#jaidon

Dear Jai, Do you know whats good about dreams? You can be with people who are impossible to be with in reality, you can be anywhere and nowhere at the same time because everything is possible in your dreams; and in mine I’m always with you. In my dreams I’m the girl you will point out if the stage because you want everybody to see her and you sing alone that song that reminds you of me and you look at me as if I was the only person there. In my dreams I can have you as long as I want so then I can own you forever because in my dreams everything can be so simple and we were young forever because I can stop the time. And that’s why I’m never afraid of losing you and I feel like luckiest one. Distance don’t exist in my dreams because I have everything I want, I have you, and every night you play your guitar and sing to me and sing those songs that no one else has heard before; the ones that you compose when you’re gone on your little notebook that you only allowed me to read. In my dreams your smile is even prettier and if we want to get lost you take me in those places that only you and I know about so we can literally disappear. I don’t need to dream in my dreams because everything dream about is real but do you know the worst about dreams? That even through they seem eternal they’re not, and out of them, our story isn’t real. It’s just made up in my head and I can’t with you, you can’t be in my favorite places. In reality I see you from the distance as you point out a crowd of people screamed your name and that seem to feel for you exactly the same thing that I do; one in a million, that’s all I really am. Out here I can’t be your side half of the time and I really want to and needing you so bad destroys me, it breaks me to think that i can’t stop the time. So the day I get to see you, I live at it’s the last one because I don’t know if I’ll ever get to see you again and I fell that the universe is spinning around way too fast and I can’t control it and I hate it because this world doesn’t wait for things to happen it just won’t stop. Out of the dreams I don’t have, I don’t have you but you know what? It’s because I don’t have that I will never losing you and it’s exactly as it is in my dreams.