#ivetried

Time for your weekly appreciation postttt of Vee.

Around my 2nd year anniversary clean, I was given permission to get a cat after I got out of the psych ward for a suicide attempt. Within a week I was in the shelter to pick my kitty out, but when I opened the door to the cat room, this one immediately ran right over to me. After that it was a done deal, but among the other things that solidified it, I saw your paper work on the way home and saw you had been in 2 different shelters during the last 2 years. While I was fighting to stay clean and build a new, you patiently waiting at the shelter just to choose my crazy ass. And to this day I believe you were always meant to be my cat, and my path was always supposed to lead me to that shelter. You became my anchor that day, in so many ways to so many things.

We've been a few places since then, but you've always followed me like a little shadow room to room, no matter where we live. Swatting at people deceiving me against my back, the ones I've forgiven but not forgotten things of, youve swatted their asses too. I just didnt know of your abilities in time. And now I know, you are a good judge of character. So now, anyone else new to come in my life must pass the test of the cat and I will no go against her judgment.

-MVGr3y

Ive tried to be patient

Ive tried to be kind

Ive tried to be supportive

Ive tried to be there

Ive tried to talk

Ive tried to listen

But all i could do was listen

All i could do was sit there

In silence

Waiting for anything to happen

Waiting for you to say something

Or do anything

There’s only so much I could do

There’s only so much I could say

God knows Ive tried

He knows that i’ve died a bit down inside

God knows Ive tried

Ive failed trying

What is there next to try?

Lend me a sign

- Went to a game developer today and tested out a new game  - Plans are written down for improvements in the future