#james-ab

Dreams are kinda dicks like that. Ever had a Majoras Mask Dream/Nightmare :V? I have and it was terribly depressing lmfao

i can't recall any majora's mask nightmares or dreams, but i've had a whole slew of other kinds. anything as ridiculous as a room full of spiders and nothING BUT SPIDERS to something as legitimately terrifying as getting chased through the woods by some big ol stranger

and they happen pretty frequently!! i don't know why i have so many nightmares, it feels like it directly contradicts everything else in my life. maybe that's why i do though? i heard somewhere that dreams are your unconscious mind thinking about a lot of things it didn't get a chance to really process earlier. and if i don't live in a lot of fear or anger or sadness, which is very true, maybe my brain is just fleshing those thoughts and feelings out? eughh.

therealkankri replied to your post: seriously though lucid dreaming sounds goddamn...

NO ITS FUN BUT SCARY OH MAN YOSHI PLUS i did it when i was like, 9 and it wasnt all that bad, you dream about what you wantttt to dream about ok does that make sense

and see that's cool that it worked out for you! but it wouldn't for me, i'm almost positive it would just be horrible. because every time i've realized i'm having a dream, and even the times where i don't, i start thinking about all the things i DON'T want to happen because i'm just so scared when i'm dreaming, and because i'm thinking about all the stuff i don't want to happen, that's of course what happens! that's what i'm thinking about.

i had a dream where this big scary dog monster was chasing me all over the house, and he had like, these hippo-shaped teeth? and i was so damn scared and running away, and stupidly i thought to myself, the only thing that could make this worse is if his teeth were razor sharp. AND LO AND BEHOLD THE NEXT TIME I GLANCED BACK THE THING HAD KNIFES FOR TEETH OR SMTH.

and even if none of that was a factor, the thought of what would happen if i did have an open-eyed dream are just fucking freaky to me??? i can't goddamn move and everything feels real because you're seeing real life and hallucinating! i can't imagine it's all that different from schizophrenia. it at least must be vaguely similar.

and knowing me, i would be having open-eyed nightmares. at least in a completely unconscious nightmare i can run or scream or something.