuben licks his lips, his eyes flicking sideways to Bobâjust for a second. âSo, youâre offering me private lessons?âÂ
You lower your voice slightly, knowing itâs still perfectly audible to the rest of the room. âDepends. Can you follow instruction without getting too flustered?âÂ
Reubenâs grin sharpens. âI donât fluster, sweetheart. I excel under pressure.âÂ
You pause, your pulse a little too quickâpartly from Bobâs stare, which heâs not even trying to hide now, and partly from the fact that yeah, itâs been a while. And if this whole plan does blow up in your face... well, Reuben doesnât seem like the worst option for a little stress relief.Â
You fight down a laugh at the idea and finally drag your gaze toward the front of the room. Bobâjust one row aheadâsnaps his eyes forward like heâs been caught eavesdropping, but the bright red of his cheeks, the tight set of his shoulders, and the way his jaw flexes say it all. Heâs tense. Heâs listening. And heâs absolutely not okay.Â
A moment later, Maverick strolls in, completely oblivious to the emotional warfare brewing right beneath his nose.Â
The rest of the week passes in much the same way. Each evening, you regroup with your friends to scheme and strategize, brainstorming new antics to pull off the next day. Nothing over-the-topâjust enough to catch Bobâs eye.Â
On Wednesday, you get Reuben to help you into your flight suit. You both time it perfectly: he exits the locker room just ahead of Bob, and you appear a second later, flashing a flirty grin before asking sweetly for his help. You giggle and call him a sweetheart while Bob nearly trips over his own feet, glancing back with a clenched jaw and a look that could burn a hole through steel.Â
Thursday morning, Reuben brings you a coffeeâexactly how you like itâstraight to the briefing room. You proclaim, not so quietly, that heâs giving total boyfriend material before he drops into the seat beside you and you both giggle over a (completely fabricated) inside joke.Â
That afternoon, during a short break between drills and the next briefing, he offers you a bite of his protein bar. You take it right from his hand, licking your lips and throwing him an innocent little wink before sauntering off like itâs nothing.Â
By Friday, Natasha warns you that the others are starting to notice. But youâre in too deep to pull back nowânot when Bob looks like heâs about to unravel. Heâs been tighter than ever, watching you like a hawk, eyes dark and stormy instead of their usual calm denim blue. Youâre close. So close. And honestly? Youâre kind of having a little too much fun.Â
That afternoon, during post-flight checks, Reuben sidles up behind you under the guise of pointing out something âmechanicalâ on your jet. Youâre not actually doing anything with it, but that doesnât stop him from standing unnecessarily close, guiding your hand with his as he gestures toward something supposedly critical. The two of you are seconds from cracking up, but Bob doesnât know that. Bob, from all the way across the hangar, looks frozenâeyes locked, breath held, jaw tightâas Reuben presses flush against your back.Â
Natasha really shouldnât be enjoying this as much as she is, but honestly? She canât help it. Itâs too damn entertaining.Â
âHey,â she says, nodding at Bob as she approaches. âYou good?âÂ
He blinks, then turns his sharp gaze on her, jaw tight. âYeah.âÂ
She snorts. âThat was very convincing.âÂ
He rolls his eyes and turns robotically back to the maintenance logs heâd been filling out.Â
Natasha glances at the paperwork, noting the hard press of his pen and the uneven ticks and crossesâsome scribbled over multiple timesâdown the checkbox column.Â
âWow,â she mutters, raising a brow. âYou sure you earned your pen licence? Or should you still be on pencils?âÂ
Bobâs blue eyes flick up, darker than usual beneath his furrowed brow. âHa. Ha.âÂ
âOkay,â she says, biting back the laugh rising in her throat. âSo, bad day?âÂ
âBad week,â Bob grumbles.Â
Natasha nods slowly. âWell, hey, why donât we fix that by hitting up The Hard Deck tonight?âÂ
He snaps the logbook shut and tucks the pen into his pocket. âPass.âÂ
âOh, come on,â she sighs. âIt might make you feel better.âÂ
His eyes flick toward you again, watching as you and Reuben dissolve into giggles beside your jet.Â
âI doubt it.âÂ
âSunnyâll be there,â Natasha says, her voice light and teasing.Â
Bob doesnât respond. Just keeps packing up his thingsâevery motion a little too sharp, a little too fast.Â
Natasha exhales. âCome on, dude. Just come for one drinkâit doesnât have to be beer. Blow off some steam. If you hate it, you can bail early. But it wonât be the same without you.âÂ
He takes a breath and closes his eyes for a beat before letting it out slow. âFine. One drink.âÂ
Natasha grins, her eyes sparkling even in the dimming light of the hangar. âPerfect.âÂ
Later that night, Natasha drives the four of youâReuben and Mickey includedâto the bar. Everyone else agreed to meet there, and she insisted on driving so you could have a few drinks. Not just to loosen up for another round of torturing poor Bob, but to actually let loose a little. She can tell this whole thing is winding you up, and she figures a few beers and a night with friends might help ease the tensionâand the guiltâand maybe even the gnawing fear that this whole plan could blow up in your face.Â
âNat, are you sure this dress isnât too short?â you ask, holding the hem down against the curve of your ass as you follow her toward the main entry door. âI havenât worn it in years.âÂ
âThereâs no such thing as too short,â Mickey says, deadpan.Â
You roll your eyes and step inside, into the warm glow of golden lighting and the low hum of half-drunk conversation. You let go of your dress now that thereâs no breeze threatening to lift it, and try to relax, even with the strange sensation of bare legs in public. Youâre used to flight suits, not feeling this on display.Â
âReady to put on your best performance yet?â Reuben murmurs, slinging an arm over your shoulder.Â
You take a deep breath, feeling it rattle faintly in your chest. âLetâs do this thing.âÂ
Natasha shoots you a wink over her shoulder, already striding confidently across the bar, her gaze locked on the usual booth where the rest of your friends are waiting.Â
Thereâs a chorus of greetings as the four of you approach, and you all grin and wave, waiting as Bradley, Jake, Javy, and Bob shuffle around to make room. Natasha pointedly takes the spot beside Bob, with Mickey sliding in next to her. You claim the seat beside Jakeâwhich puts Reuben on your other side. Just as planned.Â
Itâs a little squishy, but after so many nights like this, none of you really notice. Except Bob. Heâs noticed tonight. His eyes are locked on the way your side is pressed to Reubenâs, his arm is slung casually over the back of the booth, fingers just barely grazing your shoulder.Â
âHe looks like he wants to kill me,â Reuben whispers in your ear, low enough that you can barely hear him over the chatter of the bar. âPretend I said something funny. Laugh like youâve got a secret.âÂ
You blink slowly, resisting the urge to roll your eyes, and let out a soft giggle as you lean toward him just a little.Â
âYouâre a pretty good actress,â he mutters before pulling back slightly.Â
You glance up at him through your lashes, feeling more at ease with the close proximity after the past week. Then you straighten your spine and lean in, your lips grazing his jaw as you whisper in his ear.Â
âYouâre annoying.âÂ
He chuckles quietly, though you know he really wants to snort and smack you on the shoulder. Youâre both enjoying this just a little too much, getting a kick out of your undercover roles.Â
When you turn back to the rest of the group, Natasha is very deliberately not looking at youâand you know itâs because sheâll laugh if she does. Mickey, on the other hand, is watching with wide eyes, as is Javy. Jake and Bradley are still arguing about something on your other side, and Bob⌠Bob still looks like heâs ready to commit first-degree murder.Â
âDrink?â Reuben asks after a beat, his smile smooth.Â
You nod. âAbsolutely. Iâll help you.âÂ
You both stand and offer a round to the rest of the table, most of whom acceptâwhich makes it less suspicious that youâre going together. At the bar, you make sure to stand just a little closer than necessary as he orders a round of the usual from Penny.Â
âAre you sure weâre not pushing it?â you ask, your voice laced with quiet worry.Â
Reuben shakes his head. âNah, not yet.âÂ
You frown. âYet?âÂ
âHeâll snap one way or another,â he says, leaning casually against the bar. âHeâll either lose it and blow up over something totally unrelatedâand thatâs when weâll know weâve gone too far. Or heâll wake the fuck up and fight for what he wants.âÂ
You open your mouth to voice another concern, but Penny is already sliding the tray of drinks across the bar. Reuben thanks her with an easy smile as you grab the two beers that didnât fit, flashing her your own grateful grin before following him back to the table.Â
When you set the beers down, you feel the neckline of your dress slip just a little lower. Your eyes flick up to see if anyoneâs noticedâand of course⌠Bob. His gaze is dark and locked on your chest, clearly able to see right down your dress. He doesnât hesitate, doesnât even try to look away. He just stares.Â
But then he blinks and glances aside, not flustered or ashamedâjust determined not to meet your eyes.Â
You straighten up and clear your throat. âIâm just going to duck to the bathroom.âÂ
Then you turn and begin weaving your way through the bar, desperate for a moment to yourselfâeven though you havenât been here that longâand to check that you donât look completely ridiculous in the dress Natasha convinced you to wear.Â
You take your time in the stall, then rinse your hands under the cool water for a little longer than necessary. When you glance at your reflection in the full-length mirror, youâre surprisedâand a little impressed. Because damn⌠you do look good. Maybe this dress deserves to see the light of day more often. And if Bobâs stare is anything to go by, itâs definitely not a bad idea.Â
You take a deep breath before pushing open the bathroom door, ready to continue your little charadeâbut you barely make it a few steps before someone blocks your path. You blink and stumble, stopping short before you run right into him.Â
You sigh when you realise who it is, that cocky smirk etched across his face. âWhat do you want, Hangman?âÂ
âI want to know whatâs going on.âÂ
Your pulse spikes, but you do your best to keep your expression calm. âWhat do you mean?âÂ
âBetween you and Payback,â he says, narrowing his green eyes. âBecause I know thatâs not real.âÂ
Your breath catchesâtoo quicklyâgiving you away as your gaze flicks to the side. âI donât know what youâre talking about.âÂ
He rolls his eyes and leans in slightly, keeping the conversation low and private in the hum of the bar. âDonât try to gaslight me, Sunny. Iâm not an idiot. I know Phoenix is in on itâbecause of course she isâand Fanboy too, judging by the way he giggles every time you and Payback so much as look at each other.â He quirks a brow, daring you to challenge him. âThe only reason Coyote hasnât said anything is because heâs too polite, and Rooster hasnât noticed because heâs too wrapped up in his own shit.âÂ
You cross your arms and narrow your eyes, matching his bravado. âYou missed one.âÂ
He frowns. âWhat?âÂ
âYou listed all the members of the squad⌠except one.âÂ
âRight,â he chuckles dryly. âBob. Thatâs the funny thing, because ever since we got to this island, youâve been starry-eyed over Floyd, and heâs either too clueless to notice or too stupid to ask you out.â He pauses, letting it sink in, then leans just a bit closer. âWhich is exactly why Iâm not buying whatever you and Payback have been trying to sell this past week.âÂ
You stare at each other for a beat, both stubborn and scowling, waiting for the other to fold first.Â
Then you sigh. âOkay, fine. But you have to swear yourself to secrecy.âÂ
His smirk stretches into a full grin. âI knew it.âÂ
âSwear it.âÂ
âOkay, okay,â he says, holding up a hand. âI swear. I wonât even tell Coyote, and my pillow wonât hear a thing about it.âÂ
You nod. âGood. Now come over and pretend to pick a song so this doesnât look suspicious.âÂ
You grab his wrist and tug him toward the jukebox, leaning over it and pretending to scroll through options while you give him a quick summary of Operation Bobâs Blue Ballsâleaving out a few of the more... intimate details.Â
âSo there,â you finish. âItâs underhanded and immature, but thatâs whatâs going on.âÂ
His expression barely shifts the entire time, just the usual entertained glint in his eye and that ever-present smirk.Â
âUnderhanded and immature?â he says. âIâm surprised I wasnât in on this sooner.âÂ
You roll your eyes.Â
âI want in.âÂ
You blink, brow furrowed. âWhat?âÂ
âI want to help,â he says, plainly.Â
You narrow your eyes, sceptical. âWhy?âÂ
He sighs and braces one hand on the jukebox, leaning in like heâs about to reveal some classified information. âBelieve it or not, Iâm not the worst guy in the world. I have a few ideas, and I think you two would be cute together.â He pauses, then adds in a quieter voice, âBesides, Iâve been going through a bit of a dry spell, and I figure helping other people get laid might buy me some good karma.âÂ
You snort softly as he pulls back, his cheeks faintly pink.Â
âAlright,â you say. âYou can help. But nothing obvious and nothing stupid. The last thing I need is Bob figuring this out and hating me for it.âÂ
He rolls his eyes, that signature smirk firmly back in place. âBob could never hate you. But Iâll be subtle.âÂ
âGood.â You glance past his shoulder toward the booth across the bar. âWe better get back before they get suspicious.âÂ
âWait,â he stops you with a hand on your shoulder. âOne more question.âÂ
You raise your brows, prompting him to go on.Â
âWhen you fantasise about Bob, is he the top or the bottom? Because I just think you should manage your expectationsâow!âÂ
He winces, rubbing the spot on his chest where you smacked him, watching you with a wounded look as you shove past with an exasperated sigh.Â
Great. Now Hangman is involved...Â
You spend the rest of the night practically glued to Reubenâs side, as planned. But now youâre a little on edge. You keep half an ear tuned to Jakeâs voice, waiting to see when he might strikeâand what he might say when he does. You trust him not to blow the whole thing, but youâre more than a little nervous about what his version of âhelpingâ might actually look like.Â
âAnother drink?â Reuben asks, just as you finish the last of your third beer.Â
You nod, a bit too eagerly. âYes, please. Maybe something stronger this time.âÂ
He chuckles and slides out of the booth, offering his hand. You take it, letting him guide you up toward the bar. Youâre so wrapped up in your thoughts that you barely register the feel of his hand slipping from yours and settling at the small of your back, his thumb rubbing slow, comforting circles there.Â
But Bob notices.Â
And Jake notices Bob noticingâtaking special joy in the way Bobâs hand tightens around his bottle of Coke, knuckles going white.Â
Jake clears his throat and casts a glance toward the bar, leaning forward slightly. âTheyâre cute, donât you think?âÂ
Thereâs a beat of silence as Bob swallowsâhardâand Natasha just blinks, clearly trying to catch up. Then the lightbulb goes off, and a wicked grin stretches across her lips.Â
âYeah,â she says, her eyes following Jakeâs. âI think theyâd make a good couple.âÂ
Bob snorts. Actually snorts. But he keeps his gaze fixed on the label heâs been picking at on his bottle.Â
Natasha arches a brow. âSomething funny?âÂ
Bob shakes his head. âNo.âÂ
âReally?â Jake presses, grinning. âCouldâve sworn you just laughed, Floyd.âÂ
âIt wasnât a laugh,â Bob mutters. âMore of a⌠breath.âÂ
âOh, a breath,â Natasha echoes, clearly amused. âBecause it sounded suspiciously like judgment.âÂ
âOr jealousy,â Jake adds, leaning back with a smug grin.Â
Bobâs gaze flicks to the barâand to youâthen just as quickly snaps away. âI donât care who she dates.âÂ
Natasha hums, fighting a smirk as she lifts her beer to her lips, âDidnât say you did.âÂ
Shortly after you and Reuben return to the table, giggling like idiots, Bob leaves. He mutters something about not feeling well and ducks out before even saying a proper goodbye. Part of you feels wrecked with guiltâbut another part⌠is quietly hopeful. Because Bob isnât like this. Heâs good at regulating his emotions, even better at staying calm under pressureâheâs a fighter pilot, for Godâs sake. But this? This is different. Heâs never stormed out on the brink of losing control. Sure, he can get a little frustrated sometimes, maybe throw a snarky commentâusually at Jake when he pushes too farâbut thatâs as far as it goes.Â
If you didnât know any better, youâd say heâs starting to unravelâŚÂ
You spend most of the next day on the couch with the aircon blasting, while Natasha works through some paperwork at the kitchen table. Itâs too hot to go outside, and youâre too distracted to do anything that requires even an ounce of brainpower. So instead, you let your mind rot with cartoons, obsessively checking your phone for signs of life in the group chat.Â
âI canât believe Hangman is in on this now,â Natasha mutters, not even glancing up from her papers.Â
You sigh and roll from your side onto your back, staring up at the ceiling. âI canât believe he hasnât cracked yet. If the roles were reversed, Iâd be like a feral cat in heat by now.âÂ
She snorts and lifts her head, flashing you an amused smirk. âYou were already like a feral cat in heat for that man. Hence this whole situation.âÂ
You laugh softly. âYeah, not wrong.âÂ
Your head drops to the side as you half-watch the TV screen, until the apartment door swings open with a dramatic gust of air.Â
âI hate to say it,â Mickey says as he breezes in, eyes wide, âbut the man is a genius.âÂ
Reuben follows close behind, and then Jakeâgrinning like he just solved world peace.Â
âOh, God,â Natasha mutters. âTheyâre multiplying.âÂ
âI donât know why you didnât come to me sooner,â Jake says, strolling toward the couch. âIâm the king of seduction.âÂ
You sit up, curling into the corner to make room for Reuben and Jake as Mickey heads straight for the fridge.Â
âI wouldnât go that far,â you mutter, narrowing your eyes at him.Â
âJust wait until you hear the plan,â Reuben says, practically buzzing. âItâs perfect.âÂ
Intrigued now, Natasha gathers her papers into one neat pile and joins you on the lounge. âAlright, Bagman. Letâs hear it.âÂ
Jakeâs eyes sparkle with mischief as he settles in beside Reuben. âTomorrow, weâre going to the beach.âÂ
âYouâre already way off,â you cut in. âBob wonât agree to hang out again. Not after last night.âÂ
Natasha nods. âSheâs right. He needs to cool off before we wind him up again.âÂ
âAbsolutely not,â Jake snaps, brow furrowed. âYou need to strike while the ironâs hot. You need to push his fucking limits.âÂ
Mickey appears from the kitchen, a bag of pretzels already open in his hand.Â
Natasha frowns. âOkay, but how? He wonât agree to go if he thinks Sunny and Payback will be there.âÂ
Jake grins. âWhich is exactly why heâs going to think they wonât be there.âÂ
âYou want us to lie?â you ask.Â
He gives you a flat look. âAfter all this emotional warfare, now youâre drawing the line at lying?âÂ
You shrink back slightly. âI guess not.âÂ
âExactly.â He leans forward, elbows braced on his knees, hands clasped. âSoâIâll pitch the idea in the group chat. Sunny, you reply immediately that youâre busyâbefore Bob gets a chance to decline. Then Payback says something vague, like he might come or might not. That way, it looks like low numbers. And if Bob says no, the rest of us can guilt-trip him into coming. Which he will, as long as he thinks youâre not going to be there.âÂ
Natasha tilts her head. âSo... she will be there though?âÂ
âYes,â Jake says. âJust not right away. Give him time to relax, have some fun. Weâll play gamesâIâll rile everyone up and get that competitive energy going.âÂ
Everyone nods along, faces weirdly serious, like this is some highly classified mission briefing.Â
âThen, you two show up together,â Jake continues, gesturing to you and Reuben. âItâll throw Bob off, but we wonât give him a chance to leave. Weâll keep the games going. Something with contact. You need to get right up in his space. Go all in. Because then... youâre going to knock him off his feet.âÂ
âLiterally,â Mickey mumbles, chewing a mouthful of pretzels.Â
You frown. âWhat?âÂ
âBump into him,â Jake says. âLiterally knock him over. Skin-to-skin contact. Iâve seen the way he looks at you in a swimsuitâitâs borderline pornographic. Touching him? Itâll fry whatâs left of his self-control. And then, when thereâs a momentâjust a second where you could apologise for being too competitive or whatever... youâre going to say something that makes him snap.âÂ
You lean in, heart pounding now. âWhat am I going to say?âÂ
-Â
The sun is high and brutal in the sky, and youâre already sweatingâeven though youâre still sitting in Reubenâs car with the aircon blasting.Â
âDo you really think this is going to work?â you ask, nervously bouncing your knee.Â
Reuben snorts. âIf it doesnât, the man isnât human.âÂ
âI feel bad,â you mutter, eyes scanning the stretch of gold sand through the windshield.Â
âYou wonât feel bad when you finally see whatâs in his pants,â Reuben says, barely paying attention as he scrolls through his phone.Â
Your eyes go wide and your head whips toward him. âSo it is huge? I wasnât just imagining that?âÂ
He chuckles and looks up. âOh yeah, heâs big. Like... big big. I remember the first time in the locker roomâno oneâs trying to look, obviously, thatâs just not the vibeâbut... damn. We couldnât not look. Then everyone lost it. I think Hangman nearly cried.âÂ
You press your lips together, trying to hold back a grin, but itâs no useâyour cheeks are on fire, and your whole face feels like it's bright red.Â
âDamn,â you murmur, turning your gaze back to the front as your heart slams against your ribs.Â
Reuben laughs again, then cuts the engine, killing the aircon. âAlright. Pull yourself together. Itâs go time.âÂ
You climb out of the car and immediately wince at the lick of heat curling across your skin. Itâs blisteringâalmost hostileâbut at least youâre at the beach. Worst-case scenario? Youâll drown yourself in the ocean. Just walk into the surf and keep going. No one would blame you.Â
âRelax,â Reuben says, sliding a hand into yours like this is nothing. âThis is going to work. Hangman might be insane, but Iâm pretty sure itâs because heâs an evil genius.âÂ
You roll your eyes, exhale hard, then square your shoulders and lift your chin.Â
You let Reuben lead you onto the sand, legs already working overtime to stay steady in the heat-softened grains. You can hear the chaos before you see it. Shouts and thuds echo over the sand as your friends tumble and crash around in a messy game of what looks like overgrown keepy-uppies.Â
âNo hands!â Javy yells, just as Mickey swats the ball to avoid a direct hit to the face.Â
âDamn it, Fanboy!â Jake shouts. âYouâre giving away points.âÂ
Mickey drops his hands to his knees, panting. âCan we play literally any other game? I hate this.âÂ
âYou only hate it âcause you suck at it,â Natasha says, catching the ball like itâs second nature and bringing the game to a halt.Â
You swear you can see Mickey roll his eyes from here. You and Reuben are still on approach, trudging through the soft sand, unnoticedâso far.Â
âWhat about football?â Jake offers, tossing the round ball aside and already pulling a proper football from their pile of gear. âDog-fight football?âÂ
âThree versus three?â Javy asks, sceptical.Â
âWhat about four v. four?â Reuben calls, hand cupped to amplify his voice.Â
Everyone turns, and thereâs a beat of stillness as they clock you. Then Natasha flashes a wide grin beneath her sunglasses, and Jakeâs face lights up like a very satisfied evil villainâhis plan falling perfectly into place.Â
âWell, if it ainât Sunny and Payback!â he calls, spinning the football lazily in one hand. âYou two done playing your own games already?âÂ
You ignore the jab and focus on not rolling your ankle in the damn sand. At the pile of bags, you stop to drop your stuff and hesitate at the button of your shorts.Â
Jakeâs eyes are practically gleaming. âHow about a swim to cool off first?âÂ
Reuben strips his shirt with a single tug. âYou read my mind, Seresin.âÂ
The guysâalready in their swim trunksâbolt for the water, crashing into the surf in a chaotic stampede. Natasha peels off her shirt and shorts, shoots you a wink, and strolls in after them like she owns the ocean.Â
Reuben doesnât say anything before he leaves you, but he gives a barely-there nodâdirected past your shoulder.Â
You donât need to turn around to know who itâs aimed at.Â
Bobâs still standing where he was when the game fizzled out, statuesque. His hair is tousled and his lips parted just enough to make your stomach flip. Youâre at least ten feet away, but you can see the rise and fall of his chestâtoo fast, too hard. But heâs not out of breath. Heâs not flustered.Â
Heâs furious.Â
And those blue eyes? Laser-locked on you. His entire focus narrowed like a sniper sight. Not a blink. Not a breath wasted on anyone but you.Â
You swallow and force your body into motion, unbuttoning your shorts and shimmying out of them before pulling your loose shirt over your head. You drop your clothes on Natashaâs pile and turn toward the water, steady on the lumpy sand.Â
And then you hit the firm partâwet, packed, perfect footingâand you dig in. Hips swaying, deliberate and lethal.Â
You donât need to look back. You can feel the heat of his stare on every inch of exposed skin. Itâs scorching. Possessive. Almost punishing. Like if he could touch you right now, heâd brand you.Â
Hangman might be a genius after all.Â
You hit the water with a sigh, not even hesitating before diving beneath a wave before it can knock you off your feet. Itâs the perfect temperatureâdelicious against your too-hot skin.Â
You dive under the next wave, cool saltwater rushing over your body, and come up laughing as you slick your hair back. Natasha is standing beside you, arms outstretched as the water laps at her waist, her eyes fixed on the shore.Â
You wade closer, smirking. âDid you see his face?â you ask breathlessly, heart still pounding from the walk down the beachâor maybe from the way Bob had looked at you like he was plotting your murder. âI thought he was going to spontaneously combust.âÂ
She doesnât answer. Just keeps staring past you.Â
You frown as her jaw goes slack and her brows creep up, sunglasses slipping down her nose as she stares at something on the shoreâexpression caught somewhere between shock and awe.Â
You freeze. âWhat?âÂ
She still doesnât speakâjust tips her chin the slightest bit, silently gesturing toward whatever has her stunned.Â
You twist around.Â
And promptly forget how to breathe.Â
Bob Floyd is pulling his shirt over his head.Â
Bob Floyd, the man who never takes his shirt off. The man who wears it in the ocean and somehow isnât bothered by the soaking wet material clinging to his body like a second skin.Â
And holy shit.Â
Itâs glorious.Â
Sure, youâve seen him shirtless before. Once. That night. But that was in the darkâhis body tense, your mind scrambled, neither of you thinking clearly enough to appreciate what was right in front of you.Â
But in the light of day?Â
Alabaster skin. Broad shoulders. Deep-cut abs like he walked straight off the set of a Marvel movie. Lean muscle rippling across his chest and arms in a way that feels criminal on someone so quiet and careful. Droplets of sweat cling to his torso like even the heat doesnât want to let him go.Â
The sudden silence behind you confirms itâeveryone else is staring too.Â
You blink, dumbfounded, mouth dry. âThatâs illegal.âÂ
Natasha huffs out a laugh like sheâs short-circuiting. âI mean, I knew he was strong butâwow.âÂ
You swallow. Hard. âI think Iâm going to pass out.âÂ
Your eyes follow him as he drops his shirt and turns toward the water, cutting through the waves like theyâre nothing. He doesnât glance at any of you. Just keeps his gaze locked on the horizon, jaw set tight, his body moving with single-minded purpose.Â
Before you can say somethingâor even blinkâa surge of water smacks you in the face.Â
But itâs not a wave.Â
You cough and splutter, wiping the salt from your eyes and checking to make sure your sunglasses are still intact. When your vision clears, Jake is standing right in front of you.Â
âWipe the drool off your chin,â he says, deadpan. âYouâre supposed to be teasing him.âÂ
You narrow your eyes, resisting the urge to shove him aside and keep watching Bob. âHow did all of you know how cut that man is and not tell me?âÂ
Jake blinks, thrown for a beat, then grins like the devil. âWaitâyouâre mad because we didnât tell you how ripped Bob is?âÂ
You nod, arms crossing tight over your chest. âCorrect.âÂ
He lets out a disbelieving chuckle, shaking his head. âWell if thatâs got you steamed, youâre gonna be beside yourself when you find out heâs got a massive-âÂ
âI know,â you cut in smoothly, a wicked smirk curling at your lips. âPayback told me.âÂ
Jake gapes at you, brows knittingâbut before he can get another word out, you shove his shoulder and send him sprawling into the water.Â
When he resurfaces, sputtering and grinning, he points at you like a man on a missionâthen lunges.Â
You squeal, laughing as he barrels toward you, sending up waves in every direction. The two of you splash around like kids, Jake playing it upâgrabbing you, poking at your sides, both of you pretending to wrestle. All for show. Because you both know Bob is watching.Â
Eventually, the others join in, playful chaos erupting around you. And before long, youâre panting and breathless, dragging yourself back to shore, your cheeks and chest aching from laughter.Â
Everyone settles for a few minutes, drinking from their water bottles and trying to knock water from their ears. But then Jake stands up, football in hand and a wicked smirk on his lips, ready to commence Operation Bobâs Blue Balls â Phase Three: Straddle and Conquer.Â
âAll right, Iâll pick teams,â he announces.Â
Normally, this would cause an uproar. But since most of you are in on the plan, everyone just nods in agreement.Â
âPhoenix, Payback, Bob,â he says. âYouâre with me. The rest of you are on Roosterâs team.âÂ
You narrow your eyes and cock your hipâit would seem strange if you didnât challenge Jake just a little. âWhy are you two always team captains?âÂ
He winks. âBecause weâre the best.âÂ
You roll your eyes and turn away, joining the huddle with your teammates as Bradley and Javy argue over what your game plan should be.Â
After a few minutes of strategizing, the game kicks off. Youâve never loved dog-fight footballânot like some of the othersâmostly because it can get a little rough. But today⌠itâs more than just a game. Itâs a full-blown performance.Â
You hang back for a bit, letting Jake and Bradley rile each other up and fire up their teams. Bob is still shirtless, which is a tactical advantage he isnât even aware ofâbecause every time he has the ball, every time he runs or blocks or is just generally in your line of sight, your knees wobble.Â
Youâve nearly forgotten what youâre supposed to be doing when Reuben jumps in front of you and snags the ball before you canâthrown by a very disappointed-looking Javy.Â
âGetting tired, Sunny?â Reuben teases, his grin smug. âIâm just getting started.âÂ
Right. The plan. Flirting. Banter. Teasing Bob.Â
You step closer, slowing the game down a touch as you stretch onto your toes and drop your voiceâbut not too low. âTired? Please. Iâm still waiting for you to make me sweat.âÂ
Thereâs a beat where you worry Reuben might break, might laughâhigh on adrenaline and endorphins.Â
But then Jake hollers, âCut it out, you two! Save the dirty talk for the bedroom!âÂ
And the game is back on.Â
The sun beats down mercilessly, making every flexed muscle shine, every drop of sweat slide in slow, glistening trails. The sand is hot beneath your feet, but itâs nothing compared to the heat building as you and Reuben turn the game into one of Bobâs personal nightmares.Â
You dart to the left, brushing past Reuben with a smug grin, your fingertips dragging across his chest like youâre checking his heart rate.Â
âCâmon, hotshot,â you tease. âYou could try a little harder.âÂ
He laughsâlow and amusedâbut gives chase, throwing a hand around your waist as you pivot. Itâs all too easy to make it look a little too intimate, a little too tight. He lifts you off the ground to âblockâ your goal and your head falls back in a laugh thatâs just shy of indecent.Â
And Bob sees everything.Â
You feel itâhis stare like hot coals dragged across your skin. When you glance up between plays, heâs standing at the edge of the group, jaw tight, shoulders tense, hands flexing like theyâre ready to throw a punch. His eyes follow your every move like heâs marking a target, and if looks could kill, Reuben would already be six feet under.Â
You catch a toss, and Reuben crashes into you to intercept, spinning you both until you fall together into the sand. You land side by side, giggling like idiotsâsome might even say lovesick idiots.Â
He pushes up first and grins down at you, tipping his head suggestively. âNeed a hand?âÂ
âOh, I donât mind being on my back,â you say sweetly, just loud enough for everyone to hear.Â
You take Reubenâs hand and let him haul you off the ground, pulling you into his body just a little more than necessary.Â
âDamn, Sunny,â Jake calls from the other side of the makeshift field. âTakinâ a few hits today. Hope it doesnât affect your game.âÂ
You scoff, rolling your eyes dramatically as you dust sand off your body like everyone else paid to watch. âYou know I like it rough, Hangman.âÂ
Thereâs a chorus of oohs and a whistle from Mickey, laughter rippling through the group.Â
Except Bob, of course. Heâs suddenly very interested in the sand, eyes locked on the groundâeven though his rigid posture is telling you everything you need to know.Â
The game revs up again, and after a few scuffles, you snag the ball off a fumbled toss and break into a sprint, cutting across the sand with laser focus. Reubenâs behind you, winded, and the others are tangled up with the second ballâleaving only one person standing in your way.Â
Bob.Â
âStop her!â Jake shouts, too far behind to intercept.Â
Bob plants his feet like heâs ready to blockâmuscles tensing, arms coiled. Itâs almost enough to distract you. But youâre feeling competitive. A little reckless. And youâre seconds from a goal.Â
He hesitates when your eyes lock, just long enough for your wicked grin to register as you blow past him and skid to a haltâwell over the line.Â
Your team erupts into cheers behind you, and you throw your hands up, chest heaving as you catch your breath. When you turn back around, heâs still watching youâeyes wide.Â
You flash him a slow smile as you walk past, brushing close enough to feel the heat rolling off his skin.Â
âDonât worry, Lieutenant,â you murmur. âIâll go easy on you next time.âÂ
After a breather and a drink of water, everyone lines up for another play. Jake and Bradley drop the footballs into the sand, crouched and ready. Jake turns his head your way and gives you a subtle nod.Â
This is it.Â
Your heart thunders behind your ribs as you sprint and block and laugh along with the others. The competition hasnât cooledâeveryone is still hungry. Even Bob has snapped into focus, finally playing like it matters instead of just standing there watching.Â
And for a moment, it is just fun. No schemes, no strategy. Just friends, shouting and stumbling and laughing too hard to score.Â
But then the ball is in your hands againâand itâs time.Â
Bob is on defenceâJake made sure of that. You just have to get past him again. Or at least⌠make it look like youâre trying.Â
You tear forward. Jake is already behind you, Natasha lunges and misses by a breath, and Reuben very dramatically wipes out in the sand.Â
Itâs just Bob now.Â
He sets his stance, head tipped down in focus. Heâs going to stop you this time. Poor thing. He has no idea thatâs exactly the plan.Â
You charge, feet kicking up sand, heart in your throat. His eyes widen just a second before you collideâyour body slamming into his with just enough force to topple you both.Â
The ball flies from your hand as you hit the sand hard, clutching at whatever you canâhis shoulders, his arms, solid and warm beneath your grip. You spit sand from your mouth and sit up fastâonly to freeze, breath caught in your throat.Â
Youâre straddling him. Hips locked against his. Chest heaving. His hands on your waist.Â
You donât move.Â
Youâre both panting. The air between you buzzes like static, and everywhere your skin touches his feels sunburnt and alive. His blue eyes are locked on yoursâwild and stunned. Bright enough to drown in.Â
Your chest rises and falls with ragged breath, but you stay put.Â
âDoes this count?â you ask, voice low and rough with adrenaline.Â
His lips are parted, soft and pink, breath coming in short bursts. His curls are wild, tangled with sand, and his glassesâcrooked from the fallâare still somehow on. He looks wrecked. Shattered. Like youâve stolen every coherent thought out of his head. His gaze flickersâsearching your face, desperate not to meet your eyes.Â
You lean in just a little.Â
âIf anyone else looked at me like that, Iâd probably kiss them,â you murmur, squeezing your thighs around his waist. Then you bring your mouth dangerously close to his ear. âBut we canât do that... right?âÂ
His breath catchesâand his eyes finally snap to yours.Â
Theyâre wide and stormy now, brows drawn tight. He doesnât breathe. He just looks. His mouth parts a little further, and you can see it all happening behind his eyesâevery thought, every realisation.Â
Everything falls into placeâthe flirting, the giggling, the deliberate touches, the stolen glances. All of it. Youâve been baiting him. This whole time.Â
Before you can say anything elseâbefore you can blink or breatheâÂ
He snaps.Â
He flips you, smooth and fast, moving your body like you weigh nothing. Suddenly, youâre on your back, pressed into the sand, and heâs the one on topâstraddling you, his weight holding you down.Â
And the look in his eyes could burn the sky.Â
He leans in, gaze sweeping over your faceâyour lips, your eyes, the pulse at your throat. He watches it thrum, just for a second.Â
Youâre frozen beneath him. Every nerve on fire. Every inch of your body sparking. Your lungs are screaming for air, but you donât know how to breathe. You canât think. You can barely feel anything except him.Â
His breath ghosts your lips as he whispers, âOh, youâre in trouble now.âÂ
And then he kisses you.Â
Hard.Â
Itâs not careful. Itâs not sweet. Itâs months of tension and stolen glances and aching wantâevery second of restraint finally unravelling in a dizzy, reckless crash. His mouth claims yours like heâs starving, like heâs waited too long and canât wait another second.Â
His chest presses into yours, slick with sweat and dusted with sand, and you arch into it with a gasp. He groans against your mouth, a low, broken sound that feels like fire in your veins. You can feel every inch of himâsolid and hot and so hard against your hip, unmistakable and unignorable.Â
You shift beneath him, dragging your leg up around his waist, just enough to tease. His breath hitches, and then heâs kissing you deeper, hungrier, like the noise you just pulled from him unspooled something he canât reel back in.Â
You claw at his backâmuscles tense and trembling under your fingersâtrying to pull him closer when thereâs no space left between you. The kiss turns feverish, tongues sliding, lips parting in desperate sync. Youâre panting into each otherâs mouths, completely lost.Â
Thereâs sand in your hair, in your mouth, sticking to your sweat-slick skin, but none of it matters. All that matters is the way he moves against you, the way he feelsâlike every bit of control heâd been clinging to has shattered.Â
When he finally tears his mouth from yours, he doesnât go far. His forehead drops to yours, both of you gasping. Heâs pink-cheeked and wide-eyed, lips swollen, pupils blown.Â
âJesus Christ,â he mutters, voice wrecked, âyouâre gonna kill me.âÂ
And the way he says itâlike a confession, like a prayerâmakes you want to do it all over again.Â
âYES!" Mickey shouts, loud enough for all of North Island to hear.Â
Your friends erupt into cheers and screams, laughter lacing their gleeful proclamations as they jump and dance just a few feet away.Â
âWell, fuck me,â Jake drawls. âThat was the hottest thing Iâve ever seen.âÂ
You both slowlyâreluctantlyâturn your heads toward the noise.Â
âI canât believe it worked,â Reuben mutters, grinning wide, eyes sparkling. âPhase Three actually worked.âÂ
Youâre still pinned beneath Bob as they all close in, every face lit up with smug satisfaction.Â
âYou named it?â Bob asks, closing his eyes as his cheeks somehow grow even hotter.Â
âOh yeah,â Mickey says, beaming with pride. âOperation Bobâs Blue Balls. Phase One was the run and the sleepover. Phase Two, Reuben. And thisââ he gestures wildly at the two of you tangled in the sand, âthis is Phase Three: Straddle and Conquer.âÂ
Bob makes a noise. Somewhere between a strangled groan and a whispered prayer for death.Â
âYou planned this?â he rasps, forehead dropping against yours again like he might just burrow into the sand and disappear.Â
Reuben shrugs, all innocence. âWorked like a charm.âÂ
âHonestly,â Natasha adds, âwe were starting to think youâd never get there. So⌠youâre welcome.âÂ
You bury your face in Bobâs shoulder, mortified. Heâs burning up beneath your handsâstillâand breathing like he just ran a mile with you on his back.Â
Jake snickers. âGlad we could help you two get laid.âÂ
âWe havenâtâ!â Bob blurts, redder than a stop sign.Â
You slap a hand over his mouth, grinning wickedly now despite the embarrassment. âYet.âÂ
Thereâs a beatâa millisecond of silenceâbefore they all burst out laughing again.Â
Mickey curls over, clutching his stomach. Reuben walks away, cackling with his head tipped back. Natasha mutters, âJesus Christ,â but sheâs definitely smirking, and Jake claps his hands once as he says, âGod bless the U.S. Navy.âÂ
Bob drops his face into the crook of your neck and groans again, muffled, âI hate all of you.âÂ
âEven me?â you ask, voice soft and teasing.Â
He lifts his head, chuckling softly. âNo. But for all that? Youâre definitely still in trouble.âÂ
You lick your lips. âThereâs no place Iâd rather be.âÂ
He sighs like youâre actively trying to kill him, then sits up and pushes to his feetâonly to glance down at the massive bulge in his shorts, which looks borderline painful.Â
âShit.âÂ
You scramble up after him, stepping in close and pressing your body to his, barely able to contain your giggles as you shield him from the rest of the beach.Â
âNeed a minute?â you tease, laughter lacing every word.Â
His eyes flashâdark, hungry. âYou and I are gonna need more than a minute to deal with this.âÂ
Heat floods your face and pools between your legs, thick and insistent.Â
âBut,â he says, glancing toward the water, âIâm just gonna go for a quick swim.âÂ
You nod, eyes wide and dreamy, watching him from beneath your lashes like an absolute idiot in love.Â
And he looks at you like you hung the sun. Like youâre everything. Itâs enough to make your heart stutter and your pulse race. He has no business being this beautifulâthis sinfulâa perfect contradiction of sweetness and respect, with just enough hunger in him, just enough darkness, that you know youâll be walking funny tomorrow.Â
And probably for the next few weeks while you learn how to handle his massive dick.Â
âDonât look at me like that,â he mutters, a shy smile curling his lips. âYouâre making it worse.âÂ
Your jaw drops. âIt gets bigger?âÂ
He laughs, then leans in to press a kiss to your open mouthâchaste, but lingering. Like it physically pains him to pull away. But he does. And when he flashes you that boyish smileâequal parts sexy and shyâit knocks the breath out of you.Â
Then he turns and jogs toward the water.Â
It takes you more than a minute to remember how to moveâhow to functionâbut eventually, you manage to drag yourself back to the others, who are still laughing and chatting like the beach hasnât just tilted sideways.Â
Natasha passes you your water bottle. âWhatâs Bob doing?âÂ
You glance over your shoulder, catching sight of him ducking under a wave. A smile tugs at your lips.Â
âCooling off.âÂ
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Project: Get Over Bob
pairing. Bob Reynolds x reader
synopsis. Bob likes someone thatâs not you and now it's up to you to begin Project Get Over Bob.
warnings. no use of y/n, not much angst right now, reader pining for Bob but pushing it all down!! Bob breaking my little y/n's heart.
word count. 2.7k.
part 2.
part 3.
Bob Reynolds was many things, but one thing he wasnât, was subtle.
You knew it.
He knew it.
Everyone knew it.
So when he started batting his eyelashes at the owner of the local bookstore, you knew that you might have to get rid of your crush.
You and Bob had known each other now for at least a year, and had fallen into the perfect morning routine.
Youâd wake up at 7am, stumble your way into the kitchen, knocking on everyoneâs doors as you went. Of course, Ava, Bucky, and Walker would have already left for training, but it was nice to cause a bit of ruckus so early in the day. Youâd pop some coffee on and by the time it brewed, Bob would be sitting at the island in the middle of the room with a grin and an extra Splenda packet for you.
But today?
Today, he was nowhere to be found.
âCoffee for me?â Â Yelena asked as she wiggled her brows at you.
You smiled and scoffed âKnock yourself out.â
âHave you seen my bowie knife, I think I left it in the sink but I came to grab it last night and it was gone.â she whined, her bottom lip jutting out in such a cute way you couldnât help but grin and pinch her cheeks.
âYou left your disgusting dirty knife in the sink?!! We practically EAT out of there.â Walker shouts.
âWe donât eat out of the sink stupid.â
âWell, if weâre washing our dishes in the sink and we eat off of them then â yeah â we do.â
âSo what? You decided to throw my knife away because of that??â
Yelenaâs accusation turns John bright red, the two bickering and throwing insults around at a rapid pace.
While those two are enthralled in a "spirited debate" Â Ava and Bucky stroll in. The latter animatedly mimicking what you think? is some kind of old-school wrestling move.
Bucky suddenly tunes into the two blondesâ argument and starts to smirk. You raise a brow at his reaction. His wink back was enough evidence that he definitely had something to do with the disappearance of Lenaâs knife.
Yeah, you need to learn how to rage bait effectively from the centurion.
The elevator chimes and you all turn to see Bob waving, carrying a very nice smelling paper bag which you can only hope are filled with some almond doughnuts from Supermoon.
You open your mouth to say something, until a small figure coming out from behind him leaves you speechless. Long black hair, big eyes and-and wait itâs the lady from the bookstore? Lily?
Youâd spoken to her before and honestly, she was lovely, super smart and made your day every time you stepped foot to her store. She'd recommended Dante's Inferno to you when youâd ask for an all-time classic so obviously you had to love her. You liked her so much youâd even taken her email so you both could discuss you guysâ excitement for the new Odyssey film.
And now here she was, the kind woman from the store clinging onto Bobâs side.
All you could see was his hand, Bobâs hand, your Bobâs hand covering hers so tenderly.
The way he did with you.
Everyoneâs gaze seemed to zero in on you and your reaction.
âHey guys, um Lily and I are heading to the game room, you-you guys are welcome to join, weâre watching The Shining!â god, the way his eyes shifted to hers in such a soft way, assuring her that she was welcome here, killed you.
He stares at you for a moment; you know Bob was looking for some comfort from you, that yes, it's ok he's brought her here and is finally trying to live a normal life.
Through your shock you pull yourself together, give a thumbs up and wink, mouthing the words "sheâs cute". Your heart may be breaking but you care for him too much to not support something that makes him so obviously happy.
You can see him visibly relax and as the others rally to greet Lily a sudden flurry of steps from Alexei stole the groupâs attention. The large leather clad (youâd have to have a conversion to him about the concept of lounge wear) man claps his hands together as he caught sight of the two in the doorway.
âFinally Bob, you ask Lily to come here. You know he asked me over and over and over advice on how to charm pretty woman with shop!â he says, turning to the group with a smile on his face.
Yelena places her hand in the small of your back and glares at Alexei, the man looking absolutely bewildered at the othersâ reaction to what he thinks is the best news heâd heard all week.
âSo.. you both together or ââ John questions, shooting an inquisitive look between the two.
âWe havenât really, well, havenât put a label on it yet, weâre just hanging out, right-right?â he turns to face her, and every inch of her face lights up as she laughs.
âYeah, this is his audition for boyfriend.â, nudging him in a familiar way.
Theyâd only known each other a month why were they suddenly so buddy-buddy?
Ava, as kind as ever, decides to change the subject, asking about the teamâs plans for next monthâs mission. You hear the words safe-house and horses but canât bring yourself to care.
The lovebirds take this as their cue to leave and Bob gives you a soft smile as he walks away with someone thatâs not you.
Ok.
Time to get over Robert Reynolds once and for all.
Phase 1
You decided to split Project Get Over Bob into 4 phases = fill up your timetable and become busy - stop hanging out with Bob â stop thinking of Bob â reach the ultimate nirvana and make yourself invisible to him.
Ok, well the phases were vaguely something like that.
Simple right?
Phase 1 was easy; youâd used the guise of a new hobby (jiu-jitsu) as an excuse to be out of any kind of common area or team activity. Claiming to the team during the monthly debrief that you had to know the sport as an effective cover for your mission.
So, while half of your day was taken up by morning classes and sparring in the afternoon with Lena and Buck, there was still the entirety of the evening to deal with.
You and Bob spent most evenings cooking dinner, filling reports to send off to Mel and watching shitty French arthouse films until you were both knocked out for the day.
This had to stop.
Ottolenghi could wait, you thought to yourself as you booted up your laptop and found the perfect pottery class that was on the other side of the city and about 2 hours long.
âAre you tryna to replace all of our plates?â a voice says from behind you, causing you to jump and almost drop the drink you were holding in your free hand.
âJesus John, learn to make some noise when walking into a room!â
Walker jumps over the sofa landing snuggly next to you, he reeks of sweat nothing too bad but you wrinkle your nose in faux disgust.
âYou smell awful did you roll around in dirt before you got here or what?â
âIâll have you know I beat Bucky and Alexei while sparring today, hence the sweat.â
You look at him incredulously. There was no way that Walker could beat them 1 v 2. Sure, he was strong heâd managed to rough you up plenty of times but James had the fancy hydra serum and well Alexei was just out of his mind Russian so how did the so called âsecond rateâ captain America manage to beat them?
As if catching onto your line of thought John grabs your head and brings his arm around your neck, playfully tickling you with the other. You burst out in giggles, gasping and shouting at him to let you go.
While he has you in a headlock without mercy, Lily and Bob walk in. Their conversation stalls as Bob lays his eyes on the two of you messing around.
Walker straightens up and you stare at him confused with the immediate shift in behaviour.
âWhat are you both doing?â he questions his voice tight and his hands clenched at his sides.
âJohn managed to best the two greatest super soldiers on earth, apparently. I personally don't believe itâ you state while winking in Lilyâs direction. She holds her mouth with her palm, attempting to hide her laugh.
âAnyway, Iâve got some work to catch up on so Iâll see you guys laterâ, Â you clap your hands while standing up and shuffle out of the room, bidding goodbye to them all.
Bob looks at your retreating figure, both John and Lily staring at him snaps him out of his daze and he leads her to the lab downstairs.
You couldnât wait to leave the room, Bobâs reaction made no sense to you. You knew he was always slightly awkward with Walker but they had hashed out whatever issues they had months ago, so why was he so annoyed with him today?
The rest of the week goes by with you keeping as busy as possible, you can count on one hand how many times youâd even seen Bob and you wanted to keep it that way.
You told yourself all you had to do was make it to week 4, and you would be off to Mongolia with Alexei and Walker for at least 2 months, and by then the Bob-shaped hole in your heart would be filled up and pasted over.
Phase 2
All you needed to do for phase 2 of your plan was to wean yourself off the drug that was Bob. The aforementioned drug was not making it easy for you, even though youâd changed your habits, he hadnât.
Every day he would wake up even earlier than usual and make your favourite breakfast of blueberry pancakes and an iced black coffee, leaving it on the counter closest to the elevator. He would stand next to your breakfast, almost militant in ensuring you ate every last bit because how else would you have enough energy for jiu-jitsu? He was so happy that you'd decided to take on a new hobby and put yourself out there, you deserved to have fun so of course he wanted to show his support in any way he could.
Youâd then decided to take the stairs around the back so you could avoid him but heâd taken to waiting by reception with your breakfast in a small tin, like a wife waving her husband off for work. Was Bob your wife?
Never mind.
You then decided to forgo even more sleep and join John in his 4am gym sessions, leaving for class after sparing with the super solider that spent 2 hours kicking your ass so hard that by the time you got to class you were aching.
At least it had limited your conversations with Bob.
One other problem needed to be solved.
Bobâs night terrors were almost daily and before Lily-gate you had allowed him to come to your room, heâd nestle himself into your sofa, you would wake up sometime after and speak to him until he felt at ease at which point he would whisper goodnight and tip toe back to his own bed.
You knew deep down that he only came to your room because it was closest to his, the comfort of your sofa was the most alluring part to him, you guess. It was bigger than Buckyâs, way softer than whatever the hell John had stuffed in his room, cleaner than Avaâs, and Alexei and Yelena had declined any kind of comforts in their rooms so that wasnât an option for him.
Bob loved your room.
So you would need to change your room.
It had to be sneaky. The others were already pestering you about changing your training timetable, but a big change like this would arouse suspicion from Bob.
Maybe a burst pipe would be best?
You knelt next to your sink, gripping the hammer youâd stolen from the construction team that were plastering the entrance of the tower after an unfortunate parking incident at the hands of Yelena. You werenât worried about the sound of you brutally slamming the hammer to the pipe, youâd forced Valentina to soundproof everyoneâs bathrooms out of fear the others would hear you screaming your lungs out to Dionne Warwick every morning.
One final hit and water exploded across the room, soaking the floor and walls. Within minutes, the water seeped into the carpet of your room and once you were satisfied you changed out of your wet clothes and temporarily disposed of the hammer under your bed.
Running out your room you shouted for Ava (she was always locked in her room, tinkering away at her next project) you asked her to call maintenance up and with that phase 2 was well on its way. Your fake concern was definitely believable.
The team sans Bob gathered round your room door as the very kind man who had fixed up your bathroom informed you and Mel that the flooring would need to be replaced because of the risk of mold.
You struggled to hide your joy at the success of your plan and turned your body to grin to yourself. Quickly turning back and putting on a concerned face as you âbrainstormedâ a solution to your-self inflicted dilemma.
Ava tutted loudly as the group discussed where you would be staying. She locked eyes with you and gave you a look you couldnât figure out, youâd have to chase her up on that later.
âCould I have the room next to you Buck?â his was the furthest from yours and would provide a respite from the man that you were attempting to avoid.
âYeah course kid, need a hand with your stuff?â
You both spent the day moving every single item in your room into the one at the end of the hall, there wasnât even a speck of dust that could have been traced back to you.
As you brought the last box out of your room Bob rounded the corner. It had been a few days since youâd last spoken to the man and even the sight of his face felt like too much for you to handle. But ignoring him now would be cruel and it wasnât like you were trying to punish the guy.
Right?
His hair was up in a clip, something he normally only did when at self-care night with you and the other girls, tucked into Lenaâs covers with a hyaluronic face mask and a hot chocolate. You liked it, heâd normally have his hair covering his face but you like seeing him, all of him.
âWhat happened? What w-why is your room boarded up, did something happen-â
âA pipe burst so I had to switch to a different roomâ you shrugged. âBuck offered the one attached to his so-â
âWhat-what about the one next to mine?â
Shit.
You hadnât really thought about a good excuse for that, obviously, the one next to his would be the more reasonable option but you quickly spit out a lie.
âI was considering it⌠but the view from the other side of the tower is so great at night! Itâs nicer to have a view of Central Park than Goldman Sachs when Iâm working.â
He nods in understanding, âOh ok, that makes sense.â Â He stills for a moment, and it looks as if he may say something, but he stops himself.
You take advantage of his hesitation. âIâm pretty tired, Iâm gonna turn in mâkay, see you around Bob.â
âYeah-yeah Iâll see you, goodnight.â
You walk past him as quickly as possible without looking back; if you had, you would have seen the absolutely devastated look on his face.
Bob wasnât stupid.
Heâd been trying to get your attention for the past two weeks. He knew that you were working hard to prepare for your mission, but you always made time for him no matter what.
Bob decided he would get to the bottom of your strange mood, no matter what it took.
Hey guys, hope you like the fic so far, Itâs my first time writing fanfiction and not consuming it so if anyone has any writing tips pls let me know!
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pairing: bob reynolds x fem!reader summary: ava and yelena have no choice but to call your ex-boyfriend when you refuse to leave girlsâ night out without him. but in your drunken haze you forget youâre broken up, and bob was never very good at telling you no. tags: new avenger!reader, exes to lovers, angsty mutual pining goodness (i canât seem to write anything except men who yearn these days), alpine picked bob in the divorce (you were never married) warning(s): reader wears a dress and makeup, reader drinks alcohol and is intoxicated, mentions of addiction, mentions of mental health issues, suggestive content (no smut but some mild spice), one derogatory joke about florida (sorry florida. love, a californian đŤśđť) word count: 11.6k note: title comes from the song back to friends by sombr, which i listened to while writing to help inspire the angst đââď¸
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If Ava and Yelena had known what a menace you were when you got drunk, they would never have floated the idea of a girlsâ night out. They just thought you needed to blow off some steam after Bucky banned you from going on missions for two weeks.
Ever since you and Bob broke up, youâd been trying your best not to visibly mope too much. It had been almost three months since the breakup, and it was easy to avoid Bob when you went on missions and he stayed behind at the Watchtower. You did everything you could to throw yourself into work and volunteer for missions with barely any breaks in between to avoid the pain of seeing him.Â
Everything was going to plan until Bucky put his foot down after you almost got shot in your exhaustion. Luckily, John had gotten there just in time, but it was a closer call than any of your teammates were comfortable with.Â
So, for the last week, youâd been locked in your room to avoid Bob. You tried desperately not to run into him, only using common areas when you knew he was scheduled for training.Â
That was how Ava and Yelena got the idea to have one of their famous Thunderboltsâyou never did quite feel like the âNew Avengersâ label fit you, much preferring your inside joke team nameâgirlsâ nights out.Â
And boy, were they regretting that now.Â
You were something of a dark horse when it came to alcohol tolerance.Â
At first, Yelena and Ava were blown away by your ability to throw back drinks. For the first hour, Yelena was banging on the bar top and yelling for you to chug while Ava cupped her hands around her mouth and cheered. During the second hour, you hit the dance floor, closed your eyes, and let your hips sway with the pulsating beat of the 2000s dance track playing.Â
It was the third hour when all your drinks caught up with you.Â
You were delightfully sweet when you were drunk; they had to give you that.Â
Even though you were leaning against the bar, blinking slowly at your friends, you had a honeyed smile on your lips. Your already short dress was riding up your thighs as you slumped on a bar stool, and the eyeliner Yelena had carefully applied for you at the start of the night was smudged at the corners.
The nightclub had already started winding down. The dance floor that was buzzing only half an hour ago was now a cluster of stragglers clinging to the last songs. You could taste salt on your lips, from sweat or the rim of some forgotten glass.Â
âYelena, your hair looks soooo good slicked back,â you said, just slightly slurring your words. Yelena, whose love language was exchanging insults and making fun of you, stared back emotionlessly. âLikeâlike a sexy seal. Ava, tell her sheâs a sexy seal.âÂ
âYes,â Ava deadpanned. âShe is a very attractive aquatic mammal. Happy?âÂ
You laughed, delighted. âSee? You get it. Yelenaâs the prettiest seal in the sea. If seals wore blue eyeliner and were trained to kill.âÂ
You blinked slowly. The lights in the room had gone softer, pink, purple, and blue lights smearing at the edges like a watercolour painting. Your body was slow to obey you, limbs heavy and skin hot, a pleasant hum under your skin where alcohol loosened your nerves.Â
Yelena snorted, then sighed as she watched you wobble on your stool. âOkay, dorogaya, time to go,â she declared. In your inebriated state, you had no idea this was the fifth time sheâd said this. âDrinkâs empty, partyâs over. Up you get.âÂ
You pouted, clutching your glass protectively. It was empty, save for some ice left behind, condensation wetting your fingers. âNoooo, Iâm not leaving until Bob gets here!âÂ
Rubbing her forehead, Ava tried not to lose her temper. âBob didnât come out with us tonight,â she reminded you. âHeâs back at the Watchtower.âÂ
You leaned across the bar top, whispering like you were telling them a secret. âLiar. He never misses girlsâ night out!âÂ
Yelena rolled her eyes, muttering, âI am not paid enough for this.â Then, more gently, she tried to urge you out of your stool. âCome on, youâll see him tomorrow.âÂ
You shook your head furiously, words dragging together. âNooo, I need him now! I miss him. I love you both sooo much, but youâre not Bob. Nobodyâs Bob but Bob.â You pointed very seriously at Ava, who blinked like she wasnât sure how to answer.
âTrue,â is what she went with. âIâm not Bob.â Then, below her breath, Ava muttered, âWhoâd want to be from Florida?âÂ
You giggled, throwing your arms around her anyway. âBut youâre my best ghosty-shadow girl. I love you.â Ava had to admit that it was nice to get a hug. If there was one thing the Thunderbolts were starved of, it was physical affection, but you gave it out freely and happily. âBut I need Bob to take me home.âÂ
Yelena lowered her voice while you nuzzled Avaâs shoulder. âSheâs going to break him in half,â she declared. Even though he was the one who broke up with you, everyone knew it absolutely destroyed him. âHeâs just barely standing, and now this?âÂ
The pinched expression on Avaâs face suggested she agreed. âI donât like it either. But sheâs not going to move for anyone else. Sheâll stand here all night long, hoping Bob will show up.âÂ
You lifted your head suddenly, eyes bright and wet. âDid I ever tell you? Bob makes the best midnight snack noodles.â A faraway, glazed-over shine filled your irises. âHe always stirs them with chopsticks because he thinks it makes the soup tastier.â Your voice grew tender. As your eyelids grew heavy, each blink lasted a second longer than the last. âNobody makes noodles like BobâŚâÂ
Yelena tried not to let the stab in her chest show on her face. âYou are killing me.âÂ
You perked back up, grabbing Yelenaâs hand and kissing it. âBut youuu, youâre the absolute best. Youâre my girl forever, Lena. Even if you make me drink water when I donât want to.âÂ
Taking the opportunity, Ava suggested, âMaybe drink some now? Before you declare your love for the bartender.âÂ
You gasped, genuinely scandalised, clutching a non-existent string of pearls. âI would never! Only Bob.â Your gaze fell to the bartender, eyes narrowing as you studied him. ââŚAlso, maybe the bartender a little bit. He gave me free fries.â
Yelena muttered something under her breath in Russian, and Ava was glad she didnât understand the profanity. âShe is impossible,â Yelena complained.Â
âShe went all judo on my arse when I tried to drag her out,â Ava reminded her flatly. âI vote we surrender and text him.â
You were the most experienced out of the three of them at hand-to-hand combat, and you nearly tossed Ava over your shoulder the first time she tried to help you out the door. Even drunk, you werenât going to let anyone carry you anywhere.Â
Yelena pinched the bridge of her nose. âHeâll come. And then what? We get front row tickets to his heartbreak?âÂ
âBetter than a broken wrist,â Ava retorted, but she didnât look happy about it. Â
You leaned across the bar again, all wide-eyed with sincerity. Some of your body glitter was smudged across your cheek. âYou guys always take care of me. Youâre my family.â Your voice wobbled, suddenly heavy with emotion. âBut I justâ I need him, okay?â
Yelena shut her eyes, inhaling sharply. âText him the code,â she told Ava. âBefore she starts crying.âÂ
Ava, who was already pulling out her phone, muttered, âHeâs going to kill us for letting her get this drunk.âÂ
âAt least weâll leave in one piece,â Yelena said.
AVA: code safety net. sheâs fine, just refuses to leave the club without you.
When you and Bob first started dating, he set up what he called a âsafety netâ with the rest of the team. If anyone sent him a code safety net, heâd come running. The idea was that it was for non-emergencies, moments when you needed him but couldnât ask him yourself.Â
The last time anyone sent him that code was over four months ago, when you were still his girlfriend.Â
Now, Bob sat on the edge of his bed, tugging his sneakers on one at a time. Getting that code used to mean rolling out of bed, grumbling half-heartedly to himself about how youâd gotten yourself into trouble, and loving that it was his responsibility to come and help you.Â
Reading the code word now felt like stepping into dangerous territory. Bob didnât know if he was allowed to be the person who came to your aid now that youâd broken up.Â
When he got the text, heâd already had the messages app open, scrolling through an endless exchange of texts between the two of you. He knew he shouldnât have reread them again, but it was like pressing on a bruise to see if it still hurt.
Spoiler alert: it did. A lot.
Even months after the breakup, letting you go was something Bob hadnât quite figured out how to do, no matter how hard he tried.Â
He had to remind himself that he had reasons to break up with you; good reasons. Bob reminded himself of these reasons constantly, just to stop himself from taking it all back.Â
At the end of the day, it wasnât fair of him to drag you into his mess. He was still trying to learn what it meant to be Sentry, still doing his best to tame the thing inside him that one day might crack open and release Void into the world again. He couldnât risk that, not with you sleeping beside him every night.Â
Whether he was Bob, Sentry, or Void, he would burn the world down if he ever hurt you.Â
And then there was his sobriety. Even in the best of times, it was a fragile, fickle thing. Bob had been in and out of programmes enough to know how it worked: no new relationships for at least a year, not until his feet were steady under him. He had broken that rule the moment he kissed you, but he couldnât let his feelings for you be the reason he fell apart this time.Â
You were the right person at the worst possible time.Â
Bob knew meeting you was the kind of kismet people only got once in your life, and thatâs if theyâre lucky. He never considered himself particularly lucky, so heâd held on tight when he first found you.Â
Bob wondered now if that made it worse. Now that you were broken up, he knew exactly what he was missing.Â
When he arrived, the club was almost empty. The music was quiet, a few people were slouched against the walls outside, and the bouncer didnât bother checking his ID when he walked in.Â
The smell hit him first. The scent of cheap spirits was soaked into the bones of the club, leaving the floor sticky and tacky beneath his shoes. Even though nobody was smoking, cigarette smoke clung to the walls, making his throat tighten. The air was heavy with memories Bob didnât particularly want to relive.Â
Heâd never been much of a drinker, but chemicals were chemicals, and his body recognised the promise of it even if his mind didnât want it.Â
Bobâs mouth went dry, a phantom bitterness gathering at the back of his tongue. His thumb rubbed compulsively across the ridge of his palm, a nervous tick heâd barely registered unless you pointed it out to him.Â
He spotted you sitting on a bar stool beside an exhausted-looking Ava and Yelena, and the way your eyes lit up when you saw him made something in his chest shatter. In seconds, you were there, arms flung around Bobâs neck with the easy warmth of someone who didnât remember they were supposed to keep their distance.Â
âI knew youâd come,â you murmured so sweetly that he felt his knees buckle a little.
You smelled of his favourite perfume, sweat, and alcohol, and it was so dizzying that it was almost like another type of intoxication. Bobâs breath hitched. He nearly folded into you without thinking, fingers twitching with the urge to hold you before remembering he wasnât supposed to anymore.
His heart pounded against his ribs, too fast, too loud, and he irrationally youâd hear it. He forced his muscles to stiffen, every nerve screaming at him to let you go while every neuron insisted he hold you like he wanted to. It was the most delicious sort of agony.Â
Yelena and Avaâs eyes flicked his way, because of course they noticed his turmoil, so he took a heavy step back. Inside, everything screamed. Bob tried to mask his face in calmness, knowing his teammates could see right through his efforts.Â
âSorry about this,â Ava said, grimacing at the way you pressed your face into Bobâs neck. âWe wouldnât have dragged you out if we had any other choice.â
Nodding drily, Yelena added, âShe refused to leave. We tried everything short of a tranquiliser dart.â
âIâve never seen her like this,â Ava mused. Now that Bob was here, your shoulders had completely relaxed. âShe said sheâd only go home if you came.â
Forcing a smile, Bob waved away their concern. âSâalright. Donât worry about it. Iâm glad you texted.â
âDonât you think Yelena looks like a sexy seal?â you asked excitedly. Bob wasnât quite sure what that meant, but nodded anyway.Â
As you babbled drunkenly about what you got up to that night, Ava and Yelena shared a weary look. âHe says heâs glad,â Yelena mumbled, âBut he looks like he swallowed glass.â
âYeah. I noticed,â Ava agreed.
âYou know I can hear you, right?â Bob cut in, brows pulled together, offended. âIâm fine.â
When you moved back just enough to peer at him with glossy, adoring eyes, Bob audibly gulped. âI missed you so much, Bob,â you said sweetly. Your voice was a little husky and tired, and it made him shiver.Â
Stiffening slightly, Bob gently patted your back with one hand. The other was still busy doing his usual nervous tick, rubbing his thumb across his palm. âYeah, IâI missed you too,â he stammered, shooting Ava and Yelena a concerned look.
Yelena softened, her expression regretful. âShe doesnât remember,â she explained, cadence uncharacteristically tender. Â
It felt as if someone had punched Bob in the gut. He couldnât actually feel anyoneâs punches with his impenetrable skin, but God did he remember what it was like. His breath gushed out of him all at once, and his organs felt like they were being crushed together.Â
Incredulous, he looked at you with wide, questioning eyes. And there you were, grinning at him like youâd never broken up. âYou look soooo good tonight, handsome,â you told him. The familiar nickname was like a second blow to his stomach. âDâyou know that?â
Bobâs eyes darted to the others. âUhâŚâ
You frowned, unhooking your arms from his neck and catching his hand in yours. âYouâre doing it again. The thumb thing,â you noted. âYou only do that when youâre worried. What are you worried about, Bob?â
He choked a laugh, trying to pull free gently. âNothinâ, sweetheart. I justâ donât worry about me.â
Suppressing a laugh, Ava commented, âSheâs sharper drunk than half the team sober.â
Yelena was slightly less tactful; she didnât even try to hide her smirk. âOnly when it comes to Bob,â she sang. âA tragic gift.âÂ
âVery inconvenient,â Ava agreed.Â
Still holding Bobâs hand, your voice wobbled a little. âYou didnât answer me. I missed you. Did you miss me?â Your head tilted as you took on a seductive tone that used to make Bob do whatever you wanted. âYou do, right? You always do, especially at nightâŚâ
Heat curled low in Bobâs stomach, and you thought you might have caught a familiar glimmer of gold in his irises. âOf course I missed you,â he admitted hoarsely.Â
You hummed happily, lacing your fingers together and resting your other hand on his solid chest. âKnew it. You always say as long as you miss me, you love me. You still love me, right?âÂ
Bob swallowed loudly. âYouâve⌠had a lot to drink tonight.â
You offered him a bright, tipsy laugh. âOnly enough to tell the truth,â you teased. âYouâre my Bob. Always my Bob.âÂ
When you leaned in and started pressing kisses to his neck, Bob jerked back, turning scarlet. He shot Ava and Yelena a look that said, For Godâs sake, how much did you let her drink?Â
âDonât look at us,â Ava exclaimed defensively, hands up. âWe tried cutting her off hours ago. She just kept sneaking off and getting more.â
âWe told the bartender to deny her orders, but she caught the next guy once his shift ended,â Yelena added, straight-faced. âItâs a miracle she still has a functioning liver.â
Bob huffed out of breath, blowing the hair from his face. âOkay.â He started steering you toward the exit. âCâmon. Time to head home now, yeah? Fresh airâll do you good.â
Dopily blinking at Bob, you smiled. âIf you think so, Bob.â
Yelena and Ava trailed behind, keeping an eye on you. As you stepped into the cool night, the music dulled behind you. You closed your eyes contentedly as the breeze soothed your warm skin. New York City air wasnât exactly fresh, but Bob said itâd help, so you basked in it regardless.
âEasy now,â he said, holding you steady. âOne foot at a time.â You nodded, clinging to his arm and taking careful steps.Â
âShe does exactly what he says,â Yelena said, partially impressed. âWe spent almost an hour arguing with her to switch to water.â
âTell me about it,â Ava groaned. âI nearly pulled my hair out.â
âI told them I wouldnât go without you,â you told Bob sincerely. âI knew youâd come. You always come when I need you, and I really needed you tonight.â
All Bob could do was nod, smile, and try not hide how much his hands were shaking. It was ridiculous how he still remembered the sensation of your weight against him. Muscle memory was a cruel thing, and this one came with a sharp jab in his chest.Â
âYeah. Iâm here,â was all he could say.
Warmth pooled under your skin, not from alcohol but from leaning against Bob. His skin was always hot, bleeding into you until you felt safe and cosy in his arms.Â
You paused as Ava lifted a hand to flag down a cab. Bob could feel the burn of Yelenaâs stare and pointedly ignored her. While you were the person who knew Bob best, Yelena was his best friend. The two of them were inextricably bonded after everything theyâd gone through, and he knew heâd fall apart if he saw the pained sympathy on her face.Â
âFor the record, we did try everything,â Ava said as a nearby cab slowed to a stop beside them.
âAt one point, she sat on the floor and said she lives in the club now. That was our breaking point,â Yelena added. She hurried to open the back door, watching Bob carefully manoeuvre you inside the cab.Â
âAlright, careful now,â Bob warned, careful to put his hand out so you wouldnât hit your head as you got in.
âLetâs go before she decides sheâs staging another sit-in,â Ava sighed. She took the passenger seat, giving the cab driver the address for the Watchtower.Â
The middle-aged man stared at her in shock, clearly recognising the address and the team in his car. Without making a big deal about it, he started the meter once Yelena slid into the last available seat in the back, shutting the door behind her.Â
The cab rattled softly, city lights flickering across the windows. You were half-curled against Bobâs side, still talking despite your heavy eyelids. Yelena watched you with a conflicted frown.
âKnew youâd come for me, Bob,â you murmured again. Your heartbeat slowed when your head tipped against his shoulder. âAlways do.â
âYeah, sweetheart, Iâve got you,â he assured you. The old anxiety ticks were back before he could stop them, thumb worrying the side of his index finger, shoulder giving the faintest twitch every time your hand shifted further up his thigh. âLetâs just get you home, alright?â
You smiled at him, eyes half-closed and gleaming with exhaustion. âHomeâs wherever you are, silly.â
Bob felt his pulse jump in that ugly, uneven way it used to when he was strung outâexcept this was worse, because there was nothing to take the edge off. Just your eyes, devoted and pure, looking at him like he was still yours.
Noticing the shift towards the kind of honesty you wouldnât be verbalising if you were sober, Yelena leaned forward a little. âYou should rest,â she suggested. âSave the poetry for the morning.â
You giggled tiredly. âSânot poetry. Sâthe truth.â Your skin tingled deliciously where it touched Bobâs. It wasnât sexual so much as the electrical spark of recognition, like your body was sighing in relief. âMissed you so much tonight, Bob. Like my chest was hollow until I saw you walk in.âÂ
Ava turned from the passenger seat to glance at Yelena.Â
Beside you, Bob stiffened. âYouâve, uh, youâve had a long night,â he said, soft and strained. âJust close your eyes, yeah?â
You shook your head clumsily, words slurred but earnest. âCanât. Gotta tell you.â You touched his chest softly, with all the care in the world. âFor the first time in what feels like forever, Iâm not empty anymore,â you confessed. âAnd weâve only been apart for a few hours. Isnât that wild?â
Silence filled the cab. Even the driver flickered his eyes to the rear-view, then looked away.
Bob kept his jaw locked, molars grinding so hard he knew theyâd crack if his body was still capable of breaking. It was better than letting his mouth soften, better than letting something slip that he couldnât take back. There was a low, burning ache behind his sternum. Not sharp or panicked, but heavy, like his heart was collapsing in on itself.
Ava cleared her throat, trying to cut the tension. âHey, maybe we all just⌠take a breather, yeah? Get some rest.â
You pouted, trying to keep your eyes open. âI love you. I always will.â Your laughter came out fond and warm, almost dreamy. âMy BobâŚâ
Bob looked stricken, eyes darting helplessly to Yelena. His thumb rubbed harder against his palm, and he was sure that if his skin could still chafe, it would have. Yelena shook her head slowly, silently urging him not to answer.
Still, there was an almost imperceptible shift toward you when you drifted off to sleep, his body betraying what he wouldnât let himself admit aloud.
The worst of it was the relief. That tiny, treacherous thought whispering: you still loved him. You still wanted him. It made Bob light-headed, sick with hope he knew better than to trust.Â
You canât love me if you donât remember why we ended things, he thought. You canât. But God help me, I want to believe you.
Bobâs head tilted towards you as you dozed, the old instinct to shield you from the world kicking in even when he was supposed to have stopped. This was a masterclass in containment. He didnât explode or crumble; he absorbed your confession, keeping it together while his heart split down the middle.
Bob effortlessly helped you out of the cab and up to your room in the Watchtower. It had taken a few months to get used to the newfound strength that came with the Sentry serum. But at least he wasnât accidentally ripping doors off their hinges or breaking dishes when he picked them up anymore.
With uneven steps, he guided you into your room, setting you down on the bed. Seated, you blinked up at him, drowsy and smiling like heâd hung the stars. It was a look that was overfamiliar; an intimate expression heâd missed seeing.
âIâm not tired,â you mumbled, resisting his help.
âLove, youâre half asleep already,â Bob tried, coaxing but awkward. He gave a short, nervous laugh. âCâmon, letâs just get you sorted out.â
You squinted like heâd offended you. âSorted? I donât need sorting. I need⌠food.â
With a huff of laughter, he shook his head. âFace first. Food later. Thatâsâuh, thatâs how it works. Pretty sure.â Then, mostly to himself: âIf youâre still awake by then, which⌠yeah, probably not.â
Disappearing into the bathroom, Bob kept an ear out for any noises as he grabbed your makeup remover and wet a washcloth with warm water. He returned and crouched in front of you, carefully starting to wash your face for you.Â
You leaned into the touch happily, taking the opportunity to admire your ex-boyfriend. âYou always do it nicer than me,â you mumbled, grinning. âSo good to me.â
Quietly, Bob admitted, âOld habit.â
You pouted playfully. âI love it when you take care of me,â you confessed. âI always think itâs so hot when youââ
âOkay, I think itâs time for pyjamas,â Bob blurted, pushing up to his feet a little too fast. He turned away, ears pink, and wondered briefly if his poor heart was as conflicted as his mind was tonight. âDonât fall over, alright?â
After taking your favourite pair out from your dresser, Bob turned his back to you as you wriggled into your pyjamas. His back was unnaturally stiff, listening for the sound of you stumbling. When you flopped back against the pillows, hair mussed and smile loose, he finally glanced over.
âSee?â you said proudly. âAll sorted. I can sleep now.â
Relieved, Bob nodded. âGood.â He moved to tuck the blanket around you.Â
You blinked up at him, suddenly urgent. âWait,â you said, loud and high-pitched. âSnack!â
Bob sighed. âButââ
âNo, Bob, listen,â you hurried, sitting back up with wide eyes. âIf I donât eat something right now Iâll die.â Your confession wobbled, tears starting to form as your eyes became glassy.
Oh boy. If there was one thing that was Bobâs Achilles heel, it was you crying.
There was something so heart-wrenching and wrong about seeing you in tears. The way your cheeks puffed up and your eyes widened, lips curving down into the most perfect frown, was enough for him to agree to do anything to make it stop.
âIâm so hungry now,â you whined, the first few tears cascading down your cheeks. Bob caught them without thinking, chest aching at the sight. He was torn between wanting to maintain some semblance of ex-appropriate boundaries and the dull twinge in his chest.
Eventually, his soft heart couldnât take it any longer. âGod, sweetheart,â he groaned. âYou canât do that. You know Iâm useless when you cry.â He tried to laugh, but it came out as a thin sound.
You sniffled, only a touch dramatic. âYou wouldnât let me starve. You love me too much.â
He shut his eyes at that, steadying himself. âYou donât play fair,â he said under his breath.
Triumphantly, you offered Bob a teary smile. âSo⌠snack?â
âFine,â he agreed. âYeah, okay. But you stay put, alright? Donât you dare try and follow me.â Bob wasnât sure what heâd do if you kept looking at him like you still loved him. âJust stay here.â
You huffed, visibly offended. âAs if Iâd follow you.â
Bob arched his brow. âYou absolutely would.â
âNu-uh!â
You padded into the kitchen after Bob, clutching the back of his sweatshirt like heâd disappear if you let go. He was resigned but soft with you, guiding you towards the counter. The fluorescents hummed overhead faintly.Â
âMidnight feast!â you whisper-yelled excitedly, pumping your free fist in the air.
âItâs a quarter to two,â Bob corrected.
You gasped, delighted. âEven better,â you declared.Â
Bob wasnât sure what your metric was for deciding what time was better to have a snack, but he laughed anyway. He went through the fridge while you rummaged noisily through the pantry.Â
Moments later, your tiny gasp of joy filled the kitchen. You held up two packets of noodles like they were a rare treasure. âBob, noodles!â You held them out for him, already climbing onto the counter deftly. Even your drunken state couldnât stop years of practised agility. âItâs perfect.â
Bob gave a half-laugh, shaking his head. âThatâs⌠yeah, sure. Wild, right? Cosmic destiny.â
Midnight noodles were something of a weekly ritual when you were dating. You usually had dinner early with the rest of the team, then stayed up late chatting and cuddling. By the time the two of you were tired enough to sleep, you were hungry again.Â
You narrowed your eyes. âDonât mock.â
He smiled, rubbing the back of his neck. âOh no, hey, Iâm serious. I swear.â
Taking the packet from you before you tore it open with your teeth, Bob took out a saucepan and set the water to boil. You sat swinging your legs, watching him with lazy admiration.Â
Bobâs shoulders hunched, stomach tightening each time you called out to him affectionately. His face was schooled into neutrality, but he didnât know how much longer he could hold it. He was hyper-aware of your position in the room. If you swayed, even slightly, his whole body tensed in case he needed to catch you.
âYou like this,â you mused, teasing him. A lazy, fizzy happiness bubbled in your chest. You couldnât quite figure out why, but you felt truly happy for the first time in a long time. âTaking care of me.â
Bob ducked his head shyly. âI like when youâre not sad. Or mad at me. So,â he motioned awkwardly to the stove, ânoodles.â
You nodded. âYouâre good at making sure Iâm not sad,â you said fondly. âCanât ever feel sad around you.â
It was a compliment that meant more to him than you could imagine.Â
Bob chuckled lowly. âNo, Iâm good at screwing stuff up, mostly. This is just hot water and noodles. Even I canâtââ he faltered, jaw tightening. âWell, I probably could mess it up.â
You frowned at his characteristic self-deprecation. âDonât be mean to Bob,â you scolded.
Bob raised an eyebrow, dropping the noodles in the boiling water. âPretty sure I am Bob.â
âExactly,â you huffed. âDonât be mean to my Bob.â
He nearly dropped his chopsticks at that. Clearing his throat, Bob bought himself some time by stirring the soup base into the water. To himself, he mumbled, âDidnât know I was still yours.â
You smiled, still oblivious to your break-up. ââCourse you are, Bob. Youâll always be mine, and Iâll always be yours. Thatâs how the whole âforeverâ thing works.â
Bob busied himself with the noodles, but when you started humming, he couldnât stop glancing at you. You leaned your cheek against the cupboard beside you, watching him as if heâd strayed out of a dream. Reaching for him without thinking, you tugged carefully at Bobâs sleeve, pulling his free wrist closer.
âMiss you tonight,â you told him, longing to hold his hand.
Bob laughed softly, deflecting. âIâm right here.â
You shook your head stubbornly. âNot like that. Missed you in my bones, yâknow?â
His chest squeezed. He cracked the chilli oil packet open to have an excuse to take his hand back. âYeah, but you had your thing, right? Girlsâ night. Shots. Dancing. Didnât need me standing awkwardly in the corner.â
âAlways need you,â you argued.
Bobâs hand tightened around the chopsticks. Still facing the stove, he begged, âDonât say that.â
Your brows pulled together. âWhy not?â
ââCause itâsâ youâre drunk, okay?â It was tough to maintain a firm boundary and not get lost in how you treated him like he was still your boyfriend. âYou say stuff like thatââ
âBecause itâs true,â you said happily. âYouâre shy tonight. Whatâs the matter?â
âIâm,â he gestured at himself, voice breaking, âIâm Bob. Iâm the guy who ruins every good thing he touches. And youâreâŚâ he trailed off, swallowing hard. Bob couldnât bring himself to say, Youâre the last person I wanted to hurt.
You slid off the counter, stepping closer. Bob finally looked at you, wincing like it hurt to meet your eyes. For a second, all the noise in his body stoppedâno fidgeting, no rambling. Just raw, aching stillness.
âYou are something good, Bob,â you declared. It would have been sweet had your words not slurred together, reminding him of your tipsiness.Â
Bob reached for the bowls and poured noodles and soup into them. âOkay, so, noodlesâuh, one for you, one for me,â he rambled, passing you the bowl with a noticeably bigger portion.
Bob returned to your room, balancing a glass of water and some painkillers for the headache you were sure to have in the morning. You were curled beneath the duvet, hair a mess, cheeks warm, still blinking against the low light. The noodles had settled in your stomach without making you nauseous, which you were both grateful for.Â
He set the glass on the bedside table, fingers twitching like he wasnât sure if he should tuck you in or back away. âSo,â he cleared his throat. Your eyes drifted up to his. They looked like the ocean during a storm, and you were transfixed. âThere we are. One water, one magic pill. Not as fun as tequila, but youâll thank me in the morning.â
You grinned sleepily. âYouâre bossy.â You were comfortable in Bobâs presence, letting your guard down entirely.
He huffed a shy laugh. âMânot bossy, Iâm being responsible. Someoneâs gotta keep you from feeling rotten tomorrow.â
âBossy,â you sang, pulling the duvet higher. Bob rolled his eyes fondly. He perched at the edge of the bed, hands clasped so tight in his lap his knuckles paled. You noticed. âWhy do you look like youâre waiting for your turn at a job interview?â
Startled, Bob stammered, âWhâwhat? Iâm notâ this is just how I sit.â
You giggled. âWeâve been dating for, like, nine months. I think I know how you sit.â
Bob bit his lip, glanced away, then reached down to straighten the corner of the duvet to keep his hands busy. âJust making sure youâre settled,â he said. âThatâs all.â
You hummed, dubious. âYouâre fussing. You only fuss when youâre nervous.â
His cheeks turned pink at that. âMaybe Iâm always nervous around you,â he diverted your question. You blinked up at him, a little too fuzzy to catch the weight of it. âRight. Youâre all tucked in. No more sneaking around for snacks, okay?â
You opened your mouth to argue, but a muffled sound at the door caught your attention. A soft little purr. Both your heads turned. âApine!â you gasped, ecstatic to see Buckyâs feline companion entering your room.
The little white cat slipped in, tail high, and leapt onto the bed. You sat up straighter, arms out, laughing as Alpine bumped her head against your chin and curled beside you. Your smile spread wide and unguarded.
âHi baby,â you cooed, stroking her head with the back of your hand. âI thought you didnât love me anymore.â
ââCourse she does. Sheâs just picky.â Bob brushed a crease from your pillow, doing anything to stop himself from reaching for you.
âYouâve been avoiding me,â you accused Alpine, speaking to her in a low, dulcet tone. You watched her with almost childlike delight, pressing your cheek against her. âFor weeks and weeks. I thought I got on your bad side somehow. Like that time John accidentally stepped on your tail.â
Bob chuckled, but his hands twisted together in his lap. He bit at his lower lip. Watching Alpineâs purrs vibrate against your cheek made his chest split in two. Heâd always been more of a dog person, but he did have a soft spot for Buckyâs cat. âIâm sure she just missed you.â
âOr you,â you argued. âYouâre her second favourite, arenât you?â
âI donât know about that.â
âNo, you are. Everyone knows it,â you insisted. âShe follows you around like a shadow. You spoil her with treats when you think nobodyâs looking.â
âI guess she likes me well enough,â Bob allowed. His hand hovered near Alpineâs back, then withdrew, retreating to his lap.
You giggled into Alpineâs fur, drunk and unbothered. But then the giggle faded, replaced by a sudden, sharp earnestness you couldnât quite stop.
âBut she hasnât come near me for weeks,â you murmured, lips pressed to the soft patch between the felineâs ears. Your hand stilled on her fur. âNot sinceâŚâ
The words trailed away. You didnât know why. Some small, skittish part of you pulled back from finishing the thought.
Your smile slipped, slow and reluctant, like something precious sliding out of your grip. A heaviness pressed against your chest, cutting off the little bubble of warmth youâd been floating in all night long. You lifted your head, blinking at Bob. His face was flushed, eyes darting from you to Alpine to the headboard behind your shoulder.
Your stomach dipped, a cold wash chasing away the warmth of the alcohol. Thatâs it, isnât it? The pieces slid into place with cruel precision, emerging from the alcohol-induced fog that kept them hidden all night long.
âSheâs been with you,â you said, the words cracking open in your throat. âBecause weâbecause weâre notâŚâ
Bob froze, throat bobbing as it worked against words that wouldnât form. âIâIâdonâtâŚâ He tried again, breath stuttering. âItâs notââ
The ache in your chest grew so quickly that it made your hands shake. You dragged trembling fingers down Alpineâs back, stroking her fur in desperate repetition, like you could keep yourself from fracturing if you just kept the motion steady.
Your voice spilled into the room in a whisper. âWeâre not together anymore, are we?â
The words hurt more once spoken, like theyâd hadnât been true until you said them aloud. Tears pricked hot at the corners of your eyes. You blinked hard, but it only made them spill faster, streaking down your cheeks and landing in Alpineâs snowy fur.
âYou broke up with me,â you recalled, your reply wavering in the middle of your sentence.
Bob looked ruined. His whole chest heaved, and for a moment, he just stared, caught in the wreckage. Hesitant and trembling, his hand pulled you gently, carefully into him. The dam broke when Bob wrapped his arms around you, turning your silent cries into sobs.
âDonâtâdonât cry. Please,â Bob begged, audibly torn. One hand rubbed your back in clumsy circles, while the other cupped your head, tender and desperate.
Your question came muffled against his shirt, small and devastating. âWhy did you break up with me? I love you so much.â
Bob flinched like the words struck him, eyes squeezing shut. His hand kept caressing your back, not steady but frantic, trying to stop both of you from falling apart.
You pressed your face harder into his sweatshirt, tears hot and messy against the fabric. The sobs came out loud and hard, shaking your shoulders, then softened into smaller gasps and hiccups as the rhythm of Bobâs hand calmed you.Â
He could feel how your remaining energy slowly burned itself out. First, your trembling quietened, then your hands loosening where theyâd clutched his sweatshirt, then the weighted slump of your body. His arms tightened around you instinctively, holding you upright.
You gave a little sniff. âDonât you love me?â
Every muscle in Bobâs body locked. His lips parted, but nothing came out at first; not with your breath warming his sweatshirt, not with the fragile pressure of you sinking so trustingly into him.
âIâ Do I love you?â The words shuddered out of him, frayed at the edges. âOf course I do.â
But when he pulled back to see your face, your lashes were already lowered, breaths evening out, body soft in the safety of his arms. Your question had used up the last of your energy, and now you were asleep.
Bobâs chest throbbed with relief and grief all at once. Youâll never know, he thought. Not really. Not the way he wanted to tell youâawake, sober, with steady hands instead of shaking ones. He pressed his chin to the top of your head, shutting his eyes to stop his own tears from falling.
You woke to sunlight pressing against your eyelids, a dull yellow insistence that came from your curtains being open. Your head throbbed; not stabbing but heavy, like someone had stuffed your skull with cotton. Your mouth was dry, your tongue thick, every swallow tasting faintly of metal.
You blinked slowly, trying to piece the previous night together. What you remembered came in flashes: Avaâs laugh at the bar, Yelena making a face at the DJ, colourful lights blurring overhead. And then, nothing. Just a clean break in the reel, as though someone had pressed stop and forgotten to hit record again.
At least you were in your own bed, the duvet pulled up to your chin like your own personal fairy godmother helped you home. You couldnât smell cheap takeaway on your clothes, which meant youâd dodged your usual post-club ritual of inhaling fries at three in the morning.Â
Still, the gap in your memory made your stomach twist a little. Not in fear, you trusted Ava and Yelena too much for that, but embarrassment. A mortifying little voice in your head whispered that if youâd blacked out at the end of the night, youâd probably done or said something mortifying.Â
You groaned and pressed the heel of your palm to your eyes.Â
After taking the painkiller someone left for you on your bedside table, you shuffled into the kitchen looking for something to have eat. You didnât care that your hair was mussed and you looked distinctly worse for wear; you just needed to get something into your stomach before the nausea took over.Â
In the kitchen, Yelena and Ava were sitting at the table while John rifled through the pantry. Both of them look just as bad as you did. Yelena wore sunglasses even though you were indoors, and Ava still had eyeliner streaked across her face. You gratefully accepted a cup of coffee when Ava passed it to you. Collapsing into the chair beside her, you groaned quietly.Â
âOkay,â you began, a little sheepish. âDonât laugh. I donât remember anything after the club last night.â Your friends shared a look that said they werenât surprised. âI just wanted to say thanks for dragging me home and dealing with me.â
Yelena smirked. âDragging is the right word. You fought like a feral raccoon.â
âWe were two seconds away from calling animal control,â Ava chimed in, grinning.
If they were teasing you, then their hangovers werenât that bad.
You groaned, burying your face in your arms. âI knew it. Iâm the worst drunk.â When you looked up, you gave your friends your prettiest smile. âSorry about that. How did you even get me into bed?âÂ
Yelena and Ava exchanged a quick look.Â
Before you could prompt them further, John interrupted. âOh, for fuckâs sake!â he screeched. You turned around just in time to see him slam the pantry doors shut, glaring at the three of you like youâd committed a horrible betrayal. âWho ate my noodles?â John demanded.Â
All he got in return was three blank stares.Â
âPardon?â Ava asked, her tone suggesting she was already done with the conversation before it started.
âMy last two packets of instant ramen,â John said, crossing his arms and glaring between you. You had to admit, as much as you all liked messing with him, he could be pretty intimidating when he wanted to be. âBeen saving them all week, and what do I find? Empty shelf.â
Without missing a beat, Yelena said, âMaybe the universe is telling you to eat a vegetable.â
âThe universe can shove it,â John deadpanned. âSomeone in hereâs a thief. And donât act innocent! Itâs been a while, but my noodles used to vanish every week like clockwork.âÂ
You froze with your coffee cup halfway to your lips. Your eyes snapped to Yelena and Ava, who were already looking at you, matching your wide-eyed look of surprise.Â
âIt was Bob,â you said quietly, almost accusing, once John gave up and started searching the fridge for something edible. âThatâs how you got me to come home.â
Yelena sighed heavily, rubbing between her eyebrows like she was getting a headache. âWe didnât have a choice, you wouldnât leave without him. Besides, it wasnât that bad.â
âWasnât that bad?!â you exclaimed, not buying it for a single second. âI know exactly how unhinged I get when Iâm drunk, and you let me spend the night with my ex-boyfriend?â
âYou honestly didnât do anything embarrassing,â Ava insisted. Then, she paused. âWell, I guess you did forget you were broken up and treated him like you were still together,â she admitted. You opened your mouth to keep yelling, so she hurriedly added, âBut he was honestly fine with it!â
âHe took it very well,â Yelena agreed. âIt crushed his mind, body, and spirit. But he took it well.â
âEven if I was asking for him, I canât believe you forced him to come,â you retorted.
Yelena gasped. âWe did not force him!â
John, who was eavesdropping the entire time, cut in. âWait, wait, hold up.â Your eyes drifted over to him. âAre we even allowed to call a code safety net if the two of them are broken up?â
You frowned. âCode what?âÂ
âNicely done, Walker,â Yelena drawled sarcastically, pretending to applaud him. She was known to resort to his last name when he messed something up. Which, in her eyes, was often. âWhat is it about a secret code that you donât understand?â
âWhat secret code?â you asked, already dreading the answer.
âOkay look,â Ava said, giving it to you straight. âWhen you and Bob started dating, he set up an emergency code called âsafety net.â If you were too far gone at the club, or if you needed him but were too scared to ask, weâd send him the code. He always came to help, no matter what.â
You swallowed, processing the news. âThatâsâŚâ
âOverly protective?â John teased, smirking a little. He didnât mean it, of course. Nobody had called a code safety net more often than him. He just lived to tease you and was convinced you ate his noodles.Â
âI was going to say romantic,â you corrected him, rolling your eyes.
âDonât you think youâre a little too, I donât know, divorced to be making comments?â Yelena added.Â
âJesus,â Walker muttered, holding his hands in defence and grumbling about ordering takeout instead.Â
Once he was out of the kitchen, Ava smirked. âSo, midnight noodles with Bob?â
âI have a big mouth when Iâm drunk,â you grumbled, downing the rest of your coffee to soothe your dry throat. Youâd never told them about you and Bobâs midnight noodles, so you knew you had your drunk self to thank for that one.
âYeah, but it was cute,â Ava said, leaning back in her chair. âYou looked very proud of your little tradition.â
Yelena snorted. âYou made it sound like a sacred ritual.â
You pressed your lips together, staring at the empty mug in your hands. âBut⌠why would he still come? Why would heââ You broke off, shaking your head. âHeâs the one who ended things. If he doesnât love me anymore, then why show up to help?â
For once, Ava didnât have a snarky comment locked and loaded. She just tilted her head, eyes warming. âThat sounds like a question for him,â she said.
Yelena nodded, elbowing you lightly. âYeah. Donât waste your breath on us. Go ask Bob. Weâll be here eating Johnâs backup noodles. I found them this morning and stashed them in my room.â
You stood outside Bobâs door longer than planned to. Long enough to wonder if the team could hear your pacing from the hall, long enough to almost turn back around. Twice. You even considered coming back tomorrow, but you knew your courage was dwindling fast. If you left now, you probably werenât coming back.Â
You held your breath as you knocked. From inside, you could hear Bob shuffling around before the door slowly cracked open. He blinked at you, hair a mess and t-shirt wrinkled like heâd been napping. For a stupid, dizzying second, the sight of him all domestic and soft punched through your ribs. You could still feel what it was like when you used to wake up in that bed with him.
Bob looked surprised to see you standing there, but not unhappy. âHey.â
âHey,â you echoed, hating how your throat tightened around the word. âUm. Can we talk?â
For a second, you thought he might say no. Then, he stepped back and opened the door wider. âYeah. Sure. Come in.â
You crossed the threshold and realised you hadnât prepared yourself for the wave of nostalgia that made your stomach clench. Bobâs room looked exactly the same as it had the last time you were in it. From the mug on his bedside table to the blanket youâd bought for him, half-folded on the bed.
It was all the same, except you didnât live here anymore. Your fingers itched to straighten the blanket the way you always used to, so you folded them together like a penitent child.
You hovered awkwardly in the middle of the room, unsure where to sit. Bob noticed and gestured toward the chair at his desk before sitting on the edge of his bed. It felt like heâd deliberately put distance between you.Â
âSo,â he said, rubbing the back of his neck. âWhatâs up?â
You smoothed your palms over your jeans. âI justâ I wanted to check in. See how youâve been.â
Bobâs brows lifted. âIâve been⌠fine,â he said slowly. âBusy, I guess. You know how it is around here.â
âYeah,â you agreed. âOf course. I get it.â
Before the awkward silence stretched further, he asked, âAnd you?âÂ
You blinked. âMe? Oh, you know. Same thing. Busy.â
âRight,â he replied. Bob didnât point out that he knew Bucky had banned you from going on missions for two weeks, and refused to acknowledge how heâd accidentally broken the windows in the conference room when he found out you were almost shot.Â
You nodded, exhaling through your nose as your fingers tightened on your lap. âOkay, so⌠Ava and Yelena told me about last night.â Bobâs eyes flicked up to yours wearily.Â
âThey said you came to pick me up,â you continued. âBrought me back. Stayed until I was asleep.â You shifted in the chair, the words scraping raw in your throat. âJohn mentioned something about missing noodles, so I assume you made those for me. Which IâI donât remember at all.â
âI donât know what I did,â you admitted, voice smaller than you intended. âI donât know what I said. I just keep thinkingâ God, I mustâve been awful. Embarrassing. Ava said I forgot that weâd, yâknow,â you gestured vaguely with your hands, referring to your breakup, âAnd I hate that I donât even know what to apologise for.â
Something flickered across his face, not quite a wince, but close. Bob looked down at his hands, thumb dragging over his palm. âIt wasnât like that,â he said finally. âYou werenât being embarrassing. You didnât do anything wrong.â
You almost laughed at how gently he said it. âThen what was it like? Because right now, it feels like everybody knows something I donât,â you revealed.
Bob hesitated, mouth opening and closing before anything came out. âYou were drunk. People get drunk, they⌠say things. Do things.â His cheeks and ears flushed as he averted his eyes. âIt doesnât matter.â
âIt matters to me,â you pressed. âWhy did you come when they texted? You couldâve ignored the code, or told Yelena to handle it, but you didnât. Why?â
His jaw tightened. Truthfully, Bob had never considered the fact that you might find out about code safety net. When the two of you broke up, he assumed youâd never have a reason to hear about it.Â
âBecause it was you.â He said it like he expected a blowback, shoulders hunched just like when heâd first confessed his feelings for you.
You blinked at him, the honesty of it knocking you off balance. Bob seemed to realise what heâd admitted, because he immediately pushed on, fumbling. âI meanâ I set that code up for a reason. Back then. You always knew exactly when I needed help, and I was never as good at figuring that stuff out, so I set up a code. Even last night, I couldnât ignore it. Thatâs all.â
âThatâs all?â
Bob nodded too quickly, eyes darting to the floor again. âThatâs all.â
You studied him. Dating for almost nine months allowed you to mentally store something like a Bob Reynolds textbook. You could tell from the way his shoulders shook like he was bracing for impact that he wasnât being entirely truthful. Then there was his nervous tick of rubbing his thumb across the ridge of his palm, and the way his legs couldnât keep still.Â
âYou didnât tell drunk-me we broke up,â you said after a beat. âYou just let me thinkâŚâ The words trailed, your breath catching at the memory you didnât have. âWhy would you do that?â
He shook his head, voice rough. âYou were drunk. I wasnât gonna hit you with reality in that state. Didnât feel right, not when you were smiling for the first time in months.â
You sat back, staring at him like you were trying to piece together a puzzle with half the pieces missing. âSo⌠you didnât tell me because I was drunk. Because you wanted me to be happy.â Bob shifted awkwardly on the bed. âAnd because you knew I wasnât saying anything I didnât mean.â
His head jerked up to meet your eyes before he could stop himself. âYouâre sure you donât remember anything?â
You nodded. âNot a thing. But I can guess. If I thought we were still together, I would have trusted you with my most private thoughts. I would have poured my heart out without knowing what I was doing.â
Bob exhaled slowly. âEnd of the night, you figured it out. When Alpine came in, you looked at me likeââ He broke off, jaw working. âYou realised we werenât together. It hit you, andâit tore you up.â His wince said the memory still hurt. âIf Iâd known telling you up front wouldâve spared you that, I would have said something. But I didnât know what to do. I just didnât want to hurt you.â
âYou wanted to spare me the pain,â you pressed. âWhy? If you were just helping me out of an old obligation, why did it hurt you to see me upset?â
âBecause Iââ Bob cut himself off, breathing hard through his nose. Because I love you was dangerously close to the tip of his tongue. âBecause it was hard. Anyone wouldâve found it hard.â The excuse was weak, even to him.
You leaned forward, refusing to let him retreat. âI donât care what anyone wouldâve thought. I care what you thought. Why was it so hard for you?â
Finally, Bob dragged in a breath. âYou think this is easy for me because Iâm the one who ended things? Believe me, it hasnât been easy.â
Your heart thudded hard in your chest, but you didnât speak; you didnât move.
âI broke up with you because, for once, I wanted to do the right thing,â Bob went on, words tumbling out like he was afraid heâd lose his nerve. âI had to focus on the depression, and the loneliness, and the never-ending void.â He rubbed his eyes. âI messed this stuff up so many times trying to get sober, and I canât afford to do that with the Void and the Sentry hanging around. If I fall off again, itâs not just me who pays the price. I couldnât drag you through that.â
You opened your mouth to argue, but he pressed forward, too worked up to let himself be interrupted.
âI wanted you. God, I wanted you. And maybe thatâs what made it worse. Because every time I looked at you I thoughtâwhat if I screw this up? I couldnât live with myself if I did that.â Bobâs words caught, low and ragged. âSo I let you go. Not because I wasnât sure I loved you. It was just⌠bad timing.â
You sat frozen, his words blowing up everything you thought youâd known. Youâd told yourself a hundred stories about why heâd walked away; boredom, fear, maybe even that he stopped loving you. But youâd never considered this.Â
Bob scrubbed his hand over his face, then let it drop. âYou know Iâm sober,â he said. âAnd yeah, the serum means drugs donât really⌠stick anymore. I canât drink, canât use, not in any way that matters. But sobriety isnât just about not putting stuff in your body. It can make you screw up the people around you while youâre trying to get clean. I guess my fear of doing that to someone never really went away.â
He let out a shaky breath, eyes flicking up to gauge if you were still listening.
âEvery program told me the same thing: donât date in the first year. Because youâre too raw, too unsteady. Youâll lean on someone in ways that end up hurting them.â He shook his head. âAnd I thought if I wanted a real shot at keeping the Void under control, I had to treat it like I was back at square one. Like I was still in that first year.â His jaw flexed, guilty, pained. âBut by then Iâd already met you, and for once, I thought maybe I got lucky.â
He looked away. âBut I couldnât have it all. Not when I was still learning how not to let the Void bleed out, or not to let the Sentry serum break everything I touched.â
You let out a laugh, shaky and wet, dragging your hand across your cheek. âDo you have any idea what youâre telling me right now?â you whispered.
His brow furrowed, wary. âIâm telling you why I ended things.â
âNo,â you said, tone firming. âYouâre telling me you never stopped loving me.â You were startled by how steady the words sounded, considering how violently your pulse was hammering.
Bobâs mouth opened, then closed. He didnât deny it.Â
The months without him came crashing down: every long night staring at empty walls, every mission you buried yourself in, hoping exhaustion would trick you into not missing him.Â
âI know exactly what I would have said to you last night if I thought we were still together,â you admitted. âI wouldâve told you I love you. That I miss you so much it feels like part of me got ripped away.â You swallowed hard, blinking against the sting in your eyes. âIâve been walking around trying to pretend that I didnât search for you every second of the day.â
Bobâs silence should have scared you. Months ago, when it felt like you were on the verge of breaking up, it did.Â
âDo you know what the worst part was?â you whispered. âNot knowing why you did it, or if Iâd been wrong about you. I kept thinkingâif you could walk away so easily, maybe you never loved me the way I loved you. And I hated myself for wanting you anyway.â Your chest rose and fell unevenly. âAnd nowââ You broke off in a half-laugh, half-sob, ânow that I know why you did it, it makes me love you even more.â
Bobâs hands twisted together in his lap, and then slowly stilled. âYou know,â he said, voice quiet enough that it made you lean in to catch it, âitâs been a year.â
You blinked at him. âSinceâŚ?â
He glanced up hesitantly, like he wasnât sure if saying it aloud might jinx it. âSince the last time the Void broke through. Since Iââ Bob exhaled shakily. âSince I lost control like that. One year of doing everything right. No shortcuts, no lies, no risking it. Other than being with you, I guess.â
Your throat tightened. âYou did it.â
âI did it,â Bob echoed, almost like he couldnât believe it himself. âI didnât think I could, but I did. And these last few months,â his eyes found yours, steady now, âI missed you so much.â
Something tugged at your gut. âThen why be with me at all, if youâd promised yourself a year?â The words came out softer than you meant, not accusing, but like you were afraid of the answer.
Bobâs mouth pressed into a thin line. âBecause I couldnât let you go. You were the only thing that made me feel like I wasnât just surviving that year, but actually living it. I thoughtâI thought I could hold both, you and the vow, but when it came down to it⌠I was terrified Iâd break one, and I couldnât risk it being you.â
You bit your lip, forcing yourself not to cry. âI missed you so much,â you said. âNothing feels right without you.â
Bob swallowed, his gaze fixed on you. âYou really thinkâŚâ His words faltered, and then, barely above a whisper: âYou really think you could take me back?â
You reached for him before you could second-guess it, your hand covering his. His fingers tensed, then relaxed, instinctively interlocking with yours.
Bob stared down at your joined hands, thumb brushing over your knuckles. âI donât deserve this,â he murmured. âYou shouldnâtââ
âYou donât get to decide that for me,â you interrupted, quieter than you meant, but steady. âIf anything, the fact that you were willing to give this up to get better proves that you deserve it.â
When he looked up at you again, there was something tender in his eyes. âI just donât want to hurt you again.â
âYou did hurt me,â you admitted, a small, almost rueful smile tugging at your mouth. âBy keeping things from me. But we can work on that.â
For a long moment, he didnât speak, just held your gaze like he was trying to capture the moment in a memory. Then, voice rough, Bob asked, âSo what now?â
You squeezed his hand, feeling the warmth of it sink into you. âNow?â You drew in a shaky breath, lips trembling with something like a laugh. âNow we see if we can get it right this time.â
Then Bob leaned across to reach you, almost hesitant, like he was giving you one last chance to pull away.Â
Your free hand caught his sweatshirt collar and pulled him in the rest of the way, and then his mouth was on yours. It was laughably familiar, the exact way you used to tug him down for a kiss when he was stalling, and you felt his breath hitch like he remembered that too.
It was the kind of kiss that came from months of restraint tearing loose all at once. His lips pressed hard to yours, hungry and desperate, like your bodies remembered what your minds had tried to forget.
You tasted saltâyour tears, his, you couldnât tellâand his hand slid to cradle your jaw, tilting your face so he could kiss you deeper. It was as if heâd been picturing this moment in his head and couldnât risk losing a single detail now that it was real.
The tremor in his hands gave him away; Bob always shook when he was holding too much back, and you realised this was months of self-restraint crumbling. Your lungs burned with the need for air but your body refused to stop, greedy and starved, like youâd gone months without food and only he could satiate you again.
The heat of it built fast, familiar and overwhelming, like no time had passed at all. Bobâs mouth found yours with the kind of certainty that only comes from practice, from knowing exactly how to draw that sharp gasp from your lips, exactly how to make your knees weaken.
You broke apart just long enough to breathe, and he let out a ragged groan against your mouth. âI missed this,â Bob whispered, deep and wrecked like it always was after you kissed.
âThen donât ever make us miss it again,â you said, and dragged him back into another kiss.
Bobâs breath shuddered against your mouth, his thumb tracing over your cheek to ground himself in you. âI love you,â he said, hoarse and certain, before kissing you again.
Your hands slid into his curls, tugging him closer, closer, until the chair scraped back against the floor. Bob didnât care, didnât even pause, just caught your waist and pulled you into his lap like he couldnât bear a single inch of distance. Your knees sank into the mattress you used to sleep on every night, heat flooding your abdomen.
The sound he made when you settled against him was half growl, half plea, and it vibrated through you, low and devastating. His hands slid up your back, spanning your ribs, mapping you all over again with a reverence disguised as desperation.
âYou feel exactly the same as I remember,â Bob rasped against your mouth, the words breaking on another groan as your fingers tugged his hair. âExcept so much better than anything my mind made up.â
You kissed him instead of answering, teeth catching on his bottom lip. He cursed softly, lost to it. His hands moved restlesslyâyour hip, your thighs, your backâlike he couldnât decide where to touch you first. There was nothing careful in the way he kissed you.Â
When you leaned back, Bob chased your lips. âI canât stop,â he whined, trembling as his thumb stroked gently across your throat. âTell me to stop and I will, butâGod, I canâtââ
âDonât stop,â you cut in, breathless, your lips bruising his as you spoke. âDonât you dare.â
That was all it took. Bob surged up to kiss you again, all fire and urgency, one hand splayed across your back to keep your chest pressed against his. You could feel the frantic beat of his heart against yours. You gasped when your back hit the headboard, legs wrapped around his waist for stability. His mouth was already chasing the sound, devouring it.Â
âMissed thisâmissed youââ Bob muttered between kisses, completely wrecked. His hands roamed, greedy and adoring all at once.
Your fingers hooked into the hem of his sweatshirt, aching for bare skin, tugging it half-way up before you even realised youâd done it. The noise he made when you touched himâstrangled, helpless, carnalâshot straight through you like lightning.Â
He broke the kiss only long enough to yank his shirt over his head, his chest heaving, eyes burning into yours. âTell me this isnât just me,â he rasped, already pulling you back in.
âItâs not,â you whispered. âI love you.â Then you kissed him as your hands traced over familiar lines of muscle, remembering exactly where to touch to make him shiver and groan.
Bobâs masterful composure broke. He fell back without warning, pliant and gasping underneath your fingers. Your knees dug into the mattress again, your hands bracing on either side of his head while his fingers disappeared underneath your t-shirt. You arched into him instinctively, his name breaking on your lips, and his grip on your hips tightened.
Bob knew exactly how to undo you, exactly where to linger, exactly how to make your breath stutter. And you knew him just as well; the way his hands trembled when you trailed kisses down his neck and across his collarbones said you hadnât lost your hold on him either.
Every scrape of his stubble, every brush of his tongue, every shaky gasp between kisses was a reminder that Bob knew you inside and out.
And then you started laughing. Messy, breathless giggles that bubbled up between kisses when Bob fumbled with the button of your jeans and swore under his breath, when his nose bumped yours because neither of you could keep still.
You dropped your forehead against his shoulder, giggling helplessly. He smelled the same, soap and cedar and the faint tang that clung to him when he woke up, and it sent another wave of hysterical affection through you.
âWeâre a disaster,â you teased, rolling over to lie on your back beside him.
âSpeak for yourself,â Bob muttered, though his grin was hopelessly crooked, his chest still heaving. âIâm very smooth.â
You gave him a look, one brow arched. He sighed, sagging down beside you, reaching for your hand like it was the only thing tethering him.Â
âOkay,â he admitted, eyes flicking away. âMaybe not smooth. More like⌠sandpaper. Or, uh, a car crash. The kind you canât look away from because itâs that bad.â
You laughed again, louder this time, tugging him forward so you could kiss the corner of his mouth. âBob.â
He glanced at you warily, self-deprecating humour still lingering in the downturn of his smile. âYeah?â
âYouâre fine,â you whispered, cupping his cheek, brushing your thumb over the stubble there. âMore than fine. Youâre the best thing Iâve ever let crash into me.â
Something unguarded flickered in his eyes then, relief tangled with endless affection. The way his face crumpledâhalf a laugh, half like heâd taken a breath after holding it for too longâwas so unmistakably Bob that you couldnât help kissing him again. Softer this time, slow and sweet, like coming home.




