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I think, they're just tired. It's the lack of choice, I guess. When you don't have a choice to stop, to quit whenever you want, it makes life you living feel like a chore, like "waiting for a life" instead of actual life.

Yes - but Hunter Husbands (named such because I have temporarily forgotten their names, whoops!) AND Sam and Dean DO HAVE A CHOICE, they could quit being hunters AT ANY TIME (...okay this is perhaps less true for Sam and Dean atm who are in the middle of a thing, but before this Darkness business... and after the apocalypse :p), they just needed/need to realise that, to LET GO of the emotional baggage making them feel obligated to be hunters...

That’s what I’m longing for with Sam and Dean the most overall really - for them to, you know, OWN their actions, to realise that they HAVE A CHOICE and HAVE BEEN FREELY CHOOSING their actions (and thus are responsible for those actions’ consequences) for a long time now (eg. Sam drinking demon blood, everyone’s deals, Dean taking on the Mark, Dean agreeing to let Sam be possessed, Sam curing the Mark). 

They are NOT TRAPPED in their current life because of outside forces preventing them from stopping/quitting/acting differently, they are TRAPPING THEMSELVES through their own choices*, so if their life feels like a chore or not actually living then THEY ARE THE ONES WITH THE POWER TO CHANGE THAT, they don’t have to wait until a specific task is completed (like Hunter Husbands did) or whatever, they can change things NOW (or... well... they could if it wasn’t for this Darkness business getting in the way... another reason the plot is kinda bugging me, since it distracts from the emotional development of the boys... although if you take their battle with the Darkness as a metaphor for them dealing with their inner darkness/issues then it kinda works I suppose)

*albeit choices that a made because of various emotional/psychological issues created by various traumas experienced since childhood ofc - which you CAN argue IS something of an external force at work on them, but... at the same time, it is THEIR OWN emotions/psychology, so it is not outside their control in the same way say Heaven and Hell’s manipulation of the boys in the lead up to the apocalypse was... like, it’s something they CAN work on dealing with if they chose to, but as I see it they never... quite... do... hence my frustration! like if they were TRYING to deal with their emotional/psychological issues and struggling I would have all the sympathy (and there have been moments when I’ve felt that was happening and I HAVE sympathised), but often it feels to me like they are NOT trying but more frequently throwing in the towel and saying ‘I can’t act any other way this is just how it is / who I am, oh woe is me’ and....rah!

It was Mark 9:49

If you block a blog, you block only that blog. It doesn’t affect other blogs the user may have. If you block IP, it blocks all blogs on that IP and anonymous messages from it.

All right cool. There’s a blog I don’t want to see reblogged posts from because I find its content incredibly annoying, but I’m pretty sure it’s someone’s side blog and I don’t want to accidentally block some person from ever interacting with me at all.

4. what are some themes you love writing about?

Intense angsty lust :D I like writing bits of humorous daily interactions too, especially twisted/morbid humor or situational ones. My stories often turn out epic length rebellion and freedom fight stories. I like to weave criticism of the system into unusual romance.

8 I already answered :)

9. a passage from a WIP

LOL it doesn’t really have more than a passage so here you go:

“Angeal had to find all their the advanced technology of VR fight simulations left out the gruesome details of the stench of fresh blood, fear-soaked sweat and urine that battle against humans was.

He would rather fight monsters any day. Running into a nice, full sized Behemoth would be preferable than this endless cycle of taking the front line, cutting down the enemy, (enemy; his mind whispered with emphasis), making sure the ones following after you survive.”

Glad to have you! Is there any side note you’d like to help explain the folk tales project? Right now I have all three - and your Tumblr - noted under “writers” on the side bar, but I could put it under “fanblog” if you find that more accurate.