#yoshi talks

but, maybe more importantly for me right now, it reminded me i can really get like this too. it's not always (or even usually!) a conscious thing for most people, but i think it's important i keep gently challenging it in myself. it's not that i can't ever be Right, especially in more objective matters like, say, computer science, but i also can't just Assume I Am Correct, especially in very complicated, nuanced, or variable topics like, well, pretty much anything social. it's really important not to mentally Lock Down about those latter, circumstantial, often very subjective subjects.

terms to look up if you want a penis and a vagina at the same time: phallus-preserving vaginoplasty or penile-preserving vaginoplasty (PPV), phalloplasty without vaginectomy or metoidioplasty without vaginectomy—phalloplasty means constructing a penis, vaginoplasty means constructing a vagina, metoidioplasty is an alternative to phalloplasty, and vaginectomy means closing/removing a vagina! here are some post-op pictures shared by some reddit users: on r/phallo, a phalloplasty without vaginectomy and adding urethral lengthening (moving the opening of the urethra to the head of the penis). on r/transgender_surgeries, a phallus-preserving vaginoplasty. and on r/metoidioplasty, a metoidioplasty without vaginectomy. there are countless other variations of these surgeries, including no urethral lengthening phalloplasty and metoidioplasty (which makes it easier to ensure no vaginectomy is needed), as well as multiple ways to do the PPV, including using the scrotal tissue for the vaginal canal or the 'pull through' method which involves taking some of the internal tissue. the major difference between a phalloplasty and a metoidioplasty, also, is what tissues the surgeon needs to use to construct the penis: a phalloplasty most commonly takes tissue from the thigh and creates an average length penis, while a metoidioplasty uses tissue from an HRT treated clitoris and creates a shorter than average penis.

terms to look up if you want no genitals: nullification surgery! this one was new to me, but this woman (includes pictures) discusses her results and, wow, it's kind of what i've always whated my own parts to look like. "doll parts" is literally the way i describe my ideal setup to people! 😳

not included in the other post, but i came across it again while researching result pics for this post: transbucket! a resource where people share their post-op photos of various surgeries, top and bottom! these nonbinary surgeries are few and far between here, but this is still a great resource for all kinds of trans people seeking surgery, and it includes the names of the surgeons who did the surgery. :) PLEASE note that some of the photos shared are VERY freshly after surgery and can be quite graphic to look at, as things are still visibly healing. i think you also need to make an account to use it? i have one, so i assume i had to make one.

finally, regarding PPV, talk to your surgeon about the bulbospongiosus muscle. apparently this muscle when removed can lead to UTI issues and many surgeons will remove it during vaginoplasties. i'm no surgeon, so i can't guarantee what's best for you and your body, but i do recommend you talk to your surgeon about it and do some research about it just to be safe!