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Jamie O’Brien dressed to impress in Palm Springs 🌴

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I had a feeling that I had one choice to make: either quit my job or die a little bit more inside with each passing shift.  Something is going to give.  Something has to change.  My life energy, my quetal, ki, vital force, whatever you want to call it is being spent and drained each and every minute of an hour that I give for 14$.  My energy and attention is worth more than that.  I am more valuable than a menial hourly wage job.  I am seeking true professionalism and being a master at my craft.  I wasn’t meant to spend hours, like 10 or more, refining my art as a cubicle worker, chained to a desk.  What will I have to show for it in 3 years, 5 years, 10 years?  What will be built for my family? What assets will have?  A 401(k)?  I will be contributing to building a business, an asset, an engine that produces cash everyday for the owner and his son.  Its a way to get others people’s resources and energy to make the owner rich.  Granted they have to pay taxes and have huge overhead, although it is decreasing as they business becomes more profitable.  They took all the risk.  The owner needed to make the decisions previously that put him in position to start and run a successful business.  Don’t I need to make that same choice if I am going to be in business?  The hourly pay wont force me to make the decisions I need to make if I want to be successful in business.  It keeps me comfortable.  Am I willing to take on the risk of an entire business, building, investors, employees, partners, customers and taxes, if it meant being financially free?  Would I be willing to give up the peace of mind that having a stable and consistent paycheck deposited into your bank account every two weeks brings? Im afraid.  Im afraid I wont find enough value in myself.  If I don’t find it in me, i wont be able to apply it to the market place, which means I will not earn money.  I will revert to a scarcity mindset.  My job allows me to have an abundance mindset even though my lifestyle is severely limited.  I know where my money will be coming from and if I need more, all I have to do is show up and punch a clock. Its safe.  How much do I value my contribution.  I know I am contributing to a team effort but the work is not fulfilling.  I know I can do more and be more.  Fear holds me back.  It keeps me from taking the leap.  Even though I know leaping is the only way forward.  Jumping with both feet is only way to learn how to fly.  

                           You’re only human.

Happy Fourth of July y'all! Now go out there and blow some shit up! Diligent Dance: July 2010 Mixtape