#ivegonecrazy

I think I was lost in my own thoughts that somewhere along the line, I kicked into auto pilot and ended up wondering the halls at the hospital. Only to end up at the room where Alec used to be in.

I won't deny it, he was on my mind along with the funeral. Yet, once I got to his old room, I got slapped in the face with a WTF moment. Also, the realization that all this time. Each time that I visited. Not once did I notice the stupid fish hook symbol on the machines next to his bed.

 When I got to his room I was simple mind blown. Then things got strange. I thought maybe I'd run into his nurse Alegre. I figured I could ask her a few questions about it and maybe she would be able to tell me or at the very least point me in the right direction. The nurse working there today told me that Alegre NO LONGER WORKS AT THE HOSPITAL. Like for real?! Is this all a fucking joke?!  So of course the nurse there also didn't know why she was gone or how to get a hold of her. My life is a movie/game so it could never be this easy.

Likely, I'm not brainless. I remembered she called me not that long ago. So I tried contacting her via the phone number that she used to message me regarding Alec on the day his parents decided to be done with him.

Well surprise surprise that phone number is out of service. I have no idea what to think now. How can someone just up and disappear. I joke about my life being a movie, but sometimes I legit think I'm Truman.

Haha I'm laughing so much as I write this, i legit think i might have gone insane lol. If nothing else just now I got to flex how expansive my movie selection is or just how deep my paranoia goes.

What really strikes me as odd is, that after all this time of never noticing or seeing this stupid symbol. Now its everywhere! Not literally, but you get it. It's just so mind altering.

Anyways...